Mello's POV:
Two years without a heart.
Two years of wondering if the love of his life hates him, or is even alive?
I miss him. Why can't Kira just die?
Mello slipped out his knife he aquired over a year ago.
The knife that had bitten deep within his leg so many times.
And that was the duty it served again.
The knife pulled through his flesh once more, the familiar agony mixed with relief pushed it's way through him.
He smiled a bitter smile.
He laid down his gun, over the wilted rose he had bought for Matt on the two birthday's he had missed.
The tattoo gotten one year had been joined by a second the next.
Under the simple 'Mail' he had enscribed 'My heart lies with you.'
He grimaced as the blood ran over the old tattoo's.
Matt's POV:
I am seventeen years old.
My name is Matt.
Technically it is Mail Jeevas.
My best friend is Linda.
The person I love with all my heart is gone.
I am currently in my bed. The bed next to mine is empty.
I hadn't changed the sheets since he left.
They didn't smell or anything.
They were clean anyway.
His desk stayed untouched.
My game boy Linda gave me a year ago was forever at my side.
And I had 58 cuts upon my left arm.
Linda had 59.
She cut herself once on her own.
I didn't add hers to my arm.
No, I added hers across my stomach.
In all, I had 59 as well.
-X-
On Mello's second birthday away from me, I had his name tattooed over my heart.
His real name.
Miheal Keehl.
I smiled at it. I also didn't eat that whole day and left a chocolate bar on his pillow.
I didn't go to classes that day.
I thought of our first kiss.
Flashback, Matt's POV:
"Hey Mello!" I called, from the door to our room.
I was wearing shorts.
Well, old jeans cut off just below my knee.
He smiled and put down his pen.
"What do you want, doofus?"
"Come outside with me?"
"I would never turn down that offer."
He followed me outside, and I looked at the sky.
It looked nice. I subconciously wandered over to the tree I fell in love with Mello under.
Mello followed. "What are you thinking about?" He asked, and I, not exactly aware of what I was saying, mumbled out "The day I fell in love with you under this tree. When we had first shared a room, and I was upset because I didn't want to not have a family. You followed me out and said 'Why are you crying, googles? I only wanted to know which bed you wanted.' I smiled and thought 'I have a family.'"
I blushed realizing what I just said. That was six years ago, now I was twelve.
He smiled and leaned in, pushing his lips to mine.
End Flashback, Matt's POV:
I smiled at the memory and than sighed.
I thought back to the time when he had a nightmare.
And the first time I saw him cry.
Flashback, Matt's POV:
I was up late playing on my Gameboy. The old one, that my mom had given me.
Mello twitched in his sleep. Being a weird little thirteen year old, I didn't know why.
I waited and he whimpered. I decided he was scared.
I crept over and ran my fingers down his cheek. He whined in his sleep and I pulled him into my arms and kissed his cheek.
"I'm here, sh, I'm here babe." I whispered in his ear, running my fingers through his hair.
His eyes opened slowly, and tears threatned the corners.
I smiled and nuzzled into his neck, my arm around his waist.
He clung too my neck and buried his face in my shoulder. I patted his back and rubbed circles into it. He sobbed. After a few minutes like this he hiccuped and calmed down. "What's wrong?" I asked.
"I... I had a ni-ight-tma-are." I pulled his chin up and pressed my lips to his.
End Flashback, Matt's POV:
I smiled at the memories and stroked his pillow.
I leant over and cried. I must have fallen asleep on my knees next to my pillow, because I found a blanket around me and Linda's hand pushing through my hair caringly. She smiled at me, and I leaned into her.
She leaned down and kissed my head, and rubbed my back. We stayed like this for a while, me cradled in her arms like a little kid, sobbing, her caringly and comfortingly stroking my head. She kissed my forehead and said "Hey, Mattie, I brought you dinner. Are yah hungry?"
And pointed to a bowl of soup.
"Not eating today. Mels birthday." I said, and she nodded. She helped me stand up and I sat down on m bed. I lay back, thoughts swirling through my mind too fast to comprehend.
Linda crawled in next to me and my arm snuck its way around her waist, my face in her shoulder. I fell asleep like this.
Mello's POV:
I missed Matt.
Why did I have to leave? I didn't care about Near anymore.
I wish I had stayed.
My second birthday away from him. It was any other day, but had memories attached.
I didn't want to think about them.
-X-
I had everything one would ever want, but I wanted nothing more than Matt.
I was rich and rather notorious.
I thought about my past anyway,
Flashback, Mello's POV:
I stared at my page. I couldn't take it.
I stood up and grabbed Matt's wrist away from his gameboy.
He complained, but as soon as my lips found their way to his, he didn't care about the game anymore. He stood up and wrapped his arms around my hips
I grinned and pushed him onto his bed, my legs over his stomach, stradling it. I leaned down to kiss him again, then pulled away. He whined, but I tugged his shirt off.
He complied, and I kissed his neck.
My shirt ended up on the floor.
His hands ran up and down my back and through my hair.
I moaned softly into his collar bone, and he purred at the feeling. My lips moved lower and I licked a nipple as my hand tugged at the other one.
I smiled as he moaned.
His fingers tugged and rubbed at my nipples, and I groaned into his chest.
I sighed and nuzzled into his neck.
I was just content to lay there for the rest of my life.
I fell smiled, my stress forgotten.
He whined at the sudden ending. I wanted our first time to be more special though.
End Flashback, Mello's POV
Look how staying there forever turned out.
Damn kira.
[A/N] How was it? Second chapter up today ^^;
I didn't want to do a sex scene because of the rating.
I might change that if you guys want something more in depth.
I'm thinking about ruining Matt's life.
Should I?
*revised it but kept my AN*