Castiel in Pieces

Dean pulled over baby so fast the tires slid on the gravel beneath her tires. He jerked the car into park and climbed out of the car before Sam even got his seat belt undone. He rushed to the passenger side and jerked open the door. He looked at Jack who looked panic stricken; he's hands on Cas's shoulders.

Tear stricken Jack cried to Dean. "I don't know what happened."

Dean didn't respond. Yes of course he was worried about Cas but he had to be an adult for the moment. Sam was at his side, "Help me get him out Sammy." The two of them undid Cas's seatbelt and eased him out of the car. Dean didn't know if the other man was breathing or not. What if he had died on them? He frowned now wasn't the time to be negative he had to help his boyfriend out.

"Dean." Cas cried weakly

He looked at the other man. He was so pale now, an expression Dean had never seen before was on his face. "Cas you alright?"

The angel shook his head. "I don't think so," He started

Jack was beside them. "Is he okay?"

Sam put his arm around the young man to comfort him.

"I'm in so much pain." Cas cried. He opened his eyes.

Dean was shocked to see how red the other man's eyes were. "Cas," He reached out and laid his hand on his arm.

Tears started to follow down Cas's face. "I can't think, it hurts everything is invading my brain." He cried

Dean pulled the angel close to him. "Shhh Cas shhh."

Cas buried his head on Dean's chest and clung to him tightly.

"What exactly happened?" Sam asked. He let go of Jack and knelt down to Cas. He rested his hand on the other man's back in an attempt to ease his pain.

Cas lifted his head slightly off of Dean's chest. "I think… I think when Jack healed me, it returned me memories I lost when Naomi was in my head."

"Someone took you're memories?" Sam asked

Dean pulled Cas closer to him. "We'll talk about it later Sammy." Dean had forgotten that they had never told Sam about it. Dean frown bitterly as he felt his boyfriend shutter in his arms. It took Cas a long time to even tell him about Naomi messing with his head. Dean had suspicions that Cas was embarrassed by the fact he had his mind messed with.

"I did this?" Jack asked. Fear was in his voice.

"Jack," Sam started

Then there was the sound of wings fluttering and Jack vanished in front of them.

"Jack!" Sam shouted. He looked at Dean. "Should we go after him?"

Dean shook his head. "No let's deal with Cas first." He could feel his shirt getting wet and a little sticky. He frowned for a minute there was something wrong here. He pushed Cas off his chest and the angel looked at him in confusion. Dean beheld the horror, he couldn't contain his gasp. Blood was running down Cas's face like red tears. "Cas you're eyes they're bleeding."

Cas raised a shaky hand to his face and touched his cheek. "Must be from…" He stared at the blood on his hand then looked at Dean. "Oh I ruined your shirt." He mumbled

"He's ears are bleeding too!" Sam raised his voice in panic. "Jack!" He shouted

Dean shook his head. "Let's call Gabriel." Dean figured the archangel could heal Cas. He pulled his angel close to his chest again.

Sam nodded. "Okay, okay." He closed his eyes and began to pray. "Gabriel, Gabe we need your help. There's something wrong with Cas man and we don't know what to do. Jack tried to heal him and,"

There was a whoosh and there was Gabriel. "Hello dum-dums." He said with a grin. He was wearing a robe, he's hair was a mess and he had lip stick stains on his neck.

"The hell man you couldn't be bothered to put on clothes?" Dean demanded.

Gabriel shrugged. "Look man I was enjoying my time with Rowena," He winked. "Then you called and it sounded serious." He walked over to Cas. "Let's see what we got."

Cas lifted his head off of Dean's chest. "Sorry Gabe." He mumbled

Dean knew there was something seriously wrong by just the expression on Gabriel's face. "Dude," He started

Gabriel almost pushed Dean away from Cas. "Holy crap." He grabbed Cas's face and looked at him.

Dean knew that angels as could as Cas had told him 'see deeper' into a person or an object. Sometimes viewing things on molecular level, which Dean always thought was creepy.

"Oh man, oh man, kid really messed you up." Gabriel laid his hand on Cas's forehead. "Yeah, yeah this isn't good."

"What is it?" Dean asked.

"Kid broke the dam so to speak. He healed all the bad that Naomi did. He's mind is getting overwhelmed by all the new information."

Cas reached out and grabbed Dean's hand. "It hurts please." He pleaded

"Gabe can you fix him?" Dean asked. He pulled Cas closer to him and the angel buried his head in his chest again.

"Best I can do is ease his pain…" Gabriel laid his hand on Cas's forehead and Dean saw a bit of his grace go in. "I'm not strong enough to fix this…" He pulled his hand away. "If I can fix it… there might be a spell or something but…" He looked at Cas he's face sad and Dean really began to worry. "If we can't undo this… he could… guys he could actually die."

Cas looked up at him. "Die?"

Gabriel frowned. "If you're mind becomes to overwhelmed you won't be able to function."

"So we either fix it or Cas could freaking die from some random old memories!" Dean shouted.

"Dean," Cas started. He's tone soft but Dean was still pissed

"No I mean there's some pretty heavy stuff in there. Our brains are not designed to remember stuff suddenly, not humans, not angels." Said Gabriel, he patted Cas on the back. "I've never seen this before. The only thing I can think to do is take him to Naomi."

Cas shook his head. "No, no I don't want her anywhere near my brain. Not ever, she might brainwash me again."

Dean narrowed his eyes at Gabriel. "I'm with Cas I don't want her anywhere near his head."

Gabriel nodded. "Fair enough."

"Maybe there is something in the lore." Sam suggested. "Or maybe Gabe is right maybe there is a spell."

"Let's try the spell." Cas suggested. He moved away from Dean.

Dean's body missed the warmth of Cas's. He looked at Gabriel. "Get Rowena please."

Gabriel nodded. "Okay, I'll go get her and meet you at the bunker." And with that the archangel vanished.

Dean and Sam helped Cas up and into the car.

"What about Jack?" Sam asked

"He'll come back; he just needs time to cool off." Dean said as he got in the car.

They made it back to the bunker. They walked into the war room and Rowena and Gabriel were there waiting for them.

"Well, well here I thought I was going to have a nice date and some Winchester needs my help." Rowena said with a smug smile. She looked at Cas and frowned. "My stars, poor wee little angel you could have cleaned him up before you brought him, he looks awful."

Dean rolled his eyes even though he knew Rowena was right. Cas leaned on him heavy and Dean had to keep adjusting to keep him up. "Didn't have anything to clean him with." He mumbled.

She narrowed her small eyes and shook her head. She pointed at Dean. "Bad boyfriend, you should treat you're angel better." She held out a wet rag. "I got that ready when Gabriel told me."

Dean eased Cas into a chair. He took the rag and turned to Cas. "Hold still." He said softly. He gently rubbed the blood off of Cas's face. He smiled to himself as Cas looked up at him his big blue eyes were full of love and appreciation.

"Do you know a spell that might help?" Sam asked

"Of course dear." Rowena said. She walked over to Cas. "Now Cas dear…" She looked up at them her face was serious. "I am going to be honest boys… there's a small chance that this will not work."

"Not work how?" Dean asked. He felt Cas rest his hand on his. The angel was trying to reassure him Dean knew this. He took his hand and gave it a small squeeze

"Well," She cleared her throat. "This spell is supposed to block bits of your mind. We want it to block the bad ones until we find a way to fix you but there's a chance that it can block all of them, or most of them."

"So you're saying there's a chance I can forget everything?" Cas asked. He's hand tightened on Dean's. "And everyone."

She nodded. "Yes dearie, you can forget me," She pointed at Gabriel. "You're brother and… the Winchesters and Jack."

Cas frowned and looked into Dean's eyes. "What should I do?"

"It's up to you Cas." Dean took his hands up to his face and kissed them. "Either way I'll support you."

"You can always go to heaven and see if Naomi can fix it." Gabriel said with a shrug.

Cas shook his head. "No, no, I don't trust her not to do something to me." He sighed. "I'm leery of her. Every time I trust someone then it goes wrong." He looked at Dean. "If you trust the witch then I'll let Rowena cast the spell."

Dean frowned. It was a decision he didn't want to make. "Cas…" He kissed his hands again. "Your life is in danger I… I'd rather you not die I kind of love you, you know."

Cas nodded. "Rowena I'll take the risk."

"Okay. I'll get started then." She walked over to the table and started mixing stuff in a bowl.

"Cas are you sure about this?" Dean asked

His boyfriend nodded. "Yes Dean, I would hate to forget you all but it's a risk I am willing to take."

"Well if it goes wrong I hope we can undo it." Dean grumbled

"Aye don't worry." Rowena said as she sprinkled in something into the bowl. "Unlike most spells this one wears off. It will just take some time."

"And by then I should have enough grace to cure this… if I can." Gabriel said

Dean frowned he didn't like this whole plan going on maybes and hopes. He felt someone pull on his arm and he turned to Cas.

"Please don't blame Jack. It's not his fault he's… he's just stronger than us he didn't mean to." Cas said.

Dean nodded. "I won't blame Jack I promise."

"It's ready." Rowena announced

Cas pulled Dean to him and gave him a quick kiss. "I love you okay."

"Don't talk like you're dying Cas." Dean said.

Cas patted his face and gave him a sad smile. "Sam," He looked at the taller Winchester. "Take care of Jack and Dean for me." He looked to Rowena. "I'm ready."

She lifted up the bowl and said some words. A strange purple light came from the bowl and wrapped around her hands. She pointed at Cas the purple light surrounded him. His body stiffened up and his head flopped down, chin touching his chest.

"Cas!" Dean shouted he went to move forward and Sam grabbed him.

"Don't Dean."

The purple light vanished and Cas raised his head off. His eyes held a blank stare as he looked forward unblinking, unnatural expression on his face. The angel looked around the room face remaining unchanged. He spoke in Enochian and Dean frowned he knew a few words in the language but not what he said. He was also worried that the angel wasn't speaking English. He frowned further when Gabriel stepped forward and spoke to Cas in Enochian. Did Cas forget English? He's thoughts snapped when he heard:

"I am Castiel."

Dean blinked when he heard Cas's gravelly voice. There was something off about his speaking like he was testing out his tongue and wasn't sure how to form words.

Gabriel bore a face of pure shock. "Guys," He started

"What's wrong with him? Why is he speaking Enochian?" Sam asked voicing Dean's thoughts.

Gabriel shook his head and Cas was staring at him his head titled slightly which made Dean think of a child. "The bad scenario happened."

"He forgot everything!" Dean gasped. He's heart was pounding in his chest. Castiel the love of his life forgot everything.

The archangel frowned. "It's… a reset. He didn't just forget a few things he forgot everything."

Cas looked around the room. "Brother," Dean flinched at Cas's deliberate tone. "Where are the other angels?" He stared at Dean then at Sam. "Why are we with humans?"

"They are… you're family." Gabriel said. Cas titled his head and Gabriel spoke in Enochian and Dean assumed he was repeating the same statement.

"Family?" Cas looked at them again and tilted his head. "I do not know these humans. Are we on a mission?"

Gabriel bit his lip. "Oh man, no Cas we are not on a mission."

The angel frowned. "Cas? My name is Castiel." He stood up from the chair and looked around. "This place is warded. Are we hostages?"

Dean felt he's heart break. He wanted to scream and cry and shoot something. He felt Sam grab his arm.

"It'll be okay. At least we know he is not dying now." Sam said. He pulled in his brother for a hug.

"Well that bloody went well." Rowena said sighing loudly

Cas looked at her. "A witch?"

"Yeah but she's our friend." Sam said with a smile. He's voice was tender like he was speaking to a child and it angered Dean. Cas was a grown man not a baby. Or was he?

About that time there was a whoosh sound and Jack reappeared. "Sorry I just. I needed some air." He had his arms wrapped around himself tightly and his hair was in his eyes.

Dean made a mental note to work on healthy coping mechanisms with the boy sometime in the future. "Jack," He went to tell him what happened when suddenly Cas stepped forward angel blade in hand.

"No don't!" Both Sam and Gabriel shouted. Rowena screamed and shrank back against the book shelf.

Cas grabbed Jack by his jacket. The young man's eyes were wide with fear. "Nephilim! Brother there is a Nephilim!"

"Castiel I'm sorry I didn't mean to, please don't hurt me!" Jack yelped as he tried to get away from him.

Gabriel pulled Cas's arm off of Jack enough for Jack to get away. The Nephilim hide behind Dean. He was panic stricken and fearful. Dean put and assured arm around him.

"Castiel no don't he's your family!" Gabriel shouted as he grabbed Cas by both arms

Cas looked at him his expression was pure confusion. "He's family? Are we not on a mission to kill the Nephilim? They are abominations."

Dean felt Jack tighten his grip on the word abomination. "He's your son!" Dean shouted and laid a protective hand on Jack

Cas frowned. "I fathered a Nephilim? I am a shame to my own kind."

Jack let out a small cry. "I am sorry father I didn't mean to anger you."

Dean patted him on the head. "Sammy take Jack and tell him what happened."

Sam nodded and took Jack to another room.

"You didn't father the Nephilim." Gabriel corrected. "You adopted him, he's mother trusted you to take care of him."

Cas frowned. "I adopted a Nephilim."

"Can we do anything for him?" Dean asked

"I can undo the spell but then that leaves us with the same problem we had before." Rowena said

"So our choices are still dead Cas, or a Cas who doesn't know us?" Dean asked. He's heart hurt even more. Either way he lost Cas he's Cas. He crossed his arms and frowned. Here he thought they were winning and now they were losing. Why was life so unfair to them? He looked at Cas and missed his Cas more than anything now. "Son of a bitch." He mumbled under his breath. Life was so unfair.