A/N: I am so very very very sorry for the delay. I have just been blah lately and have not so much been in the mood to write. I hope that there are still people wanting to read this. The updates will still be on the slow side until I can get some things sorted. I know where this is going, I am just trying to figure out the length cause I don't want it to short or to long.

I am needing to get a beta and am currently without one so if you just ignore any mistakes that may be here and stick with me I promise not to let the go.

Enjoy

BPOV

Edward was still gone, I hadn't seen him since he followed the doctor out into the hall to talk about me.

This was bad.

I knew Edward, I knew what he was doing, he refused to show any sort of emotional breakdown with me near. He wanted to remain strong for me, be the man, the protector. I knew it was killing him inside to not be able to fix this. But he was doing more damage bottling it all up.

Whatever the doctor said to him must have been bad; he had never stayed away from me this long. Since I had been in the hospital he put off everything, work, friends, and even Ellie leaving her in the care of Emmett and Rose.

Now he has to be somewhere trying to calm himself down and put on that perfect "Everything is going to be fine" mask he's worn since I was diagnosed.

That horribly fake smile that I hardly noticed because no matter what he tried he couldn't change his eyes. His eyes told me everything about him, they always had and in his eyes read fear and pain.

I laid in the bed waiting for him to come back, calling him in my mind to please just come back and tell me what it is we have to face this time. We would face it together, we would get through this.

It had to be the time left, the doctor must have told him how much time left I had to live. It didn't matter, anything he was going to say was not going to be enough.

Surely though it was a year, months at least.

At least it was enough time to get my affairs in order, spend sometime with my friends and family. Soak up every ounce of my daughter I could.

Maybe I could make some videos, write some letters for her to open on special days.

Her birthdays, her wedding, the day she became a mother.

Something that lets her know that I am proud of her and that if I could I would have been there I would have.

That I would always be with her no matter what

Surely there was enough time for that.

When the doctor or Edward came back in I would find out when I was allowed to leave the hospital. I didn't want to waste another minute here.

I had so many things to do.

I needed to make sure everyone I was leaving behind knew how much I loved them and that it would be okay, things were going to work out and life was going to go on and I needed them to make sure to help Ellie and Edward through this.

I was staring lazily out the window near my bed, I could see the buildings in the distance, the sun high in the sky and life going on, even though in here, it was slowly ending.

I heard the door click and turned my head to see Edward in the doorway.

I could tell that he was fighting against every muscle in his beautiful face to keep the smile on.

He was failing miserable.

I could see it in his eyes; it was bad.

I took a deep breath and I to forced my muscles in my face into a pained smile.

"How long?" I asked already knowing that however he answered, the time wasn't going to be anywhere near enough.

I could see the tears well up in his eyes and his chin tremble as he took a step forward and took hold of my hand.

"I… I've gotten a hold of everyone, they're on their way now." The tears started to fall from his eyes.

My chest tightened at what that meant.

"How long?"

"I need to know when you want me to bring Ellie, she misses you, she wants to see you." He said, ignoring my question.

"Edward, how long?" I looked him in the eyes.

"Nothing is for certain Bella, this is just to get everyone here, they've all been so worried and they want to see you."

He was lying.

"How long." I was gasping for breath but I needed to hear it from him.

His hand squeezed mine and he started to sob, and I knew it was even sooner then I thought.

He leaned forward burying his tears soaked face in my neck.

I asked one more time

"How… How long?" My strength to hold back emotion had failed and I was now crying.

His hot breath was on my neck as he pulled me closer running his hands gently through my hair, tilting his head up towards my head.

"Soon…. It's going to be soon."

And then I completely broke down.

Four years

I had been in college for four years now. Four long stressed filled years of papers, and mid-terms and professors who I sometimes wanted to strangle.

But it had also been four years of making the best friends that I would ever have in my life.

To meeting the man of my dreams and being head over heels in love.

Edward and I were now living together in an apartment had been for the past two years. Alice and Jasper had too moved in as a couple along with Emmett and Rose.

Each weekend we made sure to have little dinner parties between the six of us. A different couple hosted it every week.

We did this as a way to keep our friendships strong and keep close. Emmett and Rose had graduated last year both Rose worked at a local advertising agency, while Emmett worked at the local parks and recs helping coach kids sports teams.

Jasper too had graduated but was back for his masters in History

Edward was also finished with a degree in musical composition, but he was back taking some more classes in order to have something to fall back on. He was at the moment a music teacher at a private school on the other end of town.

Alice and I being a year behind them still had time to go. Alice would be graduating this year with a degree in fashion and I would be out next year with my teaching degree.

All was well and we were one big happy family

Alice and I had just finished our classes for the day and were walking to the parking lot in order to get home. It was Edward and I turn to host the dinner party and I had to run to the grocery store to pick up things and then get home and get to work preparing a meal for 6 hungry people.

Alice and I chatted on our way to our cars and then said a hurried goodbye as we headed in different directions.

"I'll see you later tonight Bella. Don't forget Jasper and I are brining the wine tonight." She said before kissing my on the cheek and dancing off to her car.

I felt like I had grown up so fast, everything passed in a blur. I was like a real adult now, living with the man that I loved, hosting dinner parties with my close friends. Parties in which people brought wine.

When did all this happen, when did I become an adult?

It was odd.

The last four years seemed like a distant memory. A good memory of course for Edward was a constant fixture in ever single one of them over the passed years.

I thought things like this were only things that happened in Disney movies or in the pages of a novel. Never in my life did I expect to actually meet my prince charming; my one and only.

We both were so compatible with one another, the same music and movie taste, the same ambitions to be a teacher. We both loved kids and one day hoped to have a whole house full. We would grow old together and sit on a porch swing watching our grand children running around the yard when we were old and grey.

We would always be in love.

I made it home and Edward had already started preparing dinner, with a kiss and a swat on my butt he sent me off to get ready for our guest while he continued to take care of the food.

I took my time in the shower, allowing the warm water to relax me and then I hopped out and toweled off. I dressed in my comfortable clothes and headed out to see if Edward needed any help.

His back was facing me when I walked into the kitchen and I wrapped my arms around his waist, leaning up on my tippy toes to kiss his neck.

"How was your day?" I asked as I rested my cheek on his back.

"It was good, the kids seem to actually like the music I am introducing them to. Who would have thought it possible in this day to get kids to like classical music."

"Well Mr. Cullen, you are very persuasive." I said giving his waist a squeeze.

"Oh am I know." he said turning around to face me. A smug mischievous grin playing on his lips.

"mmhmmm."

"We will have to see how persuasive I can be once our friends leave."

I gave a little laugh and leaned closer to him, almost touching his lips.

"I don't know if you have noticed but I am easily persuaded by you."

I placed a light kiss on his lips and turned to check the chicken cooking in the oven.

" You are such a tease sometimes Bella."

I laughed to myself at his comment and then there was a knock at the door and I ran off to get it.

Once everyone was here we sat down to our meal and it went as usual, talks of work and life. Joking about random things, memories of the old party days.

I was so happy to have this group of people in my life.

Edward excused himself to the bathroom, while the girls and I got dessert ready.

Dessert was served and devoured and the dishes done, we said goodbye to our friends and made plans to hang out again tomorrow.

Edward and I locked up and headed back to the bedroom to get ready for bed, our normal "old married couple'' routine.

I noticed the bedroom door was closed and there was a faint light coming from underneath. Edward walked behind me and I slowly pushed the door opened.

To say I was shocked at the sight before me was an understatement.

The room was glowing in light from what seemed like a hundred candles, there was a bouqet of my favorite flowers placed in the middle of the bed.

I turned to Edward, a smile was playing on his lips his eyes were glowing with something I couldn't quite read.

"Edward, what's all this." I asked looking at him

"Something I have planned on doing since the first time I met you."

He took a hold of my hand and placed a sweet loving kiss on my lips as he led me to the bed sitting me on the edge.

" Bella, from the moment we met, the moment our eyes locked I knew that I had to be a part of your life. That first day at the dorms when I met you, I don't know how to explain it but I saw a entire life play out before me. A home, a life and a family. A love I never thought possible. Every minute we have spent together in these four years has been even better then I ever imagined it would be."

He lowered himself to he's knees in front of me and my heart went into overdrive and I felt warm tears slide down my cheeks at the words he spoke.

" I think that I have loved you from the moment I saw you. And I know how cliché that sounds but it's true. You make me beyond happy Bella, and I was wondering if you would like to make it official. If you would like to continue to make me the happiest man alive for the rest of our lives. Bella, would you do me the honor of being my wife?"

From his back pocket he pulled out a small box and placed it in my hands.

"I want us to grow old and grey together, to have little mini Bella's and Edwards running around. I can't picture a world where you are not part of me."

He opened the box which held a beautiful cushion cut diamond engagement ring and waited for my answer.

I looked at him through blurred vision and nodded my head.

"Of course I want to spend forever with you Edward." I said in a sob and threw myself at him, knocking him to the ground.

He laughed, pulling me closer to him as I ripped the ring out of the box and placed it on my finger.

" I'm going to be Mrs. Edward Cullen." I said in between kissing him

"In mind you have always been just that."

"Will we always be this happy?" I asked running my fingers through his hair as I looked him in the eyes.

"Yes, because we were meant to be together Bella."

"And you will love me when I am old and wrinkly?"

"Yes, just as you will love me."

We spent the night in euphoria of the idea of being married, being together for the rest of our lives.

Edward was right, we would be together forever.