A.N.

Again, I finished way too early. Wrote this chapter in like 5 hours, it was terrible and I'm super tired, lol.

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Jacobs Pov.

Alpha…

They wanted me as alpha? They wanted me to be the leader of their pack? Me? Alpha? Of 12 other werewolves?

They were probably doing drugs now, since I left.

But could it be me? I mean, being alpha of these guys, well… Three guys and Leah, was pretty fine, but to be alpha of 17 wolves… It's a huge deal, you know. All decisions and patrol schedules were going to be made by me. Each time one of them mess up, it's my responsibility to save them. It was my job to protect them. And believe me, it's not that I didn't want to, they were all my blood and family, but that was exactly my biggest worry. What if I couldn't protect them? What if I wasn't able to be their 'guardian angel'? Imagine another Newborn- or Volturi-fight and someone gets hurt or even worse, gets killed, how was I ever going to look in the eyes of their family and tell them it was my fault? Paul, Jared and Sam would be alright, they know what they are doing, but the newbies? I can't be their dad and trainer all the time, right? Sam finished school and is practically married, this job was just perfect for him, but for me? How did they expect me to protect these boys – and Leah-, their imprints, the tribe, La Push, let's not forget I've got my own imprint and her family to 'protect' as well, let's not even mention I still haven't finished school and actually get some sleep too? Was it even possible? My birthday was in 2 weeks, so I would turn 17 then, but still I was concerned that if I did claim the position, I would fail terribly. Guys of my age would go out, have fun, get drunk every night and wouldn't have a care in the world. So why was it that everything now would be in my hands? What if I just can't? But what if I do succeed in being Alpha? I'm going out of my mind!

Obviously, the negative things about it were increasing and I couldn't even find a reason why I should do it, but this time, I do want to step up and be a man, even though I had 4 years left to actually 'be a man'. God, this was terrible. A thousand thoughts and questions were racing trough my head and it actually felt like my brain would swell up and explode right there. My thumb wouldn't even have a nail by tonight, since I was biting on it nervously, being the anxious teenage boy I was. The room was so quiet, that you could hear every little thing that was going on. I hear Sams foot tapping the ground impatiently, my sister scratching her upper arm softly, the clock ticking loudly, Paul who was cracking his fingers madly, Emilys heart that was beating uncontrollably and even Leah rolling her eyes annoyingly. I was biting my lip so hard, the taste of blood was already filling my mouth. What should I do? It seems that neither saying yes nor turning down the offer would be the right thing.

But I knew, what deep inside I wanted to do, and it was worth taking the risk.

Leahs fingers poked my leg a few times, making me realize I haven't said a single word since Sams had spoken.

"Maybe you should answer them, Jake." She whispered so softly only I could hear it.

"Okay… I'll do it." I announced certain. "Under one condition. I won't be alpha, if even one of you guys doesn't want me to be. I know a lot of you are still holding grudges for protecting the Cullens back then, and if someone has a problem with that, than I think it's not up to me to be your leader."

As I was saying this, I stood up to pace around the room.

"So, I just wanted to make that clear…"

A second past by when Leah stood up as well, to stand behind me.

"I'll follow you, the position was yours in first place, so let's not change the rules." She said while she looked at Sam provocatively.

Seth, Embry and Quil followed her fast.

"We'll follow you too."

Collin was the first of the other pack that walked over to me, shaking my hand. I have to admit, I had expected him too, he is my cousin after all. It would've been weird if he chose Sam now again. Speaking of Sam, he took the lead now and crossed the room to stand with us, giving me a small nod to let me know he was sure about this. When the others saw that their current alpha was really surrendering for the first time, they had no other choice than to copy his action. All of them changed sides, smiling at me weakly when they did, all of them apart from Paul. No surprise.

Paul just crossed his arms, lifted his chin, narrowed his eyes and looked at me.

"Paul…" Sam said with a warning voice, but Paul didn't even flinch.

"Paul, let's go outside for a second?" Rachel asked while she rolled her eyes, before storming out the house with her boyfriend on her heels.

Rachels Pov

I pushed the backdoor open with such force, it bounced back causing it to shut again right in Pauls face. My hands gripped my hair tightly before I started to rub my face, I can't believe he was really doing this. After having this conversation 14 times, you would expect him to be cool and just listen to his smart girlfriend, but no. A Lahote wouldn't be a Lahote if it didn't sat down in the corner, mocking until he gets what he wants. I love Paul, I truly do, but this attitude of him is really startng to get on my nerves and sometimes I even understood why Leah just wanted to rip his head off.

Behind me, I could hear Pauls footsteps coming closer and before I knew it his hands were on my shoulders. I shook them off instantly, turning around to glare at him, the poor thing really thought I would be that easy this time.

"Hey, come on, don't be mad at me, sweety. You know I can't help it." He soothed, before cupping my face. My hands flew to his, grabbing them and pushing him away from me as hard as I could. Impressed by myself, I was able to push him away one inch.

"Don't touch me. Not now." I warned him while turning around and continuing my walk.

"Rach, please, don't do this." He begged as he was running to catch me up, stopping right in front of me so he could grab me by my shoulders again. "Don't be mad, you know I can't stand it. When will you realize that having two packs is better for all of us?" His warmth was already hitting my body and even though I was furious, I just wanted to close the distance and forget all of this.

"Are you being for real, Paul? Everyone apart from you is fine with Jacob being alpha. Every time you and him would fight, I would pick your side and save your ass. But this time I won't. You stayed over at our house almost every night, my dad treated you like his own son. How can you even be that heartless and only think of yourself? He's my little brother and I won't let him sleep in the woods any longer, protecting some creatures that are perfectly fine without him. He needs to come home and I'm gonna make sure he will." I was already yelling by now.

"First of all, I'm selfish? Sorry Rachel, I hope you know that the only reason why I'm trying to keep away Jacob from La Push is because I don't want you near those leeches. This all is because of you, so don't even dare to yell at me. Second of all, Jacob won't be sleeping in the woods, he could stay with Seth and Leah, I'm sure Sue won't mind. He's not even used to sleeping in his bed anymore."

I just stared at him in pure disbelief.

"Rach… He left you and your dad for them, I don't even get how you could possibly be fine with that?"

"Maybe, because I don't care what happened in the past. I'm glad he is here now, that's all that matters to me. Paul, I love him with every little part of my body, no matter what he does, he will always be my baby-brother. And I just want him around again. I've never asked you for a favor, never did I beg you to do something or got in trouble so you would need to save my life. Why is this so hard for you?"

Paul sighed and looked away, starting to rub his jaw. It went quiet for a minute before he looked at me with serious eyes.

"Rach, I love you. I won't be able to live with myself if something happened to you."

Feelings were definitely a taboo in our relationship. We barely talk about it, since we would show our love with all the fights and hook ups we had. He knew it way too well and now was I the one who was almost surrendering here, hearing him say he loves me. Damn him.

"Actions speak louder than words. If you love me, you go back and tell Jacob you want him to be alpha. If you don't… let's say I'll know how real this love of yours is." You're messing with the wrong Blacks, boy.

"Fine, I'll give you action."

As every other girl at that moment, you would expect him to go back and be best buddies with Jake again but nope, not with my boyfriend.

One of his hands grabbed me by the back of the head as the other got a grip on my hip and I already knew it would be bruised in the morning. He pressed his body hard against mine and planted a strong kiss on my lips.

'I am not that easy' is what I would normally say… actually, I say that all the time. But standing outside in the cold while snowflakes were falling from the black sky and only having his body to make me feel like we were on fire, I couldn't resist. I couldn't even make an attempt to resist him. That exactly, was what I loved about us. No matter how much we would argue or fight, we both were positive that it never-ever would ruin the bond we had. Paul and I have been together since July, and maybe it was too early to think about it but, I wasn't even afraid to say it out loud.

Paul would be the guy I was going to grow old with. Imprint or no imprint.

Bringing my hands up, I got a hold on his neck to pull his face down –even now, while I was standing on my tippy toes, he was way taller than I.

I opened my mouth to let his tongue in and shivered when I felt his brush against mine. He probably misunderstood this for being cold, so he wrapped his arm around my waist, pulling me of the ground. His other hand now, gripped my hair and pulled it back so he could take the lead now. We both needed each other so bad that the kissing almost became awkward. Our noses and teeth would constantly bump against one-another, but I didn't care. His scent, his body was all over me and I'd swear I was losing control right there and then. My stupid human lungs were giving up on me, so I would need to pull away way too soon for him. His teeth grazed over my chin until it reached my neck, biting on the skin there softly, leaving a little mark. My legs locked themselves around his waist at the same moment as his hand went under my shirt and grabbed my breast. My moan was so loud, I was sure that even my dad could've heard it. I grabbed his shoulders trying to press my body even harder against his, digging my nails into his backmuscles. Paul cupped my face again and waited for me to look at him and when I did, he leaned in and kissed me so soft and sweet, I forgot to breath.

He bumped his forehead against mine before he whispered with a kind voice.

"Don't ever doubt again that I love you, or next time I will have to finish our little make-out session. Go back inside, tell them I had nothing to say, just needed a little space and that I'll accept Jacob as my leader." He pressed another kiss on my lips and unfolded my legs so he'd put me back on the ground.

"Where are you going?" I asked worried.

"I don't know yet, I'll see you tomorrow." And he left.

I don't know how long I had been standing there, like a total retard watching the spot where he disappeared, I didn't even notice until my fingers were purple and my clothes were soaked from the snow that melted immediately on my warm body. Running my hand trough my hair I shook out the fresh snowflakes, which was stupid, considering my hair was already wet.

I forced my legs too walk back to the house and warm up, when I arrived, I noticed everybody had left. Well, apart from my dad of course.

"Where is everyone?"

"Assuming that you and Paul would be outside, doing whatever you were doing that I really don't need to know, they left. Sam was able to talk Jacob into being Alpha, so I hope that Paul calmed down?"

I shrugged my shoulders and answered nonchalantly, not wanting him to know that I was upset because he left.

"He just needed some air, that's all."

"Hm… You're alright hun?"

I wasn't able to answer. Of course, Paul and I argued before and it was nothing knew… But he had never left and a little voice deep inside me was telling me something about that was very odd.

Why did he leave?

"Rachel?"

"Yes, dad?" I looked up at him, scared that he had figured me out.

"Are you okay, you seem distant… and you're soaked which doesn't seem to bother you at all for the first time?" He was making fun of me. Yes, I am one of those girls that freak out when their hair gets wet by the rain. Really, really can't stand the feeling.

"Ha ha, I'm fine dad, nothing to worry about. Why don't you go and get some rest?" I suggested, since I knew that even looking at all those wolves in our small house was tiring.

"Yeah, I was planning on doing that. You, go get a shower when Jake and Leah are done, you'll be sick tomorrow."

"Yes, yes… Wait what? Did you just say Jake AND Leah?" I stared at my father in shock.

"Ah, yeah, he wanted to take a shower and Leah murmured something about interrupting it as payback, so they went in together."

"Erm… that's cute. Weird, but cute… I guess? Maybe Jacob found his first girlfriend?"

"Rachel, don't say that, you know he imprinted."

"Oh what dad, you honestly think he's gonna end up with Bella Swans daughter?"

"Rachel…"

"I'm just saying, in my opinion, they don't belong together. Jacob is the female in the relationship, you can't have 2 females. He needs a girl like Leah, I'd rather have her as sister-in-law, than his little 'Nessie'."

"Well, learn to live with it, 'cause you're not gonna change anything about that."

"Oh you think so? We'll see daddy, you know I always get what I want." I winked at him, and he rolled his eyes at me in response.

"Don't do anything you will regret. It's Jacobs choice who he will date and who not, so that's none of your business."

"I am his older sister, he should listen to my advice."

"Sure sure, stop playing Cupid, you stupid."

"Thanks for your support dad, really appreciating the love I'm receiving."

"Hm, bet you do. Goodnight, sweety."

"Night, dad." He rolled himself to his bedroom and I waited for the sound of him shutting the door before yelling to Jacob and Leah to get out the bathroom

Leahs Pov.

Rachel stormed out with Paul and there was one word to describe the situation… Awkward.

We haven't been 'hanging out' with each other for so long, you might think we have some subjects to talk about but no, just silence. We would all look at each other for a second and look away again. Sam, the jackass, needed to ruin our special moment.

"He confirmed multiple times that he accepts you now, Jacob, don't change your mind because of him."

"Yeah, he'll turn around." Jared added awkwardly. "Anyways… I wanted to see Kim tonight, before she falls asleep, so I'll be going now. Good to have you back, Alpha." He fist bumped Jacob before taking off.

Since I could predict that all the rest would get sentimental, find an excuse and leave, I decided to lay down on Jakes couch and let my mind relax. I'd swear on my own life, being around so many dogs for literally 5 minutes was enough to have one of the worst headaches you'll ever have.

Trying to block my mind from all the noises and voices around me, I could feel myself already starting to sink into the couch and fall asleep… that was until I heard her voice. I almost growled at the kindness it contained when she called out my name.

"Leah?"

What does she want now? I pushed myself up on my arms to look at her with raised eyebrows.

"Yes?"

"How are you?"

"I'm fine, Emily. You?" I tried my best to not snap at her.

"Can't complain…" She smiled weakly. Well of course you can't, why would you when you have him as fiancé?

"I'm glad for you." Note the sarcasm. She sat down next to me and grabbed one of my hands in hers. It was almost like she was doing in on purpose, so I would see the shiny diamond on her ring that was planted on her finger.

"Sam and I were worried about you… I mean, we weren't doubting you, you're strong but still… this is your home and I'm really happy your back now. Now that Sue moved in with Charlie and you and Seth are alone… If you need something, you're always welcome."

I gritted my teeth and tried not to phase right there, considering I would kill her and Jacob might not like that.

"Yeah, I know, thanks." I murmured and looked away, trying to avoid eye contact so she wouldn't see the tears in my eyes. Damn her, damn her and Sam, damn the whole imprinting-thing, damn it all.

"I really hope someday, you could forgive me, it's killing me that we're still acting like this… Leah, I'm-"

"Emily, you're ready to go?" That should've been me, he should've asked me if I'm ready to go. I should have been the one to go home with him now. Sam should have been mine.

"I'll be there in a minute." The sound of his footsteps made it clear he was heading towards their car… Another thing that should have been mine.

I heard Emily sigh next to me when she squeezed my hand.

"Hope you won't be a stranger now, sister." She stood up, let go of my hand and left.

Sister… We haven't called each other like that ever since I had found out about her and Sam. What you're gonna do about it when you were raised naïve and too good? Blame Harry, he was the one who told me to always be a good person, guess I broke that promise to him.

Placing my fingers on my temples, I started to massage them to get rid of the pain already. By now, everyone was gone, including my brother and mom, who probably left to see Charlie. As I stood up to get a bottle of beer out of the Blacks fridge, I heard Billy speak up.

"Alcohol won't mend a broken heart, Leah."

"Maybe not, but it definitely sooths the pain a little bit."

"Don't even try dad, Leah has a bad habit of ignoring all the advice you give her." Jacob said while rolling his eyes.

"Stubborn, like her mother." Billy added.

"And a psycho when she doesn't get what she wants."

"The kind of woman no man in the world could understand."

"Okaaay, let's not even talk about how messed up you Blacks are?" I stated.

"Maybe that's true, but at least we admit that were messed up. Gonna take a shower, dad, make sure she doesn't drink too much." Jacob winked at me before heading to his bathroom.

I let myself fall on the chair that was near the kitchen table, where one of the best humans alive was sitting.

"You know, it's maybe weird to hear this, but I actually missed you Billy."

"Well, I missed you too since you are my favorite daughter at the moment."

I laughed at his statement, remembering how Jakes dad used to love me so much, he would call me his own daughter so many time he actually forgot sometimes I wasn't.

"You're happy you're home?" He asked me more curiously than worried and I laughed bitterly at his question.

"Billy, when was the last time I was happy?"

"I'm sorry to say girl, but it's your fault that you're being sad all the time, honestly I don't even know why."

"You're kidding me right? Okay, so my favorite cousin is getting married to my ex-boyfriend, my dad died, my mom is probably getting married to some new guy which means I'll have vampires as step-family, my little brother and I are giant dogs and we live in the forest basically all the time, I have to spend most of my time now with idiotic teenage boys and let's not forget I don't know if I'll ever have baby's so… nope, got nothing to complain about."

"Okay well, one of my daughters got married and moved to Hawaii, God knows when was the last time I've heard from her. My other daughter, well, you know Rachel, I don't even know what the girl is doing but let's say, she isn't really that carrying. My 16 year old son is a werewolf that's barely home. Oh and my wife died 7 years ago and I have to spend the rest of my life in this wheelchair, do you ever see me complaining?"

My cheeks were turning red, I was actually that embarrassed. What kind of problems were mine next to his?

"Leah, you've got so many people that care about you and so many years in front of you… Don't waist them and definitely not for Sam. Appreciate those little things. The pack cares for you too, you're the one who caused the 'hate-relationship' by telling them off or teasing them.

Let me tell you something. Sue Clearwater did not put you on this world so you would be the way that you are now. You're the only female shapeshifter, not anyone can handle that. But you can. That's something pretty special if you ask me."

Talking to Billy would make you feel good in no time. He was so full of wisdom and knowledge and always knew what to say to get your hope back.

"Thank you, Billy, I really missed having a father figure around."

"You know you're family Leah, you're my daughter as well, I'm here to help." He said while padding my hand and I couldn't help but smile. He reminded me so much of my own dad.

I heard Jacob turned the water off so I drank the whole beer down in no matter of time and got up slowly, this was the moment I've been waiting for. Billy raised his eyebrows at me.

"Where are you going?"

"Payback time, that's what he gets for ruining my shower time." I murmured under my breath and stalked towards the bathrooms door right across the hall. Without knocking or saying anything, I walked in and noticed how Jacob almost jumped in the air, trying to cover himself right on time.

I just shot the door and set down on the floor, leaning against it, smiling at him brightly.

"Erm, Leah, what are you doing here?"

"Well, I thought it seemed fair to ruin your privacy, since you ruined mine."

"Are you being for real?"

"Of course I am, you idiot."

He was still standing there holding a small towel in front of his… package.

"You can get dressed Jacob, it doesn't bother me, no worries."

"You already drank beer here, I'm not gonna turn you on now as well."

That comment made me burst out in laughter.

"You? Turn me on? Oh please, don't make me laugh!"

"Okay, fine." He dropped the towel, reveiling his naked body and before I could stop it my mouth dropped to the floor. It wasn't that big last time I saw it… Okay, it was big, but this was huge, are you for real? Poor Renesmee, she's gonna be shred to pieces when they make love. Jacob snorted.

"Take a pic, Lee, it'll last longer." He said while grabbing for his sweatpants.

"Don't be too proud, Jay" I imitate his way of calling me in a mocking voice. "it expanded because of the heat in here, which was mostly caused by me, thank you very much."

"It? I would like it if you would use the term 'he'. He needs love too, you know?"

"Guess, who imprinted on the wrong girl huh?"

"Nah, it's worth waiting for." He said in a low voice as he was pulling the sweats up towards his waist, where the V-line was perfectly visible. Gosh Black, talking about a nice body. Ew, no stop. No, just no… ew.

"Who thought you were the kind of guy who waited until marriage?" I joked.

"Who says I am?'

He stuck out his hand, waiting for me to grab it.

"Hey, come on Clearwater, maybe I'll give you some beer."

But I didn't want to grab his hand. Last time I did, I was… well fucked. Without my warning, my hand as if somebody demanded me too stretched out to get a grip on his and it was exactly what I had thought.

Sparks.

He pulled me up, using too much strength which caused me to bump into his chest, still holding his hand.

It was pure electricity and I almost regretted coming in the bathroom. My body was on fire and I could feel my heart started to beat hard against my chest. I can't remember the last time I felt this awkward around a guy, yet t felt so right.

I met Jacobs eyes and it was like I was shot to cloud nine. I was shaking again, but this time from excitement. It was so amazing feeling something else, instead of pain, so strong that you were left breathless. A thousand butterflies were flying around in my stomach, giving me a strange happy feeling. My lips were tingling, longing for his. I grabbed his other hand as well and noticed how it was shaking. Rubbing my thumb across his knuckles, I tried to calm him, never breaking eye contact. He let go of my hand and pushed my hair back over my shoulder, giving me such a beautiful smile, I felt my knees starting to buckle. My free hand was running up his chest, my fingers going straight to his mouth, brushing my fingertips across his bottom lip.

"Leah, Jake, are you almost ready in their? Don't have too much fun, dad is trying to sleep!"

Aaand, we were back in reality. Jacob stepped away, looked at me with a confused expression and opened the door behind me, leaving me in their bathroom alone until Rachel marched in.

"Leah, I need your help." She begged me. One of my best friends was asking me for help and all I could think of was why Jacob left without saying a word.