I was scared of him now. Never before have I seen him as more than 'free EXP' or 'weak friend'. He was now incredibly frightening. His eyes were glowing orange. I had never seen him show off his deeper power, or even known if he had any. I turned to go back the way I had come, and unsurprisingly found myself faced with a wall of blue bones. I sighed and turned back to face him. "So, I see that you aren't happy." I comment to him, but I plant myself in the snow, hiding my vulnerable roots. "You noticed. Why are you here? I had a dream about you, but I don't think it was a dream. Was it?" I looked down and he took that for his answer. "My brother may be the scientist with the whole space-time continuum, but I am no fool about it. He tries to hide it from me, but I remember what you do to me. I know that you want me to spare you, so that you can just lop off my skull. Why are you here? I won't let you hurt my brother! I won't let you hurt anyone in Snowdin! And I won't let you hurt Miss Toriel!" He then finalizes his statement by throwing a series of bones at me. I dodge them, already knowing his attack patterns. "Stop! I don't want to hurt anyone!" I tell him. He smiles and Nyeh heh heh's at me, and throws another gauntlet of bones at me. I start missing, and getting hit every so often as he starts to change his attack patterns. He surprises me with a bone-spear from the back, something that he must have picked up from Undyne. It hits me in the back of my head, ripping a petal completely off. I fall and look at him, continuing not to fight him. "Please, I don't want to hurt you. I want to change. I know that you think i'm just manipulating you so that I can play this game again, but… Something happened! Ive changed! I know you don't believe me, I know that I've hurt you guys so many times in my past that- oomph" I got a face full of bone and was uprooted and thrown back, hitting the blue bones and taking more damage, and finally flop to the ground. I look up at him, his eyes still glowing an angry orange, and I begin crying. I pick myself up. "I won't fight you, papyrus. I won't even dodge your next attack. Kill me, if that is what you want. I know that I don't deserve to face you. I don't deserve this new chance. I know that I have made you feel bad, that I have… out right killed you. I won't reset, I won't load. I won't load ever again. I won't reset ever again, if I even can. I give you this choice. Take it." I turn my back to him now, prepared to take whatever he throws at me. I see a bone fly past my head to the right, then my left. One goes above my head, and then one gently bonks me on the back of the head. I turn, expecting to die, and see Papyrus crying. I'm fairly surprised at this, and I slowly go over to him. He falls on his knees and cries, and I pat his shoulder with a vine. This is when I felt it… I felt something similar to guilt. But… it wasn't guilt. It was empathy. I felt bad for Papyrus, despite it not exactly being my thing to be sad about. I don't even really feel sad. I guess it's just odd. I cry with Papyrus, and I tell him that I am sorry.

After a time where Papyrus and I talked, we came to an understanding. Papyrus guided me to his house, and as we got to the door, Toriel and Sans walked out of it. Sans took one look at me and his smile fell a bit. I thought I saw his eye glow a bit, but when Toriel bent down and patted my head, he looked at her with confusion. He wished her a good night and went back into his house. Papyrus thought that he was being rude. "Well how rude! I know that he is lazy, but to leave without proper introductions was just wrong of him!" I look up at Papyrus and smile. "It's OK. We've… met before. A long time ago. He doesn't like me too much." Papyrus seemed to understand, and he nodded. "Very well. I will not speak to him about this matter, so as to not bring up any unsavory memories. However, you should eventually get around to fixing things with him. I know that he can forgive anyone for most anything. Just… give him a shot." I laughed internally at this. Yes, of course Sans is totally forgiving. I just nod and thank him for understanding, and I hop into my pot with Toriel. As we walk toward HOME, she looks down at me. "So, Myles, do you want to talk about why Sans doesn't like you? He seemed perfectly charming and sweet whenever I met him." I looked up at Mom, guilt lancing my metaphorical flower stomach. "We… uh… got into a fight. I guess that's what you can call it. I don't really want to talk about it. It's a fairly… heh… 'pun'ful experience." I solicited a laugh from Toriel, and she seemed to drop it. I thought about her response from when she first met me, and her response from just now. At first I thought she remembered everything, from me murdering everyone, to me attacking frisk in the ruins as well as at THE END. I thought that she knew I was Asriel, or part of him, or whatever. It seemed as though she remembered only me attacking frisk, and not me killing anyone. I guess that it makes sense, as she was one of the first to die during my runs. I guess that may have made her uncomfortable, but she seemed to trust me nonetheless. How utterly clueless she was… no… how loving she is. Golly… Ive hurt them all so much…

I broke this train of thought as Toriel was tripped and fell into the snow, launching me out of my pot and earning me a face full of snow. I lifted myself up, only to see Toriel in a FIGHT with a snowdrake and Lesser Dog. Snowdrake seemed to have called Lesser Dog, telling them that Toriel had stolen something or another, and in reality the Snowdrake wanted a captive audience to tell his puns to.

Toriel was, as expected, not fighting. She was laughing at Snowdrake's puns and dodging the lesser dog as he lobbed attacks at her. I was infuriated. I was soul-crushingly mad. I proceeded to shoot a dozen bullets at Snowdrake and Lesser Dog, damaging them a bit and making them focus on me. Toriel wasn't happy with me for throwing the bullets, but her eyes blazed hellfire whenever I was hit by Snowdrake's attack. Suddenly, there was a large wall of fire between Snowdrake and me. Snowdrake flinched backward, absolutely terrified, and Lesser Dog was mortified by the fire as well. As the wall fell, Toriel was telling everyone off for fighting. Everyone got a full-force Mother's Glare, and we all took damage from her ferocious Tongue Lashing. The Lesser Dog actually walked away with his tail between his legs, as much as he could with his armor. Snowdrake made himself smaller and waddled away, and my petals actually lost some of their colour. The one that I had lost during Papyrus' fight had not grown back, and I doubted that it would. Toriel picked up her bag and let me get in my pot before walking briskly back toward HOME. A froggit tried to accost us on our way back, but one look from mom actually made him take damage and flee.

Toriel made snail pie that night, and I was sent to bed early. I don't actually sleep, so I spent the whole night deliberating on my actions and feeling guilt burrow it's spiney head into my heart, and I reflected on the other things that had happened during this day. I decided to make a small list of all of the things that I was feeling, and I decided to write a journal entry in my hidden journal. I was actually amazed that it was still here, as it had been just So many years. I guess Mom never found it. Once I had run out of things to do, I just sat in the dark. I relived memories from my runs. It was during this time that I found out why I was scared of the dark, and it had very little to do with the demons of this world. It had to do with my worry of releasing more into it. I had a very long night. A very, VERY long night.

End of Chapter Four.