Somewhere I could belong Chapter 4: Sakura's Notebook, a naruto fanfic

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The artists of the song are at the bottom of the page.

Sorry guys but this story's an AU fic so there's not going to be any ninjutsu, genjutsu, taijutsu or whatever, except what I put somewhat referring to their skills like strength, speed, or whatever else I choose so you'll just have to wait and see :p

Chapter 4- Sakura's notebook

Sakura flipped open to the most frequently used page and as she looked at it, it reminded her of her mother, her loving one, before all of this happened and brought the starting of tears to her eyes.

She looked at the page as she..... saw the song she had wrote down that her mother used to sing to her when she was about 2.

When she first got the notebook, she didn't want to use it because she didn't want anyone to take her friends away from her.

After awhile, she used it from time to time when she didn't see Mrs. Dawson anymore. When her mom died, she felt nothing and barely moved or tried to love.

She didn't love what her mother had become because of her damn father, but she had felt so much love for the mother who had left her when she was so young, the one who had sung to her and went out of her way to make Sakura happy.

All the good memories of her mother drifted through her head as she looked at that page, tear drops staining the page, becoming like the past ones that had left their marks.

Sakura took out her guitar and started to strum a little beat to get started. She looked down at the page once she had cleared her throat, and started to sing her favorite song.

From hundreds of miles, yeah, you cry like a baby.
You plead with me, shout scream, tell me I'm staying.
I know, I know, I know, I'm still you're love.

Back from the last place that I wanted to fake, you
Laugh with me, shout, scream, now tell me you're staying.
I know, I know, I know, you're still my love.

Sakura didn't even need to look at the page any more, she had sung this whenever her father wasn't home. She tried to avoid him at all costs, and didn't want him to interrupt her song when she was playing it.

The same as I love you, you'll always love me too,
This love isn't good unless it's me and you.
Box after box and you're still at my side.
The weather is changing and breaking my stride.
I know, I know, I know, it's just this day.

Sakura didn't remember it all that well, but she remembered her family moving a lot while she was a child. Even through all the stress of moving, her mom had still made time for her, no matter what kind of weather, they would go chase butterflies or sit outside in the rain with an umbrella and smell the fragrance of a new world being born.

House after house, just like car after car.
You see club after club and it all seems so far.
I know, I know, I know, what else are we here for.
The same as I love you you'll always love me too,
This love isn't good unless it's me and you.

Stick you're hands inside of my pockets,
Keep them warm while I'm still here.
Tell them this love hasn't changed me, hasn't changed me at all.

Sakura could remember when it used to get really cold all the time in Snow country. Her mom used to give her a piggyback ride so she wouldn't get lost in the snow. Her mom would feel little Sakura start to shake and would put Sakura's cold hand into her coat pockets.

Last night I was writing about you.
I know my screaming and shouting won't keep you.
I know, I know, I know, you're still my love.

"What are we going to do?" Sakura could hear her mom saying to her father. "I don't know, you fix it." Her father replied while he threw another beer can on the ground. He was a heavy drinker and because of that, her mom tried to keep Sakura out of the way of him.

Even when her mom was starting to loose it, she could tell she still loved Sakura, even just a little bit at the most.

I wake up to the sound of you're working,
You're one room right over, stressing and loving me.
I know, I know, I know, be still my love.
The same as I love you you'll always love me too,
This love isn't good unless it's me and you

Sakura remembered helping her mom make that part. It was in Sakura's point of view about her mom, when they would sing it as a duet. Her mom always said that she had a beautiful voice. Then they would both sing....

Stick you're hands inside of my pockets,
Keep them warm while I'm still here.
Tell them this love hasn't changed me, hasn't changed me at all.
Stick your heart inside of my chest,
Keep it warm here while we rest.
Tell them this love hasn't changed me, hasn't changed me at all.

The same as I love you, you'll always love me to.
This love isn't good unless it's me.... and..... you.

Sakura finished the song. She knew she could only remember her caring mom by that song, but as time went on, she could only remember more of the bad memories then the good.

Sakura flipped threw to one of the newer pages she had written one of her newest songs on.

She had told Temari before she had left that on Tuesday she would play a song for them. She didn't want to play it now, cause it might mess her up if she practiced it too much.

Instead, she glanced over this song and that, a few poems, until she got to the song she felt like singing. She never liked to sing in front of any one before, so before she started, she checked the window.

Sakura looked out and it didn't seem like anyone was outside to hear her. She opened the window slightly because it was getting hot in her room.

With a sigh Sakura started to strum the opening to the song and lightly humming what she was feeling.

Catch me, as I fall.
Say you're here and it's all over now.
Speaking to the atmosphere,
No one's here and I fall into myself.
This truth drives me into madness,
I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away,
If I will it all away.

Don't turn away,
Don't give in to the pain.
Don't try to hide,
Though they're screaming your name.
Don't close your eyes,
God knows what lies behind them.
Don't turn out the light,
Never sleep, never die.

I'm frightened by what I see,
But somehow I know that there's much more to come.
Immobilized by my fear,
And soon to be blinded by tears.
I can stop the pain if I will it all away,
If I will it all away.

Fallen angels at my feet,
Whispered voices at my ear.
Death before my eyes,
Lying next to me I fear.
She beckons me, shall I give in?
Upon my end shall I begin?
Forsaking all I've fallen for I rise to meet the end.

Even though Sakura had checked the windows of the other house to make sure that the Sabuku's were in their bedrooms, she didn't know that a certain someone with red hair was sitting on his roof, gazing at the stars, and listening to her sad song.

As Sakura finished her song, she noticed it was about dinner time. She quickly, but silently went down stairs to get something to eat. She didn't want to disturb her father, for she knew what would happen then.

Usually, on a good day, he would just look at her with hate. On not so good days, he would use a few chose words to lower her already low self esteem, then throw her against a wall and start kicking her while she was down until he was satisfied.

Sakura could throw a punch back, and probably beat him with the massive strength she had acquired over the years of being the top badass girl in the schools she went to, but she just couldn't.

Even though Sakura hated the bastard, and would like nothing more than to support her self, but she couldn't until she was 18. Until then, he was technically her father and therefore, she couldn't beat him to a bloody pulp.

She hoped he wasn't home yet, and if he was, then she hoped he was wasted so he wouldn't notice her.

'Just my fucking luck.' Sakura cursed in her head. Her 'father' was having one of his meetings where he would sit in the living room with a bunch of his uber rich friends while drinking brandy in the fancy glasses for it.

They would sit around and talk business, probably drugs or other illegal things, and drink while her father slowly suckered them into losing more money while he gained more.

Sakura observed the meeting and recognized a few names that she could finally put to their kids faces. There was Mr. Huuga, Mr. Yamanaka, Mr. Aburame, Ms. Inuzaka, Mr. Akimichi, Mr. Nara, and last, Mr. Uchiha; Fugaku Uchiha, with Itachi on his right side. That's how most of these family's live around here, they're part of a big drug web that lived in this city.

Not to say that they're bad people or anything, but you wouldn't want to cross any one of them, even though her father was so close to revealing his true intentions by mistake.

Itachi in fact, wasn't that bad. He never drank what he was served, but as not to be rude, politely told them he wasn't a big drinker. He would even help her out sometimes after everyone would witness what her father had done to her, by excusing himself to the restroom, because none of them were aloud to stop him, it was a sort of club rule.

Ms. Inuzaka was a calm person, and didn't enjoy violence. She had a dog next to her, customary to their family. She only came because it was her dieing husband's last request for her to help out their family.

Most of them weren't in it as a way for power or anything like that. They were in it because it paid good money to help support their families.

Itachi had caught sight of Sakura first, along with Kin, Ms. Inuzuka's dog, and quickly made a distraction for her to get through and get what she needed without being noticed. As soon as she did, she swiftly ran through and grabbed some pop-tarts and bolted back to her room.

She locked the door shut and looked around for where to go if anyone downstairs did in fact see her and told her father.

'That sure was close' her inner self said. 'It was a little too close.' Sakura replied.

Sakura saw her open window and remembered the ladder on the outside. She took her pop-tarts, still wrapped, and shoved them into her pocket. She then climbed out the window, shut it so they wouldn't find her, and ascended the ladder to the roof of her house.

When she got to the roof, she plopped down and stared at the stars. 'It must be so easy for them, living all alone in their own galaxies, all by themselves.' Sakura thought.

She was exhausted from today and started to doze off until she felt a heavy material on her.

Sakura jumped up to a sitting position, wondering what was happening, when she turned to the body that she was snuggled into.

She saw Gaara, looking quite comfortable, and not at all minding that she was almost molesting his arm.

"You looked cold and lonely over here." Gaara whispered. Seeming to keep quite so it wouldn't seem too loud when she had just woke up. "I thought I would lend you my jacket, although if you want, I could leave." He replied when he sensed her starting to sit up.

He was soon standing, and Sakura, realizing he would leave if she didn't answer or talk, did the only thing reasonable to her in her half dream-dazed sleep.

Sakura launched herself forward towards him and nuzzle her head into his chest. "But I don't want you to leave, you were so comfortable to lie against that I don't want to stay out here alone now." Sakura admitted while blushing.

Gaara gave her a nod and they both laid back down on the roof. 'Gaara was right, you know, it is a little chilly out here.' Inner Sakura told her. Sakura felt a shiver run down her spin then, and Gaara's automatic response to that was to put his arm around her.

Sakura didn't mind in the least so she embraced his offer and put her arm around his torso.

They had been like that for a few minutes until Gaara asked, "That song you were playing earlier, is that the one you're going to play for the band?"

"Umm, I don't think so, why, was it really that bad?" Sakura asked embarrassed now that he had heard her sing and probably thought the worst now.

"No, not at all it was amazing. I just asked because if it was, I would act surprised for you.... if you wanted me to that is."

"I think I'm going to play a different song though, but thanks Panda-kun." Sakura had blushed madly at that, as it had accidentally slipped from her lips. She was just thinking how much like a panda he looked like and it had slipped out.

'Ah, damn it, now he's going to think we're freaks and walk away.' Sakura deliberated. 'Don't worry kid, at the worst, he'll just think you're a weird stalker chick.' Inner Sakura tried to help.

'NOT HELPING' Sakura screamed in her head. Sakura had noticed that Gaara had been stunned at what she said, for he hadn't moved an inch.

"Umm, Ano, Gaara, I'm sorr-" "What did you call me." Gaara asked interrupting her.

"Ano, I'm sorry Gaara I called you panda-kun." Sakura blushed deeply again.

"Don't worry Sakura-chan, umm, you can call me that if you want...." Gaara muttered with a blush.

"How about just Gaara-kun?" Sakura wondered, not missing the suffix he put on her name.

"Sure, Sure." Gaara answered. They both went back to gazing at the stars, this time, thinking about the other, instead of their inner turmoil.

Slowly, Gaara turned towards Sakura as she turned to him.

You could see the passion they had for each other, that had started to form the first time they saw each other, no matter how much they wanted to admit otherwise, as they looked into each other's eyes.

Gaara suddenly leaned in and captured her lips in a fervent kiss.

Sakura leaned in and started to slowly react to the kiss as her arms wrapped around his neck to bring him closer to her.

Sakura and Gaara had stayed up on the roof all night, kissing and cuddling until Sakura had fallen asleep, sometime around midnight, and Gaara brought her threw her window and laid her on her bed.

Gaara took one last longing glance at Sakura, and then jumped out the window.

There you go, end of chapter. I finished this in the span of 2 weekdays where I'm extremely busy, to upload this because I wanted to add some GaaSaku fluff in this story.
I do like Itachi as a character so I tried to put him as Sakura's friend so I could go the way I wanted to go with this story.

Hope you guys liked that fluff, ...... and the story.

Songs used-
I know, I know, I know by Tegan and Sara.
Whisper by Evanescence.

Next chapter will be about the first rehearsal in the band, and more GaaSaku action and stuff.
Thx for the great reviews, I love reading all of them. 3
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