Once Declan had made everyone from the party go home, he walked back over to Fiona, who was sitting on the couch. Holly J was taking a shower.

"I think," he began, rubbing his hands together "that you need some help."

Fiona backed away from him. "I do not need help." Fiona stated sternly.

"Fi, you almost let it happen again." Declan replied.

"Let what exactly happen again, Decs, what?"
"Everything." Declan stated "

You almost had sex with him." Declan whispered. "You almost went back to the beginning, letting him hurt you again."

"Declan stop!"

"Then tell me why you went upstairs with him, you know what he can do!"

Fiona looked at him for a very long time, she almost started crying again.

"I just thought, that I had nothing to lose. I'm already used and..."

"Fi, you can't think like that." Declan interupted. "That doesn't count for anything."

"Why not?" Fiona asked.

"Maybe you should go to bed, and take a break for awhile, it's spring break, so we have a week to clear our heads." Declan suggested.

Fiona nodded silently and walked upstairs.

When Fiona was gone Declan switched on the television and waited for Holly J to come in. After about ten minutes she did.

"Where's Fiona?" she asked.

"She went to sleep." Declan said "And you know what she said?" Declan asked.

"What?"

"She said the reason that she went upstairs with that no good basterd was because she had nothing to lose, and that she was already used. What is that suposed to mean?" Declan asked, still in shock that his sister would even say that.

"She's just a little..." Holly J had to stop and think. "Lost." Holly J finnished. "She's just lost."

Declan smiled at his girlfriend.

"Speaking of things like that..." he began, "How are you?"

"I'm..." Holly J stopped and sighed "fine." she finished "Just fine."

"That's a little hard to believe." Declan answered.

Holly J choked back tears.

"I'm scared." she said in a small voice, that Declan hardley ever heard her use.

"Hey... it's alright." Declan said, reaching for her hand, "You'll be fine, I'm here, Fi's here."

Holly J let out a slight laugh.

"I think Fiona's got a little more important things to think about."

"Maybe..." Declan answered "But she really cares about you."

Changing the subject Holly J asked "Have you guys thought about some type of therapy for her?"

"I told her to but she said she didn't need it." Declan answered.

Holly J gave out a little laugh "It's a surprise she is asleep now, with out one of us."

Declan thought about that for a second before asking "You think she is ok up there?"

"Oh, probably, she'd come down here if she needed help."

"You obviously don't know Fiona, she hates asking for help. I'm going to go and check on her."

"Ok, I'll be here." Holly J answered as Declan started up the stairs.

When Declan reached Fiona's door he twisted the door knob slowly. The door opened and Declan saw Fiona sitting in her bed. She was staring at the wall, crying.

When she was Declan walk in she didn't look at him.

"I can't go to sleep." she said. "I can't. I'm scared, and I can't do it."

Declan walked over and sat beside her on the bed.

"Leave the lights on, and the door open Fi." he suggested.

Fiona almost laughed. "That won't help... not at all."

"You can still sleep with Holly J and I." he told her.

"And you don't get annoyed when I have nightmares?" she asked, now looking up at him.

"Oh of course not. If you are having nightmares, we'd rather you be with us, so we can help you."

Fiona smiled, her first real smile for a long while. "You guys are great." she said. Just as quickly her smile disapeared "How is Holly J?"

"She's fine."

"Does she need help with anything, I could help."

"She's mostly worried about you. She thinks there's no way that we could get Bobby to stay away forever."

Fiona sighed. Then Declan had a great idea.

"She's under a lot of stress. She really wants you to go to therapy. She thinks it'll help, so do I."

Fiona shook her head, "I don't want to go to therapy, I don't need to go to therapy."

"I can believe the first part Fi, but I really think you should go, Holly J and I will go too."

Fiona sighed again.

"Your choice Fi." Declan said. "If you are tired come down stairs on the couch, Holly J and I are watching TV."

Declan went downstairs, a little upset that Fiona didn't give in.

"How is it?" Holly J asked.

"She won't go to therapy."

Holly J smiled a faint smile, "Give her some time."

Fiona walked downstairs.

"Hey Fi!" Holly J said

Fiona stared at her a layed down on the couch.

"We're going to a swimming party tomarow, want to come?"

Fiona smiled a smile that was only half real. This could be good for her, she thought.

"Sure." she replied.

"Ok!" Holly J said happily.

Fiona ended up watching the rest of the movie that was on TV with Declan and Holly J. When they decided it was time to sleep. They all went upstairs.

Fiona didn't cry at all that night until about four AM, when she was having a nightmare. This time she was the only one to wake up. She found herself gripping the side of the bed.

She sat up and stared at the ceiling for a long time. Before she curled up closer to Declan and got herself asleep again.

The next day she woke up to find Holly J and Declan in their batheing suits. She hurried and got her's on. They drove the the pool.

Fiona was not having a good time. Holly J and Declan were having a blast so she just sat at the edge of the pool with her feet in the water.

Declan swam over to her. "What's wrong Fi?" he asked, tugging on her foot.

Fiona was so surprised she jumped. She stared at her brother who was soaking. "Nothing." she said.

"I can tell you're not enjoying yourself." he said.

"I'm just tired."
"Ok... tell me if you want to go home though, ok?"

Fiona nodded and watched him swim away.

Suddenly she thought she saw Bobby near the diving boards. She hid behind her towel, then she realized it was not him. She calmed down a bit.

She thought she saw Bobby drying off with a towel. With a second glance she realized that was also not him. She thought she saw him swimming near her. That wasn't him either.

She started hyperventilating, she covered her face with her hand and weeped loudly. Someone touched her shoulders and she fainted.

She woke up in the hospital, with all kinds of tubes attached to her and Declan staring at the ceiling, Holly J leaning against him, sound asleep.

When Declan realized she had awaken he slowley got up, careful not to wake Holly J. He walked over to his sister and sat beside her.

"What happened?" she asked him.

"I was swimming at the other side of the pool and saw you freaking out, so I started to swim to you, but right when I got to you, you fainted."

Fiona covered her mouth with her face, remembering exactly what happened.

"I thought I saw him, over and over again... and when you touched me I..."

"Passed out." Declan finished. He swallowed, his voice was shakey, and he was holding back tears. "I was so scared, Fi..." he whispered.
Fiona smiled. "I'm fine now." she said, trying to assure herself that she really was. "I'm fine."

"You are not." Declan stated. "People who pass out at random are not fine. You are going to therapy, Promise me you will."

"I will." Fiona whispered.

"Good." Declan said. "I can sleep again."

The next day Holly J got up in the hospital and stared at the mirror. She could tell that she was pregnant, barely, but you could deffiantally tell. She screamed.

Declan woke up fast and rushed over to her. "What, what is it?"

"You can tell!" Holly J laughed. "Look!"

Declan looked over at her stomach. He laughed. He extended his hand and traced the bump with his finger. He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her close. They kissed. Fiona watched, wishing that she could have had something like that. Something not revolving around sex. Something that was true.

"May I see it?" Fiona asked.

"Of course!" Holly J answered running over to her.

"Deffiantally noticable." Fiona remarked.

"Yeah."

The nurse walked in.

"Fiona Coyne? You are welcome to check out any time you feel fit."

Fiona nodded.

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