The Sex Talk: Part 1

"Did you get them?" Lena asked anxiously as soon as Stef walked in through the front door.

Stef stared miserably at her wife for a short while before answering, "Yes, I got them. But I don't get why you're so excited about this…" She held up the paper bag for Lena to see as she walked over towards the table.

"I'm not excited. I'm just nervous for you."

"For me? Why?" Stef questioned in confusion. "Here," she said as she tried to hand it over to her.

Lena shook her head and smiled, "Uh-uh. We already discussed how we were doing this. You're going to be the one to talk to her."

Stef's face fell, "I thought you were joking, Lena. There's no way in hell I'm doing this alone. No," she shook her head slightly. "No way. You have to be there too."

"Why would I joke about that, Stef? And after what happened yesterday I thought we'd go easy on her today. One of us is better than both for this discussion. And you and her already have an undeniable bond—"

"Exactly," Stef asserted. "Why ruin it?"

"This isn't going to ruin it," Lena smiled.

"Uhuh?" Stef answered skeptically. "Do you remember when we had our first talk with Mariana?"

"Yes, and it went well from what I can remember."

"She barely spoke to us for like a week," Stef reminded her in a flattened tone.

"Yes, but she was younger. It's not the same. Callie is sixteen. She's more mature and—"

"So maybe she doesn't even need it," the blonde rationalized. "What if… What if she already had this talk with someone else? Or maybe she could've learned everything there is to know in school."

"No one pays attention in sexual ed," Lena said. "As much as I hate to admit it, it's the one class that should be taken seriously and offers the most answers to these kids."

Stef sighed before she stared at her wife. "You do realize this isn't fair right?"

Lena grabbed a banana from the bowl and handed it over towards her, "Sometimes being a parent isn't fair."

Stef took a deep breath before knocking slightly on her daughters' bedroom door. Luckily, Mariana went out and the boys were downstairs in the living room. She didn't want to risk making this even more uncomfortable.

"Come in," Callie said and Stef almost laughed when she realized the teen was going to regret saying that in a minute or two.

"Hey," Stef smiled once she walked into the room and closed the door shut behind her.

"Hey," Callie smiled as she looked up from her cellphone. But the calm expression on her face quickly dissipated once she saw the banana in Stef's hand and the bag in the other. After what happened last night, her first thought wasn't the most enticing. She had barely even wanted to leave her room after that and now the older woman was coming into her room out of nowhere with the worst item imaginable.

She glanced down at her phone again and began to focus on the photos she had just been editing.

Stef watched her carefully realizing that Callie wasn't going to help in any of this. She realized the girl looked just like she did yesterday when the two asked her about Mariana's birth control pills.

Completely avoidant.

The blonde stood there for a while, waiting for the teen to lift her gaze back up and look at her. She didn't. "So," Stef started and coughed nervously directly afterwards. "Sweets, you think we could talk for a minute about something?"

"Sure," Callie tried to answer casually as she kept her gaze down, now editing another photo that she took at the park the other day.

Stef took in more air through her nose before she walked over towards Mariana's bed and sat down, suddenly realizing just how far she was from Callie. She tilted her head to the side before she stood up again and walked over towards the girl. Callie finally lifted her gaze toward Stef when the woman took a seat on the farther end of her bed and placed the bag and banana in between them.

The teen reached for the banana in order to avoid all of this. "Thanks," she said as she grabbed it in her hands and attempted to peel it open.

"Uh," Stef stopped her, while snagging the fruit from her grip. "That's not to eat. It serves another purpose," she answered nervously and twitched her eye. "God, I don't want to do this," she mumbled honestly.

"Then don't," Callie said matter-of-factly.

"Easy for you to say," Stef told her. "Mama is making me but… this isn't," Stef paused. "This isn't exactly how I'd prefer to spend my afternoon either," she informed her.

"What if… what if we just told her that we spoke?" Callie suggested sneakily, causing the blonde to look at her strangely.

"You're not suggesting we lie to my wife and your mom?" the woman questioned both playfully and accusingly. "You have been spending waaaay too much time with Mariana."

Callie let out an exaggerated breath, causing the blonde to give her a look.

"Sorry," Callie murmured. "But this talk is pretty much useless, so…" she shrugged her shoulders.

"Oh really?" Stef asked out of pure curiosity. "And why is that?"

Callie had just admitted to her yesterday that her and Wyatt weren't having sex and now she was worried she'd hear something else from her mouth.

The teen looked at the blonde in disbelief. Did she really forget what happened? she wondered. "Stef, I'm not a…" She stopped since she didn't even want to say the word.

Stef made a saddened face when she realized what Callie was going to say. "Callie, just because… just because something bad happened to you doesn't mean you're not a virgin."

"That's exactly what it means," Callie urged.

"No," Stef responded just as firmly. She didn't really want to get into this and she couldn't believe she hadn't even considered the possibility before walking into the room. But the previous sex-talks she had with her other kids didn't have to delve so deep into another uncomfortable topic at the same time. "What happened to you… what Liam did to you didn't count," she finally told her.

"Oh, so I can choose when it counts now? Come on, Stef," Callie tried to smile as if nothing the blonde was saying was making it any sense.

"Honey," Stef reached her hand out for hers, causing Callie to look away. "Sex is a lot more than just the physical aspect of it. There's so much more than what happens," the blonde stopped to examine Callie's face when she realized that the teen finally turned her attention towards her. Hesitantly, Stef decided to continue, "How it happens, when it happens, with who it happens with and why all play a much bigger role. It's about the emotional connection you feel with another person, which is hopefully the right person. You can't just base sex off of what happened two years ago with that—" Stef paused again when she realized she was about to curse. She let in another deep breath and let it out, "The point is that everything else matters a million times more than the physicality of it all."

Callie thought about what the woman was saying and wanted to believe her more than anything. But after all of that time of assuming that she wasn't a virgin, it was strange for someone to believe that she was.

Stef noticed her daughter's resistance and decided to push her own boundaries. "Take Mike and I for example. When we—"

Callie put her hand up to stop the woman in disgust, "Please don't talk about sex with Mike."

Stef burst out laughing at the sudden shift in Callie's words and tone. "I won't."

"Good," the teen answered thankfully.

Stef tried to think of something else to say but after a few seconds she couldn't think of another example so she decided to continue, "The point that I was trying to make was that sex with Mike—"

Callie rolled her eyes.

"That's all it was," Stef pressed. "I didn't feel any different afterwards for a long time. There weren't the same emotions for eachother since I didn't love him the way I love Lena… It was always just something physical we did because we were married or because I wanted to convince myself I was straight. But I always felt empty afterwards…" Stef's tone changed after she continued, "Now with Lena on the other hand—"

"Please stop," Callie begged.

The blonde smiled slightly. "Basically, I felt like a virgin before I met her. Then, I met her and I didn't. There I stopped," Stef joked. "The emotions and the right person you share the experience with change everything. Liam doesn't get to take that away from you."

"Got it," Callie nodded in hopes that the conversation had finally come to an end. What Stef was saying made sense and she understood it but the conversation was still getting awkward for her. "Can I go now?"

"Do you believe me?" Stef asked worriedly, ignoring her daughter's request.

"No, I get it. I'm listening," the girl tried to assure her.

"But do you believe me?" Stef questioned again.

"Yes," Callie answered positively.

Stef studied the teen's face for a short while before she spoke again. "…Because, if you want to talk about anything else, I want you to know that your mama and I will always be there to listen… Alright?"

Callie nodded. "Yes. Got it," she answered and the two just stared at each other for a few more seconds before Callie finally spoke again. "Now can I go?"

"Nope. I still haven't even gotten to the really important stuff," Stef answered as she lifted up the banana. "Now that we got that part out of the way, let's discuss protection..."

To be continued.