Shinji and Rei: An Unrequited Love

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Chapter 4: Awakening (Rei)

I dreamt of him again last night.

Shinji and I are were sitting on the beach, having some kind of food.

Sitting on a blanket of kinds.

Then, two children, came over, a young boy and a young girl.

Strange...the girl looks like....

Me.

Blue hair and red eyes.

And the boy...looks like Shinji.

This can't be the future, as I...

I'm incapable of birth.

Should I tell Shinji this?

No, not yet.

I got out of bed, and went into the shower.

The water dripping onto my face always makes me feel good.

Happy.

And then I remember what happened yesterday.

I reached up and touched my lips.

Me and Shinji...we...

Are in love.

I like this feeling.

I don't want it to ever go away.

Then I hear a knock on the door.

"Ayanami?"

He is here.

I turn off the water and walk over and open the door.

Forgetting my current state.

I open the door and find a very surprised look on Shinji's face.

"R...Rei, what are you doing!"

"What is it Shinji?"

"You...your...naked!"

"I...did not notice. Is my being undressed uncomfortable for you Shinji?"

"Well...yes...kind of."

"I...am sorry."

I turn around and walk over to my cupboard, and opened it.

I slide my underwear on, and then my school uniform over it.

Shinji waits at the door.

And walk out, dressed this time, and approach Shinji.

"Let us go."

"Y...yes."

I grab Shinji's hand, and we walk out of my apartment.

We walk holding hands the rest of the way to school, it makes me feel...safe.

We approach the school from a different route today, coming around from behind.

We are alone.

"We still have another twenty minutes before the bell rings Rei." Shinji spoke finally, his voice...

So caring.

"What do you wish to do until then Shinji?"

"I really liked it when we...

Kissed yesterday Rei.

Can we....

Do it again?"

I was happy that Shinji wanted to be intimate with me.

"I did as well Shinji. I will gladly kiss you again."

I shut my eyes and wait for Shinji's lips to meet mine.

They did not.

I slowly open my eyes, and found Shinji's two friends, Suzuhara and Aida standing there, holding Shinji by his collar.

"Release Shinji."

I do not want them to hurt him.

"What have we here!? Ikari and Ayanami eh? I should have known!" yelled Suzuhara.

"Yeah, you two have been eye-balling each other for quite a while!" spoke Aida.

"And what were you about to do? Kiss, it looked like!" answered Suzuhara.

This is annoying me.

"What is wrong with Shinji and I being intimate? If we love each other, we are allowed to do so, yes?"

I want them to leave us alone.

"Rei...you...you actually love Shinji?" said Aida.

"Yes."

"How the hell did you get her like this Ikari? You brainwash her or sometin'? Rei's supposed to be the quiet outsider!" yelled Suzuhara, again.

Why must he yell all the time?

Just like Pilot Soryu.

"No! I....I didn't....how is that even possible?" said Shinji.

I will protect you.

"It is obvious Shinji does not wish to speak with you at the moment, you should be leaving now."

I chose these words carefully; I do not want to upset Shinji.

I never want to cause him any pain.

Suzuhara let out a big sigh, and slowly dropped Shinji.

"Fine, but only because me and Shinji are buds, and because if someone caught me with a girl like this, I would want to be left alone too."

I think Suzuhara is blushing.

"Isn't that more than enough reason?" Shinji spoke with a slightly choked voice.

"You know, you're right. I...uhhh...am...sorry Shinji."

The last of his sentence he spoke extremely quickly, apparently wanting to leave as fast as has could.

"I'll....uhh...see you in class Shinji...and...sorry Ayanami."

I was surprised to see Suzuhara bow down and give his forgiveness.

"It's ok guys, I'll see you in class."

They slowly left, and now it was just Shinji and I.

"Where were we Rei?"

"We...were standing here, and your friends approached us?"

Shinji let out a little laugh.

"What is amusing?" I said in a slightly confused tone.

"Never mind."

I smiled for Shinji.

And he smiled back.

I closed my eyes again, and this time felt Shinji's lips press again mine.

I love you Shinji.

I'm not sure how long we kissed for, but the bell began to ring, so we must be getting to our studies.

As soon as it did, we broke it off.

"That was even better than yesterday Rei." Shinji immediately said, with a slight red tone across his cheeks.

"It was..."

The words still have a hard time trying to come to my mouth.

"I love you Shinji."

It looks to me that Shinji still has a hard time too.


"I...love you as well Rei."

I grab Shinji's hand, and hold it tight as we approach school.

As soon as we sight our class mates, I immediately detach myself from Shinji.

Why?

Shinji has as well.

"Why....would the concept of our....relationship, cause embarrassment Shinji?"

Shinji looks at me, surprised.

"Well, I guess it's that fact that we don't want to appear different to our peers. For them to now know of....us."

"But...I have not worried about how people view me before."

"I think this could be a good thing Rei. You seem to be able to express your emotions a lot easier now, which I know you were not able to in the past.

What Shinji says is true.

But only for you.

"My emotions and my smile are for you only Shinji."

He began to blush again.

"I don't see a need for you to blush around me Shinji. There is no reason. Nothing you can say to me should be a cause for embarrassment."

I want him to be comfortable around me; as I hope to be around him more often.

"Th...thanks Rei."

"You are...welcome."

We arrive at the door to our classroom, and both walk in and take our seats.

Shinji's friends are looking at me strangely.

They soon turn to look at Shinji.

The teacher arrives, and begins to call the role.

"Ayanami, Rei?"

I don't know why I would be...embarrassed... if people knew of Shinji and I.

Thoughts were running through my mind...emotions.

I look up to find the class staring at me.

"She's here sir."

Shinji...

I was too busy thinking I didn't hear the teacher call my name.

I turn my head to face out the window, feeling a heat across my cheeks.

Blushing.

I'm not used to this yet.

Over time, will people accept Shinji and I...

And our....relationship?

Is Shinji my...

Boyfriend?

I'm not quite sure what a boyfriend is...

I have heard it's the male of a relationship.

A couple.

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The bell for a break has rung, and I think now would be a good time to ask Shinji questions.

He and his friends are sitting in three desks around each other.

His desk if positioned facing towards me, and he is giving me a nice smile.

I look to see that no-one else can see me.

The class is empty.

So I smile back at Shinji.

I get up from my desk and slowly walk over towards him.

"Ikari."

His friends turn to look at me.

"Yes Ayanami?"

"I wish to speak with you. Alone."

"I...um...of course."

I walk over and grab Shinji's arm, and then proceed to the roof.

It is quiet here.

We are alone.

"What is it you wish to talk about Rei?"

My uniform and hair and blowing in the wind.

"Shinji...I have overheard students talking of relationships before...and I was wanting to know...are you my...

Boyfriend?"

I put my face down, trying to hide my shy look from Shinji.

But not for long, I feel Shinji's tender skin push my chin up to look at him.

"Only if you want me to be Rei."

Still, Shinji is concerned for me.

Like always.

"What....would it entail?"

"Well...you know. Dates and things..."

Dates?

"What do you mean by the use of the word...dates?"

"When you talk about it like I am...it means; to go out together. To go places together. Like...the movies, or the beach."

"So, it would the two of us going together to various locations?"

"In a round-about way, yes."

"I...would like that. Would you be my..."

I breathed deeply threw my nose, and then out of my mouth.

"Boyfriend, Shinji?"

Shinji had a smile on his face.

So did I.

"Of course I will."

This is good.

This means I can spend time with the one person I truly love.

Shinji.

"I am...happy."

"Me too..."

This feels like a time when I should be embracing Shinji.

So I do.

I move closer to him, and wrap my arms around his waist, and rest my head on his shoulders.

I instantly get that warm feeling inside when Shinji returns my embrace.

"Well, look what we have here!"

It is Pilot Soryu, emerges from the stairs with an angry look on her face.

"Not this again Asuka...please..."

Has she hurt you Shinji?

I am irritated at with her.

Unfortunately, what followed Soryu's entry onto the roof was much worse.