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I flopped back first onto my bed.
Ouch. Dang wings. Can't I just lie in bed and stare at the ceiling pondering the difficult hardships in my life while Adele plays in the background like every other teenage girl?
No.
You know what else I can't do?
Nick.
OH CRAP. NOT LIKE THAT. MINDS OUTTA THE GUTTER PEOPLE.
So didn't mean it like that. I don't think of Nick that way! Me and Nick?...
Nick and me?...Nicolas Devin and Maximum Ride… Mrs. Maximum Devin…
FLYING FLADOODLE! WHAT THE HELL! I DIDN'T THINK THAT. THAT WASN'T ME. I WAS…MOMENTARILY POSSED.
Let's just forget this ever happened. FORGET DAMMIT.
There. Better?
Good. Now let's rephrase that.
You know what else I can't…understand?
Nick.
Nick.
Nick.
Nick.
What's his problem? He made it perfectly clear he never wanted to see me-much less talk to me-ever again before. Now he's speaking to me, and uh, sitting by me, and looking at me funny, and-and he's being just-just-just- UGH.
What changed?
What changed…that's something Nick does a lot.
Change.
-Flashback!-
Today.
Today, I was going to tell him, today.
What if he didn't understand? What if he never spoke to me again? What if I scared him off? What if he thought I was a freak? What if he told everyone and sold me to a zoo? What if he was angry at me for not telling him sooner?
What if he didn't listen to me?
No. He'd never do any of that. He was my best friend.
I trust him.
It's true. It took me a long time, bizarre conversations, pudding, laughing, staying up until midnight talking and crazy pranks, but I do. He has my absolute trust; I was going to tell him.
Today, I was going to tell my best friend, Nick, I had wings.
-LINEBREAK 'still in flashback'-
I sat down on my chair. Well actually it was just a log in the middle of the forest, but Nick and I took some pocket knives and tried shaping a log for each of us into a chair. But they just ended up looking like logs with termites, with our names carved into them.
Nevertheless I loved my chair.
I looked up, and into the unusually unreadable onyx eyes of Nick, fidgeting.
I let out a deep breath, "Okay. It's just, well, we've been friends for so long-actually not really that long-but it feels like I've known you forever. And I see you as my best friend and I want to completely trust you. I know you went through something terrible and you haven't shared anything on that, but so have I. I've been really thinking about this and I decided I wanted to tell you everything about me. I want you to know, not just because we're so close, or because I feel like I have to. Or even because I love you. Because I do, Nick, I love you, you're the brother I've always wanted."
I paused; Nick still looked unreadable and almost cold…and angry. What happened to the understanding Nick I had known? Should I go on?
Yes. Yes, is should, Nick would never turn his back on me, I looked down at my black dingy converse, squelched my fears and carried on.
"Well, I also wanted to tell you because I was hoping that one day you may do the same…and trust me to."
Unable to help myself I peeked up at Nick from under my hair, at first he looked depressed and anguished, but once he caught me looking his expression turned furious. The harshness and ice of his glare made me freeze.
What? What's going on? This doesn't seem right, the logical part of my brain told me.
But the greater and more idiotic part of my brain was telling me that I had already decided to tell Nick, and my stubbornness was going to hold to my resolve.
So I swallowed and continued, "Here's the thing. My secret is kinda-really big. And it's taking every bit of my courage to tell you this, so please, don't tell anyone…I don't know what would happen. And don't freak out and quit being my friend, I'll always be Max, no matter what. Oh, gosh this is hard, but I want you to know that I really trust you. We'll Nick, it's-I'm I'm-"
But I was cut off by a livid looking Nick.
"Just SHUT UP," Nick roared, "You think whatever the hell your problem is, it's the end of the world. IT'S NOT. People have much worse, more important problems than yours. What did you do? Rob a bank? Steal a nickel from an old lady? Or was it your parents? Did they murder people? Did they give you to a pack of koalas when you were born?," Nick chuckled humorlessly, "What? What was so terrible that you have to act like…this. NOTHING. Nothing you could have done is that bad, nothing that could have happened to you was that bad. I had it bad, Max. I still have it bad. I am a bad person. Don't tell me anything. I don't want to hear it from you, Max. Actually I don't want to hear ANYTHING from you. Just leave me the hell alone."
I was still sitting there in shock. Tears brimming in the corners of my eyes. I turned around so he wouldn't see. "If that's what you want, then-" I started with a hard steel that I had hoped covered my desolation, but was again interrupted by Nick.
"It is." His words radiated sharp coldness.
And with that, I ran. I ran and ran until I collapsed in tears letting the feeling of isolation flood me. Promising myself I wouldn't let Nick-or anyone crush me like this again. And despise whatever happened to Nick to make him that way. What changed.
-Flashback over-
I sat bleary eyed and stared up at nothing. Great, now I'm bored and depressed. So I guess I'll do what every other teenage girl does in situations like these.
I'll stuff my face with See's Candies and watch funny cat videos via Youtube. Oh, don't you love how all female problems can be fixed with sugar coated calories and kittens playing patty-cake…
I booted up my computer and popped a Bourdou Bar into my mouth.
Hmm yum.
Just when I was about to type 'YouTube' into the Google toolbar(NOT Bing nor Yahoo, may I point out, but indeed Google. Cause Google is the best, most amazing, smart, fast, handsome, beautiful toolbar ever, just so ya'll know)when I noticed Fang was online.
Well, I guess it couldn't hurt to message him. I'd be a way of getting my mind off of things so…why not? (That is perhaps the most dangerous phrase in the English language)
So I hit the little message button thingy and typed;
Phoenixxgirl:Wings are a pain in the arse
FANG: lovely to see you to and, arse? Don't you mean ass?
Phoenixxgirl:No arse. It's what the Brits say. You know, people from England.
FANG:Really? I thought they were from Peru
Phoenixxgirl:….:P
FANG:And where did you even learn that arse was what brits call ass?
Phoenixxgirl:…Harry potter.
FANG:What? Are you serious? Hahahaha
Phoenixxgirl:No of course I'm not Sirius (Aren't I punny) and don't u bag on harry or I'll find you and Avada Kedavra your ass
FANG:Don't you mean arse
Phoenixxgirl:You-just- you just…shuttup
FANG:Hahaha fine. But why are wings a pain in the arse?
Phoenixxgirl:remind me again why im going to tell you
FANG:because I won the award for the most awesome person in the world
Phoenixxgirl:well you sure didn't win person who uses dictionaries most because I believe you confused the words awesome and arrogant…
FANG:gee thanks. You sure know how to boost a guys ego.
Phoenixxgirl:anytime ;) now back to why wings are a pain in my ass. Don't you ever wish you were normal. That things would be so much simpler if we were just human?
FANG:I guess. Having wings has forced me to say and do things I regret. But I believe that things have their ways of turning out alright in the end. And without wings I don't know what I'd do…
Phoenixxgirl:wow. You've given me something to think about
FANG:I gave you something to THINK about. As in I made you think? HOLY CHIZ! This may be the greatest teaching moment since Anne Sullivan and Helen Keller.
Phoenixxgirl:haha. That was actually a really good one. It's surprising, but I like your comebacks. They're refreshing, and it's nice to play around a little.
FANG:woah! Was that almost a compliment? This is getting serious. You know I have a girlfriend right? ;)
Phoenixxgirl:oh. Ew. Ego much? I defiantly do not like you like that…and I thought you didn't even like your girlfriend.
FANG:oh, yeah, I don't
Phoenixxgirl:then why are you still with her? And none of this 'it's complicated' bull
FANG:I'm dating her to…forget another girl. That sounds bad, I know. But I really loved this other girl. But she was threatened, and it was dangerous for her to be around me, and with some other stuff going on, I didn't want her to get hurt. It would kill me if she was injured on account of me. So when she was being open and honest with me and I…couldn't. I scared her away and used this other girl to keep her away. Yet I just can't keep away from her. I want to be closer, and I may risk it. As long as I don't risk her. But more on this later…
Phoenixxgirl:noble of you. But stupid. Very very stupid.
FANG:Whatever. What about your love life?
Phoenixxgirl:nonexistent, confusing, and frustrating. I don't think I can have a relationship until I…get over a guy I knew who crushed me and my trust. And now he's trying to get me to forgive him, I guess. So it may take a while.
FANG:hmm. Care to explain more of this?
Phoenixxgirl:later. Because right now, all I care to do is sleep. So goodbye and goodnight.
FANG:kay. I'll hold you to it. Sweet dreams.
okay, yes, the IM session was short and sucked pretty bad. but the next will be better PROMISE. and will definatly be up sooner!
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