I froze on the spot. Did she just say what I think she said? I have a son. I have a son!. I went to open my mouth, but nothing came out.
"Wade? Please say something" She whispered. I felt her hand touch mine, and that's when I was brought back to reality. I was then overcome with happiness, but that soon was replaced by anger.
"Why didn't you tell me earlier?" I asked, moving my hand away from her and staring down at her "Why couldn't you pick up the phone, and tell me that I had a son for crying out loud"
"Because I had convinced myself that telling you would only make things worse, that telling you would result in you coming here again, but then you would leave, like you did the first time. I couldn't have that happen to SJ Wade" she sighed, she looked away from me and used her hand to wipe away her tears. "I wanted to tell you, but then Justin was there. To me, Justin was the perfect father figure for SJ because you weren't there. Justin was someone I knew wasn't going to leave me alone"
I hate to admit it, but those words, even though they weren't harsh, they still stung.
"You want to know something Micks?" I asked, gently placing my hand on her shoulder "I would have never left you or SJ if you would have just rang me up and told me"
"That was hard Wade, because you told me never to call you and that you never wanted to see me." she then looked at me "I want the best for my son. I want him to grow up, have a happy life, find a career that he loves. I just want the best for him Wade"
"How old is SJ?" I asked, I suddenly felt a smile grace my face. I have to get used to this, as I have no clue what to do. But I just want to be there for my Son.
"He's two" She smiled. By the way she smiled, I could tell that he was the most important person to her. That made me smile. "He's just like you sometimes"
"Oh yeah?" I smiled, looking towards the room that Justin had taken SJ to.
"Yeah. He loves to laugh, just like you, well… that's both of us. He likes to eat weird foods, like you…" she then began to laugh "He even kind of looks like you, you know. He also has a hint of your English accent"
"Then he will be a ladies man" I joked "That English accent can sure get a lot of women"
Im glad she took this as a joke and laughed "Just as long as he doesn't bring any babies into my house when he's sixteen, im ok with that"
It was time this turned serious "So.. When are we going to tell him?"
I saw her look down and sigh. "Hold on. I'll just get Justin" she then proceeded to yell out Justins name, to which he came, a smile was on his face, but I could tell it wasn't a full smile. If that makes any sense.
"Yeah?" he asked, shoving his hands in his pockets.
"We need to tell SJ now." Mickie sighed.
His smiled faded for a bit "Oh, ok. I'll just go and get him and then I will leave"
"I want you to stay Justin" Mickie pleaded "I need you to be there when we tell him"
I was about to say something, but what? Nothing I could say would make this easier for Justin. Nothing.
"We will see Mick." he then returned to the room.
It was then I started thinking, was me returning the right thing? Was me coming back to be with Mickie just something that will ruin other peoples lives. I voiced this to Mickie, but she dis agreed.
"I don't know where this leaves you and I. But I do know this, SJ deserves to know who is real father is, and I don't mind that. But I will kill you if you ever leave him. He is a good kid Wade, he needs a stable enviroment to grow up in though"
"I understand that Mickie. I promise I will never leave you or SJ again." I then smiled "Im a dad"
Justin's P.O.V
I walked into the room and I saw SJ happily playing along with his toys. I wasn't going to take him straight away to Mickie. I just leant against the doorframe and watched as he laughed and played with various toys. A Lot I had brought him as did Mickie. His favorite toy though, was one Mickie and I brought for him, he has had it since he was born. I guess you couldn't really call it a toy, as it is was a teddy bear.
I saw him look up at me and he couldn't help but smile "Dadda. Play?"
I bent down towards him and picked him up "SJ, I have to take you to mama and that man."
"Who's man?" he asked, he then pointed to the teddy Mickie and I got him, and I bent down to pick it up.
"Mama will tell you that baba" I smiled, before placing a kiss on his cheek "Remember I will always love you Stu Jnr"
"I wuv you too dadda!" he said. I then carried him into the lounge and placed him on the ground.
Mickie's P.O.V
When I saw Justin come in with SJ, I opened my arms for SJ to come. He ran over to me and jumped into my arms. He then looked at Wade and smiled. Almost as if he knew Wade. But then he buried his head into the crook of my neck.
"Son.." I said before sitting him on the couch, and placing him on my knee. Wade came and sat beside SJ and I and Justin stayed leaning against the door frame. His eyes closed and his head down.
"Yeah mama?"
"Remember when I said that Justin wasn't your dad?" I whispered. But I knew Justin heard. He opened his eye and then started making his way towards the door.
"Justin…" Wade spoke as he went to reach for Justins shoulder "Don't leave"
"He is my Dadda!" SJ cried. He then tried to get out of my grip and he kept crying for Justin.
"Im so sorry. But I cant stay here right now" Justin said as he was close to the door. He then looked back at Wade and pulled him in for a hug. I heard what Justin said to Wade, and now it is ringing through my head.
Please look after SJ. He is a big part of my life, Mickies life and now yours. Please.
"I promise I will. But you will be back Justin?" Wade asked, pulling away.
"Yes, I will be. I just don't know when" Justin said. He then looked over at me and smiled. A smile to which I returned.
"Dadda!" SJ said "Where you going?"
"Im going for a walk SJ, I will see you soon" and Justin walked out.
"Dadda be back?" SJ looked at me. I nodded and placed a kiss on his cheek, then I used my hand to wipe away tears that I had on my face. It broke my heart to see Justin like that, he has been there for me for so long. I love him as a friend so much, and I am so thankful that he has been there for me through all this drama. But I know that this is what is best.
"Baby, you see this man here?" SJ nodded so I continued "His name is Wade Barrett"
Wade came and sat beside me and I saw him look at Wade. It was then I knew definatly that Wade had a genuine love for our son.
"This is your real Dad SJ" I don't know if SJ could understand, but I saw him slightly smile and he reached out for Wade, as if he did understand.
"Dad!" SJ smiled before reaching our for Wade. I let a tear of happiness, maybe he did understand. Wade grabbed a hold of SJ and hugged him tight. I have never seen this kind of love for another person from Wade, and I loved it.
"So this is Dad!" SJ smiled, and I nodded. "and that's dadda" he pointed at a photo of Justin.
It was then I realized, that SJ didn't fully understand.
Well, SJ knows the truth. Im guessing it is going to be a hard time to explain to SJ seeing as he is only two years old.
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