Explaining to Regulus about the muggle doctors and my problem seemed more complicated than I would have thought. He was a bloody genius and he couldn't get that it was a normal thing that didn't always happen to me. "I still say that-"
I would cut him off, "I don't need to go and see Ma'am Pomfrey."
"Why are you in Slytherin?" He asked me as we sat on the log by the lake a while later. "You show bravery... that's a pure Gryffindor trait."
"The hat told me I longed for Slytherin. In my second year I went back to see about transferring to another house because I had been brutally attacked by a couple of seventh years. The hat told me then that I could go to Gryffindor, but it did not want me there. It refused to change me and kept me in Slytherin." I explained as I watched Regulus throw a rock, causing it to skip across the lake. "Loyal friends would be made in Gryffindor, and that's not me. I don't trust anyone."
"Then why do you open up to me and Rae when we're nowhere near anyone else?" Regulus pointed out to me. I had been wondering the same thing, why did I seem to open up to Regulus and Rae. "Although you probably hate to admit it, it's something you've always wanted, isn't it?" I looked to Regulus, my green eyes falling onto his grey ones. "Friendship, to feel like you could trust someone..." He looked at me for a minute, neither of us said anything.
It was true. I would never admit it, but friends, the things I've hated my whole life, I craved. I wanted to know the feeling of being able to trust someone, to what friendship felt like. And even now, while Regulus even brought it forward, I still could not say it. I still couldn't say all I ever dreamt about was to have a friend.
CHAPTER FOUR:
"Hey! Mudblood!" Lyla Vlasic called as I made my way towards the my room. She grabbed my arm and pulled me back, "How about you and I, we go for a little walk."
"I don't think so." I said breaking away from her grip. "Thanks for the gesture though." I saw a vein twitch on her head before she quickly grabbed her wand and I was quicker, "Expelliarmus!" I shot, her wand flying from her hand.
"Who do you think you are, Mudblood." She hissed grabbing my wrist and twisting it. "You do not tell me no when I tell you something. You're filthier than those blood house-elves." She bent down and grabbed her wand before snatching mine from my hands and pocketing it. "You are going to come with me without another word." I was shoved out of the common room and into an empty classroom.
"What's wrong, scared to be seen talking to me?" I sneered as she pushed me forward. "Surprised your even looking my way." I didn't know why, but for some reason, I took enjoyment in setting people off at times. This was one of those moments.
She swung her wand and I dodged the spell by side stepping it. "Stop moving you filthy Mudblood!"
"Why? So you can land a hit on me? You know, Auror's don't stop moving. You're standing in place, easy for an attack." I retorted as I dodged another attack. "And anyways, I thought you wanted to talk to me."
"Yes, I do." She seethed, seeming to give up trying to attack me. "What have you done to Regulus Black?"
"What are you talking about?" I asked amused, she believed I did something to anyone.
"Don't pretend you don't know what I'm talking about." She hissed, "I see the two of you meet out in the courtyard and walk around the lake together. Talking, laughing, looking at each other."
"Regulus and I..." I hesitated, unsure if I would be able to say it, "...we...are... friends." I said finally saying it, and I felt sick just thinking of it.
"You say that like it's a lie. Why is he hanging around with a Mudblood when he's of a noble house?" She sneered, "If his mother knew, he would be in great trouble, hanging around a Mudblood, especially one like yourself."
"And what's that got to do with anything?" I shot at her.
"One who tries to pass like nothing bothers her. A mediocre student who barely passes her classes with an acceptable." Lyla shot, her blue eyes hitting me dead. "You are a shame to any witch or wizard, and I don't even think your parents would except you with these grades."
"Wouldn't one need parents for them to accept them?" I said nonchalantly. She looked at me as if shocked at the news, "May I have my wand back, I think we're finished."
Once I left the room, I made my way back to the common room, entering with a simple, "Garden Gnomes"
"Was that Lyla Vlasic I saw you with?" Rae said nearly tackling me into the corner where her and Regulus were working on their latest potions project. "What was she doing talking to you?"
"She just wanted to introduce herself." I lied with a smile as I sat down at the table with the two of them. I turned to Regulus who had looked up at me suspiciously, and I knew he didn't believe that, nobody would. "Quidditch tryouts were today, right? Who's the new team?" I asked, picking up that he had been the captain.
"Do you honestly care?" Regulus half laughed, I took it he thought it was amusing that I attempted to change the subject.
"No, but I've picked up people like to talk about their days. I've read it in books." Regulus and Rae didn't give me pleasing looks as I laughed a bit. "Is it anyone that I know?"
"Well I'm still seeker, and other than that it's a bunch of fourth years with a couple of seventh years." Regulus said disregarding the subject any further. "Rae, after you put in the dragon egg shells, is it that you stir six times or do you add in the birch leaves?"
"You stir while adding the leaves." Rae told him as she flipped the pages in her book. She paused and looked up to me, "Did Lyla hurt you at all?"
"No." I said simply. "She just wanted to talk is all."
The opening to the common room opened and Lyla Vlasic walked in with a group of girls all giggling. They walked by the table that Rae, Regulus and I were sitting at and practically all of them were batting their eye lashes and trying to get Regulus' attention. "You lot better move on, nobody likes to see the pathetic attempting to look cute." Samantha shot as she came over, receiving glares from all the girls.
I saw Regulus smirk as he didn't look up at a single girl. Samantha flipped one of the chairs around and sat at the table, "I'm gettin' tired of your brother, Regulus." Samantha sneered, "That little blood traitor thinks that every girl just falls over him..."
"And you can't deny it, Samantha." Rae teased, "Don't you remember fourth year? Who was your crush then?"
"That was two years ago." Samantha said, "I didn't realize that it was Regulus' brother."
"And that makes a difference?" I questioned, romance was something I never understood unless it was in the books I read.
"Of course it does." Samantha and Rae both said.
"What if you date one brother and then date the other later on. You can't do that." Samantha told me.
This confused me, "Wait- so you dated Sirius before?" I questioned.
"No." Regulus said, "Samantha and I went out in our third year for a month."
"Oh." I said surprised by the new information. "I didn't..."
"No legilimency?" Regulus asked, his eyes flashing up from his parchment for a second.
"I've come to not use it on you so much." I confessed, him, Rae and Severus. Samantha, I still did every once in a while. I wasn't to trusting yet of her, and with Severus, he obviously knew Occlumency and so it did no good to try and penetrate his mind.
"Oh look at this lovely collection of books I've found." I heard Lyla's voice come as she entered the room with my book bag on her shoulder. "It would seem to be a shame if anything happened to them."
"Marty, isn't that yours?" Rae asked me as her eyes narrowed on Lyla.
"Yes." I said with a nod. "She can do whatever she wants to my books. I put a charm on them so that they can't get wet anymore."
"Smart move." Samantha said, her eyes too, on Lyla and her friends. "Hey- did you ever put a fireproof charm on them?"
"No- I never thought too..." I said standing and turning to watch Lyla and her friend rip the pages out of my books and throw them into the fire. I bit my lip to stop myself from doing anything.
"Hey is this a journal?" I felt a lurch in my stomach as I stayed where I stood. "I wonder what's written in it."
"Lyla..." I heard Samantha hiss standing up.
"Don't do anything." I said turning to her, "Don't let her see that she's getting to you." Samantha's eyes shot to me, annoyance, aggravation and something else written across them as she shot back towards Lyla.
"The snow outside was as pure as the snow that fell the day on my birthday in July, it reminded me of that day. The day I watched my parents get tortured, and killed before me. Not like it brings back bad memories, they are also not the sweetest." Lyla read to the common room, "I took a walk around the lake with Rae, one of the very first people I have ever felt that I could open up too. We talked about the muggle world, something I didn't know anyone here really knew about. I found out that Rae lived in the same town as I, but on the outskirts of London." Lyla's eyes flickered to Rae and myself before she continued to read. "I didn't think to find anyone like her at Hogwarts. I had always seen this place just as dark as my home on Grimmauld, but there is always some sort of light. Rae has become the light that can free me from absolute darkness."
"You're just going to let her read it?" Samantha said stepping towards Lyla and past me.
"Stop it." I hissed grabbing her and pulling her back. "Let her feel she has power over me."
"You're not making any sense." Samantha shot at me, but finally gave up trying to go and send Lyla to the hospital wing.
"After walking around with Rae, I needed to go to a detention I had for not having my things again for Potions. I had served my Transfiguration one earlier today along with my Defence Against the Dark Arts... I had ran into Regulus, the second person I have felt to open up too, as he came out of the potions classroom. He said he had to finish up some potion work." Lyla sneered about the next part and I knew what it was. "When talking to Regulus, I can't help but just look at his eyes, captivating, they are." Lyla turned and glared at me as I stayed standing still.
"That's enough!" Regulus shouted standing up.
"Yeah, I suppose so." Lyla said closing my journal tightly and tossing it over her shoulder into the fire in the fire place. "Aw, looks like we're all out of books." She said trying to sound sympathetic. "This bags pretty useless then without any books." She smirked as she threw into the fire with the books and my journal. "Oh and I almost forgot." She turned and flicked her wand at the fire, it bursting into greater flames, incinerating everything in it's path inside the bricked place.
She laughed and left with her friends back to the dormitories. "LYLA!" Samantha yelled stalking towards her.
"No! Samantha!" I yelled, and without thinking, I flicked my wand, sending her into a leg-lock and causing her to fall over. I walked over to her quickly, "I'm sorry, but I told you not to fret over her. Let her think she had control over what she's done." I flicked my wand, releasing her from the leg-lock.
"You're insane, y'know that?" Samantha yelled at me. "Get angry for once! Yell, hex, beat the shit out of someone!" I stared at her, my expression that of nothingness. "This hasn't been working apparently! It's just getting worse, Marty, and if you're to thick to see that, then you are hopeless!" She shoved me back, "Do you ever expect anyone to care about you if you don't care yourself?!"
"Samantha!" Rae snapped at her as she pushed past me to Samantha.
I spaced out and next thing I knew I was running out of the castle doors and onto the ground, across the grass, and I didn't stop until I tripped over a large root that had sprung from the ground. I looked around and noticed that I was in the forbidden forest. I sat against the tree that I had tripped over. I could still see the castle from where I was sitting, it was about seven trees away from the entrance of the forest.
I was panting and my heart was racing. I didn't understand what I was feeling. My inside was burning, and I couldn't control my breathing. I closed my eyes, trying to control it many times, and all failing. There was no repairing anything that happened in there. My books, my homework, the letters that I had received from my parents on the few occasions that they had sent me anything. Those were in my journal. My journal was ruined. My memories of despair and who I had been for the past four years was destroyed.
"MARTY!" I heard my name being called as I saw a bright light floating around the area. "MARTY!" The light called my name again and I could feel my breathing finally calming some but the burning feelling inside was killing me as I spit near me, seeing a flash of red in it. "MARTY!"
There was a low rumble behind some bushes behind me. My eyes shifted nervously over towards the bushes, unsure of what was going to jump out at me, if anything. The calling of my name has grown softer, until I could no longer hear it as I scrambled to my feet, as I saw a large object jump from behind the bushes.
I let out a small yell as I was thrown onto the ground, pinned under the large weight of lion looking creature. I could feel the sticky water-like substance of saliva that fell down onto my neck and into my hair. I heard the hissing of what appeared to be a snake, and I looked to see a snake head penetrating from where the lions' tail should have been. I went to grab my wand, but the lion body pinned my arms down and growled in my face, its teeth baring very sharply in my direction.
I noticed something on it's back, it looked almost like a goat head, I could make out the horns, but when the lion head lowered towards me, I clenched my eyes shut, fear overcoming my body and brain. "Avada Kedavra!" I heard someone yell and a bright green light before I felt the weight of the lion-goat-snake fall off me.
"Marty!" Someone was suddenly at my side as my eyes were wide staring at the creature as I felt someone pull me to my feet. "Are you all right?" My mind was fuzzy and next thing I knew, I was falling, and I was surrounded by darkness. I felt light, like a feather, and I couldn't feel anything else.
End of chapter 4! YAY! =] what do you think? eh eh? haha I'm in a sorta good mood today. Chapter 5 will be out on Tuesday, and chapter 6 on Thursday. If you're also reading The Torie Potter Project: Living Life in the Middle, it's going on Hiatus for about a week or two after tomorrow. I just can't write like I use too, I don't know why. But I will continue it as well. I think I'll end it in the third installment. Just to let you know, Slytherin's Mayhem is going to be only one installment. Something I hate to do. Don't ask me why. haha but let me know what you're thinking on this story. Do you like Marty? Do you like the relationship between her and the others? What about Lyla? She pisses me off but I like to write her. She reminds me of some of the girls that I had to deal with all put in to one. lol
Has anyone else under gone severe bullying? Not to the extent of Marty, but in any form? I'm sure we all have. So don't worry, you're not alone.