Spencer walked out to the parking lot. She didn't really like her new school… it just wasn't somewhere that she felt right. She and her friends had been the ones to make fun of the Charrywood girls, and yet, here she was- a Charrywood Girl.
She sighed. Her first day had been a complicated one to say the least. She had so much work to catch up on. It was daunting. She wasn't the type of person to give up so easily, but she was starting to wonder what the point of her life was. Why did she have to be the perfect daughter with the perfect friends, the perfect reputation, and the perfect grades? Why did it even matter?
She fiddled with her keys trying to unlock the car door manually. She had been in such a daze that she had forgotten to click the unlock button. She finally managed to get the door unlocked and she opened the door throwing her books onto the passenger side haphazardly. She was getting to a point where she didn't care and she wasn't so sure that she didn't like it. It was nice to just let go. Maybe her friends were right… maybe she was a bit anal and did need to chill out.
Emily couldn't help but feel lonely. She was in a new place. It was completely natural… but it was more than that. She didn't have anyone. She didn't have her bestfriends (or were they still her friends?) and she didn't have her family. No one was there with her. She just felt so… so empty, without feeling. It was like someone had come inside her and sucked all of the joy out of her life.
She didn't want to lie. She didn't even know why she did. But she did… and that was what counted. She lied to everyone. No one was spared… not even herself. She lied to the world and it did as much damage to the outside world as it did to her. It had torn her to pieces… her heart, her soul, her body, her mind… it just couldn't take it. She couldn't take it. It just wasn't healthy.
Aria turned the letter over in her hands. She couldn't read it. It wasn't that she didn't want to, because that was exactly what she wanted to do. She wanted to rip that letter open and read it. She knew that it was from him… she just knew that it was. She didn't need to read the letter to know that much. But she couldn't do it. She just couldn't. If she read the letter then it would only make her sadder and want him more… and she knew that she couldn't do that. She had to move on. He wasn't there anymore and she needed to realize that. Her little schoolgirl fantasy was over. She had to accept that. It didn't matter if she wanted to or not. There were no ands, ifs, or buts about it. It simply was.
She dropped the letter in her bag. She closed her eyes trying not to think about it or what might be in it. Instead, her mind was flooded with thoughts of all the times she had spent with him. 'This isn't good Aria… You have to let him go.' She opened her eyes and continued down the hall searching her brain for anything to distract her.
Hanna flopped down on her bed. She finally had gotten out of that bloody white wedding shop. 'Hah!' she thought, 'And I thought white was supposed to stand for purity…' Her stepmother or soon-to-be-stepmother rather would never be pure in Hanna's eyes. The only pure image that Hanna could conjure up was one of her, her mother, and her father… a happy united family. Kate and Isabel didn't exist in that world. Unfortunately for Hanna, her imagination was more active than reality. Reality had told her that she wasn't going to get what she wanted. Reality had screwed her over.
She took a deep breath and sat up. What was she going to do? She didn't have anyone to go to. Sure, she had her dad… and Kate and Isabel, but they didn't count. She wasn't going to get all lovey-dovey with the people who ruined her perfect image of her life. And then her friends… well the tokens had fallen in place there. She couldn't talk to any of them and it made her sad. She didn't want to distance herself, but she felt herself slipping from the grip of the social realm. She was beginning to not care
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