vince owns everything.
except my ideas.

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"So how's lover boy?" you cannot believe she just asked you so bluntly. You give your trademark evil glare.

"Easy Steph, only kidding." she smirks back taking a sip of her latte and setting it down carefully before continuing "Seriously babe, you have to sort this out, im beginning to miss you. And when I do eventually see ya, your complaining. Its getting kinda old." you pretend to look hurt and laugh. You thank god that this girl is in your life, you wouldn't think so but that extreme daredevil redhead Lita is your best friend. Amy Dumas, as she is known off-screen is one of the very few people who doesn't play a character. She is herself with a different name, which you love. She can go out and be 100% herself and everyone adores her.

"I dunno. Im confused."

"Yeah I know, you've been telling me this since high school. Please don't start thinking now, you might seriously damage yourself." she giggles as you glare daggers at her, trying to think of a snarky comment to reply but you cant.

"You cant think of one can you." Amy laughs again.

"No, but who cares! Im having a crisis here! I need my best friend to support me." you look down, deadly serious now. Your sick of sneaking around with Paul, you would love nothing more than to be with him. But Chris…

"Look, ive never liked Chris. You know that, I think he is in it for the power and the money and I highly dislike the man. You can do so much better. Ive been telling you this since the your first date. I also think his hair is too long and it needs cut." she giggles again as she slowly sips her burning coffee.

"Paul has long hair!"

"Yeah but not as long as Chris's. his is almost as long as mine! that's strange!"

"Whatever." you lace your fingers around you mug, gently touching the sides, watching the steam radiate from the top.

"Look, I love Paul. I think he is fantastic, he's hilarious, kind, trusting and ive known him for years and he is one of the very few people I could hand my life over to and I would trust him with it." You look at Amy, you know how hard it is for her to trust people, she has serious trust issues, you've told her many times too seek counselling, as a joke and seriously. You know she is being serious now and you know how long her and Paul have been friends. "I think he is brilliant and you should be with him"

"Are you sure your not in-love with him?" you raise an eyebrow and let out a slight laugh.

"Of course I am, im so insanely jealous of you that I want to kill you but im biding my time" she evilly smirks at you. "No, im very happy with Matt, thank you very much." she leans back smiling.

"How are you too anyway?" you ask. You've always been jealous of their relationship. They fight and scream at each other all the time but it works, they love each other and they know it, they are deliriously happy and you cant help but feel envious.

"Incredible" You notice her smile widen, she is so hung up.

"Jesus girl! You've got it bad!" you both laugh out loud.

"I know, its gross right!?" Boy did you need this or what? Amy manages to make everything better. Even if you don't actually sort anything out, she still makes you laugh.

"Look Stephie. You'll figure this out. You have too, for you sanity…and mine." she smirks again.

"Did I tell you Chris wants kids…?" you ask her, staring into your coffee cup.

"Your kidding! A married couple, wanting kids. Oh my, we must alert the church elders!"

"Amy im serious!!" you begin to get angry. She jokes about everything!

"I know, im not an idiot!"

"Well…" you begin to give a sarcastic response until she cuts you off.

"Shut up Steph, my sanity is not up for debate. Your's is." you both giggle and get serious again.

"So…kids?"

"Yeah…." you look out the window, you notice a few random superstars walking the streets, no surprise considering the show is in New York city.

"…well, I dunno. I wouldn't want his kids that's for sure."

"Amy, look I know you hate him, you have your reasons, but he is my husband."

"I know, I was at the wedding."

"Do you want kids with him?" she asks.

"Can you see yourself in ten years time living out there somewhere with a white picket fence and a dog, and you and Chris with 2.5 kids?"

You fall silent, trying so hard to picture the future, its no use. You cant. You've never been a future girl. You've been best friends with Amy since you were six! You've never been allowed to look into the future. You laugh at the thought, you were both fifteen and sneaking out of your parents house at night:

[flashback]

"Steph c'mon!"

"Ames we cant! Daddy will go mad!"

"Who cares!?" Amy said, climbing up on the ledge.

"ME! I don't wanna get grounded, he'll ground me until im 40 if he finds out ive been sneaking out!"

"Live in the moment Stephie. don't think about what he's gonna do tomorrow! You'll regret it if you don't come!" Amy whispered loudly as she jumped from the window down to the ground and began running through the field behind your house.

"Damn you Amy freaking Dumas." you whisper jumping out after her.

[end flashback]

"I don't know…"

"Its simple Steph. Just think about who you have more fun with. With Paul, do you laugh?"

"Yeah."

"Does he make you laugh or do you just generally laugh at him…?"

"Amy! C'mon!" you both snigger.

"Okay, when your with him, does every other thought of anyone else just fall out of your head?"

You look at her and you know she's right, she reads you like a book and knows exactly what your thinking, you hate that.

"Yeah."

"Okay, with Chris…"

"Okay."

"Do you laugh…?"

"Rarely…"

"When you with him do you think of anyone or anything else…"

"Yeah."

"Like what….." She leans in forward as you delve deeper into conversation.

"Why im with him, why we're talking about having kids when all I can think about is how I want to gag him and shut him up because he wont leave me alone for two fucking minutes.!"

Amy looks shocked, what you did realise is your voice just got angrier and louder. Luckily you are sitting at a far away table so no-one is near you.

"Damn Steph, get out of there."

"I cant." you whisper.

"Why not? You clearly hate the man as much as I do!"

"No I don't."

"You just said you want to gag him to shut him up, your meant to be in-love with this man!"

"You say that about Matt!"

"Yeah, but I still love him! Unlike you, I can imagine myself with Matt in ten years time with our 2.5 kids and picket fence!"

"Aww Ames! that's so cute."

"Yeah, im a girl with feelings, get over it." She sips her coffee again and you laugh, she never admits her feelings so you find this particular moment endearing.

"Answer me this Steph…"

"Can you live without Chris?"

"Yes."

"Can you live without Paul?"

You ponder for a moment, you think back, you were away for 2 weeks and you felt like you were going to explode, you needed to see him, but you managed it because you knew he would be there when you got back.

"Yes."

"Well then…." you interrupt her next speech.

"I just don't want to."

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