My Life Is A Drama Chapter 4: Modeling and Singing, an inuyasha fanfic

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha.

A/N: This chapter will be from Inuyasha's POV. Let's see what goes through his mind ne? B/tw, I'm not sure whether to make him human or hanyou in this fic. He seems hot both ways.

Chapter 4 – Modeling

I wonder if that girl, what's her name, will appear here. She is a model after all. Although I do not want to admit it, the reason I agreed to fill in for the male model is because I hope I can see her again. Maybe it's because she looks so much like Kagome that I want to befriend her. I don't understand it though; why does my heart pound so fast when I'm thinking about her? It's not like she's Kagome or anything, right? I put the last touchings of my outfit, and I'm done.

"Inuyasha. We are really grateful that you are here," the manager started to say. "It would've been a hassle if we had to find another model."

I looked at my vampire outfit; well it was nearing Halloween in a month, I suppose. Or was it two? The door opened and there she was.

Bam! "Sorry for being so late! We were caught up in the traffic jam!" said Iris, completely out of breath.

She was a quick dresser, though that was understandable. When she came out, she was breath takenly beautiful. Her warm brown eyes stared cheerfully at the coworkers. She was really excited. She was wearing a long, green dress that looked like it was from a movie. Very beautiful indeed. I guess she did not take notice of me yet. Well, I'll see her sooner or later. The thought of it made me smirk. I was dragged by one of the coworkers who pointed to the screen where the lyrics for the song I had to sing were. The routine was the models would sing, and then have a fashion show afterwards. They were all Halloween costumes for some reason. Before I knew it, it was my turn to sing.

Inuyasha singing:

I know myself very well that I present myself different from others.

Whatever I think of, I'd just say it out, disregarding anyone completely.

I follow what my mind tells me to, even though it opposes with my heart.

I ask myself for whom am I doing this for?

Mocking at myself, destroying myself. Whatever I get ( in return )

There're only tears, confusion and troubled thoughts.

I have to tolerate this aching pain throughout my body and soul.

My weak point is right in the heart.

That strong composure that I show. Frankly, it's almost killing me.

I want to be filled with love, I want someone to understand me.

I must hide it internally inside my heart. It's nothing.

In fact, that heart.. it's weak.
I know that you don't love me, you don't care about me.

Deep inside (my heart), it almost felt like it's disappearing, can't come to terms with it.
I pretend like I don't care but in fact my tears flow.
It hurts my entire heart and I can't find anyone who understands at all.
My weak point is right in the heart.
That strong composure that I show. Frankly, it's almost killing me.

I want to be filled with love, I want someone to understand me.

I must hide it internally inside my heart. Doing that because,

I don't need to let anyone know that inside my heart, I love only you.

and I love... (you)whole-heartedly.

I put down the mike and heard the applauses. To some point, I feel the song relates to my situation. It's hard, you know to express my feelings. It's easier to try and be arrogant, annoying and simply put a bastard, than to really express what I'm feeling inside. But I really do like Kagome, but it seems like she is ignoring me.

Kagome singing:

Waited for you, waited to see you for many days.

Waited for you, to talk to you about our unresolved matters.

Thank you once again for spending time to come today.

Hence I'll come straight to the point then, let's say goodbye, would that be alright?

To force it then would be like we'll be more tired. Love don't help with anything at all.

I refuse to change; you refuse to change. We remain behaving as ever before.

Reconciliating with each other further; it's just repeating the old theme.

Even if we love each other, but we're unable to be compatible at all.

When we will never yield to be less then we should say goodbye.

Honestly I'm also still sad and also regret.

You yourself may be sad too, may not be less so than me.

However at least we also had ever spent our lives together.

Will keep it in my heart that we had ever loved each other by however much.

To force it then would be like we'll be more tired. Love don't help with anything at all.
I refuse to change; you refuse to change. We remain behaving as ever before.
Reconciliating with each other further; it's just repeating the old theme.
Even if we love each other, but we're unable to be compatible at all.
When we will never yield to be less then we should say goodbye.

Our lives, we return to each other; the days that were very happy, and the days that were very sad.
To us it'll probably be just yesterdays.
Whatever that had came, beg to let it pass; not to be obligated to each other.
Henceforth we're just parallel lines that probably never a day will return to meet.

To force it then would be like we'll be more tired. Love don't help with anything at all.
I refuse to change; you refuse to change. We remain behaving as ever before.
Reconciliating with each other further; it's just repeating the old theme
Even if we love each other, but we're unable to be compatible at all.
When we will never yield to be less then we should say goodbye.

Her voice is so pure, so angelic. I would ponder more, but the lyrics flashed on screen and I was on stage once again:

Inuyasha and Kagome:

jat jaa daa daa jat jat jaa daa daa hoow

jat jaa daa daa jat jat jaa daa daa

Inuyasha:

I finally fell for you, I finally fell for you.

You came and made my heart beat faster.

The more I see you the more I like you, the more I like you the more I get scared, you know my good girl.

Sometimes you're the right one, sometimes not.

It looks like you feel the same but sometimes it seems like you don't.

It's hard to guess what you're thinking, I have no clue to your thoughts.

Both:

Don't make me love you otherwise I'll fall for you, I'll love you.

I'm not yet ready which means that I won't be able to hold back.

Love has pierced my heart, I try to pull it out but it won't go.

Don't make me hope if you don't love me one bit.

If I have misunderstood, I take no responsibility.
You always make me believe; if I accidentally hug you what would you say?

jat jaa daa daa jat jat jaa daa daa hoow

jat jaa daa daa jat jat jaa daa daa hoow
jat jaa daa daa jat jat jaa daa daa

Kagome:

Well I have a soft heart so I always fall for people easily.
Please don't, I beg you; don't make my heart waver.
Just tell me straight if you love me like I love you then we can work this thing out.

Both:
Don't make me love you otherwise I'll fall for you, I'll love you.
I'm not yet ready which means that I won't be able to hold back.
Love has pierced my heart, I try to pull it out but it won't go.
Don't make me hope if you don't love me one bit.
If I have misunderstood, I take no responsibility.
You always make me believe; if I accidentally hug you what would you say?

(Interlude)

Don't make me love you otherwise I'll fall for you, I'll love you.

I'm not yet ready which means that I won't be able to hold back.
Love has pierced my heart, I try to pull it out but it won't go.
Don't make me hope if you don't love me one bit.
If I have misunderstood, I take no responsibility.
You always make me believe; if I accidentally hug you what would you say?
jat jaa daa daa jat jat jaa daa daa hoow

jat jaa daa daa jat jat jaa daa daa hoow

"Yo Iris! What's up?" I greeted her.

"Hey," she said, looking a bit shocked.

"Shocked to see me?" I asked.

"Yeah, sorta. What happened to Kouga?"

"He had a stomachache and needed someone else to take his place. My family owns this company so I had to help out. Yeah," I informed her, not really wanting to tell her the whole truth.

"Oh," she said. "Well, wanna grab something to drink and go for a quick walk or something?"

"Sure, why not?" I answered. There it was again, this feeling of familiarity and the fast heartbeat. Oh no, these aren't please don't tell me….rejection signals? I want to befriend such a beautiful girl, but that's not possible if my body automatically rejects her.

"What's wrong?" Iris asked.

"Oh nothing. It's just hot in here," I said. "Let's go over to the shade over there."

We talked for a while, and learned a bit more about her. Before I knew it, it was time to go back inside. The fashion show was starting. We walked together, and did a dramatic dramatization of her falling and me catching her and biting her neck. My heart was beating wildly. I hope she didn't hear that. It was a great day today. That night, I had a weird dream that I was sitting near the seaside kissing Kagome and after the kiss she turned into Iris?!

A/N: wow even Inu's subconscious knows the Kagome is Iris. Tune in and see how and when Inu will figure out the two of them are the same. It will be a while though, with that thick head of his. B/tw, the three songs are not by me. They are thai songs from AOF jud on kong hua jai, Nat Myria ruk mai chuy aria, and Ice khon jai ngai, respectively. Here's links to the songs themselves if you guys wanna listen to it. /lyrics5/1007.html

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