A/N: Thank you again for the positive feedback that is coming from this story. I know this is sad but how would we know the good without the bad, right? Anyway, as a reward for being awesome readers, here's the next chapter! YAY!

Chapter 4: Holes

Well, we've got holes in our hearts

Yeah, we've got holes in our lives

Well, we've got holes

We've got holes

But we carry on

Lexie got up early the next morning. Her mind was still running wild and she couldn't sleep. She went out and sat on the couch. What she really wanted was some coffee but she couldn't have any right now. Technically she was allowed to have one cup of coffee a day but she didn't want to add any risk to the other babies. After losing one, she didn't want to feel that loss again. She got up and made coffee for Mark knowing that he'd be up soon and she made some toast for herself to eat even though she wasn't that hungry but she knew she had to eat for the babies.

Mark got up a little while later to find that Lexie wasn't in bed with him. He went to the kitchen to find Lexie in there. She turned around and gave him a cup of coffee before going to sit down at the table. Mark thanked her for the coffee as he sat down. "How long have you been awake?"

"A couple hours. I really just couldn't sleep." Lexie sighed looking over to him. "How are we just supposed to just... go on?" Lexie asked glancing down at her stomach. She still had to care for two babies even though she had just lost one.

"I don't know yet, Lexie." Mark sighed looking over to her.

"I know." She sighed. "Do you have to go in today?"

"Yeah, I have to go in about an hour." Mark sighed. He really wanted to stay home with her after last night but his schedule was too busy today to cancel. It wasn't a necessarily a long day, he would be home early, but there was a lot to do. He had been planning the surgery for months and he couldn't give up on it now so he had to go in. This surgery could easily change everything for the child he was operating on after the kid got badly injured in a fire. "I should be home early though." He said to Lexie. "I'm going to go take a shower." He said as he finished his coffee.

"I think I'm going to go back and lay down for a while. Try and get some sleep." Lexie said following him into the bedroom which led to the bathroom. Mark walked in and Lexie went and climbed back into bed. She laid there and felt tears roll down her face. She couldn't stop crying. Lexie heard Mark get of the shower and she turned away from the door. She didn't want him to see her cry. She knew it killed him inside and she didn't want to. Mark got out of the shower and got dressed before coming to lay next to Lexie in bed. "Mark.." She said quietly wiping her tears. "I thought you were leaving."

"I am. I have a few minutes." He said putting his arms around her. "I love you." He said to her sitting up after laying there for a few minutes. "And I love you two." Mark said leaning down to kiss her stomach.

Lexie smiled a little feeling Mark kiss her stomach. "I love you too." She said to him as he left. "And Mommy loves you two, too." Lexie said with a small smile down to her stomach. She couldn't wait until she would be able to feel them kick and move around inside of her. Lexie laid there for a while trying to sleep but it didn't work. She got up and went into the living room. She sat on the couch and watched some TV. She looked around the apartment and realized how small it was. She pulled out of laptop and decided she should start looking for houses. They were going to have to move if they were going to bring two babies home. They had a spare bedroom but it was used as Sofia's room when she wanted to stay the night or they had to take care of her. They didn't have anywhere to put one baby, let alone two of them.

After a long search through tons of houses, she found a few that she liked and were in their price range. Of course, she would have to talk to Mark about buying a house but she thought it would be a good idea. Lexie got up and ate a quick lunch before going back and falling asleep on the couch. She was tired and needed this sleep. She slept for a few hours before waking up. She sat up and just didn't feel well. She sat there for a while before it finally wore off. "I see the morning sickness is still a thing." She said placing a hand on her stomach. "Thanks guys." She sighed laying back down. She had a headache and she thought it would be better to just try and relax. She was still having pretty painful cramps and bleeding. She just didn't feel well. She laid down and covered herself with a blanket. She tried to keep her mind off of it by watching TV but she couldn't and she started crying. Once she started crying, she couldn't stop. She laid there for a while and finally the tears slowed down some. She got up to get herself a glass of water but as she walked into the kitchen she began to feel faint. Her head was spinning and the next thing she knew she blacked out.

"Hey, Lex. I'm home." Mark said walking into the apartment. She wasn't on the couch but the TV was on. Lexie never left the TV on. "Lex?" He said walking into the bedroom, thinking that maybe she just went to the bathroom but she wasn't there either. Then he walked into the kitchen and saw his wife sitting on the kitchen floor slightly dazed. "Lex?" He asked sitting next to her. "Lexie, what happened?"

"I- I don't know. I was getting water and I guess I passed out." She said looking to him slowly.

"Can you get up?" Lexie shook her head. She had tried that and it didn't work. Mark scooped her up in his arms took her over to the hospital.

When they saw Lexie in Mark's arms everyone reacted quickly. They got her in a wheelchair and took her to an exam room. Her blood pressure was pretty low so they started her on fluid in an IV and she slept for a while. She was a lot more alert after that.

"Mark.." Lexie said quietly looking around. "What happened?"

"You passed out and I found you sitting on the kitchen floor, so I brought you over to the hospital. You lost a lot of blood from the miscarriage so your blood pressure was low. Addison is running some tests now just to make sure there's no infection but everything else seems fine." Mark said to her.

"I'm sorry." Lexie said looking down.

"For what?" Mark asked looking over to her.

"For being here again." She said with a sigh. "I hate being the patient. When can we go home?"

"Addison should be back with the blood work soon and she going to do an ultrasound. If everything looks good we can go home tonight." Mark said kissing her forehead. "It's not your fault, you know?"

"I know." She sighed. "It just feels like it is. Like somehow I was the one who let this happen or made this happen."

"Well, you're not." Mark said with a smile kissing her on the forehead again. "Everything's going to be okay."

Addison came in a few minutes later. "So, all your bloodwork came back normal. There's no infection. I just want to do another ultrasound to make sure everything looks okay." Addison said beginning the ultrasound. She looked around for a while and listened to the heartbeats which were strong and healthy. "Everything looks great. You can go home. I do not want to see you as a patient until your appointment next week. Now, go home, get some rest, and take it easy." Addison demanded.

Lexie complied and went home and sat on the couch. Mark came and sat next to her. "So," He said putting his arm around her as she rested her head on his shoulder. "What did you do today?"

"I watched some TV and slept most of the day. I also cried... a lot." She looked down to the ground before looking back up and continuing. "And I got an idea." Lexie said with a smile.

"And what idea would that be?"

"I was looking around the apartment today and realized that we have absolutely no room for two babies to live in this house. So, I may have started looking at houses." Lexie said reaching forward and grabbing her laptop from the coffee table in front of them.

"You did? Did you find anything?"

"I found a couple houses I liked that would be in our price range." Lexie said showing him the houses. "I was thinking that maybe this weekend sometime we could go look at them? I mean, if we want to move before the babies are born we need to find a house pretty quickly." She reasoned to him.

"That sounds good." Mark smiled to her. "I think I have a few hours off on Sunday afternoon."

"I'll call tomorrow and see if we can go see them." Lexie said with a smile before giving her husband a kiss.

"Okay," Mark smiled. "How about we go get some sleep?" He offered getting up and going into the bedroom. He laid down and she laid down next to him and putting her head on his chest. "I love you."

"I love you, too." Lexie said before closing her eyes and falling asleep in her husband's arms.

A few days later Mark and Lexie went and looked at the houses. They had ultimately ruled one out but that left them with two to choose from. Lexie and Mark walked in the apartment and sat down at the table.

"Which one did you like more?" Lexie asked him.

"I think I liked the second one more. It had a huge backyard and a lot of space for the twins and when Sofia comes over. I think she'd like it. It's also bigger but less expensive." Mark said looking to her.

"Yeah, and it's in a really good neighborhood. Even though we don't really have to worry about schools for a few years." Lexie said with a smile. "I think we should sleep on it and we'll talk again in a few days or something. Just to make sure and to make sure we don't find any other houses."

"I think that's a good idea." Mark said with a smile. "On a different note, when do you officially want to tell everyone about the twins? I mean, I'm sure they know now but I do kind of want to make it official for everyone."

"Yeah, um, how about after we go in for the 16 week appointment and find out what they are we can tell them." Lexie said to him. "Then, we should be out of the woods for anything else happening." Lexie smiled. She really couldn't wait to have her babies. Losing one was one of the hardest things she had been through but she knew she had to take care of herself so she could take care of the other two babies. She couldn't risk going through that again.