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Beck POV
oh man...how am i going to get out if this? i pace back and forth in the empty house.
usually celine and i would have omri asleep in his crib while we make love in a guest bedroom...but were not. i slipped up so bad. she found out about kea.
how could i have let this happen. had i just been loyal, like celine is to me.
and even still what i told her wasnt the truth..i slept with kea two weeks before the breakup. then went back to her afterwards.
it wasnt even my intention to cheat. i went over trents house to ask for advice on how to get a girl into bed..
i knock on the door. it opens seconds later and trent welcomes me. "hey, heads up my girlfriends here" he says letting me in. i laugh, you got back together with keathe". "yeah, but what can i say, no girl can resist me" he gloats and shuts the door. "ill be right back", and trent heads upstairs.
a slender red headed girl walks into the room. "little becky" she says throwing her arms around me. "easy. i have a girlfriend" i say. she looks down, then why are you boner". i have a bad habit of getting turned on easily
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"because you refuse to ever wear pants, or an actual shirt". keathe is dressed in a red and black plaid push up bra and a raggedy white racerback and her underwear ties on the sides in neat bows."i bet your girlfriend doesnt wear stuff like this does she becky" she teases, circling my boner with her finger, making it harder. "no" is all i say.
"shame. if i were your girlfriend i would give you all of this whenever you wanted" she says taking my hand and placing in on the top of her breast
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i have to refrain. i take my hand away, " well your not my girlfriend, your trents" i say and back away.
just then trent comes back downstairs. "alright, so you want tips on how to get your girl to wanna...you know wanna be with you in bed". "oh please trent just say sex" keathe says annoyed and we all take a seat in the living room.
trent gives me pointers on what turns girls on the most. he has keathe demonstrate.
" here you try, shove her breast like this.." he says. i refuse, "im not touchimg YOUR girlfriend." i say. " i dont care" he says and has keathe lay on the couch. i walk over and then hesistate. ive never touched a girl this way before, celine never let me. " just put your hand on it and push" trent urges.
"what the hell man why would you let me touch your girl?" i ask. "well im not really in the mood for sex and she keeps complaining shes horny..then you come asking for advice and i figured what better way to help you both than to put you two together.
i dont understand. "what?" i ask turning to him. he sighs, "you want to know about sex. and she wants to have it so she tells you what to do and you get to satisfy her. im a good friend" he announces proudly.
"cmon becky its not that big of a deal."keathe says taking my hand and leads me upstairs.
should i really be doing this..what if celine was to find out..
but if i do this then ill be able to have sex with her correctly.
keathe takes me to trents bedroom and shuts and locks the door. "kea im not really sure about this" i say. she pulls my shirt off and i let her. "well you seem pretty sure, so why dont you stop talking and do what i say" she smiles.
i blink the flash back away and drop onto the couch.
is it wrong for a man to cry?
my leg shakes uncontrollably. i run my fingers through my hair.
the house is so quiet, without the heart-warming sound of my children. my beautiful daughter would be twirling around, her bronze curls swirling. she would always say, "daddy look" and smile at me when i clapped for her.
celine would be on the couch playing with our baby boy. little omri has just started teething. he looked just like me. watching him grow up is my dream. but it was my mistake that will stop that dream from ever coming true. now celine took our kids and left.
i know that if i call she wont answer, and if i head to twelve her dad will hurt me...but its been a whole month.
i cant end it like this
..i love her too much. i need to apologize, at least.
i get up and leave the house.
i walk down to the train station and wait for the train to twelve. when it arrives at the station i board it. "hey beck" i hear. i turn and see Gale and his family. a teenage girl sits against the wall with earphones in her ears, a younger girl sitting on the floor playing with a teddy bear, and a little boy with black hair and gray eyes that looks just like hunter. "hey" i say and shake his hand. "what are you doing here by yourself wheres celine and the kids" he asks. "she went to visit her parents and took the kids
" i say.
he nods, "so, uh hows the wife" i ask trying to make conversation. "shes fine, and were heading up to twelve to visit my mother." he says. "cool. um i forgot your sons name, what did you say it was" i ask. gale chuckles, "well which one" he asks. he can tell by my face im confused. "well theres hunter, kaine.." he points to the little boy on the floor, "..and jeremie". i understand know, "oh you have another baby" i say in realization. gale laughs, "yeah, i forgot, i never told you and celine that Theta had another baby" he laughs a little. i smile, "how old is he" i ask. "about seven months" he answers.
"omris that old" i smile. gale smiles back then turns towards his kids. his wife walks in with a brown headed baby boy with green eyes.
from the back he looks just like my baby.
i feel a pain in my chest.
theyve been gone for a month and celine is so mad at me. there is a chance she might want to seperate completely and ill never get to see my kids.
"hes adorable" i say trying to smile. "thanks" theta says and goes to sit down.
when we stop in twelve three hours later i rush to the victors village. i need to apologize, i need to get her to come home with me, and i need her to forgive what ive done.
i cant lose her and my kids. i really cant. its been a whole month and i cant take not being with them..theyre my family.
i make it to the victors village and i see aunt katniss on the porch playing with her baby. she looks just like her daughter..the love of my life. "aunt katniss" i call. she looks up at me and then rises to stand at the staircase to greet me. "beck why are you here?" she asks. "i need to apologize to celine. i need to tell her what happened and i need to fix this" i explain breathlessly.
"celine already told peeta and i what happened. how could you do that to her?" she asks. "i dont know! okay. im sorry it was a mistake ill never make again! but i have to talk to her! please" i beg.
"i dont want to talk to you" celine says walking out onto the porch. i look at her and climb the staircase
aunt katniss doesnt stop me either.
"beck im serious. just go home...i really cant..." just then someone walks up behind her. celine looks down and says, "go back inside baby". i look and see Delenae. "ellen baby" i call. she sees me, "daddy!" she runs out of the house and into my arms. "delenae get back in the house" celine orders. delenae takes my hand, "cmon daddy. omri talked yesterday" she says pulling me towards the door. celine puts her hand on my chest and stops me.
my son talked yesterday! i look into celines big blue eyes, "what did omri say", she hesitates for a moment then says, " he said dada". i smile, but she doesnt.
this makes my smile go away. "baby im so sorry" i say. "this isnt happening again beck. the last time we seperated i was pregnant. you left me alone! you left me to take care of the baby you said you wanted! you didnt call for a whole month and now you did it again!" she cries stabbing me in the chest with her finger.
"i did want the baby, and i love you and the kids more than anything in the world.
"then why would you leave me for someone else!?" her voice is high pitched now.
"you say you love me and you want to have babies with me but then you go fuck someone else!" she screams.
"celine i did it for you!" i say back. that came out wrong! "what!" "no thats not what i meant" i try to take it back. " you had sex with another girl for me how does that make any sense!". i blurt it out, "i slept with kea before our first time" and immediately i regret it. "what!?" she breaks into tears. "you cheated on me i knew it! i knew you mustve done something you werent supposed to be experienced !" she cries.
she holds her hands over her eyes as she sobs. "i cannot believe you" she sobs.
aunt katniss has been watching this whole time. she heads into the house, "peeta!" she calls.
"celine im sorry" i whisper to her. she looks up at me with red eyes, "no your not! if you cared you wouldnt have done it! you wanted to be with kea, now you can go and fuck that...hoe! all you want!" she yells and keeps screaming at me and blaming me. "celine your not letting me explain! celine! celine just give me a second to explain!" i shout over her. im getting angry. she keeps yelling and yelling.
it takes one sentence to take me over the edge and make me snap. " i dont want to have anymore of your babies! if i end up pregnant by you ill abort the baby just like i did the last time!".
"you did what!?" her eyes show regret, "i..", "you aborted one of my babies! when!?" i demand an answer.
"beck this isnt about me..", " yes it is! you killed one of our babies. you never told me you had an abortion!", " i had to." she replies defensively.
"let me get this straight...you're screaming at me for what i did...but here you are with a dirty little secret of your own!".
"whats going on out here" uncle peeta says walking outside.
celine and i both complain to him at the same time and he ends up understanding both sides of the story.
"you two need to talk this out you both were wrong" he says. "how am i wrong dad you made me get the abortion" celine says. "but i never told you to keep it a secret from him" he says back.
celine has nothing to say. "the two of you go upstairs and talk this out." he says moving out of the way so we can pass.
i walk behind celine and uncle peeta grabs my shoulder, " you'd better fix this. you understand" he says. i nod and he lets me through.
i head upstairs after celine and we head into her room.
she sits on her bed with her arms crossed sadly.
i shut the door and sit on her bed as far away as i can.
she wipes her eyes and looks at me, " im sorry i didnt tell you about the abortion.." she whispers. i dont answer immediately. "why did you get it" i ask her. "..you know when we first had delenae, and my dad didnt want us alone together. then we had sex when they werent home..?" she asks. i nod. "you got me pregnant again...and when i told my parents, dad didnt want me to have another baby...so he made me abort it..". i sigh, "im sorry..i shouldnt have yelled at you about that-you didnt deserve it..but i deserved to be yelled at i know that what i did was wrong and you have every right to be mad at me. but i want to tell you what happened. i didnt just go and cheat on you. i mean i didnt plan it..it just happened." i say.
she looks at me sadly and i tell her the story happened. i tell her how i went to trent for advice and how he set me up with keathe. "thats why i didnt want you to talk to him on the phone..after we had sex. i was afraid he would tell you what happened."
celine thinks for a second, "but what about after the breakup."
"after we broke up i went to trents house..i was really upset..and he had me drink. i shouldnt have listened to him i was sixteen and stupid i didnt care about consequenses.." i say. celine is still listening. "so we ended up drunk and the next morning i woke up next to kea in bed.."
celines eyes flicker to the floor, "and what about when you hung up on me and didnt call for a month..what was that all about" she asks me.
"kea said that i had asked her out while i was drunk and she accepted..but whenever i tried to break up with her she would seduce me until i changed my mind" i look at my wife, her face is grimaced in disgust.
" the day you called and told me you were pregnant kea walked in the room and hung the phone up...im really sorry about that baby" i say sincerely. "what about the whole month you didnt call me" she asks again. "i got a job working at the pier..i would pack all of the fishermens supplies into the fishing boats and fix up their fishing spears. so i had an excuse to stay away from kea."
"well if you didnt like her then why were you so happy to see her that day at the preschool. "..
i wasnt. i was pretending because i knew she would start a huge problem with you if i showed you more affection."
"so all of this is basically my fault" celine says sadly. "no baby we both messed up...but we can forget all of this and start from where we left off.-what do you say?" i ask her.
in response she breaks out crying again and crashes into my arms. "i dont want to break up again beck. i missed you so much!" she says into my shirt. i hug her tightly. "i missed you too celine" i say and tears roll down my cheeks. i did it!
i got her back...