Heys to all...uh i've had a weird phone conversation the other day...well it was texting but it's the same...it went like this...hi...hey...so what you doin...-_- nothing...do you not like me or something...yes im smiling ain't I -_-...no ur not...yes I am see -_-...no ur not...-_-yes I am...:-) this is smiling not -_-...yes I am -.-now I'm pouting...did I up set u...whatever txt u later !_!...did I make u cry *tear* I'm so sorry!...-_- it's ok: meanwhile I'm at home laughing at the whole conversation... anyway here's chapter four for you.
Chapter four: old flames never wane
"Kojo...inuyasha" I couldn't believe my eyes I blinked a couple times to make sure I wasn't delusional. I hoped this was just my mind playing with my emotions because here I am standing in the family room with my ex who I just ran from and my current boyfriend who was supposed to be in los Angeles on business. Why kami why, why do this to me now.
"Kagome" they both said in unison. They looked at each other and hojo spoke. "You know my girlfriend?" Inuyasha swallowed "uh yeah...she's your girlfriend eh" he glanced at me and the air became tense between us. I pleaded with my eyes for him not to say anything before he turned his attention back to hojo.
"Yeah, so how do you two know each other?" He asked looking from him to me then back. "Yeah we uh...have a history" inuyasha answered. "Yeah, a history" I said agreeing.
All of a sudden the room got really tense. Part of me felt like ringing inuyasha's neck for even being alive but that wouldn't solve my problems it would just make it worse. I sighed out loud and everyone looked at me.
"Well I need to study..." i looked at my mom and smiled and she smiled back "...can use that room upstairs" she nodded "of course you can sweetheart, go right ahead"
I thanked her then went upstairs. I opened the door to the room that was designed to be a teenaged girl's bedroom.
I settled at the desk near the window completely ignoring the figure in the doorway.
"Yes sweetheart" I said taking a break to look at the figure in the doorway. "So you and inuyasha have a history" he asked crossing his arms while leaning into the doorway.
"Yeah...we were really close...friends...we haven't seen each other since I moved to California" I lied through my teeth and I hoped he didn't see through it.
"Oh, okay..." he straightened into a standing position "...so your mom's really nice and so's your brother" I nodded "I was hoping to introduce you to them myself but I guess it's alright...I was getting tired of hiding you" I chuckled as he came over to me with a pout on his face and pulled me up to him.
I smiled and he smiled back and he kissed me gently and slowly. I usually liked his kisses but now it felt...wrong...like I was cheating. 'You are' my mind whispered "no" I said against his lips. He pulled back with an eyebrow raised "it's nothing" I said answering his unasked question. But honestly it wasn't nothing I just came back today and already my flame for inuyasha has been re-lit.
Or was it ever extinguished? Kojo sighed reminding me that he was still in the room. "Well..." he said looking over my shoulder at the clock. "...it's time I headed to the hotel...bye kagome" he gave me a quick peck on the lips then slid out of my grasp and left.
Not long after he left another figure showed up in the doorway. "Did you tell him?" "No" came my answer "oh...well kagome I've been meaning to talk to you-" "no...I don't want to hear it" I said my voice tired "kagome...please just let me explain...please"
I sat on the bed my heart feeling heavy from all the memories his voice brought back. I wanted to cry but I couldn't not in front of him...the cause of my pain.
"It hurts..." I trailed off "what do you mean kagome" "being near you...it hurts..." tears escaped my confines. Inuyasha sat down beside me and grabbed my hand and wiped my tears with his free hand. I didn't fight him I was to weak.
"...Your voice holds so many memories...it's so painful to even think about you and I after you left me for her...I loved you and I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you I wanted those kids...I wanted you and I to be happy...but I realized that you just used my heart as a chew toy...you played with me made me feel wanted...made me feel loved...but you buried me in the dirt...forgotten...and abandoned for another"
"Kagome...I'm so sorry for putting you though that...when I came to your house that day to return your book I was gonna say...that I was sorry and I realized after you left school that I missed seeing you everyday and I realized that kikyo didn't even like me she just wanted to get rid of you...you were her competition she was the second most beautiful girl in the school and she wanted to be the most beautiful and that was you...I thought I wanted her but I realized that she was only attractive to me because she looked like you...and I never stopped loving you...and I never will"
I wasn't believing what I was hearing not for a second. And if this was real it wouldn't work I could never forgive him for leaving me after all we had been though. Enough was enough I pulled away from him I needed some air. I walked to the desk I was using and started packing my things well aware of the pair of eyes following every movement I made.
Tears were still steaming down my emotionless face they just wouldn't stop. I sniffled involuntarily as I finished packing my stuff and looked at inuyasha daring him to follow with my eyes. And I left catching a taxi to the hotel where I was staying.
This is twice I ran from inuyasha it's beginning to become a habit. I wiped my eyes as I watched the scenery change. Wishing my emotions would just go away.
I arrived at the hotel and went up to my room. I opened the door kicking off my shoes not caring where they landed. I decided to just sleep in my clothes. I felt so tired. I crashed on the bed, slowly drifting into a sleep filled with the nightmares that i call memories.
That's the end of chapter four he explained...it wasn't a good reason to leave her in my opinion...well question of the day well more like question of the chapter but whatever...do you think It was a good reason for inuyasha to leave kagome?...'till next time on the drama of kagome's life...nah the songs of the heart...it's more poetic...see you on the next episode :-)...sorry for these short chapters...hopefully they get longer.