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.Axel.
I couldn't help but scowl as that ass-y blonde walked off, smirking at me. Roxas fiddled with his fingers, slight smile on his lips and blush on his cheeks. I growled.
Fuck that blonde runt named Hayner.
Fuck my jealousy.
Fuck the happiness Roxas feels.
Fuck the slight anger and sadness that I'm feeling.
And most of all, fuck the crush I am now developing on Roxas.
…Fuck that, forget I ever thought that last one. I just met the kid, yesterday, to be exact. And just because I had an erotic dream with him last night does not mean anything, I mean, I've had plenty with people who I didn't like or ever did like them, hell, even with girls for that matter.
…I'm not lying. Especially not about the Roxas one.
…
Know what? Fuck off, even my mind goes against me. I hate you, tiny conscious. Even if you do never respond, just make me go against myself.
And me mentally cussing every five seconds isn't do me well, either. I think I just might be glaring at the back of Naminé's head and that's totally freaking Roxas out, because he's looking back every few seconds with either a look of confusion or worry. …I don't really know, something along the lines of that.
"Axel… Are you alright?" Roxas asked slowly. I quit glaring, finally realizing that I was glaring, and could have formed a huge hole in the back side of Naminé's head, and sighed. I made a softer face and looked back a Roxas, rubbing the back of my neck while I made a small smile, my eyes furrowed downward.
"Yeah, sorry, just thinking… By the way, Nami, don't think I was glaring at you purposely. Sorry if your brains are burning." I said while Nami and Roxas just laughed nervously and continued walking. I sighed once again, but this time because of the burning sun. Compared to Twilight Town, I thought it would be a whole lot hotter, but it's actually almost the same, only thing is that Twilight Town is windier so… You don't suffer as much.
I started humming softly, at times whispering the lyrics to any Panic! At The Disco song, because that's the most awesome band, and I've officially raped my iPod with all their music. I think, repeat, think, that I had seen Roxas shiver a little. …I don't know if that should make me feel happy or upset. I take happy, though!
Oops, I was kind of getting off track there, right? Sorry, I do that a lot, have random conversations with myself in moments lacking humans speaking. So, I don't really pay that much attention to reality, which is something I think I need to stop doing, or one day I'm going to get run over by a bus or something.
…Dammit, I did it again! But now I am paying attention, so here's back to reality;
I think we've been waking for at least ten minutes now, walking down a dry, dirt road. It was calm and there was actually the slightest breeze. Naminé and I looked off to the sides, which were filled with bright green grass and beautiful houses, some bigger than others. I could see Roxas occasionally smile, looking off to the sides. There was then a part where the dirt road stopped and an actual road was there, you know, the black ones, which I forget the name to. Further on, the road split onto several different roads. Off in the distance in a road that was farthest down to the right, there were a few older kids there. Well, kids as in Roxas' age, maybe a year or two older, even though there weren't really kids anymore.
I smiled at how friendly and serene this place seemed, but then noticed that Roxas froze up and he eyes almost bulged out, staring off into the direction where the other people were.
"Run." He said. Naminé and I looked at each other, and back at Roxas, who didn't really listen to his own words.
"What? Why?" I asked, Nami nodding along with me. Roxas was still frozen, but he turned his head back slowly, which actually looked really scary and creepy, eyes wider than they were before.
"Just do it." He hissed. I nodded slowly and began to jog, looking back as Roxas pushed Naminé and she began to ran. I still jogged slowly, though, because I didn't know where the hell I was going. Roxas then immediately sprinted past me, and I began to run faster, behind him. I stopped when I noticed that Naminé was having slight trouble because she was wearing heels. I motioned for her to get onto my back, which she almost hopped on. I adjusted her and ran as fast as I could, which was fast because of my extremely long legs, and once again found Roxas.
I didn't notice what road we took, until I saw the group of people from before. As soon as Roxas had passed them, he sprinted faster and turned his head to the left, not looking at them. I sprinted as well, but looked back at them as they looked at me. The one that stood out the most was a blonde with blue-green eyes, and he wore a beanie-thing, I think. I didn't really see the rest of his clothes, though. He seemed to look surprised, but I had looked back just to make sure I didn't kill me or Naminé.
Roxas didn't stop sprinting until we arrived at a gate, which I did not almost run into, and it was certainly not because I had started talking to myself mentally and Naminé did not under any circumstance be the reason that I noticed. …Yeah.
He seemed to just stand there, frozen. I set Naminé down and walked over next to Roxas, looking at the gate.
"You know, I think you need a key to open this." I said.
.Roxas.
Axel looked over at me and I smiled softly and nodded slowly.
"I know." I whispered, but stood there for at least a few seconds more. Six years, and everything was exactly the same. Six years, and I finally stood once again in front of my house. Six years, and I was finally home.
I turned to the side and grabbed one of the bags I had with me, opened a tiny side pocket, and proceeded to take out a slightly rusted key. I looked at it for a split second, then turned to the gate and put it in.
I smiled.
The key went through perfectly, opening the gate. I smiled as I slid the gate some more, opening it all the way. I went back to grab my bag, while motioned for Axel and Nami to go forward, which they did. I went back and closed the gate, locking it with the key. We then walked up the long, steep driveway, but it didn't bother me, I was too damn happy. Axel panted a little, because we had been sprinting and he had to carry Nami, too, and now the steep driveway. I had been panting, too, but held it in. Axel started whining, and I just looked back and smiled, laughing.
"Come on! We're almost there, don't die on us!" Axel looked up at me slightly, giving me a forced smile while he held his stomach.
"I'll try not to." He responded. I just rolled my eyes and went behind him, pushing him up the hill while Nami took off her heels and waddled up. The driveway now went straight, no longer a steep hill. I smiled and sprinted once again and stopped right in front of the house-, my house. I waited for Axel and Nami, which both of their mouths dropped as they saw the extremely large, light brown mansion.
"Damn! You're loaded!" Axel coughed out as Nami nodded in awe. I smiled and rubbed the back of my head sheepishly. I reached out once again for my bag, grabbing another key as I proceeded to walk over to the door, slipping the key in and turning it, opening the door. I motioned for them to come in, and they did so, but slowly. I closed the door behind me, locking it as I did with the gate. Axel and Nami continued to gawk in awe as we got in, and I simply put my bags down and looked back over at them.
"Guys, wait here! I'll be right back!" I almost whispered, but they barely paid attention, anyway. I skipped (but you know, a manly skip) out of the hall and began to tip toe as I entered the kitchen, seeing three spiky haired people. I smiled like an idiot, from ear to ear and jumped out, throwing my arms.
"Sora, Ven, Vani! I'm home!" They immediately looked surprised over at my direction, but a split second later I was already caught in a death hug by my three brothers.
"ROXAS!" Sora and Ven screamed, while Vanitas just smiled widely, which was even rare, for him. I smiled and hugged them all back and they finally released me, standing in front of me. I released a half laugh as I looked at my brothers; Sora, my older twin, was a golden brunet with spiky brown hair, extremely tan skin and he wore a simple white tank with blue cargo shorts. Ventus, the second oldest, and I were identical, almost no telling us apart, wore a dark grey, tight, v-neck with white skinny jeans. And last but not least, the oldest, Vanitas, who was identical to Sora, except he had jet black hair and golden eyes, also tan, wore a black T-shirt and regular skinny jeans.
Vanitas and Ventus were twins, a year apart from me and Sora, but Sora and Vanitas were confused for being twins as were I and Ventus. We all looked alike, facial features and such, minus Vanitas, obviously as I had described him before. Vanitas was slightly even more tanner than Sora, and he had gotten his black hair and yellow eyes from my mother, as the rest of us got our father's features. Sure, Sora was a brunet, but in a certain light he could easily pass as a dirty blonde.
"What're you doing here, Roxas? Don't get me wrong, I'm extremely pleased that you're here, but it's been six years!" Vanitas exclaimed, still smiling. I smiled and rubbed the back of my head, nodding.
"Yeah, six years, it's been a while… And I'm here because Sora called me last night, and I just couldn't… You know, not see him…" I said slowly, smiling fading from my face. The same happened to all of my brothers, they all looked down to their feet, nodding slowly.
"Right, that…" Ven said, biting his lip. I made a slant with my mouth, and noticed Sora lift his head.
"Hey, let's not get all upset, now! Roxas is finally back home, and we should have fun! You can see him later, Rox. It takes a while to get there." Sora said, soft smile upon his lips. I nodded, rubbing my eyes.
"Yeah, that's fine." I croaked. I then noticed a splash of red and faint yellow, then smiled. "Hey, I brought some friends with me! I hope you guys don't mind!" They all smiled once again, shaking their heads.
"Not at all, Roxas. Please, do introduce us." Vanitas said. I nodded and held up a finger, sprinting out of the kitchen. I then found Axel and Nami and pulled them by their wrists, sprinting back into the kitchen.
Axel's eyes widened and he scrunched his eyebrows upwards, leaning towards me.
"Oh my gosh, why do you all look identical?" He asked, almost gasping. I laughed and stood next to brothers, who all smiled at Nami.
"You guys remember Nami, right?" They all nodded as she went to hug each one of them, and as soon as she finished she stood back next to Axel. "And guys, this is Axel, he's a new friend of ours." I said. I then stood next to Axel, pointing out each of my brothers as I called their individual names. "Axel, these are my brothers; that's my twin, Sora, and those two are Ventus and Vanitas, who are also twins." Axel nodded and shook each one of their hands, smiling genuinely.
"Nice to meet you all. And, uh, as long as I'm here, Ventus and Roxy will have to wear name tags, because there is no way I'm going to know which is which." Sora smirked as he raised an eyebrow and Ven and I laughed, he nodded.
"I'll be sure to do something about that, then! And you can call me Ven!" Ven said, while Axel nodded. Sora turned to face me.
"So, uh, he calls you Roxy? I thought you didn't like nicknames." I couldn't help but notice the devious glint in Sora's eyes as he continued to smirk, and I heated up a little, shaking my head. Fortunately for me, Axel began laughing and answered before I could screw it up.
"Yeah, he told me that. I just like having nicknames for most people that I can give them to." Axel said, extremely calm. I mentally sighed and thanked him, while Sora nodded and stopped smirking, but began to smile.
"Oh, alrighty then!" I looked back at Sora, cocking my head to the side.
"So, what where all you guys doing just now? Just hanging out? …In the kitchen?" I asked and Sora gave out a small laugh, shaking his head.
"Nah, we're not that weird! We were just thinking about what to eat!" I instantly perked up, flailing my arms around in the air.
"OH MY GOD- let me cook for you guys! It's the least I can do since I came unannounced." I said, smiling sheepishly as I rubbed the back of my head and closed my eyes. Vanitas immediately shook his head, closing his eyes.
"No, no! It's alright, you don't have-"
"Shut up, Vani. When Roxas wants to cook, he cooks." Ven interrupted, almost hissing at Vani. My eyes went big as Vani growled back.
"No, he's not going to be staying here forever, just for a few days, and he shouldn't have to work for us-"
"Come on Vani! It's not like he doesn't like cooking!" Sora exclaimed, while Vanitas began to twitch, probably because everyone was interrupting him. I coughed lightly and waved my hands around.
"R-really guys, it's no trouble. I can do it, Vani, it doesn't bother me!" I said, looking over at Vanitas as Ven and Sora immediately nodded.
"See? And thank God he cooks delicious things, because I was really getting grossed out by your cooking." Ven scoffed, throwing his arms crossed over his chest. Vani's eye twitched and made it noticeable that he was biting his lip, and puffed his cheeks out. I overheard Axel whispered over to Nami;
"Dear God I think he's going to blow." I laughed and put my hand on Vani's shoulder gripping it.
"Don't worry, Vani. Ven's just as bad a cook as you." Vanitas immediately smirked as Ven pouted, then shrugged off.
"Yeah, it's true." I smiled and continued to walk over to the pantry, looking inside. I stuck my head out.
"You guys want lasagna?" Everyone's mouth dropped, and they all seemed to drool as they nodded furiously. I laughed once again and nodded, taking all of the ingredients with me and onto the glass countertop. "It'll take a while, though. That alright? I'll just make something quick while this cooks." They all nodded once again, and stood there talking to one another. I smiled as I saw that they all got along, and began to prepare the food.
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While the lasagna got ready, I made homemade garlic toast, which of course didn't last and it didn't fill them up, but I didn't want to fill them up so they could eat the lasagna. I pressed a button on the stove and a light turned on in the oven, while I looked at the lasagna. I pressed the button once again, turning it off, and looked over at everyone, they seemed hungrier by the minute.
"Okay, only about ten minutes left!" Everyone cheered, and I smiled and looked over at my two friends. "Hey, Nami, Axel! Let's head upstairs so we can settle the rooms! We'll be right back, guys!" I called over my shoulder to my brothers, who nodded and smiled. Nami, Axel and I grabbed our bags and headed up the extremely wide, white stairs. I walked down the hall and almost immediately without thinking, I opened the door to my room. I grabbed my bags and pulled them in with me, setting them down as I looked at my room. I think Axel and Nami probably followed behind me, but they remained quiet. I smiled as I looked at my room, everything untouched. Of course, I hadn't left that much of a mess, just a shirt or two lying around, and some old sneakers in a corner. On my bed was a notebook, and I walked slowly over to it, running my fingers over the exterior, sitting on the bed.
I opened it and my smile went wider. It was where I wrote complete nonsense, letters to people that I had liked and was never meant for them to be received, or a few poems and quotes, a few journal entries and things like that. I looked up from the notebook and saw the bed that belonged to Sora farther down the room. I didn't know if he still slept in this room, but I proceeded to walk over, and noticed a tiny Post- It note on the upper wooden part of the bed.
One day, I'll be back. I'm going to be back home, with you guys. Where I belong. But for now, I'm leaving for the best, but you guys should still have fun without me! And when I do come back, which I hope will be soon, we can all go to the beach and it'll be just like these last few days I spent here. I love you all.
Roxas.
I chuckled lightly and then stopped. I kept staring at the little note, my writing so messy and small. The faint smile on my lips never left, and then I felt my eyes water. I sighed and gave a half laugh as I rubbed my eyes, shaking my head. I felt a small hand on my shoulder and I sniffed.
"You alright, Roxas?" I nodded, smiling as I finally wiped all the tears away. I looked back at Nami, my eyes still a little red, but nodded once more.
"Yeah, I'm good. It's just a little overwhelming." I said. Nami gave me a small smile and nodded, wiping a lonesome tear that managed to fall down my cheek.
"I know, sweetie. That's not a problem." I nodded once again and hugged Nami, pecking her on the cheek as I pulled her towards where Axel stood, just staring straight ahead of him.
"Alright, I'm going to be staying here, and I'm going to ask the guys later which rooms they're not using, but for now I guess you can just leave your things here." They both nodded and then exited the room, closing the door behind me. I walked back into the kitchen and looked at the lasagna once more, finally taking it out. The delicious smell filled the room and everyone pretty much bathed themselves in drool and I put it over the counter, airing it out a little. I proceeded to cut it and put it on each plate, watching as everyone gawked over in my direction. I smiled and finally cut all the pieces, telling everyone to grab one.
We all began to eat, and everyone was quiet, but not in an awkward way, more likely because they were enjoying the lasagna. I took a bit out of mine and chewed it down, humming at how good it tasted.
"Hey guys, how about after this we all go to the beach?" They all nodded, and Ven lifted his head.
"Why?" I smiled, forking at my food then looked over at Sora.
"Because I made a promise, and I have no intentions to break it."
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Vanitas was driving the car as we all managed to fit ourselves in the tiny smart car, and thank God the beach was only twenty minutes away, or else we all would have died in there.
Vanitas, who was driving, obviously sat in that seat, while Ven sat in the passenger seat. Which was clearly a mistake, and I believe that Axel should have sat there, because as soon as he got in the back, he incredibly long legs hit the back of the driver's seat, and sort of sat there awkwardly. Other than that, I had to sit on his lap while Nami sat on Sora's. (Sora had refused to sit on Axel's lap and thought it would be better for me to sit in his lap, considering that fact that I was his friend. That devious little…-) So there was a slightly awkward moment between me and Axel, but it's alright-, it's not like I like him or anything.
…'Cause I don't. And that's no lie. I mean, I like Hayner…
Right?
…You stay out of this, conscious. I dislike how you treat me, I would like some respect every now and then! …Okay, this isn't weird at all…
Oh, look! We're at the beach! Bye-bye, conscious! Fair well!
After mentally killing my conscious (I don't see a physical way of doing it, anyway) and returning to reality, I saw Vanitas pull up into the beach's parking lot, which was slightly empty, but hey, I'm not complaining.
We all got out of the car and Nami, Axel, Sora and I aired ourselves with our hands, having been completely squished into that tiny car, which by the way, the AC wasn't working, and Vanitas refused to open the windows. Karma will get you back, bitch.
Since it's a shitty smart car, nothing really fit in the trunk so everyone just wore their bathing suits (Nami had hers under a pale pink cover-up dress). Of course I, being extremely uncomfortable with unknown people gawking at my scars, which has happened a lot, wore a tight, sleeveless, black surf shirt and underneath my swim trunks I had a tight, black swim short thingy that reached past my knees. My trunks reached above the knee and were a dark blue, and I know, I looked like a complete freak. But it was oddly more comfortable, and less people stared, so I preferred it that way.
Ven wore green trunks, Vanitas wore black trunks, Sora wore blue trunks, Axel wore red trunks and Nami wore a floral bandeau top with dark blue bikini bottom. Everyone seemed normal with what I wore, but I couldn't help but notice Axel eye me every once in a while, which made me slightly uncomfortable, but was more than used to it.
It was about two o'clock and the sun seemed to burn, so we all put on sun block and things like that, also the ones that worked for tanning and such. Nami pulled her Juicy Couture Aviators that where white around the eye rims, and black on the sunglasses legs, over her eyes and lied down, while I lied down next to her, Sora next to me, Vanitas next to Sora and Ven next to Vanitas. Axel stood there, rubbing the back of his neck as he eyed all of us, quirking an eyebrow.
"You, uh, all just come to the beach to get tans?" We all whipped our heads in Axel's direction, nodding. He nodded slowly, not lowering his eyebrow. "No getting into the water?" Sora shook his head.
"Not until later." Axel nodded once again, while Nami patted the spot next to her.
"Come, get a tan with us." She said, not exactly looking over at him. Axel shrugged and sat down next to Nami, put some lotion on, then lied down on his stomach.
"Uh, I know I'm gay and all, but this feels too gay." I laughed, shaking my head. "…How long 'til we turn to the other side?" Nami sighed, shaking her head. Axel sweat dropped, smiling sheepishly.
"Just turn when I turn, alright? Now relax." Nami said, almost commanding him to. Axel nodded once again, then hid his face in his arms as we all laid there.
About half an hour later, Nami turned, telling Axel since he couldn't see her. I wasn't really sure, but I think half an hour is a little too much to tan on each side without turning, but hey, I guess she wanted that deeper tan color. Axel rested his hands behind his head, supporting it, then shortly fell asleep afterwards. After another half an hour, Nami got up with Ven, Vani and Sora, all heading to the water. She looked over her shoulder, pointed her thumb to the water and looked in my direction.
"You going in now?" I shook my head, pointing at Axel.
"Nah, later, though. Imma stay with Axel until he wakes up." Nami nodded, took off her sunglasses and proceeded to throw them at me, which I caught. She turned her head back with her body and ran after Ven, jumping on his back. I sighed and smiled, looking over at Axel who looked so peaceful while he slept.
I unfolded Nami's glasses and put them on. Sure, that sort of passes the gay line, but I wasn't exactly all that straight, so, whatever. I yawned as I grabbed some Coke and Pringles that Ven had bought, popping them into my mouth. I sat there and watched Sora splash some water at Nami, and she'd get pissed and splash him back, but more violently. Vanitas sat at the shoreline, picking up some seashells that would drift up from the tide, and Ven would go under the water and pop up in totally random places, sometimes scaring the shit out of people. I laughed softly to myself and about fifteen minutes later, I heard Axel fidget around. I whipped my head in his direction and smiled, watching him rub his drowsy eyes.
"You're finally awake." I said as he yawned and nodded slowly, sitting up. I lifted the sunglasses from my face, setting them on the top of my head. I looked back at Axel again and gasped. He looked scared and his eyes widened, questioning my gasp.
"W-what? What's wrong?" He looked way more concerned than he should be, so I laughed. He made a face, but I just shook my head and pointed at him.
"You're, like, really tan. Really, really tan. Tanner than Sora, tan." He blinked twice, then looked down at himself and scratched his head. He looked up at me, neutral look on his face.
"So I am. Interesting." I raised my eyebrows and nodded, looking at myself. I was now more of a peach-y color, and that was something since I was extremely pale. But I was in the sun the same amount as Axel, and he was pale, not as pale as me, but still very pale. And now he was tanner than Sora while I was just a peach color. That's not fair!
"It looks good, though! Lucky, you get super tan in an hour, and I just get more pink-ish." He just laughed, and I couldn't help but notice that his eyes seemed to glow, they seemed more full of color and nearly popped; you could notice them from five yards away. His hair seemed redder, too. And when he smiled, it almost seemed like his teeth could blind you, and they didn't seem as white before, but I guess the tan brought it out more.
…He also… You know, looked… More handsome.
…Shut up.
I shook my head and looked back at the ocean, hoping that Axel hadn't noticed me staring at him for about thirty seconds. I don't think he did, which was good, but now he was looking at me. I looked back and his eyes scanned me.
"You've got more color, too. And it looks good with your blonde hair and blue eyes." I smiled, rolling my eyes.
"Thanks, but you look amazing, it brings out your hair and your eyes; they're pretty much glowing. You look… really handsome." I said, chuckling lightly as I looked away. I heard Axel chuckle as well.
"Thanks, flirt." I looked over at him, smiled and winked.
"I try." Axel smiled and laughed, and I think he blushed, but his face was too damn tan to actually see it. He then soon stopped, but continued to smile. His right leg was laid out straight, while the left was propped up and his left elbow on his knee. His right hand stood firm on the ground, supporting his weight. He looked over at me, his emerald eyes scanning my face.
"Hey… What's with you and that blonde kid…?" He asked, hesitating slightly. I made a faint smile and looked at the ground, not lifting my vision.
"He was my boyfriend a couple of months back, I haven't dated since. I loved him, a lot. But we broke it off because he had to move here, and it really affected me. We both didn't want to break up, but thought it was better, just in case we met other people. I… was depressed for a long time. He was the reason I almost started cutting again. And now… I don't really know what we're going to do. I'll enjoy the time I can with him, but I don't think we'll get back together." I said slowly, biting my lip. Axel nodded, then looked straight ahead over at the ocean. He didn't look at me, but asked another question.
"And what about that other guy…?" My eyes flickered towards his, that met mine for about five seconds, blinked and then looked forward once again. "You know, that blonde kid that you ran past." I felt a stinging pang in my stomach, and forced a smile, but it actually hurt.
"Scars." I coughed out. I don't know why, but I couldn't manage to form a complete sentence, and it somehow burned my lips as I spoke. Axel made a slant with his mouth, looking me in the eyes.
"Do you…- Would you mind telling me where else you have them?" I sighed, scratching my head. I hung my head, looking at the ground, gluing my vision to a small seashell. I made a slant with my lips.
"My back, my lower stomach and the bottom of my feet." I whispered. Axel's eyes widened and I coughed, automatically feeling a disgust form in my stomach. I felt like throwing up, I felt ill. So much talk about it and I now felt disgust at what I used to do-, what he made me do to myself.
"How many of them… were made yourself?" I shut my eyes violently, squeezing them to prevent opening them and looking into Axel's eyes. I gripped my stomach, now swirling with regret, guilt and more disgust. I heard Axel sigh, but it sounded more regretful and full of sadness then disappointment.
"Roxas, I'm sorry, I promise I won't-"
"Yo, is that Roxas?" My eyes immediately bulged open, and I held a hand to my mouth, trying not to throw up. I began to cough, my body telling me that it was going to hurl up what I had previously eaten, but I didn't want to. It made me uncomfortable and grossed me out more, completely hating the feeling of it. I shook my head furiously, hung it as low as I could, and shut my eyes once again.
"N-no! G-go away!" The person grabbed my shoulder, throwing me down. My blue eyes became wide as I saw a scar, a smirk and aquamarine eyes. It was Seifer.
"Dude, it is Roxas! Long time no see, fag." He spat, smirking evilly. There was someone with him, but I couldn't form them out. My vision went blurry and I trembled furiously. And it seemed to happen fast, but red blurred my vision and then a tan blur moved along towards the yellow one, knocking it down.
Axel punched Seifer.
Just as my vision was getting better and I stopped shaking as much, I couldn't help it.
I bent over and hurled on Seifer's feet, then Axel picked me up and familiar faces crowded around me, then I blacked out.
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Hmm, hmm, hmm…
Wait, what's going on? I think I'm sleeping… But am I dreaming? It sounded like Axel's singing, and it sent chills down my spine…I could only see black, but I made a faint smile, and my eyes fluttered open, almost automatically. At first my vision was slightly blurry, but then it cleared up.
I saw white walls and a small television in an upper corner, and I was in a small bed with white sheets. I was no longer in my swim apparel, but now wore a white shirt/dress thing from what I could see. There was a weird thing on my finger, and I looked to my left and saw Axel, who smiled softly.
"Oh, sorry! Did my humming wake you?" I smiled and shook my head.
"Nah, don't worry about it. I enjoyed it." I said, but my voice came out much softer and weaker to my surprise. I remember myself fainting, but… Why did they have to bring me to the hospital? Axel continued to smile as he nodded. I furrowed my eyebrows. "Axel, I know that I fainted… But why am I here?" Axel's smile slowly disappeared, a frown taking it's place. He looked away, his eyebrows furrowed upwards and sadness filled his jade eyes.
"Seifer… After you fainted, Seifer slashed your leg, and it was bleeding a lot and it was really deep so… we brought you here." I nodded, looking directly into green eyes, which stared back into my blue ones.
"Show me." He sighed and scratched the back of his head, slowly shifting the blanket off of my left leg. I winced, but because of the slight sting I felt. I hadn't even seen what it looked like yet.
I blinked twice as I looked at the scar that started at my ankle, ran all the way up my leg, and seemed to end at my knee, where the dress thing ended. Axel darted his eyes to the floor.
"It…- It doesn't end there. It goes up your thigh, too. Nami saw it but I didn't, you know, since you have scars up there, too, and I wasn't sure if you'd like me seeing them…" I sighed, scratched the back of my head and then proceeded to shake it left to right, my eyes burning into his.
"Be my guest." I spoke, almost under my breath. Axel's eyes darted towards me, but then back to my leg. He hesitated as he reached over to grab the end of the dress, pulling it up to my mid thigh, where the scar did end. We both winced, the scar extremely thick and deep. Although, I think Axel's wince was also caused due to the other five long scars throughout my thighs. I made a sour smile and looked over at Axel, giving a harsh laugh as I looked at the extremely long, thick scar that ran from my ankle to my upper thigh.
"Guess I'll never be able to wear shorts again, huh?" Axel gave me an apologetic smile, but flickered his eyes back to the floor. I gave a slanted smile as I reached over and pulled the dress down and the blanket over my slightly bloody leg, which was covered in stitches.
.Normal.
Roxas looked back at Axel, who was now looking at the door, and proceeded to poke him lightly on the forehead, getting his attention.
"Where are Nami, Sora, Ven and Vani?" Axel opened his mouth to respond, but then smiled. He huffed and whipped his head to the side, crossing his arms.
"What, do you not want me here?" He asked, jokingly. Roxas bit his lip to hide his smile and made a serious face, also crossing his arms.
"No, I don't. Now get the fuck out." Axel gasped overdramatically and then he and the younger boy laughed, while Axel shook his head.
"They left about fifteen minutes ago. Went to, uh, see your dad…" Roxas immediately frowned and looked down, nodding sadly.
"Right, I'll… Go and see him soon…" Axel nodded, smiling apologetically once again at Roxas. He then looked at the tiny nightstand that sat next to Roxas' bed, pushed up a tray that was connected to the bed, and slammed a plastic cup, a large pack or Oreos and a carton of milk on top of it.
"Hey, someone left a special treat for you!" Roxas' face lightened up with a smile as he looked at the tray, and immediately lifted his hands but they shook, making him frown.
"Why are my hands shaking? They feel weak, too."
"Maybe it's the medicine they gave you." Roxas nodded, looking frustrated as he glared at his hands, sighed and put them back down. Axel smiled. "Aw, since you're like a baby that can't do anything, I'll feed them to you!" He exclaimed, pouring some milk into the plastic cup, then grabbed an Oreo and began to soak it in the milk. Roxas smiled from ear to ear, turning over to face Axel.
"Yay!" Roxas and Axel laughed, which made Axel drop the cookie into the milk. Roxas made a neutral face and blinked twice looking at the cup, turned to face Axel, cocked his head and blinked once more. Axel looked from Roxas to the cup, blinking once.
"Yeah, okay let's just let that one soak there, I have no intentions of shoving my hand in there." Roxas smiled and nodded as Axel got another cookie and soaked it. Roxas opened his mouth and Axel brought the cookie to his face and then Roxas proceeded to close his mouth, biting the cookie.
Flash.
Axel continued doing this for a while, and occasionally brought the cup to Roxas' mouth so he could drink some milk.
Flash.
After popping a few Oreos into his own mouth, Axel sat back and took out his iPod, clicking where it said 'Safari' and connected himself to the internet.
"Oh, I found you on Facebook, Roxy. I sent you a request. Better accept it, got it memorized?" Roxas nodded, smiling as he rolled his eyes. "You have really cool profile pictures, you look like a little model or something." Axel said, smiling as he darted his eyes from his iPod for a second, to look at Roxas. Roxas smiled sheepishly.
"Hah, thanks! Nami actually takes all those pictures, and at random moments, too. She loves photography, and since I'm quite adorable, she'll take pictures of me." Roxas said, laughing. Axel nodded as he raised an eyebrow and chuckled. He was looking at Roxas' current profile picture, which had him sitting on the ledge of the clock tower that was found above the train station back in Twilight Town. He wore white skinny jeans and a simple black, tight v-neck shirt with black Vans, and had black and white checkered nerd glasses and a blue ice cream hanging from his mouth; which Axel knew very well that it was a Sea- Salt flavored ice cream. Roxas had both of his hands gripped lightly to the ledge, and in the background was the sun setting, filled with the bright colors of red, yellow and orange. Axel smiled a bit as he could see a tiny smile upon Roxas' lips in the picture.
"Do you usually go on a lot?" Roxas looked over at Axel and laughed, shaking his head.
"Not like every hour of every day, maybe I'll check it every few days or so but I'm not an addict; Nami usually hacks my account more than I go on it. She always uploads the pictures." Axel nodded and smiled, putting his iPod away. He saw Roxas' eyes flicker over to the Oreo package, now only one remaining. Axel's eyes darted to Roxas', as did Roxas'.
"Only one cookie left." Roxas spoke, slightly more dramatically then it the moment actually was. Axel looked over at it and smiled childishly.
"How about we share it?" He asked. Roxas didn't respond. He kept staring at Axel who wouldn't wipe the stupid smile off of his face. He then looked over at the tray where they cookie was, and once more at Axel. Axel was still smiling, but Roxas kept a neutral face.
The blonde then rapidly whipped his head towards the tray, slamming his head against it violently, but managed to bit the cookie and brought it up with him. He smirked and cocked an eyebrow over at Axel, who looked horrified. Although, it also could have been because Roxas violently smashed his head against the table just to get a cookie; your call.
"Win." Roxas muttered through his teeth, more than half of the cookie hanging out of his lips. Axel smiled and stood up.
"You're sharing!" He exclaimed, then practically threw his head at Roxas', smashing their foreheads together as he bit the cookie and smiled. They both smiled, foreheads touching and noses touching, lips less than an inch apart.
Flash.
They both frowned, finally seeing this flash. Axel bit his part of the cookie off, then they both turned their heads towards the door, where Naminé stood with a professional camera, ear to ear smile plastered on her lips. She then skipped in, smiling at Roxas.
"I'm glad you're finally awake, Roxas! You scared us back there…" She said silently, making a slant with her lips. Roxas smiled back and nodded, munching on the cookie. The room went silent, Roxas and Axel not looking at each other and faint blush upon each one's cheeks. Naminé smirked and waggled her finger, holding up her camera.
"You naughty little men, I've been taking pictures of you guys for a while now! Surprising that you noticed just now." She said, winking. Axel frowned and Roxas' face showed that he was horrified.
"Oh my God, you're going to put them on Facebook, aren't you?" The blonde girl's smirk grew wider, and Roxas went pale.
"I might…" Roxas simply rolled his eyes, then looked at Axel.
"Hey… Want to take me to see my dad?" He asked softly, while Axel looked over at Naminé who nodded, and he looked back at Roxas, standing up.
"Yeah, c'mon." The redhead helped the blonde out of the bed, wrapping one of his arms around his waist as Roxas wrapped his arm around Axel's neck, grabbing his shoulder. Roxas limped but walked rather quickly as Axel supported his weight, and walked out into the hall.
Roxas had opened his mouth, but then closed it. He saw Vanitas and Ventus walk out of a room, which Sora had followed about thirty seconds after. They looked over at Roxas and smiled, telling him how worried they were and glad to see that he was awake. Roxas smiled back and nodded, entering the room. Roxas' heart raced and it felt as if it could have fallen out of his chest, and he froze.
The strong, inspiring man he was proud to call Cloud, his father, sat there, limp. His bright, gravity defying hair was gone; a head wrap in it's place. His deep, ocean blue eyes were now lifeless, filled with emptiness. His face was pale, almost green, but he still wore a smile. His smile grew wider as he saw his son, Roxas. Roxas' lower lip quivered, but he bit it and smiled back, trying to fight the tears that started to well up in his eyes.
"Roxas! I'm so glad you're here! Well, obviously not in a hospital room because some ass stabbed you, but you know what I mean." He said, chuckling at the end. Roxas' smile grew wider as he heard his father's voice, it was weak but still sounded like him. Roxas nodded while Axel sat him on a chair next to the bed. Cloud looked over at Axel, who smiled and stuck his hand out.
"The name's Axel. A-X-E-L. Got it memorized? A pleasure to meet you." Cloud smiled back and nodded, taking a shaky hand up to Axel's and gave it a slightly firm shake.
"Cloud, and likewise. I hear you're the one who saved the kiddo here, I'm grateful." Axel smiled sheepishly and rubbed the back of his head, closing his eyes as he nodded.
"It's all good. I also made sure that they couldn't bail the guy out until Roxas is gone; Nice officer, he was. Leon, I think he was. He also said that he wanted to send you a bucket of love." Cloud's face colored the slightest as he smiled sheepishly and nodded.
"Ah, that Leon of mine! He's a special one." He said. Axel's smile grew wider and laughed, his eyes had a genuine spark of happiness in them.
"Ah, how I'd love to be your son! In your family, it's like gay runs in the family! I told my parents that I was gay and the bond only worsened, haven't spoken to them since." Axel spoke, making a slant with his mouth. Roxas looked up at him with blue eyes filled with sympathy, while Cloud smiled.
"You seem kind enough, if I could, I'd adopt you. But you're a little bit old for that, so we're just going to have to pretend." Cloud said, winking as he chuckled. Axel nodded happily, then looked back at Roxas and rubbed the back of his head.
"Oh, I'd better leave you two alone, now! Sorry for taking a while! It was nice meeting you, Cloud!" Axel said as he rushed out, saluting the older man as he smiled back and nodded. He then looked over at his son, Roxas, who was on the verge of tears again.
"How you doing, Dad?" Roxas whispered, his voice soft and weak. Cloud looked away and kept a faint smile on his lips, although it represented more sadness than happiness.
"I won't lie to you, kid. I'm not doing so great; the doctor gave me about a year or less." He looked back at Roxas, who's eyes were now barely holding in the tears, and kept a smile as he shook his head violently.
"C-come on, D-dad… D-don't say t-that…" Cloud frowned as witnessed the tears spew out of Roxas' eyes, and his smile became a visible frown. Roxas shut his eyes closed, lowered his head and began to shake it left to right once again, furiously. Cloud sighed lightly as he scooted farthest to the edge as he could, pulled Roxas' head into his chest and stroked his son's hair as he sobbed into his chest. Roxas' shaky arms lifted up as they wrapped themselves around his father's neck, while his father pulled his unoccupied arm around Roxas' back, pulling him close.
Cloud couldn't help breathe heavily as a few tears came out of his own eyes, shushing Roxas softly every now and then, rocking him in his arms. Roxas eventually pulled away, sniffing as he wiped his eyes with his arm until the tears all dried and stopped falling. He looked over at his father who smiled and him, and he smiled back.
"D-dad, I auditioned f-for Kingdom Idol… A-and now I-I get to go to Hollow B-Bastion… N-Nami and Axel m-made it, t-too…" He stuttered, looking into his father's eyes. Cloud smiled widely, and ear to ear smile.
"That's great, Roxas!" He said while Roxas made a faint smile and nodded, wiping his eyes once again as he sniffled once more. Cloud put his hands on Roxas' shoulders, giving a tight grip until Roxas whipped his head up, their eyes meeting. "You do your best and you'll win it, alright?" Roxas smiled and rolled his eyes, shrugging lightly.
"I-I don't know… Nami and Axel are really good, like, amazingly awesome…" He then met his father's gaze once again, and gave a confident smile. "But I-I'll try; I'll win it for you. And you'll see me win it, too." Cloud smiled back at him, nodding.
Outside of the room stood Axel and Naminé, smiling lightly at each other as the continued waiting for Roxas.
.
Hours later they let Roxas out, giving him some prescribed pills for the pain. Seeing that Hayner was his neighbor, Roxas had grabbed his crutches and Vanitas dropped him off at the house, since his was too steep to walk down and Hayner's was too steep to walk up. The two blondes were sitting on Hayner's bed, Roxas having both of his legs stretched out and his hands propped against the bed, holding his weight. They had been talking for at least an hour, and now it had came to silence. Hayner looked over at the blonde's leg and winced, making a slanted smile at him.
"Does it hurt?" Roxas looked over at his leg and shrugged.
"It's been bothering me for a little while now, but nothing I can't suck up." Hayner smiled and nodded, scooting himself closer to Roxas, his forehead and nose pressed to the side of his head, and his lips centimeters apart from his ear.
"You know, I've always liked your scars…" Roxas almost melted as he felt Hayner's hot whisper ring through his ear drums, turned to face the other blonde, their lips a mere inch apart.
"Really?" Roxas whispered back. Hayner smirked and nodded slowly, brushing his lips against Roxas' cheek.
"Yeah… They make you… Hot." Hayner then proceeded to pull Roxas into a passionate kiss, which slowly became a rough one.
Hayner licked Roxas' bottom lip, but then decided to bite it, which made Roxas open his mouth and groan. The blonde slipped his tongue in and made a quick movement and sat on Roxas' lap, pulling at his shirt. Roxas groaned, but in pain, due to the fact that Hayner had hit it in the attempt of sitting on him. Roxas pulled away, panting as he winced.
"I c-can't…" Hayner immediately frowned and cocked an eyebrow.
"You can't fuck?" Roxas furrowed his eyebrows together and frowned.
"My leg hurts, you ass! And what's wrong with you? I'm no sex addict! I'm a fucking virgin!" Roxas proceeded to push Hayner off of him, and winced once more as he grabbed his leg. Roxas knew how to endure pain, he wasn't a wuss; but this pain was worse than any other thing he had felt before. Hayner scoffed.
"Oh, okay, sorry. I didn't know you were 'saving yourself for marriage'." Hayner mocked, while Roxas glared.
"It's not that, but I just don't like the idea of going around and sleeping with people! And I would have never thought that'd you be into it." Roxas growled as Hayner rolled his eyes, shrugging.
"Yeah, like I give a fuck. And I don't just sleep around, I sleep with Seifer." Roxas' eyes grew big, scooting himself to the edge of the bed as he grabbed his crutches and stood up.
"You knew what he had done to me! And I had warned you, and you sleep with him! I can't believe you!" Roxas rushed over to the door, wincing once more as he had hit it on a chair that Hayner had laying around. Hayner seemed to regret it, and furrowed his eyebrows upwards, putting a hand on Roxas' shoulder. Roxas simply growled and shoved the tip of one of the crutches into Hayner's bottom half, having him respond by gasping and grabbing his parts, hunched over. Roxas opened the door and closed it, as he carefully walked down the stairs, meeting with Hayner's mom. He smiled at her.
"Hey, I'm just going to head off now. Hayner remembered that he had something he had to work on for his class." Hayner's mother nodded and smiled at Roxas.
"Alright! Just at least let me take you back to your house, you shouldn't walk up with your leg like that!" Roxas smiled and nodded, thanking her as he followed her to her car.
.Axel.
I waited in Roxas' room- but not because I was waiting for him, I'm not that creepy- because Sora had told me that he didn't sleep there anymore, and told me that I could sleep in his old bed. Naminé was sent to Sora's room, even though I thought it'd be more logical for her to sleep in Roxy's room; but hey, I'm not complaining.
I had already changed into my pajamas, some red shorts and a white T-shirt, nothing fancy, just random clothes that I don't really use anymore. I was using Ven's laptop, and laughed to myself as I saw that Naminé had uploaded Roxas' new profile picture.
It was about four pictures of us, the first one of me giving Roxas an Oreo, the second of me giving him milk, the third of us two laughing, and the last one had us with out foreheads pressed to one another's, biting the Oreo. I had to admit, the pictures were awesome, and it was natural; each picture we were both smiling genuine smiles. Ah, I feel like a model! I continued to smile and shook my head as I saw that she had tagged me, having it say 'Axel Flame' underneath the picture, and in the photo's description she had wrote a heart. She had posted it at least within the last hour, and it already had around two hundred likes and seventy eight comments. Man, this kid was popular.
I couldn't help but feel flattered as I read some comments that complimented me, some saying 'Damn Roxas, jealous of that eye candy you call 'friend'. ;D' and things like that. This tan did me wonders! I should get tanned more often, because honestly, I was loving the attention.
My thoughts stopped short when I heard Roxas slam the door open, and wobbled violently over to his bed. I immediately got up, picked him up and set him on the bed and he moaned, lying his whole body on the bed.
"I know this is going to make me sound like a total narcotic addict; but please bring me one of those damned pills. The pain's literally killing me." Roxas hissed, and I nodded, running to the bathroom as I got him a glass of water and brought two of the little pills, like it said on the bottle. He immediately threw it in his mouth and downed the water, sighing as he finished. He seemed extremely pissed, and I sat on the other side of the bed.
"What's wrong, Roxy?" I asked. He huffed, muttering something under his breath. I cocked an eyebrow. "Can't play that one on me, I'm way too persistent. So answer me now or prepare to get annoyed." He sighed, hiding his face into the pillow.
"My leg hurts, a lot. And I know how to suck pain up, but this pain's unbearable. Is this what giving birth would feel like?" I smiled, mentally laughing.
"I wouldn't know, Roxas. I think so, though." I said jokingly. Roxas shifted his head and looked at me, rolling his eyes, but he smiled. I smirked. Epic win.
"Ugh it just feels like… It feels like a baby's trying to shove itself out of my-"
"Oh dear Lord, that hurt me. Like, a lot. I would never want to experience that, ever. Don't even mention that ever again, it's too painful to even think of!" I said, wincing while Roxas laughed. There was silence for a bit, until I heard Roxas groan into his pillow once more. I looked over, realizing that before he totally trolled me by saying it was just his leg, when I knew it wasn't just that, but he brought up other things. I made a slant with my lips.
"Something else is wrong. Don't think you can go around trolling me like you did before. I do not like being trolled. Got it memorized?" Roxas chuckled for a second then went quiet, sighing.
"Hayner wanted to have sex with me… Just because he'd go around sleeping with Seifer… And the bitch sat on my leg and now it hurts, a lot." I sighed, shaking my head. I lied down next to Roxas, stroking his hair. He didn't say anything, he just laid there, facing the other way. There was a silence, but a comfortable one.
"He didn't deserve you, anyway…" I said quietly, after a while. Roxas hummed, nodding lightly as I noticed that his eyes were closing. I smiled. "The pain gone?" He gave a faint smile and opened his drowsy eyes, turning his head to face me.
"Yeah, thanks…" He replied quietly. I nodded, getting up quietly with one last stroke of his hair. "Good night…" I smiled.
"Good night, Roxy. Sweet dreams." He gave one last drowsy smile and closed his eyes, his smile soon fading.
As I got up from the bed I looked down at him. He looked so peaceful, so innocent. My lips burned to kiss him, but it wouldn't be… I don't think it'd be right…
I sighed as I shook my head, grabbing an item from my duffle bag and walked into the bathroom that was connected to the room, just staring at the small, yellow bottle in my hand. 'Prescription drugs for Axel Flame' it read. I bit my lip, and with my shaky hands I dumped all of it contents into the toilet, flushing it away, while I hesitated and put the now empty bottle back into the garbage.
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