Chapter 4 – The Fourth Day

I had so many memories here. That's the key word: had. The only event that managed to create vivid images in my mind was the house KOS-MOS stood over and the wooden Cross in the middle of the town. Other than that, it felt like I was on a vacation to a designation I've been to decades ago. Most generalizations sparked my recognition, but every important detail escaped my grasp.

"chaos?"

"Hm?" I spun around, but no one was there. Frantic for a second, my gaze dropped to the ground and I saw KOS-MOS sitting with her back to me. Her head leaned on her knees and she hugged the underside of her legs tightly, "What's up? Is something wrong?" Taking a few steps forward, I saw the forlorn look on her face.

"I wanted to apologize for my behavior earlier."

I remembered the irritation she harbored for me on the very first day; it seemed like such a long time ago, "It's okay. I should have respected the fact that you are an android, and not Mary." Surprised at the twitch on her expression, I hesitated slightly, "You are KOS-MOS, and I would not want it any other way."

She flashed a weak smile, "…I think I'm glad…that you forgot about what I truly am."

"What do you mean?"

"I can feel emotions now. That's a human characteristic. I do not know if that means that I really am Mary Magdalene now or…if it's all your doing."

More confused than ever, I only replied, "Huh…?"

"Don't you understand?" KOS-MOS turned around and looked up at me impatiently as if disappointed that this bit of news didn't have the certain effect she quite wanted, "When I first met you, I could not analyze your status. I knew you were different from the very beginning. And…when you put your hand on my shoulder, I felt…nervous. Don't get me started on my feelings when you watched me sleep, either."

This information had the effect she anticipated on me, "You were awake?"

The sly smile spreading on her face restrained me from getting too embarrassed, "Yes, and I also heard that I look 'quite beautiful' when I'm asleep." The smile widened as I blushed. Her content mood quickly vanished, replaced with a serious countenance, "But even then, you were searching for the 'real me.'" You implied Mary Magdalene, not Anti-Gnosis Weapon KOS-MOS…"

"Ah-…" I realized that the conversation swerved into a completely different frame of mind.

"Anti-Gnosis Weapon KOS-MOS is emotionless, cold, and functions by prioritized commands. Mary Magdalene is caring, gentle, and protective of the one she loves most." She suddenly became very interested in a blade of grass newly sprouting from the dirt, "What or who does that make me now?" I didn't have a clue what to say next, but she kept going, "What about you, chaos?"

"…….." By now, my muscles began to ache vaguely and it directed most of my attention.

"You are the incarnation of Anima, stripped from your full potential and under a new identity."

"KOS-MOS…" I furrowed my brows, "In a way, we are similar. You were Mary, and I…I was Yeshua."

If she had tears, they would be pouring down her face. She staggered to her feet about half-way up and threw her arms around my middle. I opened my mouth to say some random statement of shock, but she beat me to it, "chaos, I'm tired of existing. I don't want to revisit any past memories or feel this pain."

Her grip on the back of my short jacket tightened and she buried herself in my ribs. I lowered the both of us slowly down onto the ground, where she continued to hold onto me and make those eerie, dry weeping sounds. One of my free hands raised itself automatically, stroking the soft blue hair that concealed her saddened face, "Are you complete, now that you feel pain?" KOS-MOS jerked upwards and stared into my sea-green eyes. After a few seconds of deafening silence, she shook her head very faintly, but enough for the both of us to get the message.

"Do you know the reason for your existence, chaos?"

I chose to ignore her question, "Come on, KOS-MOS. You've had enough for today. We should stop looking around the town and rest for a while." Even though she didn't agree nor oppose, I said firmly, "The answers to all of our inquiries will arrive sooner or later. Save your tears for a more suitable time." The look in her eyes clearly were wondering what I had meant, but I put a hand on her cheek, wiping invisible tears. KOS-MOS couldn't help but flash yet another weak smile, letting a barely audible laugh escape her lips. She closed her eyes and held onto my hand as if it were the only link between life and death.

Leaning forward, I whispered close to her once I sensed the fatigue overwhelming her entire body, "Until that day, good night and sleep well, KOS-MOS." The strength from her hands diminished, causing the android to rest peacefully in my arms. I would have found this perfect if I could carry her somewhere for the both of us to sleep.

But I had forgotten she was an android again. An android that weighed what felt like five tons.

End of Chapter 4

Author's Note: Finally, a long chapter. Well…long for me, since the font I usually use is Arial 8 and compared to the others, this is definitely more satisfying to put up. Thank you, ChronoAzreil, for being my first commenter! I believe you were one of the first for my other fanfiction, too… Anyway, I just want to thank you for making me less insecure about my story, and encouraging me to keep writing.