Disclaimer: I don't own Charmed
Info: This is more focused on Leo than on Paige in this chapter. Like I said before, this was originally focused on Leo.
Leo
Leo was suffering from insomnia most of the time. He felt so tired, but couldn't sleep no matter what he did.
The doctor in him knew deep down what was wrong with both him and Paige, but he pushed that part of him away.
If he wasn't talking to Piper or spending time with the boys, Leo was by himself. He stayed in his and Piper's room with his back against the wall. He refused to look at the bed. Leo had replaced the mattress and bed because he couldn't stand to look at it. He cried so much. If he wasn't being burdened by the insomnia on a certain day, he cried himself to sleep.
It was his fault that big Chris was dead. Piper and Paige even thought it, even though they denied it. Phoebe was too far into her denial to even put the blame on Leo.
Leo knew they blamed him. He could see it in their eyes.
Despite the fact that Chris was calling him Dad by his death, Leo knew his youngest son still hated him. How could he not? He was a failure at fatherhood and everything else. No wonder the Elders had clipped his wings. Leo deserved everything bad that was said to him.
Piper didn't love him anymore. That's why she wouldn't let him near the baby. She probably wouldn't even let him near the new baby when he was born. Leo deserved everything he got. It was his entire fault.
Leo wished desperately that he was dead instead of Chris. Everyone would be happier that way.
Leo still had nightmares about that night. He sometimes had dreams about killing Gideon even more painfully. Gideon deserved it, even if everything was Leo's fault.
Things weren't looking up at all. Things only seemed to be getting worse.
The thought of what he had was buried deep down. His bipolar mother Rose had acted this way a lot when Leo was growing up.
Everyone in the manor was about to get tons of help, but Leo and Paige would need the most help.
TBC