~I'd hear the door shut, my body now laid in this empty bed, the vivid images running through my head of this evening, and just like that...he was gone. My body would turn to its side. Slowly, curling into a ball. That was the first night I fell asleep crying over a man.~
The morning came, and I'd awaken, my eyes burning as I walked to the bathroom. I'd preform my morning rituals as I waked to the kitchen. I'd turn the coffee pot on and sit at my desk, turning my laptop on. The second I did that my phone rang. "Hello..?" I mumbled, not noticing the number. "Hey! I just got off the plane and ill be home soon. Sorry I haven't called you I dropped my phone off the boat." a light snicker was heard. I soon recognized it to be Jean. A light smile rose to my cheeks. "Hey..No worries horse face..." she'd chuckle softly. "Ill be home soon, so make sure you have coffee made." he'd laugh again and hang up. This time...I felt guilt bubble up inside of me. Me and Jean had been roommates, and...well fuck buddies. We held no emotional tie to one another, at least I felt that way...But who knew how he felt. It would destroy me if I hurt him...
About twenty minutes passed and I heard someone come in. I'd turn in my chair to see a sun-burt Jean, a large smile on his face as he gazed at me. I couldn't help but giggle when I saw him, he looked like a lobster, he had a pale color around his eyes, from wearing sunglasses no doubt. I'd stand up and walk to him, hugging him gently. "I missed you..." he'd mumble as he held me tightly. I'd bite my lip as hugged tighter, my face now pressed against his chest. "I missed you too." I'd pull away and give him a mug with coffee. "Just the way you like it." I said, a slightly smile in place. "God..aren't you little miss perfect." he said, winking as he took the cup, sipping it slowly. "Just the way I like it [F/N]". I'd blush slighlty as I looked up to him, nodding. "Of course."~
It now about noon and I looked over, seeing Jean slowly falling asleep. I'd shake my head slightly as I walked over, nudging him. "Hey." he'd jump slightly and look to me. "Sorry..." he'd mumble as he stood up, walking towards the bedroom. I simply followed him, laying next to him. His light brown eyes bore into mine, a light blush on his sun burnt face. "You are so beautiful [F/N]..." he'd smile softly. Inside I felt like I was on fire, but a soft smile made its way to my lips. "and you look like a horse. Jean" I'd pause, snickering slightly as my hand cupped his face. "A beautiful horse." I'd lean in, kissing his forehead. He'd smile softly as he pull me into his arms. "I think I love you..." he said softly, his eyes closing tightly. "I know we agreed on this not happening...but...when I was away all I could think about was you, I didnt even look at another woman, nor did I think of another one...In all reality I only want and care for you." he'd huff slightly and his words hit me like a train. I'd look to him, blushing heavily. The feelings were overwhelming now. I had this lust for Rivai but here was Jean a man I knew for so long, a man who has always supported me...and I just...I didnt know what to do anymore. I'd begin to tear up, my hand cupping my mouth. He looked startled as he hugged me tighter. "Shh..shit no, don't cry please." he spoke frantic as he rocked me slightly. My eyes closed, and the dam busted, my tears flowing freely now, my breathing shaky as I gripped his green sweater. My body curled up against him, and he just bit his lip. I could tell he had been afraid of him doing something wrong. Soon I collected myself, my teary eyes looking into his panicked ones. "S-Sorry Jean..." I mumbled. He only shook his head. "Shh..." he said as he kissed my forehead. "Its okay, you need a nap as well as me..." he'd mumble, it was obvious he had felt heartbroken, but he wanted to drop it and I'd simply oblige with his wishes, and like that I went back into dream land.
The vivid interpretation of the man known as Master Rivai held firm in my mind. I would wake up in a panic, a deep sweat coated my forehead as I looked around. My gaze met the sleeping man next to me. He was drooling all over our pillows. I'd chuckle and ruffle his hair, kissing his nose as I did so. The clock read 2AM. I'd huff lightly as I snuggled back into his arms, soon falling back to sleep.