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Walking out of base for the day, the jobs so far not that different from Melbourne but also a lot of just ordinary police jobs too, seeing Kerry's car still there, looking around everyone else was walking out, he hadn't spoken to her much except for work related issues since the trip away, even then it was brief. He noticed she was making sure she wasn't around him. Seeing the last team member leaving he walks towards the communications room seeing Leon pick up his bag waving to him walking back to Kerry's office seeing the door open he walks in.

Looking up she had thought everyone had left, seeing Lawson there she had been doing a great job avoiding him for the past week, she had a professional working relationship with him and that was all it should be, they both have someone else.

Looking up at Lawson saying nothing but raising her eyes at him waiting for him to speak, seeing him close the door "what are you doing here Lawson". Watching as he walks over to her pushing her hair away from her face, it loose hanging down to her shoulders. Feeling Lawson's touch on her face trying to ignore the goosebumps and the way he was making her feel pushing him away putting her hands up. "Don't ….. Lawson just go home, go and ring Shannon or something" Seeing him staring at her she moves her eyes away from him "this is about you and me" Standing up from her desk, she needs to get out of there, feeling helpless as she watches him move towards her, feeling his hand on her face his touch gentle as he caresses her cheek whispering to her "do you still want me to leave" wanting to say yes, she finds herself shaking her head, all rational thinking leaving her body looking into his eyes, there is confidence there but also longing as he whispers "does your door have a lock" all she can do is nod her voice seeming to leave her, where is the strong person she used to be the one who could say get out instead all she can do is watch as Lawson walks over to the door locking it. Why can't she listen to the voices in her head that are telling her it is wrong, instead her heart seems to be overruling everything.

Following Lawson towards her door, watching as he turns around feeling Lawson's arms around her as his hand fingers move back to her face tilting her face upward, his touch so gentle looking up into his eyes slight uncertainty there but the hunger in his eyes for her, her voice barely a whisper and audible "this is my office, I can't ….. this is my office" feeling Lawson's gaze upon hers her eyes slightly down "you are so beautiful" looking at him her eyes full of want as his lips find hers the kiss soft and brief not able to look up at him her voice still soft feeling Lawson's lips upon her, her words silenced, he whispers "I thought you like taking risks" before his lips reach hers again feeling his hands move down her body as her leg lifts up his hand supporting it as there kissing becomes more feverent. Closing her eyes feeling Lawson's lips upon hers, she can't do this, she can't cheat on Chris, pulling back and pushing him away seeing the slightly confused look on his face her voice a whisper "this is my office,…. I've never done anything like this before" looking at Lawson walking away "I can't do this"

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ONE WEEK LATER

Driving down Arnhem highway the first major test for her group, it wasn't exactly what tactical response was trained for, but it gave them a start to understanding and helping in search and rescue, some of the team flying in, some driving. She had done a few of these but wanted to see how her team coped.

Arriving at the creek looking around, seeing Lawson and the other Senior Sergeant Matt taking charge getting the job down on hand, all working together watching as a crocodile Management guy walks up to them she makes her way down to them "What's happening" listening to them all "we're sending Stella, Mike and Steve on the boat with the ranger to see if they can find the crocodile or body, we're going to comb the area and see what we find" hearing Matt "if we can find the crocodile we can then concentrate on that area, but with the tides the boy could be anywhere" nodding at them she glances towards the water knowing the situation all too well "do they know what happened, did they see it" seeing Lawson shake his head as Matt walks off "No, the boys were playing in the creek and got separated, they didn't hear a noise or splash but they couldn't find him" shaking her head sadly "when will they learn, keep me updated" before walking off.

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Running down to Stokes Hill wharf that night even in the 3 years she had been up in Darwin and called out to what happened today, trying to forget the images that is if they are lucky enough to find the body, or part of it. The worse cases were the crocodiles showing off the body in their mouth, would people ever learn and stay out of the water, they were only kids today 12 years old, not much older than Sarah, hopefully she knew. She was impressed how the team came together, watching Lawson with the mother later on she couldn't help but watch. Sitting on the seat overlooking the harbour, she would never tire of watching the sunset over the water with the outlines in the distance, in a way lucky enough to live where she can jog around the paths of the beaches she never wanted to live in a suburb with the mansions despite what Chris wanted she didn't want anything fancy something simple and nice was ok.

Watching Kerry leaning back on the seat, he had come down to the wharf for a drink after work and a meal, not wanting to go back to the apartment not after today he had hoped not to have to go through that often, now he realised what Kerry meant a few weeks ago, walking over to her not waiting for an invitation sitting next to her, seeing the surprise on her face.

Looking next to her, surprised to see Lawson, shit dressed in jeans and shirt seeing his eyes fixed on her, her voice not welcoming "you've got to leave me alone" looking at Lawson no warmth in her eyes "what do you want? " looking at Kerry her voice cold "why are you like that?" then his voice low and soft moving his hand closer to her leg "I can't stop thinking about you" looking at Lawson not admitting the same he had been on her mind ever since she had slept with him, she couldn't get him out of her head not that she would admit it she was trying to act normal around Chris "are you mad" giving a short laugh at Kerry if thinking about her all the time was "Maybe ….. You know you are so beautiful smart and sexy, just like you were 10 years ago" her eyes fixed ahead over the water she can't look at him, she can feel his gaze upon her "Don't Lawson" reaching out for her hand, casually holding it "I can't help it Kerry" pulling her hand away, not able to look at him her eyes down before glancing around the wharf, she needs to be strong "You need to get over this Lawson ….. it would never work out ….. it ….. I" reaching out turning her face to look at him "Look me in the eyes and tell me you don't want this as much as I do" trying to look him in the face before looking away her eyes going side to side "its too …. Its wrong … there are so many reasons why this can't happen" feeling his hand on her leg, running it up and down closing her eyes briefly taking a deep breath trying to control her emotions "I ca … Lawson" looking at her his gaze intent "Forget about all the wrong reasons, we both want this, Kerry" her eyes not able to look at him but around the wharf she did feel something and wanted to feel his touch again but she did have more to loose something she didn't or couldn't tell him, as much as she didn't want to admit it, there were some feelings there, she did want to feel his lips on hers again and if she was truthful she wanted more but there was Chris could she do it to him "Lawson, I'm with someone …. For that matter so are you" nodding at her trying to get her to look at him "I know this is dangerous we're both in relationships, you're my boss …. I know but I felt something there" looking at Lawson she had felt it too could she do it again looking at Lawson the answer was there, her resistance wavering there was something about him still, watching Kerry get up off the seat walking away before she turns to look at him waiting for him a smile on his face he gets up to follow her.

Driving back to the wharf a few hours later, Lawson turns to Kerry he needs to know "any regrets" looking at Lawson despite it all she didn't have any yet, when she hopped in the car she actually wasn't thinking what was about to happen between them, truth was she didn't want to think if she did, maybe she would have regrets and guilt this way was better. Stopping off at her car as she undoes the seatbelt she feels Lawsons arms around her as he kisses her passionately but briefly looking at her "I don't know whether I'm forcing you into this." His voice soft "I know you pretend to be in control, but you're not" shaking her head keeping his gaze her hand reaches out for his cheek before moving her hand away her eyes look down at the floor of his car her voice soft "You're not forcing me. I... I can't seem to control myself" getting out of his car walking towards her car blocking out Chris from her head despite it all she felt alive, deep down knowing what they were doing was wrong, but now she wanted more she wanted to see him again, feel his touch there was no turning back yet and she wasn't sure if that was a good thing or not.

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Walking up the path looking around, deep down she knew she shouldn't be here, but with Chris away and Sarah at a friends place, she got Lawson's text "I'm here alone come over" it didn't take her long to hop in her car and drive over but here now, sitting in the car, she knows she can explain her presence here if anyone found out walking up to the front door she had no sooner knocked than it was open, seeing Lawson standing there in shorts and a top a smile on his face "I didn't think you would come" moving closer towards her pulling her towards him quickly kissing him before pulling away, what is she doing here, sleeping with Lawson once was a mistake but more than that it is wrong. Picking up the glass of wine, sipping it she looks around the apartment it was neater than she imagined but he was always pretty neat. Watching as Lawson walks over to her putting his glass down, pushing her hair away from her face his lips nibbling her ear feeling his arms around her, moving away "I didn't come here to…." Looking at Kerry in slight amusement why did she "to what …" looking down putting her glass down, why did she come she felt like a school girl "to you know" seeing amusement on Lawson's face at her he knew what she was trying to say "you need to spell it out" trying to tell him, why couldn't she just come out and say it, no doubt he was wondering why she was here, was that why he invited her over "to have sex" there it was said seeing the look of amusement still on Lawson's face trying to control a smirk "why did you come here?" putting her glass down walking towards the balcony "wanted to see what the view was like and to drop off this paper work for you" seeing Lawson raise his eyes at her "You thought now was a good time" looking at the view before turning back to Lawson, her eyes moving around "it's the only time I've been invited up here". Standing out on the balcony looking out to the see the view was great, she felt like a school kid again, feeling Lawson's arms around her not even realising she is leaning back towards him why did she come over, did she want something to happen, did she want more, feeling Lawson's fingers moving her hair away from her neck as she feels his lips upon her neck moving down trying to get her breathing under control as his hands move around her breasts and stomach, turning around to face him her arms wrapped around his neck as his lips meet hers the kissing becoming more passionate. Opening her eyes, she can't do this, she can't have sex with Lawson kissing him was one thing, pushing him away gently "I've got to go" grabbing her bag, closing the door, trying to get her breathing back under control why did she come over, was it only to give Lawson the paper work looking at the door to his apartment, does she really want to leave shaking her head, hurrying over to the lift. Standing next to the lift, leaning against it staring at the closed door rubbing her hand over her face, why was he having such an affect on her, it wasn't like her relationship with Chris was great at the moment was that a reason, was it the reason, no her feelings for him are coming back she can't go there as much as she wants to can she really do it, can she sleep with Lawson isn't that why she came over wasn't it why Lawson asked her over, finally pressing the button, the need to get out of there away from the temptation, watching as the door opens and Lawson comes out walking towards her.