Chapter started: March 01, 2009.
Chapter finished: March 02, 2009.
Author's Note: Well, here's another chapter, enjoy! And thanks to all the readers and reviewers from the last chapter. Much love.
=Meant to Be=
-Chapter 2: Eight Letters, Eight Broken Hearts-
Two days later, Ashley, Lucas, Corbin, Zac, Monique, Gina, Greg, Starla Efron-Zac's mom, David Efron- Zac's dad, Dylan Efron- Zac's younger brother, and Stella all sat in the Hudgens' living room, each with a letter in their broken hearted hands, after they had searched everywhere and frantically for Vanessa.
"So who wants to go first?" Ashley asked through her tears as she stayed close to Lucas' side.
"I will since I'm holding the letter addressed to all of us," Greg said before he opened the envelope and began to read it out loud:
Dear gang--
As you probably know now is that I left, NOT for good, I promise. Well, I'm sorry to say I can't actually promise that because I really don't know as of now. So I decided to write this letter and then seven others, but this one is to explain why I left and the others…well, you'll find out.
You see, I had to leave and I'm sorry guys. I really truly am and I hope you believe that I really wish I didn't have to and I hope you believe that if I didn't then I wouldn't have because I love you guys SO much.
The reason I left is because….I'm not strong enough, for what you ask…well, I'm not strong enough for all of this stress that I'm getting and its not stress from you guys, THAT I promise. What was it from you may ask, well the stress was from Hollywood and being a failure. A failure at what you ask, at NOT being the perfect daughter, at NOT being the perfect friend, at NOT being the perfect role model, at NOT being the perfect star…but, most of all for NOT being the perfect girlfriend that Zac DESERVES. And I'm not that girl, Zac, you deserve better than me the failure.
And I couldn't just do that, I don't want to be a failure to you guys because you ALL are my family, always have been since I first met you all. I love you all each for very different reasons as you will learn from the letters I have left you.
I DON'T KNOW if I'll be coming back anytime soon or if ever and I'm truly sorry for not giving you guys an answer to that right now, right here in this letter. But if I don't I wan you all to know that I love you guys ALL SO much and it kills me to do this to you all. You all are my EVERYTHING and MORE.
I don't want you guys to see me weak when you guys already see me as a strong person when truthfully I'm NOT one. I'm sorry if I disappointed you guys by this, I truly didn't mean it. I AM truly SORRY for leaving the way I did. I just couldn't see you guys and tell you because I knew you guys would have talked me into staying or at least having you guys go with and I knew I would eventually would have gave in, and I just can't do that. I NEED TO DO THIS ON MY OWN, I'M SORRY.
So the thing, is I don't want you guys to wait around for me or try to find me, so that is why I'm NOT telling you where I am.
Before I close this up, I want you guys to do me one last favor, I want you to promise that you will ALWAYS be there for each other no matter what, like I was for all of you.
And just remember that I AM ALWAYS in your heart and soul. If you want to talk to me, just talk to your heart and even though you won't hear my answer through voice, I WILL answer you in some other way or form. So that you know I AM ALWAYS here for you, if not in body, but in mind, soul, and heart.
I love you all, never forget that, and please don't forget me, but move one with your lives and JUST keep in your heart, DON'T look for me, having to uproot myself thanks to this is hard enough and I don't know if I'll be able to handle it so I don't want you to see me crash and burn. You guys are my family, always have and will be, I love you all so much, so please for me, move on with and enjoy your lives to the fullest because you never know when it can all come crashing down around you, like it did for me.
Keep living, because the hardest thing in this world is to live in it. So live. Be brace. For me.
My forever love to you WILDCATS,
Vanessa Anne Hudgens xo
-In the worlds of Heath Ledger, change the stars.
And slowly one by one they read their letters out loud and cried harder each time afterwards.
Ashley, Ashley, Ashley, we've been through our ups and our downs together you and me haven't we? You know everything about me and I about you, your secrets are always safe with me Tizzy, as I hope that mine are with you. The two of us have probably put up with more crap and criticism from each other, in amongst the laughter and the tears, the make-ups and the break ups than any of the rest of the gang could ever imagine. You're my stage sister Tizzy, so when you are up on that stage, and when you get even more famous, every time you act or sing a song, think of me, and I'll be right there with you. I love you Ashley, just as long as you keep believing and living. I pray that you do. Keep up that drama queen talent of yours.
--Nesquick
xo
Monique, I have learned so much from you that it's not even funny, you may not believe that, but you taught me how to bake (thanks for the cookies recipe, I never did tell you that I was the one who took it to photocopy) and you taught me so much more about who I am and who I can be, thank you so much for that Monique, I wouldn't be the person that I am today without you, so thanks and I love you bro. Keep cooking, baking, and being the 'mother' wildcat. I love you 'mom'.
Xo-- Van
Lucas, where oh where to begin? Well, I guess I'll start by saying I love you and thank you. Why you ask, well because you always protected me when none of the others were around. So what I want to say to you Lucas, Luke, is please stay strong, I'll always be there for you and the others, just remember that old saying that we had to find out about last year Lucas, "there will always be a rainbow in every storm" and keep believing in that, you're one of my big brothers Luke, and I could have never come anywhere near as far as where I am now without you, so keep acting and keep shining, and dancing, if you can do that, I'll love you always Lucas, so thanks. Please take care of Ashley.
Xo-- Vannie
Well Corbin, Corbs, I told you that I had a horrible feeling about this year big brother, and it sadly turns out that I was right.
You've always been there for me Corbin, ALWAYS. You have always protected me, without a single complaint. But the best thing that you have ever done for me Corbin is saved my life when I was all alone in Austin, Texas without no family and friends and especially no Zac on Valentine's Day, I'll never forget that because its close to my heart.
You also gave me a second family Corbin, made from you and the HSM cast, and most importantly you gave me an adoptive family that opened their hearts and arms to me, flaws and all. I love you too, my superstar big bro. What team? Wildcats! Getch'a head in the game.
P.S. WATCH ZAC FOR ME AND TAKE CARE OF HIM FOR ME. PROTECT MONIQUE. PLEASE. THANKS.
All my sisterly love,
Mrs. Efron aka Van Anne
Xoxo
Stella--baby sis---
I want you to listen and you listen good, okay. I love you, so much! So I'm going to make this simple and sweet because those are the words that described our sisterly bound, sweet and simple, but also loving and fun.
Stella, you are my little sister, and I see so much of myself in you, it scares me to know end because I don't want you to grow up and end up like me, a washed out superstar who only got her big break because of a movie. Little sister, baby sis, Stella T. Hudgens, I want you to remember all the good times, forget the bad and remember that the hardest thing in this world is to live in it. I love you, forever and always.
Love always,
Sissy xoxo
Dearest mommy & dearest loving daddy--
I'm sorry that I just up and left like I did, I truly am and someday I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me for all the pain and disappointment that I have put you through, for I have not been the perfect daughter. And for that I am sorry, truly sorry.
And I hope you understand that I had to do this, so I could become someone your ACTUALLY PROUD of. I love you so much, please never ever forget that.
Your forever daughter,
Vanessa Anne Hudgens
Xoxo
Dearest beloved, kind, loving, and free spirited Zachary David Alexander Efron--
First I want to start off and say that I have tried to write this letter a million and three times and I couldn't find the right words to explain my actions or to apoligze and truthfully I still can't, but what I do know is, is that I love you, so fucking much.
But words cannot describe the emotions I feel right now. I am SO far from the person I want to be right now that it makes me hate myself with a fiery passion.
I can only promise that I WILL get there and make you finally proud of me. If there is one thing in my life I hope to accomplish, this is it.
The heartache, sorrow, anger, sadness, and disgust that you feel right now is something that I wish and I pray that I could take away and feel for you, but sadly I can not. I know that's impossible, but maybe somehow, deep down inside of your beautiful soul that I can slowly east those feelings off of you and try to get the one thing back in my life that meant EVERYTHING AND MORE. That this is YOU. I have a long road ahead of me, and I want you in the passenger seat, but yet I know you can't because I need to do this alone and not bring you crashing down with me because you don't disserve that.
Zachary David Alexander Efron. You have had the biggest impact on my life out of anyone, including both of my parents. You helped me to find the real Vanessa Anne Hudgens, and find a way to express myself.
You taught me how to show my feelings, rather than keep them bottled up to the point of exploding. For all of that Zachary, I am eternally grateful to you, but there are far better reasons why I am even more grateful to have met you, you're a once in a lifetime Zac, once in a lifetime.
Zachary, I love you with all my heart, always have, always will, but please don't wait for me, find someone else to make you happy, to give your love too, but remember Zachary David Alexander Efron, that I love you, always and forever. Live. Be Free. Be Safe. For Me.
Yours forever and an eternity,
Vanessa Anne Hudgens-Nessa Anne-
XOXOXOXOXO
Well, there you all go. I hope you enjoyed it. This was a hard chapter to write and I hope you all liked it. Please R&R while I practice dodging flying objects that I know will be flying. XOXO.
Happiness. Hope. && Eternal Love.
The hardest thing in this world is to live in it. Live. Be Brave. For Me. --Buffy the Vampire Slayer