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unless you review that is. :P

Has anyone else noticed Bella Swan's initials are BS? I mean besides the whole full name being Isabella Marie Swan. Thenthey are IMS, but if you just go by Bella Swan, her initials are BS.

Disclaimer: Yah um... I can't think of a funny disclaimer. I can't think of a way to own Twilight either.

This was written to Crushcrushcrush by Paramore, so you know, if you feel like listening to it. It's awesome! I love Paramore. I was a fan before they were on the Twilight Soundtrack, so I almost screamed when they were on it, back in '08. Scratch that. I kind of did scream, just a little.

Chapter 4: Three Crushes

Bella POV

I have some crushes. I liked two of three of the Cullen boys. That was most definitely for sure. I don't know which one I liked more. They were both nice, but for different reasons. I went through the beginning of my day, waiting for Biology and for Gym.

Who would have thought, that one day, I would look forward to gym?

Or falling flat on my face? I actually kind of looked forward to that because Jasper would always help me up and just make a sweet joke out of it.

At lunch, it was to my dismay that Edward wasn't sitting with the Cullens. Was he gone? I hoped he was just in the library or something. I very much wanted to attempt normal, none awkward, conversation with him today.

He was gone. His seat remained empty through out lunch and during biology. I really liked Edward. I could just feel that crush feeling towards him. The one where my heart just melted when he said a single word to me. The one where I just wanted to touch his hand. I know there would be an electric jolt, like in books or anything, but it just made you... I don't know, but it was interesting. I hadn't really liked anyone before, but this was different. I don't even know why.

When the bell rang, my thoughts turned to Jasper. It's like my brain was on a clock or something. 7:00 to 2:30 is when my every thought was about Edward. 2:31 to 10:00, my thoughts were trained on Jasper. Something must be wrong with me.

I was still dissapointed Edward hadn't showed up though.

Jasper POV

Bella is actually very pretty. I think I'm starting to develop a liking for this human, and I just can't believe it! I barely know her, yet I feel as though I know her. That totally does not make sense, even to myself, but I just sat in my room, trying to have it make sense. This girl was driving me crazy! I only have talked to her for 48 minutes, today in gym, but it felt as though it was so much longer. Again, my brain felt as though it was going to melt from the stupid contradictions I kept forming.

I heard a knock. "May I come in?" Edward's voice called.

Yes. I mentally answered. I didn't feel like talking.

"So you feel for Bella too?" I nodded.

Wait...

Too...?

"Yes. I'm having the same feelings, and I've barely said four sentences to the girl. I had listened in on your conversation, and she seems different, more mature, from the rest of the people I've ever met."

I nodded again. I was very confused, but a thought came to my head.

What if we both like her more than we should?

"Then we have a problem."

Indeed we do.

"Let's just see what happens. I don't think either of us should condemn her to this lifestyle, let alone kill her."

Agreed.

"We can't just ignore her though. She'll know something's up. She noticed te differrence from yesterday to earlier today."

Edward seemed to just be talking to himeself now, formulating a plan. I just zoned out, and soon I started imagine myself touching her skin again, kissing her, sinking my teeth into her flesh.

"Jasper! Don't do it!" Edward's voice brought me out of my state. I hadn't noticed that I was already halfway to the door, on my way to kill Bella."We have to control ourselves, Jasper. I have had to stop myself more than once already. Don't feel bad, just don't let it happen again."

Don't feel bad? Feel bad? For the first time since Edward entered my room I spoke, "Don't feel bad?!" My voice rang out sarcastically. "Why would I FEEL BAD, when I was just about to KILL someone when I wasn't even smelling her?!" I took quick, shallow breaths.

I could feel his sorrow, his pity, and worse his anger! He was angry that I was about to kill Bella Swan!

"Yes, because as I said earlier, I feel a pull towards her! I'm not going to love her, but I atleast want her to live a happy life!" He was even more angry now.

"Not going to love her?! It sounds like you already do! If you're getting this angry over something I hadn't even done, how are you going to leave her when we all leave in a couple of years!! Besides, do you think I don't already feel guilty?! I know I made a mistake just now, but I don't need your crap!" I was fuming now. His face fell before I had even finished the sentence.

"You're right. I'm in too deep, and it's only the beginning. I'm going for a run." I could feel his woes, guilts, and sorrows that still hung in my room, even after he had left my room.

Edward POV

I ran all the way to Alaska. I just needed to think.

Jasper's right, I am getting attached to Bella. It's been too fast. I think it's more than just a crush. I just can't figure out why I feel this pull towards her; it's more than just her blood. If it were just her blood, she'd be dead by now. However, Jasper is feeling it too. Could it be the fact that the blood is just so strong to us both?

What is that Italian phrase for people like her? La Tua Cantante? Yes, yes that's it! Blood Singer. She is a blood singer for two: Jasper and myself.

Nothing in my life is for sure at this point, except that I need to take some time off just too think. I picked up my phone to let Carlisle know that I wouldn't be coming back for a few days.

Jasper POV

"Tell the school that I'm home sick or something." Came the rough sound of a phone call.

"I'll ask one of your siblings to do that." Carlisle's voice replied.

Then I heard mumbling on the other end.

"Okay then. Goodbye Edward."

"What's all that about?" I voiced my concerns. I could feel Carlisle's sadness and understanding.

"Edward has some... troubles... with the Swan child issue. He feels it's best if he takes the rest of the week off. Please tell the school that he's sick." He was upset about Edward's departure, obviously.

I wasn't sure how to feel about this. I hadn't meant for edward to leave. Guilt. Yet I was happy that I wouldn't have to worry about him getting closer to Bella than me. Happiness.

I shouldn't be happy about this. Why am I happy about something we agreed wouldn't happen for either of us?

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The day seemed to drag on... I couldn't wait to talk to Bella in seventh hour. I know I shouldn't, but I want to get to know Bella Swan.

English took forever.

Spanish even longer.

Earth Science was okay.

Trig was absolutely horrible.

History was actually pretty cool because we were focusing on the Civil War.

Lunch I spent staring at Bella and her friends.

However, Foods was absolutely disgusting and long.

Finally gym came, and I walked at the maximum human pace to get there.

I came up behind her. She was dissapointed. Why? "Hello Bella." She jumped a little. She was frightened.

"Oh! Hello Jasper!" Cue her blushing. Her mood lightened slightly. Could it be because of me? I hope so, but I shouldn't.

"You seem a little dissapointed. Are you upset at my presence?" I attempted with a joke, but I think she saw through it.

"No! Of course not! Who else is going to help me after I fall flat on my face?" She was avoiding why she was sad, but I could feel it is still there, under her smile.

"What's wrong then?" Please tell me. I beg of you!

After a sigh, she hesitantly told me, "Edward wasn't in class today." My face fell, but I composed myself before she saw... I think.

"Do you have a crush on my brother?" Please say no. Please say no! Please say NO!

"A little," she whispered with more blushing. My heart cracked. It wasn't broken, just cracked.

She didn't like me. She liked Edward. I felt like hitting something...

hard.

I have more than just a crush for Bella Swan. Why can't she like me? Why can't she see that I'm easier for her to be around? She feels awkward around Edward. I can atleast feel that. She feels way more comfotable around me! Why can't she see that for herself! Well, this is something neither Edward or I can ignore. This isn't something that can be overlooked by anyone. I barely knew Isabella Swan, but I was sure that I liked her more than I knew. If I was feeling this intense jealousy for her feelings toward Edward, then one thing is for sure:

I will surely die if I don't win Bella's heart.

I wasn't originally end it there, but I really liked it there. Bella's POV was going to go after Jasper's but I thought this had a bit more effect. Hit or Miss?

I'm moving the story along pretty fast because I want to get to the good stuff! You know, like what happened at the end of this chapter!

I remember what I was going to tell y'all before I forgot yesterday. I might be looking for a beta. Maybe, maybe not, I'm not sure.

-Gentry.