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The second Elena whispered 'sorry', I almost lost it. It took all the strenght I had not to snap someones neck. I already snapped Alaric and Jeremy's and they're still pretty pissed about it.. So when she said that I just turned back to this crappy little bar they set up and tried to get a drink. I looked around for some bourbon, but then I remembered this is a school dance. I sighed, I could already hear footsteps of a determined Elena coming towards me and I can't have this conversation sober.
I was surprised that I felt Elena's hand grab me around the arm and start pulling me away, I was not expecting that. As I stumbled, trying to catch my footing, Elena kept pulling me. When Elena finally stopped I almost rammed into her, but I stopped myself, thank god, and now I'm just looking at her, waiting for the lecture. As I wait I realise that we're not in the gym anymore, we're in some hallway. She keeps on looking at me and I can't figure out what she's thinking..that is unnerving.
I sighed again, "What?" I asked. It came out a little rougher than I wanted it to, but I couldn't care less.
She opened her mouth to say something but nothing came out. She was shaking her head a little and trying to think of something to say. I just raised my eyebrows at her, waiting.
She looked away and whispered, "I'm sorry," I rolled my eyes.
"Yes Elena, I heard. You said it right after the big show,"
Her eyes shot back to mine, "I didn't mean for you to see that.." she said a little louder than before.
I held me hand up defensively "oh, I'm so sorry Elena. Next time I'll be sure to give the lovebirds some privacy." I said sarcastically and turned to walk away. She blocked my way, another thing that surprised me. I tried to step to the side, but she stepped infront of me. I tried the other side and she did it again. I lost my patience, "okay Elena, you asked for it," I mummbled to myself.
Elena heard me and her eyes widened a bit, but then she put her hands on her hips and said, "really Damon, what are you going to do?"
I rolled my eyes again and put my hands on her hips, I heard her breath catch in her throat as our hands touched, I guess she thought I was about to re-enact Denver, but to her surprise, I lifted her up, turned around and put her down, "stay," I said, staring in her eyes. I almost got lost in them before, reluctantly, letting go of her hips and walking further down the hallway.
My actions must of surprised her a lot because it took her some time to regroup and come running down the hallway after me. She grabbed my hand as she ran infront of me, "seriously Damon, stop! I never meant to hurt you!" she shouted, her eyes full of pain and regret. I scoffed, looking away. Elena tugged on my hand more, forcing me to look at her. Her eyebrows were knitted together and her forehead was wrinkled a bit, it was adorable, but I didn't stop me from saying..
"You didn't mean to hurt me?" I raised my eyebrows, "that's pretty much all you do Elena and I'm sick of it!" I shouted back. She was shocked at my words and probably the volume of my voice but I couldn't care less.
"Damo-" she tried to say in a sympathetic way, but I interrupted her.
"Remember when I said I wouldn't make this easy for you Elena?" I asked. When she nodded a little I continued, "well, I'm gonna' make it real simple for you, by skipping to the last chapter, where you choose Stefan over me, you two ride off into the sunset together, and I go home and drink.." I yanked my hand out of hers and shot her a death glare.
She shook her head "No Damon, I-" She stopped when I chuckled.
"What? You're going to choose me? Last time I checked, less than 24 hours after you kissed me you're asking my baby bro out on a date. I never even had a chance Elena! I know it, you know it, Stefan knows it, everyone in Mystic Falls fucking knows it!" I shouted, suddenly glad we're not in the gym anymore, "so why don't you just do the inevitable and run back into Stefans arms and save me the heartbreak of it."
There were tears running down her cheeks by this point and I almost took it all back, but I stood my ground. I'm not taking this anymore. But when she choked on a sob, I softened a bit.
"I'll always be there to protect you," because I'm pathetic, "but, I-" I suddenly couldn't think of anything to say. I can't but how I feel into words, there isn't a word to describe how much pain I've felt in the past year.
Elena just kept staring at me with those glossy, doe eyes and I had to look away.
She grabbed my hand again, except this time with both of her hands, I couldn't help feel a spark when she did that, and I looked at her, not even bothered to hide the emotions in my eyes. This must of shocked her because she squeezed my hand tighter.
"you have to know I never wanted to hurt you," she said in a strong voice, but you could hear the shaking behind it. "believe it or not, you're my bestfriend. Not Caroline, or Bonnie, or Stefan, you. And-" she shook her head, "I-I just couldn't stand the thought of losing you, I know it's selfish and I know now how much I've hurt you and I-" her voice cracks, "I-I'm so sorry!"
I sighed and gathered her up in my arms. She immediately responded and wrapped her arms around my neck and sobbed into my shirt. I buried my face in crook of her neck, knowing that I'll probably never get to do this again, and let her cry it out. We stood like this for, it had to be about ten minutes before her sobs died down and she stopped shaking, I was the first to pull away and look at her with concern. Her arms slid from around me neck to my chest where she patted down the big damp spot on my shirt, she couldn't meet my eye.
Feeling hesitant, I gently cupped her face and wiped the tears away from under her eyes, she closed her eyes and leant into my hand. I wanted so badly to stay like this, her hands gently stroking my chest, her eyes closed, relaxing into my hands, our bodies so close that I could feel her breath on my neck, god, I thought, Stefan is the luckiest son of a bitch on the planet. With that thought, before I could stop myself, I said, "you should probably get back to Stefan.."
Her eyes flew open in shock as me looked at me. I was shocked too, not only of what I said but of the way my voice sounded. It was hoarse and cracked somewhere during his name, it sounded nothing like me. After some time of her gazing at me in shock, she slowly nodded. I stroked her cheeks with my thumb one more time before dropping them to my sides.
She look down and hurridely walked down the hallway and around the corner.
I stood there for a while, thinking about what the fuck just happened and I got angry again, I just hand delivered the woman I loved into Stefan's arms, I chuckled bitterly, I swear to God if he messes this up, I'll kill him. I thought as I strode back to the gym.
When I walked back into the gym after my talk with Damon, I had to sit down. My legs were shaking like crazy and I was fighting back tears. I walked over to the bleachers and sat down, buirying my face in my hands, desperately trying to calm down. I felt a hand on my back and I looked up, Stefan was sitting beside me.
"Hey, are you okay?" he said in a soft voice. I wasn't in the mood for talking to I just nodded and looked back down. Stefan sighed and said, "I'll go get us some drinks.." before he got up and headed to the bar.
I looked up again as I heard the gym doors open and close again and I see Damon walking through. He marched straight up to Alaric who was Irish-ing up his drink at the bar, grabbed his flask, downed it and smiled when Alaric glared at him. There weren't many people here anymore, the girl on stage was packing up her things, Bonnie and Jeremy were talking at the side, with the guy Bonnie was dancing with earlier standing awkwardly to the side, Caroline and Tyler were fighting and then there were a group of about ten people just standing around talking.
This night was a disaster..
And it isn't going to get any better. The next chapter has a lot more action/blood in it so I'm looking foward to hearing what you think of it! I' not very happy with how this chapter turned out but it's much better than my first draft so it'll have to do..anyway hope you liked it and I'd love it if you'd drop me a review:) xx