OHSHC

Say My Name

'for those that don't feel like they're enough.'

Kaoru x OC x Hikaru

Double Trouble Copyrighted Sokuryokudo Kyoutendouchi

Ouran High School Host Club Copyrighted Bisco Hatori

Opening Theme "Blue Bird" (Ayumi Hamasaki)

Chapter 3: "To Join a Host Club"

Although I was born in Japan, I'm actually a mixed mutt. My mother was half Japanese half French, which was where my polyglot abilities came from. She spoke French when we were alone, Japanese out in public, and English when my father was around.

My father is Metis Canadian, making him a mixture of English, French Canadian, and Saulteaux First Nation. While he fluently spoke French and English, my father did not frequently speak Ojibwe because only his grandmother spoke it with him. As such, I only learned a handful of sayings for it.

As the story goes, my parents met in Canada when my mother was on a trip. She returned to Japan and had us. We eventually moved to Canada, but after my mother died we left and returned to Japan.

During our stay in Canada, I was surprised at the attitudes of the schools there. I was a minority, a double minority actually. I was asian, and I was native. My skin was lighter than most of those due to the caucasian in my blood, but my almond eyes and light build would give me away all the time. My light blond hair wouldn't trick anyone, neither my green eyes.

Shinji, my elder brother, looked far more asian than any of us, but that was probably because he was our half brother. He'd been from my mother's first marriage to a Japanese man. That didn't make him any less my brother though.

We were often isolated for our looks. It took a long time for people to accept us. And for a while, Natsu and I became closed off, even from our own siblings. Because we were bullied a lot, Natsu would come to my rescue, and I to his. We didn't go any time of day without each other. We shared our bed, our clothes, it was why I got into the habit of cutting my hair so short like his, and dressing masculine. The kids at school were scared of Natsu and his bad temper, so if I dressed like him it gave me a second defence.

I remember the first time someone tried to befriend us. She was a nice girl, quite sweet and good to all her classmates. I don't think she had any bad intentions, but honestly when enough kids lie to you or trick you you start to doubt even your own judgement. All she did was ask us to play in the sand box with her.

Natsu shoved sand down her shirt.

I laughed and egged him on.

The girl cried, she left us alone after that. The whole school left us alone after that.

Then mom died.

We went back to Japan.

I was used to being the minority my whole life, I was used to stares and questions or concerns. I was used to a lot of things I probably shouldn't have been used to. Yet when mom died….. I just felt raw. Like everything was ripped away, everything was new.

I suddenly felt like there wasn't enough. Enough time, effort, friends, happiness. Mom took everything, and I felt like we were alone now. I remembered how we treated that girl, how we treated everyone, but for the life of me I couldn't remember why. Did we waste so much time being scared? Did we waste so much time being angry?

I was never going to see mom smile again.

It was all because we were too busy getting angry at the world.

So I decided to not be angry. I decided to just let things happen, and be happy when they went the way I wanted, and not hold a grudge when they didn't.

We always think we have so much time.

Until we don't.

When I got the scholarship for Ouran, I realized that I wanted more time. I had to grow up now, I needed to get this part right for my family. So I promised myself, that no matter what, I would do what was right by them. I would do what was right by me.

Maybe that's why the twins frustrated me so much. You ever see someone who was you a while back, the struggling you who needed that extra shove? That was them, and I could see they could be so much more. They were such cowards though, and they didn't want to take that damned step.

So I took that step for them.

"Hikaru Hitachiin."

He just stared at me, not moving for a moment. A few seconds later his shocked expression turned into a scowl as he grabbed my collar again.

"What's your reasoning? How did you know?!" He snapped. I put on the sappiest smile I could just to rub it in some more.

"You doodle the most, you suck at English, and you're the biggest prick." I said. Hikaru dropped me and backed up. His expression mildly panicked. Kaoru chose this time to pop his head from around the corner. I glanced at him and waved. He looked confused as he made his way over, and from the look on his twin's face he probably guessed what happened.

"How?" Kaoru asked. I shrugged.

"To be honest, I cheated."

"What?!" They said in unison.

"Well can you blame me? You spend all your time trying to look identical. I don't know you, I don't know which twin is which because you won't let anyone know you as people. So of course to me you're just the Hitachiin twins. I could see differences, one of you sucks at math, the other English, one likes to read books while the other doodles. One of you is more arrogant too. But I don't know which twin that is because you won't let me. So I cheated, I asked a girl what you guys do to make them cry and used it to my advantage."

They stared at me for a moment, then each other.

"Listen, you don't have to actually join the Host Club, I'm not going to force you. But you see….." I paused as I thought of Tamaki jumping around, of him playing the piano. "….There are people who would love to get to know you. Who want to be your friend, so…. If you do want people to know which is Kaoru and which is Hikaru, you'll have to come and join us in the third music room of the highschool, this Friday."

I left them standing there, wondering if there was something different I should've said. What I said was true, so maybe…. hopefully….. they thought so too.

"So you left it up to them to come? Under the impression you made enough of an impact to affect them? How audacious of you." Kyouya said. I bristled as I sat at one of the tables set up.

"Look, there was no point trying to force them to come. Even if they did they probabluwould hate it no matter what happened." I countered, gripping the loose pants covering my thighs as I bowed my head. I forgot how weirdly sharp Kyouya's words could be.

"Don't worry, I'm sure they'll come." Tamaki said as he stood by the window. I looked over to him, surprised how certain he was of this. I had expected him to be crying on the floor at my failure, or at the very least upset. Instead he was calmly looking out the window like nothing was wrong, and I was beginning to get concerned.

"You-You sure about that?" I asked, feeling weird seeing Tamaki this calm. He turned and smiled at me, but it wasn't a smile he always used. This one was so gentle, like the time I sang and he played piano. It was a smile reserved for utmost confidence in his friends.

"Of course, you have a way of affecting people." He said softly. I was surprised, so I tried to hide the blush creeping onto my face by turning and scratching my neck. Dammit, when he says it like that I…..

The door to the music room opened.

We all turned to see Mitskuni Haninozuka and Takashi Morinozuka coming into the room. Tamaki has told me about them, but I had never even seen them other than in passing before.

"Haninozuka-senpai! Morinozuka-senpai! I'm so glad you could make it! The first official Host Club meeting is beginning!" Tamaki said with

I stood from my chair and gave a slight bow.

"Please to me you. My name is Naoki Kurosaki. I'm a second year middle school student here at Ouran." I said in the most polite voice I could, so it surprised me when Haninozuka- senpai jumped right in front of me.

"Oh wow! You're so pretty Nao-chan! You can call me Hani! Would you like to see my bunny Usa-chan?!" He asked rapid fire, shoving a cute pink bunny in my face. I couldn't help but laugh at him as I took his toy. It was way too cute, and so was he.

"Thanks Hani-senpai, Usa-chan looks very cute today too." I said wth a wink. Hani grinned back before going on and on about Usa-chan. He suddenly stopped and turned to his friend who was still at the door.

"This is Takashi, but everyone calls him Mori! Takashi come say hi!" Hani said. Mori looked down at me and gave a quick nod. The guy was absolutely huge, my word. I smiled and bowed politely. He gave a ghost of a smile, one that I might've missed if I wasn't looking for it.

"Hi."

Hani grabbed my forearm then and gently tugged me to sit at the table.

"Suoh told us that we would be starting the club soon! He said the Hitachiin twins would be here as well!" Hani said rapid fire. I smiled while setting Usa-chan down in my lap.

"We'll see. I think I struck a cord, but we shall see." I said hesitantly.

"Well from what Kyouya has told us I think it'll be alright." Hani said. I paused, absorbing his words, before my eyes drifted over to the man in question that was currently taking up residence at another table and chair.

"Kyouya said something about me?" I asked, seeing how the black hair boy never even so much as raised his eyes. His pencil just kept going on as he took notes. There was always something so reserved about the guy, and it unnerved me. It made me question even more so how he and Tamaki were friends.

"Yup! He said you were charismatic and intelligent and he was confident if Tamaki didn't win us over you would." Hani said. I mulled over the words a bit, surprised to hear something like that from Kyouya. Part of me wondered if it was because he was using me as a business tactic. It had to be something like that, the king of shadows didn't hand out anything for free, especially not compliments.

Which made me question even more why Kyouya and Tamaki were friends. There had to be something to it, something I wasn't seeing. Absolutely no way Kyouya did anything without merit.

The door to the music room opened.

We all turned to look.

I was surprised to see two identical faces looking back at all of us. Both twins stood side by side. Neither gave anything away as to what they were feeling.

"Welcome! Welcome Hitachiin brothers!" Tamaki said with a flourish. I watched Tamaki greet them, but the two just walked past him and looked at me.

"Let's get one thing straight." One brother said.

"We're here because we honour our word." The other carried on.

"Not because we want to join some stupid club."

"So if we don't like it."

"We'll leave."

"Got it?" They finished in unison. The room was quiet as everyone looked at me. I took the moment to really look at the two, and I could see the faintest signs of embarrassment on their faces.

So I smiled and stood to face them both before bowing lightly.

"Then thank you for coming to see our silly club," I said before standing tall. "I hope we all have fun together."

The twins looked taken aback, but I could hear Hani giggling and see Tamaki's smile from over the twin's shoulders.

Maybe this was going to be the start of something good.

I take it back, there's no way this could be a good thing. In fact I think I would've preferred if I had just dropped out of Ouran.

Following the first official meeting of the host club, Tamaki proclaimed that each of us had a special job to do, and a select style. I was inducted to be manager of the host club. It would be my responsibility to decide themes, meetings, organize guests, find whatever crazy thought the boss was having that week, and to essentially play mother hen to six spoiled brats.

Goodie.

Kyouya was secretary and treasurer. He would essentially tell me finances, prices, and I would in turn try not to faint. I also had the sneaking suspicion I wouldn't be the only one vying for themes and ideas.

Tamaki claimed himself the president. After a few nasty words from the Hitachiin twins the motion was passed. Then things got extra weird when Tamaki said they each had to have a type. He went over with each member what he thought their strengths were that they should play up. Surprisingly the twins seemed to take to their 'brotherly love' theme rather well.

That is…. Until Kyouya went to adjourn the meeting.

"Hang on, what about him?" Both Hitachiin brothers said as they pointed to me. The whole table paused for a moment before Hani giggled.

"Nao-chan can't host!" Hani said.

"Yeah? And why's that?" One twin asked.

"Too scared?" The other added. Tamaki quickly quieted them.

Naoki can't host because she is a lady. If anything she would be a guest." Tamaki said. Both twins paused before looking straight at me with bug eyes.

"Hang on….."

"You're telling me…."

"That person right there….."

"Is a girl?!" They finished together, looking absolutely scandalized. I looked at them with a confused expression.

"Well….. yeah. I used to always keep my hair short since I played sports, it was just easier to maintain too. And I borrowed my brother's clothes since I don't normally wear skirts. I can't afford the school uniform anyway."

"But you're popular with the ladies!" They countered. I smiled and shrugged.

"Yeah, because the only person who knows what a lady wants is a lady," I said. "Which is why I agreed to help Tamaki with this club. Because you two will need training."

Both twins crossed their arms and looked away from me.

"Oh please, we know plenty." They both said. I raised a brow.

"You sure? Those heartfelt letters don't count. You didn't have to win those girls over, they liked you for your looks. But to actually entertain a lady, you've got to speak to them, keep them entertained. Make them blush a little. Can you do that?" I asked. Both twins looked at each other before one confidently looked at me. I was beginning to think this was Hikaru, considering his boldness.

"Definitely, we can make any girl weak in the knees." The one I was pretty sure was Hikaru said. Tamaki opened his mouth to say something, but Kyouya stopped him as I leaned over to the twins across the table.

"I doubt it. You couldn't even make me blush."

It was at this moment I knew, I fucked up.

I think Tamaki had seen it too and was trying to intervene. Kyouya stopped him though, while Hani and Mori observed. I'm not sure why, but they all seemed to be intrigued by this.

"Oh?" Hikaru said. "You hear that Kaoru? Our new toy thinks she can withstand us."

So I was right…..

"It would seem so but perhaps we should give her a moment of reprieve. I would hate to surprise her. Let's give her a fair go." Kaoru said. I smirked, sitting taller and raising my chin.

"Is that so. Tell you what. If you can make me blush by the end of the week I owe you one favour. But if you can't, well….. then you'll have to buy me lunch for a month."

"Seems a little unfair, lunch for a favour." Hikaru said with narrowed eyes. I shrugged, holding my hands up to show innocence.

"I figured you wouldn't care about money, but it would help a commoner like me a lot if I didn't need to worry about food. The favour can be anything. Even be your servant for a day."

Well that certainly peaked their attention.

"Anything…?" They chimed together. I nodded, before they both grinned that Cheshire smile I was certain I would come to hate.

"Deal."

The following weeks would be a complete and utter nightmare.

Ending Theme: "Brick By Boring Brick" (Paramore)

Hey, not sure why but my muse came back and I really wanted to publish this chapter before it went away.

I've been busy... very very busy. And I haven't had much time to really write lately. I've found I want to be a director, I love editing videos, even made my own youtube channel (though it is very very small!) and I just want to enjoy what I do, which meant putting writing on the back burner for a while.

i'd like to say I'm back, but I really don't know, and I'm tired trying to live up to a promise. So no promises, but thank you so much for reading this. I do appreciate it, and i hope you're doing well.

If you have any special requests for things to happen, please feel free to leave a review on it. Who knows? Maybe my muse with keep going.

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