Captain Weirdo: Ohhhh, she will be, don´t worry :D Thanks very much, I´ll do now!
addlogcon: Thank you and of course I´ll do now!
Prettycrazy: Yeah, well- actually I like Rupert too, from what we know about him he seems to have been a really nice guy but well, unfortunately for him he has to serve his purpose in here- she´ll change from angry to frustrated to upset now- nothing better for an interesting story line than hysterical queens ;)
JUJUChick16: Don´t waste your energy, rather use that for commentating, Ill find something else to get back at him :)
Josef shook his head, then held out his hand and after a moment of hesitation she seized it and allowed him to pull her close to her.
"I´m sorry" she sobbed, her arms wrapping tightly around his waist.
"I´m really sorry, that wasn´t a fair thing to say."
"No, it wasn´t- but I can understand you said it, no one was fair to you either."
"You are always fair to me- you never lose control and I have this tendency to make a complete fool of myself in front of you."
"You could never make a fool of yourself, not even if you tried" he told her, still holding her to him and finally she looked up into his eyes.
They didn´t speak, the tension between them taking their breath away.
"I think I should leave now" Josef managed to say at last but when he tried to disentangle himself from the queen´s arms she wouldn´t let him.
"Don´t go" Clarisse breathed against his lips, her gaze firmly locked with his.
"I have to leave, Clarisse, I have to leave now- or we will both regret it."
"You would regret it?"
Her voice was serious, taking Josef by surprise, he would never have dreamed that she would consider to cheat on her husband- and if then with someone other than her bodyguard of all people, there was tension, yes but she still happened to be the queen of Genovia while Josef was, well- nobody.
"Tell me, would you?"
She demanded, her lips still almost touching his.
"Don´t make me answer that" he replied hoarsely, starting into her deep blue eyes.
"But I will make you, I order you to answer my question, Josef, now."
"You know I wouldn´t, you know how- please, just let me go."
"But I don´t want you to go, I want you to stay here- I want you to make love to me."
"Clarisse-" he tried to pull away from her but she wouldn´t let go of him.
"You said you love me, you want me, why don´t you just do it?"
She was pleading with him now and Josef became aware how insane the situation was, here he was, holding the woman of his dreams in his arms, the woman he had thought to be forever out of reach and she was practically begging him to make love to her and he refused- but he couldn´t do what she wanted, he couldn´t sleep with her because she needed to get back at her husband and then pretend nothing had happened.
"I can´t."
She looked hurt now and finally let go of him and stepped back.
"You didn´t mean it, did you."
"What?"
"Did you want to see how I would react? How long it would take until I told you you could have me? Well, congratulations, barely twenty hours, that must be some sort of record."
She turned away from him, fighting back tears while Josef tried to comprehend what she was talking about and when he finally did, he gasped in indignation.
"You think I lied to you?"
"Of course, why else would you refuse to touch me otherwise?"
"Because I don´t want to be used by you to get back at your husband, I have told you before, I´m not like all the other man who look at you and lust after your body, I´m attracted to your mind and obviously I didn´t manage to get that through to you."
She flinched at the harshness in his voice and Josef instantly regretted his words, he spend all his life trying to prevent her getting hurt and now it was him hurting her and purposely.
He was waiting for her to turn around and ask him how he dared to talk to her like that in the cold voice she reserved for disobeying staff but she didn´t move at all, only her shoulders trembled slightly and after a moment Josef realized that she was crying.
"Clarisse?"
He reached out and touched her arm, unsure what to think, was she still crying because of her husband´s betrayal or had he really hurt her so much with his accusations?
"Clarisse, please look at me."
She turned around and before Josef could do anything she had flung her arms around him and buried her face against his neck.
Josef held her to him, gently stroking her back as her sobs grew more quiet and finally subsided but she still refused to look up at him.
"I´m sorry, I didn´t want to hurt you, it´s just- I love you so much, sometimes I think I can´t bear it anymore."
"But I love you, too" she whispered, her warm lips brushing against his neck as she talked.
"I wanted to tell you but I was too scared."