Chapter 4
I stood in the shower for what felt like forever just letting the water run down my body. Alex had initially knocked on the door to check on me but eventually gave up. I just couldn't stop contemplating what I had just experienced. I liked it. I really really liked it when she kissed me. Does that mean I'm gay? I think maybe just for Alex. Or maybe It would have felt good if anyone seduced me like that. I didn't think I wanted Alex, but I just cant stop thinking about how she made me feel. Larry never made me feel like that, but what if I just didn't like Larry that much, or what if he was a bad kisser. After what I assume is probably a 40 minute shower I decide it is time to get out.
I didn't have any of my clothes so I have to go out in my towel, and I really am just hoping that Alex left because I don't know what I am going to say to her. Although I know that is probably very unlikely.
I slowly turn the knob and step out and sure enough there she is sitting on her bed.
She looks up from her phone immediately "Hey" is all she says
"Hey" I respond not knowing what to say
**hey alex, I know I freaked out but I really did like what you did, but I don't think im gay and so I don't know what that means**
"Look Piper I'm sorry, I wasn't trying to freak you out, I just wanted to show you that you were actually attracted to me, but I shouldn't have done that, I was obviously wrong okay?" Alex says in a monotone voice
"Thank you for saying that" is all I muster up to say. Really piper.
"Yeah" Alex says sounding a little disappointed with my response
"Look Alex, I'm straight okay" I say with little conviction
"I know piper" She responds immediately "Why didn't you just tell me to stop"
"I…I.. don't know, I just…"I don't know how to finish my sentence
".. Didn't want me to stop?" Alex finishes it for me
Exactly, is what I should say but instead my stupid self continues to deny
"That's not what I said Alex"
"Okay piper well when you figure it out you let me know" Alex gets off the bed and begins walking towards the door
I don't want her to go but I know she isn't going to stay unless I admit the truth
"Alex wait!" she stops walking and turns around prompting me to say something
"You, you weren't wrong" I hope she knows what im talking about
she tilts her head to the side as a small grin appears on her face before she looks back up to me "I know I wasn't"
"Then why did you say that" I say confused
"because you obviously aren't ready to admit it yet" she responds
She's right, im not ready. I look down at my feet not knowing what to say. Alex comes to the rescue again
"Come on kid, Nicky said they set up a blow up movie screen down by the water there's a bunch of people down there, we should go hang out with people" Alex says changing the subject knowing I'm not ready to have a long conversation about it
I quickly get dressed and go to walk to the door where she is standing, and she places her hand on my lower back as I pass through the doorway before closing it behind her. It sends shivers through my body.
We walk in silence down to the lake before Alex breaks it
"Just stop thinking about it and try to have a good time okay, I'm gonna go find Nicky you can come or I'll catch up with you later" Alex says
"Ill just see you later" I say as I look around for someone I know
Alex walks off, and I'm left there standing by myself. I finally spot Jessica and even though she isn't my favorite she's better than me standing here looking awkward.
I walk up and join the group of girls.
"Hey Piper where have you been?" Jessica asks
"Took a long shower" I laugh, did some other things too
"Well good timing the movie just started, Polly's going to get snacks she should be back soon" Jessica says
"Oh cool, what movie is it" I ask
"Um Get Out I think, kind of creepy" She replies
Just then Polly walks up with a bunch of candy " Oh hey piper!" She says happily plopping down next to me
"Hey!" I reply "so Is this a scary movie because I hate those" I say
"Um no I think its more of a thriller" one of the girls I don't know replies
We've been watching for about 40 minutes, and they were right, it wasn't a horror movie but it definitely got my heart racing a couple of times
I started to feel a couple rain drops but I thought maybe something was just dropping off of something, but it quickly picked up into full fledge rain. A lot of the people abandoned the movie or ran under the porch. We were cleaning our stuff up to go inside somewhere when the sky broke open and a large bolt of lightning across the lake followed by a loud boom of thunder caused me to panic.
That's when the staff started pulling down the movie screen and yelling for everyone to go back to their rooms
The wind is really starting to pick up and everyone begins to sporadically run to their rooms.
I lose the rest of the group in the panic and I don't want to stand there getting drenched in the rain looking for them so I decide to just run back to my room by myself.
I spot Nicky and Alex up ahead of me and it looks like they both are going to my room.
I finally get to the room completely soaked. I enter the room to see Alex towel drying her hair and Nicky just standing there sopping wet.
"Damn chapman I know it was raining but you look like you went for a swim" Nicky jokes
Another loud boom of thunder shakes the room and I wince. I am terrified of thunderstorms ever since I was little. We had this really bad storm, and the thunder was so loud It was shaking the house all night. My parents told me it was fine but the wind was so bad that it caused one of the trees in our backyard to come crashing down, and it fell on apart of the house, which of course was very close to my room. Ever since then thunder storms cause me to have severe anxiety.
"Are you okay" Alex asks genuinely concerned…. I'm guessing the blood drained from my face at the last boom
"yeah I just really don't like thunderstorms" I say
"It's a pretty bad storm, but we'll be fine" Nicky says reassuringly
"Yeah I hope" I go to grab some clothes to change into
"Great idea piper, I need to go back and change" Nicky says "You guys can come hang in my room, piper I think your friend was going to stop by" she grins
I glance down at the time on my phone, it was 11:15, so I decide to just stay in the room.
"I'm just going to stay here thanks though" I say
"Want me to stay with you?" Alex asks but not in her normal seducing voice, this is a much gentler tone
I hesitate because of our earlier time alone together but alex speaks up again
"Just because you don't like thunderstorms and all" as to clarify why I would want her presence
I wanted to tell her no, that she should go hangout, but truth is I really didn't want to be here alone with this storm. I was terrified.
"If you don't mind" I say shyly
"not a problem" Alex quickly responds
Nicky glances between the two of us with her eyebrows scrunched together
"Okay well I'll see you tomorrow stretch" Nicky says on her way out of the room
Alex goes to change her clothes, and then comes back and sits down on her bed
"So why are you so scared of storms?" Alex asks
"A tree crashed into my house when I was younger and almost hit my bed, been terrified ever since" I say
"well that makes sense" Alex laughs trying to ease the tension
A loud boom shakes the room again and I cant help but close my eyes
"Want to watch some Netflix, help get your mind off of the storm?" Alex asks trying to help
"Yeah sure" I say staring back at her, not getting up
Alex pulls her laptop out and looks over and starts laughing
"Well your going to have to come sit on my bed, unless you have impeccable eyesight and hearing" she laughs
I forgot how close we would have to be to watch Netflix together, but I get up and sit down on her bed leaving a gap between us
We scroll for like 15 minutes trying to pick a show before Alex starts cracking up saying she knows exactly what to put on
"Have you ever seen The L Word" She asks raising her eyebrows
"cant say that I have" I ask perplexed, I really have not heard of that show "Whats it about?"
"Oh you'll see" she responds coyly
We watch the first episode and of course, of course this is the show she picked. What is she trying to do to me
"I don't want to watch this show anymore" I say annoyed
"AW come on" Alex laughs
The wind has gotten even worse the past hour and while the show helped keep me distracted my anxiety is getting a lot worse. I think this thunder is going to go all night and im not going to get a second of sleep.
*BOOM* probably the loudest one yet, it shakes the beds like crazy and that means the lightning is getting closer. I shut my eyes and I don't want to open them just curl up into the fetal position.
I reach out to grab Alex's hand. I know things are really confusing right now, but I just need somebody to comfort me and I don't care who it is currently.
She seems surprised but gives my hand a reassuring squeeze
"Its okay pipes" Alex whispers
"I need you to distract me" I say to Alex, and even I don't know what I mean
"You made me turn off the show that's what I was trying to do!"
"Well can you put on a different show atleast" I respond
She picks a random movie and I can feel myself starting to get drowsy when I hear another loud boom. Causing my body to jump.
At that Alex grabs my arm and pulls me towards her, pulling my body against hers and holding me
"Alex what are you doing"
"just relax and let me hold you, your terrified, and you need to sleep" she responds
"Im not sleeping in your bed" I say back to her
"that's fine, but just let me hold you while you calm down" she says "I promise I wont tell anyone you're a scaredy cat" she jokes as she begins to rub my back in a soothing way
Her rubbing small circles on my back is causing me to drift off, and im trying to fight it, as much as I enjoy her warmth and how safe I feel in her arms, I don't think I can handle it
Alex can tell I'm drifting in and out of sleep and leans to shut the light off giving me a full view down her shirt. I don't know if she thought I was asleep but I was most definitely not. She then goes to roll us so that we can get under the blanket. That wakes me up enough.
"Alex I should go back to my bed" I say
"Stay" she responds quietly and lays her arm across my waist
I did feel a lot more at ease with her close by. I guess it wouldn't kill anyone if I slept next to her.
"Fine" I say scooching back towards her
"good girl" she says with a smile on her face as she pulls me tighter to her body
I lay there trying not to think about my situation. Ignoring the fact that my body is pressed into Alex's and her arm is draped over me, her fingers skimming underneath the bottom of my shirt, ignoring how its making my whole body tingle. I finally close my eyes and succumb to her warmth and allow myself to fall asleep.
I wake up to a loud boom and shaking, I look over and see Alex is still asleep. I cant help but watch her for a little. Then something smacks into the window, some leaves I think but it causes me to go back into panic mode.
I need to get my mind off of it. I look over and decide to shake Alex awake
"Piperrrr, I'm tired what do you want its just the wind" She says groggily
"I need you to distract me, or I'm going to have a panic attack" I say defeated
She props herself up on her elbow and then runs her fingers up my arm raising her eyebrows, silently implying how she could in fact distract me.
I understand what she is trying to tell me, and I do recall not being able to think about anything other than her lips when she was kissing me so it will most definitely distract me. So against my better judgement I respond
"Distract me" I whisper, unsure of my decision
"You really want me to?" Alex says giving me another chance to change my mind
"Yes" I say, my voice cracking a little from my nerves
As soon as that word comes out of my mouth Alex rolls on top of me and whispers "my pleasure" in my ear before she starts kissing my neck.
She runs her hand down the side of my body and kisses up my jawline. She leans up a little looking at me with hesitation before she goes for my lips, so I put my arms around her neck and that seems to be enough encouragement for her.
She leans in and as soon as her lips touch mine and I remember why I moaned earlier. They are so soft and she kisses me with such control, perfectly in sync with me. Her teeth lightly bite my bottom lip and tug before she returns her tongue asking for permission. I hate how much I want to let her in, but I can't resist. Her tongue darts into my mouth and takes control of the kiss immediately. It feels so good, just as it did before. Her hand slides up as shes kissing me and she cups my boob. I can't handle it anymore and finally let out a moan that ive been holding in.
I hate how good she is making me feel. I cant take it anymore .
"Wait" I say while kissing
she breaks the kiss and reads my face.
"Whats wrong?" she asks confused
"We shouldn't be doing this" I reply not looking at her
"Why not" she replies not letting me get away that easily
"Because im straight" I whisper
At that she takes the hand on my boob and slides it down my stomach before reaching my waistband, she looks at me and then proceeds to slide her hand under my shorts cupping me through my underwear.
I gasp at the contact
She can feel how wet I am from the spot that has formed, and looks back up at me with a wicked grin.
"you don't feel very straight to me" she chuckles
I don't know what to say because I am wet, wet from her.
She starts to move her hand in circular motions and my eyes roll back. She continues and another moan slips from my lips.
"Do you like that?" she asks a little smug
"Yes" I reply embarrassed
"Then what's the problem" She asks
"I don't want to want you" I say frustrated
She presses her hand harder against me causing me to groan "but, you do want me"
I can't answer her, she knows the answer and so do I, but I cant get myself to say it. I just stare back at her.
"you're going to answer that question Pipes" Alex speaks again
"I can't" I say back
Alex isn't pleased with that response and pulls her hand out of my shorts. I'm disappointed by the loss of contact, but not for long as Alex goes back in to kiss me while simultaneously sliding her hand under my underwear. When her finger makes contact with me my head falls backwards sending waves of pleasure throughout my whole body.
"Stop fighting it kid, you know you're loving this" Alex looks down at me "just admit it and I'll give you what you want"
"Please just shuddup Alex" I groan back at her
At this Alex runs her fingers back and forth through my folds
"God you're so wet" Alex says as she brings her head down to my neck and starts peppering me with kisses
I tilt my neck giving her better access and I can feel her grin. So smug.
"Wipe that grin off your face" I say to Her
Alex chuckles and then rolls back so she is kneeling above me. She grabs the hem of my shirt and pulls it above my head. Before smoothly reaching behind me to unhook my bra, I reluctantly let her pull it away, but bring my hands up to cover my chest.
"Piper, piper, still pretending this isn't what you want?" She jokes
I don't know why I don't just admit it. I need her to keep touching me, I want her.
"Please Alex" purposefully being vague about what it is I'm asking for hoping maybe that will satisfy her
"Please what?... please stop…..please fuck me..? I'm going to need you to be a little more specific"
I just close my eyes again, she's so smug that I think that's part of the reason I don't want to admit it. I don't want her to win.
My eyes snap back open when I feel her hands grasp my waistband. She looks at me with her eyebrows raised before slowly pulling my shorts down my legs. I'm happy she left my underwear but disappointed at the same time.
"im going to make you want to want me" Alex says as she starts to head south but I stop her.
I feel so exposed and she is still fully clothed. That needs to change. I sit up and start pulling at her shirt. I realize I haven't really touched her yet. She takes her shirt off and I'm left staring at her black lace bra. I've never wanted to touch someone so bad. I tentatively touch her stomach before moving my hand upwards to squeeze over her bra, this is so different but so nice. I reach around to unclasp her bra when she leans back.
"ah, ah, im still waiting for you to admit something to me first" Alex replies huskily
fuck it. I need to feel more of her
"alex i… I…" her eyebrow arches waiting for me to finish my sentence but I can't
Alex leans back down over top of my before kissing down my stomach. She gets to my hipbone before she sits back up. She hooks her fingers into the sides of my underwear and slowly peels them off of me. I feel so vulnerable but also have a knot of anticipation in my core. I need her.
"spread your legs" Alex says as she looks directly into my eyes
That's when my nerves hit me. I've never been with another women before. I lay there still. I want her to fuck me I really do. But I cant open my legs
"make me" I spout, a sudden burst of courage running through my body
This causes alex to tilt her head and lick her lips
She runs her hands down my thighs before stopping at my knees. "Spread. Your. Legs. piper" She says again
I cant resist this time and so I slowly open my legs. Alex seems pleased and lowers herself between my legs. She's kissing up my thigh and teasing me in all the right places.
She finally brings her hand back to touch me and starts circling my clit. I have to bite my lip so I don't moan out. She rests her head on my leg as she tortures me with a slow pace. Working me up and then stopping over and over again.
"Say it piper" Alex dares me
I just shake my head
At this she slides her fingers into me and I can't contain my moans any longer. She starts sliding her finger in and out at the same slow pace.
It feels amazing, but she knows it's not enough to get me there and that's her objective.
"I'm going to keep teasing you until you say it" Alex replies
"please Alex, Please just fuck me" I finally say barely above a whisper
its not what she wants to hear but its apparently enough for her to pick up her pace. She starts pumping in and out of me.
"Relax pipes, im getting there" she mumbles
She finally circles her tongue around my clit where her finger was and it sends shock waves pulsing through my body. She knows exactly where to touch me and I don't think im going to last much longer
"Say it or I will stop" Alex says hovering above my most sensitive areas. I can feel her breath hit me
I finally give in, because I want nothing more than for her tongue to go back to what it was doing.
"I want you Alex! I want you so fucking bad..Are you happy, now please just shut up and fuck me!" I scream
Satisfied, she immediately returns her mouth to its previous position and starts sliding in and out of me at an unrelenting pace. I can feel my stomach starting to tighten.
"Fuck Alex" I moan
She adds another finger and that's enough to send me over the edge. I grab onto her pulling her impossibly closer to me. My body tightens around her fingers and starts shaking to climax. Alex keeps going letting me ride out the bliss before slowing completely.
She pulls her fingers out slowly and climbs back up my body before kissing my lips.
I can taste myself on her lips and its strangely hot.
"Horrible wasn't It" Alex jokes
I cover my face with my arms blushing
"Can we just go to sleep" I say, wanting to let the exhaustion I feel take over
"yeah kid, but were talking about this tomorrow" She chuckles as she pulls the blanket back over us
Im laying shoulder to shoulder with her when alex lays her arm across my waist
"come be my little spoon, I wont tell anyone" she says groggily
I roll over and press my body against hers, and we fit perfectly.
"Night alex'
"goodnight pipes"