James found the rest of the day terrible. Several times he had lost focus in a conversation and found the person who had been talking staring at him intently wondering why he wasn't responding. As soon as the clock struck 6pm he slunk into his dormitory and into bed hoping to sleep forever. Unfortunately once he entered he caught an eyeful of Remus and Sirius together on a bed. Stifling a sob he turned and fled from the room and chose to reside in a hidden corridor instead hoping no one would find him. Unfortunately the corridor was cold and dark so he opened the door and stepped out, coming nose to nose with none other than Lily Evans.

"James! What on earth are you doing here?" she inquired disapprovingly,

"I…I…nothing," James muttered,

"What is that place? I don't think I've ever seen…oh James…" Lily whispered for he had begun to cry, "what's wrong? Are you ok?" she asked softly,

He shook his head, "no I don't really think I'm ok",

"What's happened to make you so sad?"

"I can't tell you, is kind of a soft subject," James whined,

"Please tell me, maybe I could help you,"

"That's the thing, you can't really help me, it's pretty much…un-helpable"

Lily raised an eyebrow, "Nice English there James, but please just tell me"

"Promise not to say a word to anyone this is pretty big trust me"

"Cross my heart and hope to die" Lily said,

"Well, I kind of love Sirius, like literally I am in love with Sirius,"

Lily just stared,

"Look comon, give me a break!" James again whined,

"So your gay?"

James nodded,

"I see, and you love Sirius, well maybe Sirius is gay too…"

"He is," James muttered,

"Perfect! But how do you know?"

"He and Remus are together,"

"Oh, well isn't that weird 3 of 4 people in a group of friends…are gay, maybe even peter isn't straight"

James stayed silent,

"I'm sorry James, I honestly don't know what you can do, out of all the boys in this school someone else must be gay, maybe you will find someone else?"

"Thanks Lily, if you can find someone that is perfect for me that is willing to admit that they are gay, if they are gay, then tell me but im going to bed,"

Lily watched silently as James turned and stalked off down the hall.

Back into his bedroom James was grateful that Sirius and Remus had left and the room was completely empty. With his clothes still on James curled up under the covers in his bed with the curtains around him drawn tightly shut. Suddenly he heard the door crash open and someone walk into the room. James shut his eyes and stayed very silent listening to the persons every movement.

"You there! Are you asleep?" called an unfamiliar voice,

Glad that it wasn't Remus or Sirius James pulled opened his curtains and found a boy he had never met before standing right next to his bed.

"Who are you?" asked James curiously,

"My name is Benjamin, Benjamin Hamill, but I prefer to be called Ben." He said offering his hand,

James took the hand and shook it,

"I'm James Potter, are you new?" he asked,

"Yeah, I used to go to Durmstrang but it was kind of evil and way too into the dark arts instead of defense against, I prefer Transfiguration and Charms."

"Yeah, me too, I'm not too good at defense against the dark arts, Transfiguration is my favourite."

They smiled at each other, James noticed that Ben was quite good looking but with a slight frame and he was quite a bit shorter then himself. He had straight brown hair that was a good average length and bright green eyes.

"Were you going to bed? I'm sorry I didn't even think about that, I'll let you get back to bed," said Ben,

"Oh ok, thank you, goodnight." Said James as he pulled his curtains around his bed shut blocking his view of Bens back bent over his suitcase. Sleep came quickly taking James into the world of silence without dreams.