Warning: There is some curse words used in here. Don't really know if you care but I though a warning would be nice.

Ready for a cheap escape

On the brink of self destruction

Widespread panic

Broken glass inside my head

Bleeding down these thoughts of Anguish...

mass confusion

- "Panic Song," by Green Day

Kazumi stared at the ceiling as she listened to her sister talk on the phone with her new boyfriend. Kazuko and Shizuo had really hit it off on their date a week ago. She was happy for her sister but felt kind of sad that she couldn't get the same thing. Shizuo wasn't what she wanted and she really didn't want anyone but she wanted to want someone and she wanted to be wanted.

Her mind drifted to Izaya which caused her to roll her eyes at herself. She didn't want that guy and he didn't want her either. Hell he couldn't have made it more obvious that he wasn't interested.

"I'm neither into men or women." His words echoed in her head and she sighed.

"Why the hell do I always get crushes on the ones I can't have." She grumbled at herself as she rolled over to stare at the wall.

She had memorized every shadow and every expression that had crossed his face from the moment she met him. The way his eyes drew her in annoyed her the most and it was probably because of their reddish tint. She wondered what his reaction would be to her in her human form. She knew she'd have to act like she always did if she didn't want him to know that it was really her.

"Kazumi!" Her sister popped her head into her room.

"What?" She asked rolling over and looking at her sister's smiling face.

"Can we go shopping?" she asked her and she blinked at her sister.

"With what money?" she asked her and Kazuko's face fell.

"Oh yeah… I forgot about that…" She said with a frown.

"So where's he taking you now?" Kazumi guessed her sister wanted something new to go on a date.

"He-he's going to introduce me to his friends tomorrow before we go to work…" she said softly.

"Well I could scrape together something." Kazumi said sitting up. Her sister's face lit up with those words.

"Really?" She asked her.

"Yeah just let me fix my hair, I just woke up."

Kazumi walked towards the club she worked at as she watched her sister flirt with Shizuo before he left. Kazuko was wearing the new jeans and blouse that they found on sale at Macy's and Kazumi had to admit her sister looked adorable in that outfit.

"Hey love birds." Kazumi said once she was a few feet from them. They both blushed at being caught flirting, "Sorry Shizuo-san but I'm going to have to steal her away after all we have to dance for our rent money."

Kazuko's face turned red at those words but Shizuo didn't seem to mind. He bent down and kissed her gently.

"Bye babe I'll see you later." He said lovingly to her.

"Bye…" Kazuko said softly and lovingly and then turned to her sister with a slightly worried expression.

"What's wrong?" Kazumi asked her once he was out of hearing rang.

"He's friends with another fae woman." Kazuko thought to her as they went in through the back.

"What kind of fae?" Kazumi asked her, "And did she recognize you as an Anamithim?"

"I don't know I don't the things you do about our kind." She told her with frustration.

"I guess I'll have to meet her sometime then," Kazumi said with a shrug, "But don't worry about it I'm sure she has no interest in him."

"It's not that." She said to her sister, "I'm not sure if she was another one of our kind."

"Anamithims don't befriend humans." Kazumi reassured her sister.

"If that's true then how did we come into existence?" Kazuko asked as they got ready in the back.

"I'm not sure…" Kazumi shrugged, "…I've been looking into it though."

"Whatever, I'm just going to focus on work." Kazuko said to her and Kazumi nodded.

Shizuo was pissed off at the idiot who was on his knees begging for them to wait another day before coming for his debt. The twitch in his fingers made him wish there was something, anything nearby that he could throw at this guy. Tom noticed the agitation in his partner and glanced at him.

"… p-please I-I'll do anything…" Shizuo was about to grab the guy and chuck him a few blocks over when his cell phone started to sing out the song he had picked for Kazuko. His mood completely changed.

"Uh I gotta take this…" Shizuo mumbled to Tom and he nodded as Shizuo walked a few paces away.

"Hello?" Shizuo said and nearly jumped when he heard Kazumi's distressed panicked slew of inaudible words. "Kazumi-san slow down I can't understand you."

"W-we were walking home and-and Kazuko just collapsed and she won't wake up and-and-and I didn't know who else to call…" Kazumi's voice came through his phone in a sob. Shizuo was shocked to hear the strong woman cry like that.

"Kazumi-san I'll call a friend of mine to come get her and take her to a doctor I know. Where are you?" Shizuo asked her and she told him, "My friend will be there as soon as possible okay and then I'll meet you at his place. His name is Shinra and the woman who I'll have come get you is Celty. Stay where you are."

"Thank you Sh-Shizuo-san." Her voice seemed to be a little calmer but Shizuo could still hear the panic.

"It's okay I've got to go now bye." He disconnected and then texted Celty what happened. He found himself panicked at the thought of his girl passed out on the sidewalk somewhere and he forced himself to calm down before walking over to Tom. "Kazuko-Chan passed out after work and her sister is flipping out."

"Go make sure your girl is okay I've got everything handled here." Tom told him with slight worry, "Did she say what happened to make her…?" Shizuo shook his head and Tom could see the worry etched into his friend's face.

"All I know is I never want to hear her sister's voice sound like that again." Shizuo said shaking his head, "I'll see you later."

Tom watched as Shizuo broke out into a run.

"Are you Kazumi-san?" The screen of a PDA was put in front Kazumi's face.

"Yeah that's me," she said looking up at the woman in front of her, "You must be Celty-san?"

"Yeah Shizuo-san said that Kazuko-san needed to see Shinra." She said on her PDA.

"She passed out and she's not responding to anything." Kazumi said looking down at her sister who she held in her arms.

"I can take her to Shinra – he's a doctor – but I can't take both of you." Celty said to her and she nodded.

"Just tell me where it is I'll be there as soon as I can." Kazumi said standing up and holding her sister out to Celty.

Celty took Kazuko and set her on the motorbike. She quickly told Kazumi the address where she could find Shinra and then sped away. Kazumi watched her go and then leaned against the brick wall of the building she was next to for a moment to get her wits about her.

"Kazumi-san!" Shizuo yelled as he ran towards her and caused her to nearly jump a foot in the air. He walked over to her breathing heavily since he had run all the way across town.

"Shizuo-san that woman took her to Shinra…" She said softly to him. He was surprised to see Kazumi acting so… gentle. She seemed so weak standing there in front of him and he realized at that moment she loved her sister as much as he loved his brother Kasuka.

"I'll walk you there." He said to her and she shook her head.

"No I…" she put her head down and sighed, "… I'll call her phone and tell you what happened."

"What?" he said to her but she had already shot around him and was running away before he had completely gotten the word out. He blinked as he watched the long haired girl run three times faster than he had. "Where's her phone?" he asked to no one.

Hitoshi sat there in the bar smiling as he thought about what he was going to do to that twin when he broke into their apartment and snuck into her room. He'd only gotten a taste of her when he'd got a lap dance from her that had been when he offered her a shot. The girl had been stupid enough to take the rohypnol laced drink.

"Jerry-san!" Kazumi's familiar voice yelled to the foreigner bartender in a breathy voice, "Did you see my sister take a shot or anything tonight?"

"Yeah that guy over there asked her for a lap dance and gave her a shot." Jerry said nodding towards Hitoshi.

Hitoshi looked over at the woman who now had a murderous expression disfiguring her beautiful visage. He realized it was directed at him as she grabbed someone's beer bottle and broke it on the table leaving the sharp neck of the bottle as her weapon.

"You son of a bitch!" She said walking towards him and pointing the dangerous broken bottle at him, "What the fuck did you put in that drink?"

"Kazumi-san!" The bouncer grabbed the girl before she lunged at the frightened man.

"This bastard drugged my sister!" She roared at him, "Let me go so I can kill his ass!"

"What?" The bouncer shouted as every eye in the bar turned to them, "He did what to Kazuko-san?"

"He gave her some kind of drug!" Kazumi yelled fighting against the bouncer but not trying to cut him. Hitoshi was backed into the corner of the bar because of the position of the bouncer and where he had been sitting. He was stuck there and he knew he was screwed.

"What'd you give her?" The bouncer asked the guy.

"R-rohypnol…" Hitoshi whispered.

"You gave her the date rape drug you mother fucker!" Kazumi roared and fought against the bouncer even more. She threw the broken bottle at Hitoshi and he ducked. Another bouncer came over and picked Kazumi up and threw her over his shoulder as she cursed and screamed at Hitoshi who just watched as the other bouncer took the girl outside but before she roared out something that scared him, "You lucky fucker I should tell her boyfriend Heiwajima Shizuo who you are!"

"You think she was scary huh bastard?" The bouncer that had been holding her back asked him and he looked at the guy, "Well you don't know scary yet."

"Kazumi-san?" Shizuo asked when she called.

"Who do you think it is?" She said sarcastically.

"Nice to hear you back to normal." He said slightly annoyed.

"Someone gave her rohypnol, tell the doctor that." She told him as she walked away from the bar.

"Do you know who gave it to her?" he asked in a growl after telling Shinra what the drug was.

"I know his face not his name." she said and he grumbled what she guessed was a curse that she couldn't really hear, "But don't worry the bouncer is a friend of ours so I highly doubt that bastard will know what hit him." She laughed darkly and Shizuo was momentarily reminded of Izaya from the tone, "Huh… uh I've gotta go Shizuo-san I'll be there soon."

"Hello there I saw you in that bar, you sure do have a fiery temper." Izaya said to the girl with hair the color of chocolate milk.

"Yeah, so, what's it to ya?" she said coldly to him.

"I like a girl with attitude." He said flirtingly to her. She looked him up and down and shook her head.

"Sorry but I'm not interested in weirdoes that watch stripers." She said to him and he blinked at her.

"Actually that was the first time I'd ever been to a strip bar." Izaya said as he forced a blush to come to his cheeks, "It was my friends' idea anyway I kind of ditched them to get your number."

"I don't give out my number." She said to him and he pouted at her.

"Aw come on beautiful it couldn't hurt to give me a chance." Izaya hated to beg but he couldn't pass up the opportunity to torment Shizuo by getting a date with his girlfriend's sister. He wasn't sure how he would torment him just yet but he was sure he could think of something.

"I don't even know what your name is." She said to him.

"Orihara Izaya," he said bowing to her, "and from what I heard your name is Kazumi-san?"

"Yoshida Kazumi." She said coldly and without bowing back.

"So, Kazumi-Chan, how about I give you my number?" he asked her and she gritted her teeth at the very personal honorific.

"How about I give you a broken nose?" she asked him with a cruel smile.

"I bet you couldn't hit me even if you wanted to!" He said and she actually took a swing at him and he danced out of distance of her punch, "My, my, you sure are feisty." He purred at her and she sighed in defeat, "come on please give me you number?"

"I'll take your number…" she said unhappily.

"Yes!" he said spinning around happily.

"Are you going to dance around or give me you number?" she asked him and he smiled.

"I want to see you put it in your phone so I know you have it." He said smiling at Kazumi.

"You really want to go out with me?" she asked him and he nodded, "Fine I'll actually give you a chance."

"Is she okay?" Kazumi asked when Shizuo opened the door to Shinra's apartment.

"Yeah she'll be fine." Shizuo told her as he led her into the living room where Kazuko slept on the couch.

"I'm just going to keep her here for observation." Shinra told her and she blinked at him, "Oh I'm Shinra." He bowed to her, "You must be Kazumi."

"Yeah it's nice to meet you." She said bowing back to him.

"Your sister and you are twins right?" Shinra asked and she stared at him.

"Is he being serious?" She asked Shizuo who blinked at her.

"What?" he asked her since he had been staring at Kazuko.

"Never mind," She said shaking her head at Shizuo, "Yeah we're twins."

Kazumi was too worried about her sister to really care about what Shinra said after that. She wished that she could've at least hit that guy once but she knew he was probably in more pain right now that she could've put him in. Another thing that she was thinking about was Izaya.

She wanted to push him away since she didn't want him to figure out that she was the masked shadow. He wouldn't take no as answered and honestly Kazumi found that she liked that in a guy but, at the same time it scared her, just a little. Kazumi didn't really know what he was capable of and would look into it. She would go into the shadows and listen in on conversations and anyone that mentioned his name would have their conversation listened in on. It was rude and intrusive but she got results from it. After all she learned Shizuo wasn't such a bad guy, that Izaya was an informant from Shinjuku and that they both knew each other.

"Hey Shizuo-san," Kazumi said and he grunted in response, "What do you know about a guy named Orihara Izaya?"

"Why do you want to know about that flea for?" Shizuo said through gritted teeth.

"Just answer the question." She said looking at him with a dark yet blank expression.

"Stay away from him, he's dangerous, and he'll do anything to use you to his advantage." Shizuo said and she smiled and then turned her eyes back to her sister as she blinked open her eyes.

"I'll keep that in mind when I go out with him." She said smiling smugly as he stared at her with a gapping mouth.

Ladybug's ramble: Bet ya can't wait for the next chapter now huh? Ladybug out~!