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Chapter 3
EPOV
What's wrong with me?! How could I cheat on Bella? I love her! I kept screaming at myself during whole car ride home. I had no idea how I would be able to look her in the eyes again.
When I was thirteen I had a friend whose father cheated on his mother. This broke her heart and after that I never saw her smiling again. She became a shadow of her former self. That's when I promised myself that no matter what I would never do such a thing. After I married Bella I was sure that I would never feel the temptation to do that. And look at me! That's exactly what I've done! Who the hell have I become!?
And than the thought hit me like tornado-what if Tanya tells Bella that we slept with each other? I didn't want to lie to my wife but I know that it'll break her if she knows. I couldn't let that happen. I stopped the car, pulled out my cell phone and dialed Tanya's number.
"Hey, Eddie! Miss me already?" she said with the smile evident in her voice.
"Stop it, Tanya! I'm calling to make sure you won't tell Bella about what happened."
"So, you expect me to lie to my sister?" she asked with disbelieve.
"You've already slept with her husband-will it be worse?" I was getting annoyed with her.
"You're right! We have to hide our affair as long as we can."
"Affair?" I asked with disbelieve. "Tanya, it was one time and it'll never happen again!"
"Are you sure, Eddie?"
"Yes, I'm sure! I love Bella!"
"But you can't deny that you enjoyed yourself…" I could almost hear smirk in her voice.
"Tanya, stop it! We shouldn't have done it but it's too late now… I just want to make sure you won't tell Bella."
"OK. If that's what you want… See you soon, lover boy!" with that she hung up.
This conversation drained me of all the strength I had. And the worst was still ahead of me…Could this day get any worse?
I started the car again and within ten minutes we were by my house. I took deep breath and opened the door. I stepped into the house and heard music playing in the living room. I smiled despite all the problems I had. Bella was probably trying to put together some choreography. She truly was an amazing woman! She was a translator in big publishing company and twice a week she worked as choreographer and singing teacher at The Youth Center. Kids loved her and she adored them. She was positively beaming every time she worked with them.
My smiled was whipped away from my face when I heard the lyrics of the song. It was "Whatcha say" by Jason Derulo.
Wha- wha- what did she say
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
I was so wrong for so long
Only tryin' to please myself (myself)
Girl, I was caught up in her lust
When I don't really want no one else
So, no I know I should of treated you better
But me and you were meant to last foreverSo let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man
Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girlMmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she sayHow, could I live with myself
Knowing that I let our love go (love go)
And ooh, when I do with one chance
I just gotta let you know
I know what I did wasn't clever
But me and you we're meant to be togetherSo let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man
Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girlMmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she sayGirl, tell me whatcha said (said)
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't right, girl
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't rightCause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So baby watcha say!Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say
I could barely breathe. This song described the way I felt. I took Bella for granted and if she ever finds out about Tanya and me she'll leave me. I hadn't realized that the song was over and Bella was walking in my direction. When she saw me standing just around the corner, she screamed.
"Edward! You scared the hell out of me!" she was holding her hand on her heart and trying to steady her breathing. "When did you come home?"
"About five minutes ago."
"What took you so long? I thought that you were just gonna look at Tanya's car and come back home. I was waiting for you in our bed…" she trailed of seductively and winked at me. My guilt was almost unbearable. My beautiful, smart wife was waiting for me while I was fucking her sister. "Edward? Are you okay?" she sounded worried. I had to put myself together and do anything what I could to not let her find out about what happened.
"Yeah, I'm fine love. Just a little tired." What a lame excuse…
"Maybe we can go to bed together…" Bella smiled at me.
"I'm really tired, Bella. I'm gonna take a shower and take a nap."
"Okay." My wife sounded confused-it was first time I denied her sex… I kissed her on the cheek and almost ran to our bathroom. I locked the door and slid down the wall. And then I started thinking again about what happened with Tanya. Despite my guilt, I had to admit that I found pleasure in it.
What the fuck, Cullen?! You love your wife and you promised yourself you won't cheat on her ever again! A voice screamed in my head. But will I be strong enough? I truly hoped so…
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