Candi: Well hi there.

Ikuto: Pfft I can make a better entrance. Welcome to this story. Read it well, or Ikuto will come and punish you.

Candi: That's more like telling people you're gonna rape 'em.

Ikuto: So?

Candi: I thought you only raped Amu.

Amu: ? He's never raped me... I think...

Ikuto: Of course. I have sleeping medicine. You didn't wake up while I did rape you, Amu-koi.

Amu: Oh... my... what a rapist... owner, can you please help? *Looking at me*

Candi: But I don't own you! I can't help you!

Amu: *Dies in place*

Previously:

Amu and Ikuto go to a spa, and while they leave, they find Tadase and Ikuto and him have an argument. Once they go home, the couple tells Amu's parents that they are officially dating, and they talk in the fake hot tub that they had made. Ikuto talks about how Utau dies.

Day 3

I walked in the hallway like I usually did. With my head down, my body covered, and tolerating the insults. "Oh! So the desperate woman's here now, isn't she?" I heard Tadase say. "She must have been doing something with her boyfriend while she didn't come yesterday," he said. Damn, the comments coming out of him were terribly hard to ignore.

"Look, a whore!" I heard some girl say. Where did they get that from?

"Fat ass! You're so ugly and retarded!" a boy said to me. I started quickening my pace, and I felt the tears fall again. I randomly went to the nearest room and shut the door behind me. I leaned on the door and fell down, I wasn't even sure which room I was then. Then I noticed I was being watched by a bunch of adults... I must've stumbled upon the teacher's room...

"Himamori-san, are you OK? Did you close the door on your foot again?" I heard Nikadou-sensei ask as he walked towards me. I didn't want to tell anyone about it still, even though Ikuto said I should.

"I accidently ran into a wall," I lied.

"Do you need to go to the nurse?" he asked. He was the nicest teacher, but I didn't need help by anyone.

"No, I'm fine..." I said and cried to myself. I forcefully stopped my tears, and that was hard. My scream was stuck in my throat, and I didn't want to say anything incase it came out.

"Are you sure, Himamori-san?" he asked me again. Why can't this damn man get my name right?!

"Yes, I'm fine. And my name is Hinamori," I said to him quietly. My voice sounded raspy and I left the room that became quiet. I walked over to the girl's bathroom and hid myself in one of the stalls. I reached into my bag and touched a blade in my pocket. That's right, I hid one in here whenever I needed it...

"What a freak," I heard someone say. They were probably talking about me again...

"I know right. Why would she date some pedo?" I heard another girl say. Yep, they were definitely talking about me.

"What was his name again? And isn't he like, Tadase's brother or something?" I heard the first girl say.

"His name was Ikuto Tsukiyomi, I think. And yeah, he's Tadase's brother. Hard to believe that he would date Amu, because she's so ugly. Geez, she should get plastic surgery or something. Her eyes are too big and that ugly nose looks smushed," I heard the second girl say. It hurt. Those words killed me...

"I know right! Hahaha! She's so god damn ugly and fat!" I heard the first girl say. These must've been the anorexic freaks... I sat on the toilet after putting the cap on quietly and I grabbed my shins so they wouldn't see my feet. I grabbed my bag and set it next to me so they wouldn't even know someone was in here. I assumed they were putting on make up again, since they weren't going in the stalls. I should start wearing make up. I grabbed the blade and brushed it over my wrist that I exposed lightly. It still had cuts from two days ago. Should I go over it? Is it dangerous? Maybe I should cut my other wrist. All I knew was that my face was blood red and tears were pouring down again. I had to keep the sound in so those two girls out in the front didn't hear me. It was hard not to scream...

"I heard that she had sex with her boyfriend," I finally heard the second girl say. I would never do that at this age...

"Oh my gosh! We're only eleven, that bitch should just like, calm down!" I heard the first girl say and laugh loudly. I heard them walk out of the bathroom and I started sobbing to myself a little. It was quiet incase someone else came in. I brushed the small blade over my right wrist. I haven't felt cuts on this hand in a while. I brushed it over slowly, and it cut through my skin. I know I promised Ikuto I wouldn't do this anymore, but I need to... it's my medicine for depression. The pain, I deserve it. I carved a P in my arm. I moved my sleeve up higher and I cut an E right next to the P. I kept writing until what I saw was "PERFECT" on my arm, and I knew I could never be perfect... I moved my skirt up so I could see my upper thigh, and I carved an F, and A and a T, making the word "FAT", which was what I was. I moved to my left thigh and started writing. I cried harder, and I felt the blade pierce into my skin even more now. I cut quickly, because I'm sick of life... I started making random cuts, and didn't even think of writing. My mind was empty and I couldn't help but need this pain. I heard the bell ring, but I didn't care. I should leave school, my parents aren't home so I'm safe. Ikuto's at his school too, so he's not home. I must resist the urge of suicide, for Ikuto. I don't want him dieing after me...

I had made atleast twenty cuts on my left thigh. That was good enough for now... I just needed to leave school. I put my skirt down and it barely covered my cuts. But I managed to pull it down long enough. The blood started soaking through my skirt, but blood is able to come out. I put my sleeve down and picked up my bag, then I stood up in the stall. I opened the door and faced the cold air that pushed against my face and cuts. The cuts on my leg stang when I walked, but I needed pain. I walked to the door of the bathroom and opened a crack, I made sure the hallway was empty before a made a run for it to the front door. Fresh air, I don't want it. I ran back home and opened the door and walked in. I closed the door behind me and locked it, then walked back to my room upstairs. I kept the blade I had in my hand, and knew it was my last one. I opened the door and it revealed my bedroom, and I closed the door behind me. I walked over to my ceiling-to-floor mirror and started stripping, so I was only in my under clothing. It was a pair of white underwear, which had a red bow, and a regular white bra. I examined my body and cut my stomach slowly, making sure it was deep. I cried to myself, but it was loud. I put my hair up so it wasn't in my face, so I could see how terrible and stupid I was. I cried to myself as I saw the fat on my body and how ugly I was. I wanted to die... I want to die. I want to die! I squated to the floor and cried in my cut up legs. It was terribly hard to breathe.

I looked in the mirror and saw my hideous red face. I slowly moved the blade up to my throat. I need to die... but what about Ikuto... But... i-it's for my own good... "Do it," I screamed. I started to dig into my skin, but I couldn't do it. I want to get rid of the pain. I threw the blade somewhere, and it landed into my dresser. It made a hole, but I don't care... I layed down where I was and closed my eyes. I should try to relax, just hide it from Ikuto. He won't know. But what about when we go to the bath together? Shit... I fell asleep and wished that I woke up in a few hours, since I forgot to put clothes on.

When I woke up, it was one o'clock. I thanked myself that I was able to wake up by then. I went to the bathroom and washed my body off of the dried blood, along with my face which had dried tears and was still sort of red. I walked back to my room and sighed. I looked at my body full of cuts again, and realized what I've done. We can't go in our hot tub anymore... not until these cuts are gone. And he told me that we'd go in the tub every night this morning... I put some long sleeved clothing on and walked over to my bed and layed down. I wish Ikuto was here to cuddle me... and I hope he'll forgive me for what I've done... I just wished that I didn't have to break his promise... I fell asleep again, and I was sure that Ikuto would find me in here. I was safe, and he couldn't see my cuts anyways.

I woke up and saw Ikuto in front of me. He was watching me wake up, I assume. "Good afternoon, Amu-koi. How come you've come home earlier than me?" he asked once he saw my eyes flutter open.

"I left school," I told him.

"Because of the bullies?" he asked me. I nodded and he gave me a big hug. "You're stronger than they are, Amu-koi. Fight them off," he told me. He felt me flinch a little, unfortunately. "Amu-koi, can you take off your clothes?" he asked me. Was he doing a perverted move or did he suspect I cut myself? There was still the blade in the dresser, but I assumed he saw it and threw it away and possibly saw the blood on it.

"N-no, you pervert," I managed to say. He knew that I was comfortable standing in front of him with my bra and underwear, so that just made him more suspicious. Stupid Amu!

"I just want to see your body," he told me. He was definitely suspicious...

"No," I needed to say. I couldn't show him how cut up my body was now. Shit, he grabbed my wrist. It stang. He lifted my arm so it was in front of him, it was the right arm. He lowered my sleeve and saw the cuts.

"Amu, I need you to do that for me," he asked angrily. I couldn't take is as seriously as he was, but I knew he was dead serious. He didn't use the honorific he usually did, and he was angry. I got up and grabbed my turtle neck I was wearing, I slowly pulled it off over my head to reveal my new cuts. He saw the cut on my stomach and the one cut on my neck. The word on my wrist was what he payed attention to most. I slowly took off the jeans I had and lifted my legs to take it off. I turned to show him the cuts on my thighs. "Amu-koi... you promised you wouldn't cut anymore... come here on the bed and cuddle with me," he told me. I ran back to the bed and fell into his arms and started crying again.

"I couldn't... take it anymore, Ikuto-koi... I tried commiting suicide again, but couldn't because of you," I said quickly. He held me tight and started kissing me at the closest spot that was near him. Then he moved to my neck and kissed the cut that was there. He moved to my arms and kissed up and down them, as many times as there were cuts. He moved to my stomach and kissed that cut there. He's being really sweet... he moved to my thighs and kissed them too. When he finished with both thighs, he moved up to my lips and kissed them. I saw that some blood had got on his lips, but he didn't even care. "I-Ikuto-koi... I can't take it anymore!" I yelled. He hugged me again and closed his eyes and saw me cry.

"Baby, don't cry anymore. I want you to stay here on Earth with me, OK? So we can grow old together and have children," he said. I want to die, I want to die, I want to die...

"But... my life is terrible... I want to get rid of the pain inside of me... and suicide is the only choice," I told him.

"Amu-koi, you're safe in my arms. You're perfect, and no one's gonna change that. I love you with all my heart, and if you ever died, I'm coming after you and dieing too," he told me. I still cried, but I cried less and I held onto his shirt. He rubbed my bare back and kissed my forehead multiple times. "If only I could show you how much I loved you," he said.

"I-Ikuto-koi, I know you love me a lot. I love you a lot too, and I have no way of showing it either," I said.

"The next time someone bullies you, I'm coming over and beating them up, OK?" he asked. I couldn't accept that.

"No, Ikuto-koi, don't do that. Revenge isn't the answer," I said.

"Then next time, stand up to them. Tell me whenever someone does bully you and tell me what they say, OK? I'm worried about you, Amu-koi, and I want to make sure you're happy, now do you want to cuddle in the bath now?" he asked. I nodded and tried to wiggle out of his tight grasp that almost suffocated me. He let me out and I grabbed a random bathingsuit. I didn't care if he was in the room or not, so I just changed in front of him. He looked at me with wide eyes when he saw my bare body. He walked over to me while I was still naked and hugged me. "You're so beautiful, Amu-koi. If only you showed me your full body earlier..." he said. I hugged back and released him so I could put my bathingsuit on, which was a one piece, but he wouldn't let go. I let him hug for a while until I finally pushed him off.

"Thank you, Ikuto-koi. But now you must change, OK?" I asked. I stared at my cuts and realized what I've done. I've made my body look bad with these cuts and scars... but I don't care. Ikuto nodded and walked out the door to get my father's bathingsuit again. I brushed my fingers over my new cuts and shivered. I remembered all those comments from school, and I tried holding back the tears again so Ikuto-koi wouldn't worry like he usually did. I looked at my write arm and saw the letters, still perfectly written on my arm. They had been deep cuts, and they were a bright red. I looked at my legs, and saw the word fat... well... my leg was really jiggly anyways. I looked at my other leg and saw all the random cuts scattered around my thigh. Ikuto kissed all the cuts already, but they still stung. I think I cut too much this time...

Ikuto came back and observed my cut up body. It was embarassing... "Amu-koi, your body is beautiful. Don't ruin it with cuts, my dear baby," he said and gave me another hug and kiss. I can't get enough of him.

"Thank you..." I said and gave him a hug back. I put my hair up and watched him change, observing his body like he observed mine. When he put his swimsuit on, he noticed that I was staring at him and biting my lip.

"What? Are you amazed by my size?" he asked. I got out of my trance to answer that ridiculous question.

"No!" I said. I grabbed a random towel that I had in my room and covered up my legs. We walked over to the restroom together and shared a kiss while we did. He started filling the bath tub, and I watched him while he did.

"Amu-koi, do you care if you're naked around me now?" he asked suddenly. Maybe he was thinking about that when I changed in front of him. I looked down at my dark red swimsuit and at my feet.

"N-not really... just a little. I just don't like how you stare at my scars..." I told him truthfully.

"I'm not looking at the scars, I'm looking at your beauty," he said and stopped the tap. The bath tub water started steaming and he grabbed some rose petals we kept in a drawer and poured them in the water. It smelt nice. We both walked in and sat at opposite sides. "Amu-koi, why are you there?" he asked me.

"It... it's uncomfortable since... I cut..." I said to him. Suddenly, he started crawling towards me and walked in the water like it was no big deal. He sat next to me and forcefully brought me into his hold with his left arm around my shoulders and his body to my right.

"I always want to hold my baby, so whenever we're together, we're cuddling, OK?" he told me. It was sweet...

"OK..." I responded quietly. I rested my head on his hard chest and closed my eyes. "Why do you think I'm pretty?" I asked.

"Well, you're eyes are the prettiest color I've ever seen, they're also a cute shape, and your nose is small and adorable, and your lips are so kissable," he said and snatched a kiss from me. He also kissed the tip of my nose.

"Do you think I'm... annoying... and stupid...?" I asked him, curious to know the answer.

"You're not annoying at all. Every single thing you do is cute and adorable. I can't help but want to tackle you and kiss you all the time. And I don't think you're stupid. You are very intelligent and clever," he said to me. Was I believing him?

"I-Ikuto-koi, I'm sorry if I'm asking too many questions... but... do you think I'm fat?" I asked him.

"You can ask as many things as you want. And you're not fat at all. Your stomach is cute and small," he said. I looked down at my stomach and noticed it wasn't as round as I thought it was.

"Am I worthless...?" I finally managed to ask. This is what's most important to me...

"No, not at all. You take an important part of my life, and if you ever to disappear, I'll find you and take you back to where you belong," he said, "I'll make sure you're not hurt anymore, OK?" he told me. I smiled and nodded. I knew he was going to protect me the whole time. I turned and sat on his lap and held onto his shoulders so he could see my smile. "Now Amu-koi, I have a question for you. When was the last time you were happy?" he asked me.

"Eh? When we started dating," I told him.

"No, before that. When no one knew about your self-harming problem," he said. I thought for a second...

"When Ami was born," I said. He looked at me in amazement.

"How come you haven't been happy in a long time?" he asked me. I'm pretty sure he knew the answer.

"I've been bullied. And after a while, I thought that being happy didn't feel good. I didn't have any friends to help me at all. They all left when people started insulting me. But now I have you, Ikuto-koi. So now I'm happy again," I told him. He squeezed me real hard in his hug and my breasts pushed against his chest, but I'm sure he didn't feel it. I didn't move from my place on the bath tub, and I leaned on him so my head rested on his chest.

"So tell me what those bullies at your school are saying," he said. I lifted my head so my eyes would meet his, "And tell me exactly what Tadase says to you."

"They call me fat, ugly, retarded, stupid, weird, a freak and now they're starting to call me a whore... and Tadase is saying that I had it with you yesterday when I was absent from school," I said and sighed. I rolled my eyes and put my head back on his hard chest that had muscle on it. I made random patterns on it, I wasn't even sure what I was doing for sure. I just wanted to feel his body.

"You had the same problem as Utau. And remember, don't give up. Don't you ever give up," he said and stood up while holding me like a child. The air hit my legs and made me feel cold. I curled my legs around his waist and watched him empty out the tub. He leaned over, but I just held onto him like a sloth. We walked over to my bedroom together and he was keeping me warm. He put my towel on my legs to cover it up still. I'm happy that he knew how I felt. We also ran into my mom in the hallway, so it was just luck how he put the towel on me.

"Ikuto and Amu, what are you two going to do now?" my mom asked when she saw our position. She must've just gotten out from work because she was still in her work uniform.

"Cuddle," Ikuto said.

"You obviously need to get some dry clothing though," my mom said.

"We will," he replied. She scoffed when we kissed and she went back to her room to change. Ikuto and I laughed and continued walking to our room. When we got in, he started drying me off with the towel while he was still holding me. He set me down and said, "Now change!" he said. I nodded and quickly grabbed some t-shirt and some underwear from my dresser, which surprisingly still had the blade in it, and changed into it. Ikuto gave a flirty whistle when I was naked again, but I just gave him an awkward smile when he changed. I leaned over my bed, not even realizing what position I was in. My butt was in the air and I was stretching my legs. He gave another whistle and leaned on my back so his chest was resting on it. His hips were touching mine and I couldn't help but feel a little embarassed about how I didn't know what I was doing.

"I-Ikuto-koi, get off so I can lay down on the bed," I said.

"But you look so sexy and cute in this position," he told me.

"Stop saying weird things, pervert," I told him and smirked. He jerked his hips forward and I quickly escaped from him. "Pervert," I whispered when he did that action. He laughed and layed down on the bed next to me. It had been quite early, but I'd been tired from the day. It looked like it was seven o'clock, about the time for dinner. "Ikuto-koi, can you bring me my dinner when they call for it? I'm too lazy to get changed again," I told him. He had boxers on, so it was alright, right? I don't think so... but he could just put some pants on. He sighed and agreed to that. I gave him a smile and a peck on the cheek.

I finished dinner, it was a big meal. I haven't eaten anything like that in a while. I usually skipped dinner or any meals or ate them and purged. My stomach was feeling a little different since I ate more than usual. Ikuto chuckled at the sight of my face for a second. I wasn't sure why though. He licked some rice off of the side of my face, and I assume that's what he was laughing at. "Ikuto-koi, I'm going to go sleep," I said.

"This early? It's only eight," he said.

"I know. I'm tired though..." I said. He shrugged and took his pants and t-shirt he had on and was left in only his boxers. I yawned and layed down under the covers of the bed and he turned the lights off. He layed next to me and held me in his arms. "I'm cold," I told him. He put my entire body under the bed and tucked me in. He held my body close to his and his warmth made me feel comfortable. It was nice in this position, I could get used to it. I fell asleep slowly. But shit, there's tomorrow...

Candi: I envy you guys, Amu is younger than me and she could get some sexy beast. I'm stuck with no one..

Amu: *wink* Maybe I'm prettier than you.

Candi: *cough* Doubt it *cough*

Ikuto: *holding Amu* Don't listen to that ugly hag.

Candi: OAO N-next chapter is in Ikuto's POV... uh... you're not nice! *cries in a corner* [ Insert Lame Insult Here ]