"Bella, what are you still doing here?" Carlisle asked.

"Here as in your garden, or here as in on this earth? I would have thought you'd know why I was here. You were there-"

"Here as in my garden." He corrected.

"Do you not want me here…?" I asked.

His eyes widened. "No! No, no, no, I mean," he sighed, making his voice serious. "You can't avoid him forever."

Before I could tell him wrong, he gave me a look, and I sighed. Technically I could, but then again, Edward was my charge. I would need too see him sometime.

"What is it with you two?" he asked. "The last time I saw you together you were joined at the hip."

I sighed, sitting down on the grass. He sat down with me.

"He's changed, Carlisle. You wouldn't understand. You didn't see him much when he wasn't sick or a vampire. Everyone changes, including vampires."

"Actually, physically we can't." he corrected.

I shook my head, starring into nothingness. "Are you meaning to tell me that you were in love with Esme, even before you knew she existed? That you were this passionate about medicine? Before? No Carlisle, I'm right. I've never been more right."

Carlisle was thoughtful for a second, and I instantly felt bad. I had just put his knowledge down.

"I'm sorry." I muttered.

"What was Edward like before?" he asked. I looked at him, and he gave me an encouraging smile.

I took a deep breath in, smiling as I remembered the good times. Too bad those good times were in the past. "He was my best friend. I would wake up every morning, waiting for him, which was unless he was already there. He was always there. We'd search for each other in a crowd, even if it meant loosing…….whatever. There was no one else, even if there were a hundred people with us. It was just Bella and Edward. I forgot everything when I was with him. My Mum, the Spanish influenza… Everything. Just Edward and Bella. Until…"

"Until the Cullen family came." He finished quietly.

I gave a quick, sad smile. "I'm sorry," I muttered again.

He took a long breath in before I continued. "And now…." I trailed off.

"I'm sorry." He told me.

I shook my head and smiled just a bit. "He would have died if it weren't for you. Dead. I'm glad I chose what I chose, and I'd do it again. I just wouldn't be so hopeful. I'd take your warning."

I took a deep breath in, not really wanting to tell him the next part, but it was necessary.

"I called Steve." I told him. "And I asked to be rearranged to another family."

"That is understandable." He said.

I nodded. "Thank you. Thank you for everything Carlisle."

He smiled warmly and nodded.

I wished I could stay. But I really couldn't. I just couldn't bring myself to do that.

Could I?

Carlisle left me sitting in the garden with my thoughts. I sighed to myself, letting myself fall back on the grass, arms spread out beside me. If I moved my arms, I'd make an angel.

"Bella?" A small, high pitched sound came from behind me.

"Alice?" I replied, not needing to look up to see who it was.

There was a small pause. I sighed and pushed myself off the grass, facing her, sitting cross legged.

She sighed. "I heard you and Carlisle talking…"

"You always did like to eavesdrop, but I would have thought you would know my decision anyway." I raised my eyebrows at her.

She shrugged, letting out a small smile, then seemed to stop herself. "Back to the point." She said. "You're moving families?"

I shrugged. "I mean nothing personal, Alice, but I just don't think I can do this…"

"Yes you can!" she cut in. "Please, Bella, I've never seen him more confused!" she laughed at my confused expression. "He missed you." She said quietly.

I laughed. "It doesn't seem like it."

"Did you give him a chance?"

I was about to tell her that I did, but in truth, I knew I would be lying.

And angels can't lie.

"Well I wouldn't say…..I mean I tried too….." I sighed in defeat. "Okay, no, I suppose not."

"See!"

"But….god Alice I don't know. I think he's mad at me."

"Why would he be mad at you?" She wasn't expecting an answer. I guess she thought I did nothing wrong.

"Well…because I didn't tell him."

She held up her hand, signaling me to stop. "You couldn't, and he understands that."

"You're wrong…" I choked.

"All he's ever wanted was you, Bella, I know that much."

She walked away. Man, how many people would make me feel bad today?

I slapped my hands too my face. I really didn't want too do this.

"Alice!" I said before she could go through the door.

She raised her eyebrows. "Yes?"

I groaned, spinning around on the spot with my hands on my face.

"Can you get him?" I mumbled into my hands.

She beamed. "I don't have too."

She walked through the door, and then Edward stepped out. I shoved my hands in my coat pockets, not knowing what to do with them.

I sighed. "Edward, I'm sorry-"

I didn't get to say any more, because he pulled me into a tight hug, and I felt safe again. I hadn't felt this way in years.

"God I missed you." He mumbled into my hair.

There was nothing more to be said. I was crying into his shirt, but he didn't seem too mind.

I was where I wanted too be.

Sorry it's so short! Dad's about too kicking me off the computer…..

Now.

I'll update soon! I promise! But it won't be today.

Luv L.

xoxo