This is what it had come down to. This final assault on earth and either her or her colonies weren't coming out alive.

A.N.: Could I get any more annoying so yea, how's it going? Thanks for reading this far, I've only got a few more chapters to go, hopefully.

Dou: Hey can I say something?

Authoress: I guess

Duo: Aw man I forgot what I was going to say!

Authoress: Then on I go.

So this is space during war? Thought Relena to her self. It had been six weeks after that fateful day of the first fight.

"Everyone move to the Operations Center I have our new mission specs." Hutaro had called over the intercom late that day.

Everyone had come in wondering what Hutaro meant. Why were they being reassigned? Had someone else already taken out Trowa and eliminated the threat that was facing the earth? Was the mission now requiring a smaller team? What was going on?

When Hutaro dropped the bomb that changed Relena's life, and every day after, she looked, if it were possible, paler. They left immediately and took the suits to their fight, where they owned the small satellite that they were now using as a base. The memories of the screams of those men were still ringing in Relena's ears, and it ripped her apart every night.

Relena: Was this before my…

Authoress: Do you want to ruin the story?

Relena: Right sorry got it now.

The screams, the explosions, the pain on both sides, the whole thing made Relena sick. Why did she have to be the one to fight, why couldn't someone whose job it was to fight these people, like Sally, or Preventer Jacobson, pretty boy though he was. It was when things got so bad that not even the comfort of being in Heero's arms could make it better that Relena would go out in the Fay Wing and think of nothing, just let her thoughts come till sleep was more easily reached; and that was where Relena was now. Space was so peaceful, why couldn't man get that natural peace that was all around them.

Relena wasn't watching her systems though and the only warning that something was wrong was when she jolted in her cockpit and the systems quit. She rattled around for short time and returned to normal, but by then it was too late, she was inside an enemy ship being forced away from her friends, family, and lover.

Relena didn't know what to do, if she started her weapons systems she could be harming innocents, not to mention killing, which was completely off her beliefs. Than she heard what she had never hoped to hear, the cackling of Trowa Barton the Original.

"Good Work boys! Not even six weeks after our humiliating defeat against these Mecha we have captured one! Now we can use the pilot to get a hold of the others, and once they're out of the way, the Earth will be ours!"

Relena thought about what that would mean to those she loved; Lady Une, Marie Maya, Heero, Milliardo, Noin, Pagan, Hilde, Duo, Sally, Dorothy, and now Hutaro, and Michelle. Thoughts of her first battle came back to her, the screams and the pain. NO! She would not let that happen to those she cared about most! She had to stop him, he was a danger, maybe… The button that turned on the weapons systems sat pulsing gently under her hand, like a beacon to the dark shore that was the blood of war… Should she? She should, it might be Trowa himself she destroyed, or it just might be one of his scavenger ships, but it would be worth the risk either way… Where had that thought come from? Human life was always more important. Hutaro's talk to Relena came back to her from the day after her first horrific experience with bloodshed.

"Relena," Hutaro had called her over to the boys after a night's sleep, full of nightmares and ruff waking moments. "I know what you saw yesterday was frightening for you, I remember the first time I watched a man die at my own hands I still have trouble thinking about it for the God's sakes! But if you just fall to the wayside like you did yesterday again, your not going to help the fighting. Now I felt guilty at the of the start first war that's what drove me, the second was the fact that I had to protect what had become to close to me… My family on Earth, Lady Une and Treiz, Milliardo and Noin, all people I had to protect. I believe in Total Pacifism just as much as you do I believe that it can be a real thing, but to make it real we must fight to stop such people that think that they have to fight. You are now seeing the other side of keeping Pacifism alive, this is the truly ugly side, just think about something that is going to spur you… I know it seems hard, but think of the good you'll be doing. Ok?" Relena had remained silent.

Hilde put a comforting arm around Relena. Suddenly Relena found her self thinking of the horrors of war Millennia ago; actually having to slice open your enemy, decapitation, dismemberment Relena shuddered, she was almost seeing things too vividly.

That's where these random thoughts came from. That talk Hutaro gave her. Relena had found the thing she was to fight for. Her friends, her family, and the peace she worked so hard to keep politically.

Relena fired up the weapons making those who had seen the gore a Gundam could bring run in fear. Relena fired up her navigation systems and piloted the Gundam around. She looked at a huge screen on which was the face of the leering face of the former pilot of the long gone Heavy Arms. She held up the beam cannon.

"Now little boy lets not get too hasty, you could kill somebody," said the face.

"I'm no boy, and I sure as hell not little!" screamed a pissed Peacecraft.

Hutaro: Not a good thing.

She didn't think she just fought, later she'd look back and say what the hell got into me, but just then she fought with vigor and strength that would have shamed Heero or Wufei.

Relena fought her way out of the docking shuttle, and back to the others, who were fighting already to find her. When the explosion of the shuttle rocked the other suits, they hadn't seen Relena shuttle past. Fighting just on the edge they had escaped the worst of the damage, but, many of their opponents had not.

Authoress: Crap… aren't you guys supposed to help me when I have writers block?

Heero: We were?

Authoress: Well if you're not why am I crazy enough to think you are really here? I mean…

Dou: YOU DON'T LOVE US ANY MORE DO YOU?!?

Authoress: Dang it, ok so for now, this is that… maybe it will take more than I thought? Ta Loves