A/N thank you to anyone who has followed my story or reviewed or favourited it, you are all my inspiration and without you I'd give up on my story! So here is chapter 4 of I had to save them enjoy!
Disclaimer I do not own MR characters or any original story line but I own my story line.
After that horrible, snotty and emotional sob fest I stopped trying to kill myself. So, yay for me! And it was all going well for about a week. Except for you knew the small part about me cutting myself to hide from the emotional pain. But you can forget about that tiny detail. And everything would still be fine right now if the flock hadn't found out. Funny how that happened. I woke up from another one of those screaming dreams (you know the ones where you hear all the children you've murdered.) my chest almost tearing into from the pain and I just had to create some pain elsewhere before it was too much. So naturally I cut my wrists. Yes it was stupid. No I didn't mean to cut that deep and nearly bleed out. Yes that is how the flock found out (me bleeding out was a tiny clue ya know). And yes that is why I'm now waiting to talk to a psychiatrist. Oh joy (feel free to note sarcasm). So that's why I'm sitting in a white room that made me feel like running, because it was too much like the school. I had been waiting for the woman for twenty minutes and all to discuss my 'inner most feelings' to her. That's someone who'll be having nightmares for the next ten years. Finally the door swung open and in stepped a red head in a…. you guessed it, white coat. And she was pulling along a machine with lots of wires on it. And carrying a needle. Or in simple terms, she looked like my worst nightmare. So I did what any other mentally scarred bird kid would do and ran out the door like a bat out of hell, leaving the woman to just look after me with a very confused look. I wondered why she was confused, surely my file said crazy on the front. I don't know how I got there but I ended up curled in a ball, under a pile of clothes and in someone's closet. Don't ask me whose room it was because I have no idea. I just know I lay there and sobbed in my cocoon of clothes and cried while thousands of memories ran through my mind, torturing me.
I think I was in that state for at least seven hours, until someone finally found me. Or would it be stumbled upon me? I mean it was their room so it wasn't like they were looking for me or anything. When he walked in he was obviously talking about me though. I could tell because he was muttering under his breath thing like ," where's she gone?" and "why'd Max run off like that?" it's not very max like of me to say but I really liked listening to the seep male voice and that I also instantly recognised it. Yes I just had the happy coincidence to stumble upon Fangs room. Lucky me! Not. So I just sat in there curling tighter into his clothes and trying to stay silent. After about twenty minutes I heard the door open. I actually sighed in relief. This was really stupid because obviously he heard me. After about thirty seconds I heard the closet door open. Light flooded in through the layers of clothes and I clutched them tightly around my body, whimpering slightly. "Max? Is that you?" he asked quietly, to which I answered with a slightly louder whimper. The next thing I knew strong, warm arms curled around me, picking me out of the closet. I curled into a tighter ball against fang's chest as his clothes fell off me and shutting my eyes tightly. He then gently laid me down on what I assumed was his bed, lightly kissed my forehead and left me to fall into a fitful sleep….
When I woke I was surrounded by the five rather worried faces of the flock. Feeling self-conscious I tried to hide my face under the covers, only to have them gently tugged off by fang. I just stared at him afraid of the kindness in his gaze. He finally spoke "Max why did you run off yesterday? You need help and you know it." I looked at him willing him to understand how scared I was. Eventually I whispered like a broken child" I was scared." Then dived under the covers again hiding my face. I heard the others sigh and then leave. When I thought they had all left and I was safe to come out I peeked up from under the covers, only to come eye to eye with Fang. I stared at him eyes open like a deer caught in head lights. He was silent for a moment, and then finally asked me "what are you scared of?" I looked at him and deciding to answer truthfully replied in barley more than a whisper "That they'll take the people I care about again." He looked at me again, slightly confused about the again part. He looked at me and started to ask what I meant by again but I cut him off with a kiss…..
A/N: yes I know it was a bit like a filler-ish but I thought it was important to explain that max isn't actually sacred for herself because she is too strong for that but for those she cares about. Also I wanted to add a bit more fax and next chapter I will speed up a bit and get to the exciting part about….. Ha like I'd tell you yet. Just keep on reading and please review no matter what you think they are always appreciated!