A/N: I'm not totally pleased with the way it came out, but this is better than the first draft of it. I'll probably have another one up tonight. (I'm pleasantly shocked at how quickly I've been managing this.) This isn't my favourite, but I think it's okay. Hope you enjoy!
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Finn H. Set during Mattress; while he's supposed to be having his picture taken.
He glances at the clock repeatedly. Something in his gut clenches. He's pretty sure it's guilt. He feels so bad that he's leaving her hanging. He's not that kind of guy. (Well, he is now, apparently.)
He'd like to think that he's the kind of guy that stands up for what's right and doesn't let other peoples' opinions bother him; he'd like to be that kind of guy. But right now, it's pretty obvious that he's not. He's letting something some idiots he used to hang out with said get to him. And it got to him.
Yes, he likes Glee club. He's never felt as happy playing football as he does on stage. And he likes Rachel (maybe a little too much, considering the fact that his girlfriend is pregnant). And yes, he chose to stick with Glee at the very beginning; but he's already proven- the time that Tanaka told them to choose football or Glee- that he's easily pressured and swayed.
Standing Rachel up is a douche thing to do, and he knows he should have at least texted her that he was bailing. But he didn't. God, he wants that heavy feeling in his gut to go away.
He feels crappy all through lunch, and he feels a sense of dread envelope him as he looks back to the clock. The photographer will be gone by now. He doesn't exactly know what comes over him, but he stands up, ignoring the looks the jocks he was sitting with give him, and heads to the library. He's not sure why he's bothering now, when it's too late, but he needs to do something.
When he gets there, it's empty. He expected the photographer to be gone, but he figured that Rachel would still be there. But she's not, and now it's too late to even apologize.