Chapter 4
I sat there staring at the ceiling for what seemed to be hours, for all I know it could have been days, minutes, seconds, weeks, it didn't matter to me anymore.
I sat there testing my new body. I found I could hold my breath for hours on end. But I only wished I could have suffocated myself in the process. The unanswered question on the floor was why me? Why me of all people had to turn into a monster and ruin these people's lives? I then heard a knock on the door.
"Hannah? Can I come in? It's Rosalie" She said.
"Yeah, sure come in." I sighed.
"Hannah, I know how you feel. When I was turned into a vampire, I felt the exact same way. I wished they had just let me die on the street I lay on. But things happen for a reason. If Carlisle hadn't saved me, I would have never saved Emmett. Do you see what I am saying?" She said. Her theory made sense. But that didn't help what happened to me.
"Rosalie, I am sorry you have to move because of me. I feel terrible." I said looking down.
"It's ok. Do you mind if I ask how old you are?"
"No not at all. I'm 17. Unless you start a new calendar when you change. In that case, I'm what 4 days old?" I said trying to lighten the moment. It worked we both laughed for a moment. It felt good yet, out of place to laugh.
"Well Hannah, I can tell we're going to be good friends." She said lightly.
I smiled. "Thanks. Can I ask you something about Edward?" I said in a serious tone now.
"Depending on what it is yes."
"Who was Bella and why does he break down crying at the slightest mention of her?" I asked truly curious.
"Well it's quite a long story. Although it's not my story to tell I will because you deserve to know." She sighed. "Well Bella Swan moved here from Phoenix Arizona. Her blood called to Edward so to speak. It took all of his control not to kill her in their biology class. After tons of near death experiences with her she became family. I never liked her. She had put our family in danger numerous times. Anyway in the first year we knew her, we were playing baseball –yes vampires play baseball- and a coven intruded. The one James was a tracker. He hunted Bella down. We did everything we could to stop him."
She looked out the window and I found my voice, "Is that who killed her? James?" She came back to the present,
"Oh no no. We saved Bella, and killed James. We had left Bella out of safety. Jasper was newest to out family at the time and almost killed Bella from a paper cut. We had to move again." She rolled her eyes. "Anyway, without knowing James' mate Victoria wanted revenge on Bella. A mate for mate situation. When we were gone, Bella had been placed in the hands of young werewolves. They weren't on patrol one night and Victoria snuck into Bella's house and killed her slowly and painfully." She ended there. "I hope that clears things up a bit for you. We are moving tomorrow so we need you to get out of this room so we can pack it up. You can hang out with me while we're waiting to leave though…if you want?" She asked a bit unsure.
Yeah I would like some one to talk to." I smiled but it didn't reach my eyes. She smiled back as she linked arms with me.
We walked around in a human speed in the woods and around their house. Talking about our human lives. It surprised me that I couldn't remember a lot of it. I felt a bit sad.
"Just think about all of the things you want to remember and they will stay with you." She reassured me.
"What was the worst thing for you about becoming a vampire?" I asked
"Not being able to have children, growing old with my husband, things like that. Things I took for granted. I always thought I never wanted to grow old. I would like nothing more than to be sitting on a wrap around porch with my husband and grandchildren running around me." She said and I could see she was extremely sad now. "What about you?"
I thought for a bit then said, "Like you said having children, my family. I'm going to miss my mom and dad so much and I daresay my brother…I haven't seen him since Christmas." She looked confused. "My brother is at college."
"Oh! You confused me a bit there."
Then I was suddenly curious, "What will my family think of my absence?"
She thought for a moment. "We've never had this sort of situation but I would think they would just say you went missing and hold search parties for years never finding anything."
"That makes sense. Did you have any siblings?"
"Yes I did twin younger brothers." She laughed, "Annoying as hell, but now that I can't be with them, I miss them you. You always want what you can't have. As I said I took many things for granted."
"I'm glad I have a friend in this new life. I would have been a blob walking around if it weren't for you. Thanks." I said looking at her. Then she pulled me into a friendly hug. It felt nice…like I belonged somewhere.
"No problem. I'm glad I have some one who understands me."
I smiled and repeated, "No problem." At that exact moment all of the cars were packed and ready to move. We were moving to Binghamton, New York. I had never even heard of it, but as long as we got away from here. Too many memories of family friends…my death. I needed to get away from here.