Hey guys, how are you doing?

So sorry for making you wait. This chapter was one of the most difficult for me to write because I did not now the way I wanted it to go. Seriously, I rewrote it 5 times just to get it right.

Without further ado, let's get to it shall we?

Chapter 4 : Torn Souls

They stared at each other's eyes, not moving a single muscle. Their emotions were very clear through the Bond, and Rey's anger kept gettting feed by Ren's fear. She did not want to see him. She didn't even want to think about him. It brought too much pain for her.

Kylo didn't want to think about her either, but the more he tried to avoid her, the more he wished to feel her presence, to see her shape, to touch her skin. He did not know why he wanted it, but something inside him told him it was right. That she was right.

And Rey felt the same. That man was a murderer, a creature of the darkness, and yet, she couldn't stop herself to think about what she saw when they touched hands back on Ahch-To. It felt so real, so good. And she longed for more. For him.

Soon their emotions started to calm down, and both of them tried to hide them as best as they could, but they knew they were failing to do so. And it only made the emotions come back.

Kylo was the first to move. He took a step back, not breaking eye contact with her. He sit on his bed, or her bed, from Rey's point of view. A part of him wanted to run away, to escape her fiery gaze, to leave so that she wouldn't attack. The other part however, wanted to stay, tostudy her features. For some reason, it wanted to just sense her presence. It was so disturbing and yet, somehow, calming.

Rey was also divided. On one side, she wanted to take her staff and hit it in his head until he couldn't open his eyes anymore. She wanted to beat him for all the horrible deeds he'd done, but on the other side, she wanted to take care of him. She wanted to make sure he was safe. Something deep inside her told it was the right thing to do.

Once again, Kylo was the first one to act.

"If you don't want to talk, I'm okay with it."

She blinked, but kept looking at him. He broke the eye contact, staring at the ground. If he wasn't going to look at her, neither would she look at him, she turned around, and tried to empty her mind from all thoughts, but every time she would keep remembering him.

She turned again, and he felt as if she was forcing him to look up, even though she wasn't even touching him. He rose his head, and saw her more calm, but he knew he should be careful. The anger still resided within her, and one wrong move could make her outburst in flames.

Now she was the one who spoke.

"Are you happy?"

He stared at her, not moving his face. But she sensed his feelings getting troubled.

"With what?"

"With you." She said, as serious as her voice could get "With all the power you've got. Supreme Leader Kylo Ren, ruler of the Galaxy. Are you glad that you have everything you ever desired?"

"I don't have everything I desire." He said, his voice serious as well, but trembling a little "You know I don't."

Rey choked a sigh "You know I couldn't come with you."

"Why not?"

She raised an eyebrow, in disbelief.

"Can't you really see what you are doing? You are causing death, pain, suffering to the Galaxy! Wake up Ben! I sense the Light in you! This is wrong! How can you even see, and worse of all, approve these atrocities?"

"There's no Ben. There shouldn't be anything left from the past. I'm shaping the Galaxy into a better place, with a new view, my view!" He said, his eyes shaking a bit.

"Why do you fight it?" She asked, holding back a tear "Why do you deny the good in you? This conflict is tearing you apart!"

"I'm resolved of conflict. I'm doing what's best for all." A lie.

"Best for all?" Now she was shocked "Caos is not the best for all! What is wrong with you? Come to the Light while you can!"

"I'm too much darkness. I'm just a monster, a creature in a mask, ain't I?" He asked, almost sarcastly.

"Not to me." She said "Not to your mother. We still believe in you Ben-"

"Don't call me that." He said, attempting to stop her.

"I'll call you whatever I want!" She almost shouted, and she got a bit closer "Why do you want to be so blind?"

He closed his eyes, lowering his face to the ground.

"Don't you have more important things to do? Some Jedi dodoo of some sort?"

"Don't you have an Order to rule?" She spat back. He returned his gaze to her eyes, feeling the good in them.

He stood up, trying to tower over her. But she stood still. She was like a wall to him, and even though his attempt to make her afraid failed, he continued to try.

"It won't be long before we find you."

"I hope not."

He slammed his fist on the ground. Why did she have to be so difficult?

She continued to look at him. She shook a bit, but rapidly got back to a brave posture. He looked at her, still impressed that she was standing still.

"Why didn't you come with me?" He asked, silently begging to know.

She took a deep breath. She was tired of arguing.

"Because it was wrong. Why didn't you come with me?" She replied. Kylo tried to avoid her gaze, but it burned in his skin.

"Because..." He started, but truthly, he found the answer hard to spill out. She stared at him, her eyes logging for him.

"Ben?" She said. He ignored her use of his old name. Finally, he answered :

"Because I'm weak"

It caught her by surprise. She expected something rude, something dark. But instead, he sounded like a lost child while saying it. Why couldn't he simply forget the darkness? What was so difficult about it?

He turned around, and stared at his wall. He wasn't brave enough to look at her anymore.

"Don't act like a coward." She said, feeling her frustration build up.

"I can't act something I already am." He said, his hands forming a fist. She was taken back a little by his words.

The two remained silent for a long time. How long until the Bond would close?

"Stay away from the Core and Colonies regions." He suddenly said.

"Why should I trust you?" She asked him, trying to sound angry. But her voice was soft and low.

"You don't have to." He simply answered. He turned his head slightly, and suddenly, he was gone.

Rey stared at the Falcon's wall, and felt empty. Despite the argument they had, she realized she was missing him. But why?

She then heard a sob coming from somewhere in the room. She looked down, and saw a Porg in the corner of the room, right where Kylo had been just moments ago. She held the small bird in her arms, and tried to calm it down. It was scared, and Rey felt herself simpatizing with the creature.

Tears started to run down her cheeks. Why couldn't he see it? It was so obvious that he was troubled. She wanted to help him, badly. There was a feeling deep inside her chest that told her it was her destiny, that it was his destiny.

The Porg feel asleep in her arms, but she still kept him with her. For some reason, after the Bond seized, she felt lonely. She was craving for company, for someone who could understand her.

And for some unknown reason, she felt he was the one who would be able to do so.

Kylo sensed the Bond fade away. He turned, and saw that she wasn't there anymore. For some reason, he wanted her to stay. It would be so easy just to let everything go, to take her far away from the First Order and the Resistance. To forget the Light and the Dark. But she had to be so stubborn.

"And you as well."

Kylo hated himself at that moment. He hated that he was so conflicted. He lied to her, obviously. He was the Supreme Leader of the First Order, He couldn't sound weak. And yet, he'd confessed to her he was.

Ren looked at his boots, and saw some feathers laying next to them. Since when had there been feathers?

He choose to ignore them. The droids would come there tomorrow to clean them up.

He wanted to hate Resistance. He did hate the Resistance. Why was it so difficult to do now?

He ignited his lightsaber, and lashed out against the wall. He kept slashing it, beating it, until his hands got tired and he fell to his knees, tears running out his cheeks. He hated this feeling, and yet, let it consume him.

He took the feathers from the ground. They were probably from wherever Rey was. He held them close, and placed his forehead on the floor.

"What have I done?" He asked himself.

Why was the Force doing this to them?

So I hope you guys liked this chapter. My original plan for it was a bit different than the end result, but I hope you were able to enjoy it.

Now the story will start to dive deeper into the Galaxy and the Force as a whole. The focus will remain on Kylo, Rey and their connection, but I'll try to flash out other characters as well, mostly Leia and Hux.

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I'm sorry for the wait. I will try to upload with more frequency.

Thanks for reading, and remember :

May the Force be with you... Always...