A week has passed. The kiss still remained. It felt like years have passed, aching for it to be forgotten but, oddly scratching for more. In the back of my mind I knew I would hunger for more, I wouldn't dare say it out loud.
Kevin though acted as if didn't happen. It was the same as every other day. I'd get home, He'd be watching T.V With Jazzy sitting next to him. Maybe he's look at me and say "Sup dork" Or maybe just glance at me. We'd talk sometimes, I would get flustered and turn away from him.
But, What bothers me the most is that; He knows whats under my sleeve. He sometimes walks over to me and pulls up my sleeve to see any new ones. I haven't done anything. I'm too scared he'll yell at me for doing so.
afterschool. Friday. Living room. Jazzy isn't home. We're alone. T.V isn't on. He's staring. Straight at me. Here is where I die.
"What are we gonna do?" Kevin slumped down on the sofa
"going to. You mean." I sigh
"Whatever!" He grunts. I don't say anything but he seems to speak for me. "Come over here" I walk over. "Sit." I sit down only hoping his next would would be 'kiss' but it wasn't "Roll up your sleeve" I sigh pulling at my shirt to show my scars on my arm. "No new ones….good…" He weakly smiles at me.
"Yeah…I'm too scared to find out what you'll do to me if I had any new ones…." I look down, speaking the truth stings.
"Let's hope you don't find out then" Kevin smirked leaning in closer.
I lean away closing my eyes, but I didn't feel what I felt last time. I felt a hand on my forehead. "You seem sick, you're all red" I hate these mind games.
He says no one else can hurt me but him, THEN KISSES ME! Now he's worried about me?! My whole life he's been treating me like dirt, like I don't have feeling. What is he trying to do? Make up for all those years?
I pull away, turning my head away from his eyes. I glance up at him, He has this face that I can't just figure out, Like he's fighting with himself. A war within?
"I'm not sick"
"Lemme check" He grabs my face and turns it towards himself.
"No" I stutter out as he cups my cheeks.
"Pretty Please" He smiles like a child.
"Kevin, I'm fine" I sigh glaring at him to let go of my face
"Yoooooou sureeeee?"
"Yes! Leave me alone" I huff
"Meany"
"Says the bully"
"Who you kissed" He smirks
I feel my face heating up as if I placed it on hot stones. "Y-Y-Y-YOu kissed me!" I Squeak out.
"Are you sure?"
"YES! You're the confusing one! You bully me THEN KISS ME!"
Kevin doesn't say anything for a while, just stares at me. A war within….?
"Shut up, Not like you didn't like it." He laughed, oh of those 'This is awkward but still funny laugh' the laugh died off but he was still grinning.
"You're the one who started it" I whine.
"Shut up"
"And you're still being confusing! I don't get it…." I rambled on
"Shut up Double D"
"Kissing means you like someone….do you like me? Did you not mean to do it?-" I went on
"Edd"
My thoughts didn't stop, they went on. I couldn't stop the words from falling out. "Did you only do it because you found out….."
"Edd…."
"Did you not know what to do?" I frown "Did you only do it for a Joke?"
"Ed-"
"What are you doing?! is this all a game? Just to mess with me? You're getting in my head! It's not fair….I don't understand!"
"SHUT UP AND LET ME KISS YOU EDD!" He grabbed me pulling me close. I didn't speak, just stared at him. He had on a huge smirk plastered on his face, he was staring at me making me feel self conscious about myself.
"What-" I spoke after a while of staring. He stopped me, With a long kiss.
Wrapping his arms around my waist pulling me closer. The kiss warmed me, giving me a spark all throughout. Butterflies flutter in my stomach but, sadly it came to an end as all humans need air.
"I've liked you….I think I like you….I just…." Kevin sighs "Can't stop thinking about you….you give me a feeling...that I just can't explain….I don't know how to put it….But I find you…...Attractive?" He laughs slightly at himself. He hasn't let go of me and my face that just so happens is on fire.
"...I'm not sure what to say….." I mumble out
"You kissed back is all that matters…"
"I kissed back…." It was surprising. Thought I did, I did kiss back.
I kissed my bully….
Eddy came over later that afternoon to work on a language arts project, The project is where you have to put a banned or 'challenged' book and read it. The write a paper with the summery, why it would be banned, then do you think it should be banned, then lastly you had to say if this book shouldn't been banned what age should you be to read it?
Eddy usually comes over for these types of things because I proofread after he's done then say what needs to be changed but, I never add anything. His work is pretty good just, needed a little bit of help.
As we were almost done, I walked over and shut the door my face heating up. I lock the door and Eddy looks up at me tilting his head slightly.
"Double D What's goin' on?"
"I have something to tell you, don't be mad…" I walk over to my bed and sit down sighing.
"I won't get mad."
"Yes you will" I mumble
"Tell me!" He whined like a child
"Kevin kissed me" I whispered
"What?! HE WHAT?! Imma kill him!" Eddy got up and walks towards the door angrily.
"I kissed back!" Eddy stared back in shock
"You what?! I SWEAR I'M GOING TO KILL THAT SON OF A MOTHER FUCKING BITCH!" Eddy had a look of murder in his eye
"Eddy, Look I think I don't….dis-like him"
"So- are saying what I think you're saying?" Eddy grunts.
"Ehh...Well I believe so" Eddy opens his mouth to say something but I speak up "let's not rush into it. Its just an Idea…."
"JUST AN IDEA!"
I sigh and nod sitting on the bed looking down at my feet. Eddy walks over and mumble a sorry.
"Sorry…..I'm just looking out for you….." Eddy sits next to me and groans. "If you….like him..It's alright with me-as long if he hurts you I get to break his face!"
I laugh "Thanks" It's really nice to have someone there for you.