A/N: sorry it took so long to update i know it's kind of short but i wanted to get something up. Anyway, here is another chapter i hope you like it!

(Emily's POV)

I woke up from the first good night's sleep i had gotten in days to the sound of Amanda crying. As I'm getting out of bed i look at the clock, it reads 6:00 a.m. Running my fingers though my disheveled hair i swiftly walk across the hall into the nursery. When i enter Amanda's cries had quieted a little and she was laying in her crib staring at the butterfly mobile hanging above her head. When she see's me she instantly begins cooing.

"Hey, baby girl" i coo at her as i pick her up. "Good morning princess lets get you cleaned up" i say placing her gently on the changing table. Once I'm sure she won't roll off i turn to the small dresser beside the crib and grab some clean clothes for her to wear today. After her diaper is changed and she has clean clothes on i dispose of the dirty diaper and walk into the kitchen to make a bottle. Thankfully i had placed a pre-made bottle in the fridge the night before. silently humming to myself i warm the bottle up. Taking a seat on the couch i turn the morning news on and feed the bottle to her. she falls asleep shortly after i burp her so i place her back in her crib and head back into the Kitchen to put the empty bottle in the sink. Why the hell not i tell myself as i start a pot of coffee after glancing at the clock for the second time that day it was already 6:45. sitting at the kitchen table piping hot cup of coffee in hand i let my mind wander. i am extremely worried about what I am going to tell the team today. Do i tell them everything or just keep it need to know... i don't know what i would do without Penelope, when i started at the BAU she had been the first one to befriend me. she is my closest friend i mean look at yesterday she came looking for me cause she was worried about me. What did i ever do to deserve friends like her. Sometimes i wonder if i didn't have Amanda would i even be here. What would my life be like, would Adam and i have stayed together? Oh well that was all in the past right now i needed to do what was best for my baby even if it meant reliving the worst day of my life or coming face to face with the man who had tried to kill me. what ever happens i need to make sure i thank Garcia she had stayed over last night and was currently sleeping in the guest bedroom down the hall. Looking at the clock again i realize it's 7: 00. Garcia and i had to be at work in an hour, should i wake her up? i didn't have to think long because seconds later she comes walking into the kitchen wearing her bright yellow and lime green polka dot pajamas. the sight of it makes me laugh.

"Hey, em i smelled coffee" she says

"Oh yeah you want some? there's a cup by the pot" i reply pointing in that direction. she fills herself a cup an sits down in the chair across from me.

"Watchya thinking about?" Penelope asks after taking a sip

"oh just what I'm going to tell the team how did you sleep?"

" pretty good, you?"

" surprisingly good, thank you for staying you don't know how much it helped"

" Your welcome anytime Emily,'

" so i guess you need to go home get ready for work?" i ask a touch of disappointment in my voice.

" no i actually have a change of clthes in my car if you don;t mind i could just get ready here"

" no that's fine"

" Great I'll go get my stuff"

40 minutes later both me and Garcia were both ready to go. on the way out the door i drop Amanda off with Mrs. Wilson. After she reassures me that Amanda would be fine five times. i kiss the baby goodbye and head to the car. i had decided to ride with Penelope in case Adam had messed with my car or anything.

"it never gets easier, saying goodbye t her in the morning" i say as we pull out.

" how do you do it?"

"i just tell my self I'm doing it for her you know make the world a better place and all but what if something was to happen to me if i died what would happen to Amanda?"

" I'd take her you know that but nothings gonna happen to you Emily your too strong you've already proven that, and you're doing a great job with her she adores you"

" yeah, right thanks" i reply back and we ride the rest f the way in silence. By the time we arrive at the federal building my stomach is in knots. We arrive in the bullpen at exactly 7:50. Before heading to her lab she tells me to call her if i need anything. i agree and head to my desk. i spend the next ten minutes sorting through the paperwork that is piled on my desk. i exchange a brief greeting with everyone as they arrive before going to Hotch's office.

"come in" he says after i knock not bothering to look up from his paperwork. Quietly i take a seat.

"Morning sir" i say he jerks his head up at the sound of my voice.

"agent Prentiss how are you?" he asks in genuine concern as he sets his pen down.

"i...okay i guess" i reply.

" what's wrong" he asks "you left so suddenly in Montana we were all worried."

" i know and I'm sorry, that's what i wanted to talk to you about. but, um i was wondering if we could get the team together i really don't want to have to repeat myself."

" sure no problem, we'll meat in the conference room in ten minutes I'll get JJ Penelope and Dave if you'll get Reid and Morgan"

" okay thank you sir" i reply standing up and walking to the door. she stop's me at the door.

" Prentiss, how any times do i have to tell you to call me Hotch"

"right sorry Hotch" I say leaving his office as i do i could swear he was smiling a little. weird i tell myself as i go and gather the guys. i can't wait to get this over with.

i had intended to have her tell the team this chapter but then decided it would fit better with what I'm thinking for next chapter