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There is no worse death than the end of hope.

I looked over at Gianna and could see she was just as uneasy as me but this had to be done after all I'd never actually finished school. The purr of the Vanquishes engine relaxed me a little more it was good to be driving my car, a car that was simple but yet well known. Now that I was on my way to school I had the exact same feeling I did the first time, a kind of déjà vu. I went to his forest last night and I felt so at piece as though time its self had come to a stand still, I guess this place was the same it was frozen in time just like me. His smell covered every inch of the place as though he'd just been but I new that was impossible because… because he wouldn't return here. The strangeness through out it all was that I had no gaping whole opening up as I stepped into the clearing just a twinge of sadness but even that had been pushed to the side I hadn't done the place justice.

" Bella are you ok?" Her voice seemed worried

" Sorry I was a million miles away everything seems so kind of been there and done that kind of feeling. Does that make sense?"

" I guess so. I'm looking forward to going back to high school." She looked more at peace as we pulled into the car park.

I stepped out the car and could hear the gasps of people roundabout me, I forgot Forks was such a small place.

" Is that your car?" A boy in my year asked.

" Yes."

" Wow, my car is shit compared to that."

" Thanks for that."

I walked towards the office with Jane and Alec flowing behind me without there black cloaks on they just looked plain weird. The office door opened just like old times but everything was different minus the building it hadn't changed a bit, pupils filled the grounds, there voices rang with excitement about the new term but mine was filled with dread maybe this was wrong maybe I should have waited longer another centaury or decade. I could feel the stares as the door shut behind us.

Well I'm glad that's over

I nodded towards Gianna.

" Hello Mrs Tailor, my family and I were told to register here and collect our time table for the week." I forced a smile upon my lips "Family that word didn't even spring to mind with Felix and Alec or Jane they are all so twisted and strange.

Such a charming young girl. They're all so beautiful.

" Ah you must be the Swan family." She smiled a careful smile you could tell she was uneasy but was trying to ignore it but that was what any normal human instinct told you to do. I wish I'd been able to do that.

She turned and began flicking for papers she's the only one not to have flinched at our names. There was another stack of papers for new students to join us so we wouldn't be the only people new here that was good.

" Here's a map for you all in case any of you are to get lost and timetable. Also have each of your teachers sign this slip of paper please." Alec and Jane laughed in the background but took the map.

" Bye guys." I smiled and walked towards my first class.

The whole morning was pretty entertaining listing to teenage minds hardly any of them were focused on their subject it was just like old times. High school never changed even in a place like Forks you always got the people who were stuck up, people who thought the world revolved around them or the people really smart but sat silently in class. I don't know where I fell into those things but English was boring me so I began searching for the others. Gianna was sitting in Spanish totally hooked that's another thing I learnt Gianna loved to know languages even if she'd never been to the country she thought it was the polite thing to do in case you ever did visit that country you'd always know what they were talking about. Alec and Jane were in P.E just now and hating every minute of it, there thoughts were pure hate towards me. I placed a nice thought in their heads and they both stopped hating on me that's another thing I liked about my gift.

We sat down at lunch up the back so no one would notice we didn't have to eat, that's one thing I missed cooking I always enjoyed that as a human. Jane and Alec looked at one another and departed from the table.

" Where they going?" Gianna asked.

" There missing the rest of the day because school life is that bad according to them." I laughed.

" I disagree I love it here. I wish I'd came to school earlier, people are really nice minus some of the teachers." She smiled and giggled a high soprano laugh.

The bell rang at the end of the day and I felt good for the fact that nothing had gone horribly wrong yet which in my books was a big thumb's up. I phoned Aro and told him of my day and he seemed ecstatic that I'd gotten on so well and then preceded to talk to Gianna.

I walked into Music the next week and took my seat at the back because there was no one there and people would stay away from me. Miss welfare the class for silence and began talking. When I'd first came here she seemed happy that there was someone else in the class who actually had a grade 8 performing grade for both instruments.

" Right class go off and play. Miss Swan can I speak to you please?"

"Yes." I walked over.

" Would you mind being paired with another pianist for this years concert?" She looked hopefully up but still slightly awed.

" Ok." They'd never done this when I'd gone to Forks but then again I was only there for six months.

Oh. I hope her and Edward get on. They look alike.

" Sorry who did you say I'd be playing with?" It was now my turn to hope I'd heard the name wrong and the last thought."

" Hang on I'll get someone to fetch him. Just play in the practise room and I'll send him through."

" Ok." I was over reacting this couldn't be true he had left and wouldn't come back. He wouldn't would he?

Gianna… Gianna can you get out of maths please I need your help?

Are you ok? Have you been hurt?

No but I think the Cullen's could be here. I heard her snarl and ask to leave the class because her sister needed her.

" Bella are you sure you heard her right?" She looked worse than me but that could be for the fact that we were now like sister and we didn't want to see each other hurt.

" Hundred percent. Do you want me to seal your mind?"

" What do you mean?" She looked confused, and worriedly over her shoulder.

" It will stop him being able to read your mind."

" Yes."

" And Gianna thanks for coming." I hugged her and focused on closing our minds.

I sat playing the piano well Gianna sang as though nothing was out of the ordinary well that was until we heard a gasp and the door close again. I spun round just in time to catch a look at him. Funny how time seems to stand still when nothing seems to matter caught like a bug on a windshield watching others pass and go, you think you're over that person but in fact your more caught than ever. Even if you can't see that person, when you can't hear them breath or the rhythm of their voice there're still with you even though you left and they shortly followed but that shouldn't stop you from living should it but why at this very moment am I caught like a deer in headlights unable to move for the pain ripping every inch of my chest apart like a tiger catching its prey.

Gianna smiled at Edward as though nothing had happened. " How can we help you Edward?" Her tone held a malicious edge.

" Bella… Bella is that you?" His voice was as soft as I'd remembered it to be.

I turned round and I think that was the biggest mistake I made. His eyes reflected my own shock but I couldn't bring myself to pull away. Gianna shuffled from side to side with her stance still in place. She was waiting but then again so was I. On what I had no idea it was not my job to see the future.

" Bell a please speak to me!" His voice was now urgent.

I couldn't it was like glue had been forced into my mouth and nothing was going to budge it.

I can't believe that's Bella. Alice must have known about this.

His thoughts seemed pleasant enough but that didn't make what he'd done right or then again wrong who was I to judge for what he'd done I wasn't an exact saint myself. I walked from the room ignoring his thoughts and voice yelling at me to come back. I reached the grounds and flitted out the gates, I was right Forks never changed and either did the people living in it.

Edward it will be ok. It was a voice I hadn't heard in a long time. Alice.

Not this time. I heard her gasp so she hadn't meant for me to hear.

The bedroom walls seemed far to big for the ripping being processed in my chest my heart may not beat but the pain is ten times as real. The room was black but I could still see spots of light. So I did the one thing I always do when upset I talk to Aro.

" Hello Bella. Aren't you suppose to be in school?" His voice seemed worried.

" I know but I left I couldn't do it. I didn't know…" My voice whimpered at the end.

" Why dear what happened?" I had his full attention now.

" The Cullen's came back." If I could cry I would of.

" Dear they're not all that bad you have to remember that Carlisle and Esme are good friends of mine. It's just that one boy and he would be a great acetic to my guard collection." I could just imagine him smiling. Aro would never change he was always think of the greater good. That's why I'm still alive because this gift contributes to his guard and I'm something the Cullen's can't have I think that was just the tip on the icing cake.

" I know but… this really isn't helping me Aro. I think I'd like to come home now I don't think I was ready to come back." I sighed.

" If that's what you think is best dear Bella but this all won't stop just remember that when your back sitting next to me. Trust me if life was that simple then some of us wouldn't be in such a great mess. Did you talk to Edward?" He seemed upset and I couldn't figure out why.

" No I just ran and trust me I know it doesn't go away I'm nearly seventy now and the pain is just as really as though it happened yesterday."

" Well wait till Gianna gets home and talk to her you seem to be getting along like a house on fire."

" Fine but I'm not going to promise anything."

" As long as you try I'll be happy. Look at what life will give you after not during the time."

" Well bye then." I had no idea what that meant.

" Goodbye dear Bella. Trust me you'll do the right thing."

" I know and I think that's what's worrying me the most." He never heard that he'd hung up I'd obviously been boring him.

Well that was really no help at all. I know some of the Cullen's are nice but that doesn't mean I just forgive them like as though for the past seventy years nothing has happened. The house was quiet and I sat down at the piano how I got it in here I have no idea but it looked right sitting in the sitting room that was never used. I could never watch T.V it was all rather repetitive and dull.

Unlike the masterpiece hanging on my wall Marcus had taught me how to paint but the painting its self was rather plain it held everything I had liked and things I could never have. I had the house I was sitting in right now and my piano, Aro looking even older than usual and Edward and I as normal people with two kids. Looking back at the painting I must admit I'd taken ages drawing and redrawing how my kids should look I new how Rosalie had felt all these years ago and I also had all the Cullen's because they never seemed to leave my mind. I would never be able to share that part of my life with anyone having kids and dying old my life always did seem like a badly written book and the author was always determined that I should suffer for something I'd done in my past life. Music flowed from the piano as the purr of my engine was round the corner.

" Bella are you ok?"

He looked so crumpled as you left the room but he made no move to go after you and then this small black haired lady came and they both went off together.

"That was Alice she properly new this was happening she seems the future." I smiled the hyperactive pixie married to the most quiet person I'd ever met.

" Ok then. Are you ok?"

" If you want a honest answer then no I wasn't ready to see any of them again and I'm going back to Italy or anywhere away from here."

" Bella don't leave that means we all have to go and I was truly beginning to enjoy it here. Humans are so funny and slow." Her eyes were lined with sadness.

" No Gianna stay I'll be back soon I just have to get away for now. Just make an excuse if anyone asks." I was trying to be brave and hide all emotions from my face but with each passing second it was getting harder.

" Ok but you better have your phone on at all times cause if you don't I'll come and hunt you down myself, is that clear?" She smiled and laughed but her voice was strict.

" Yes it will I'll see you soon."

" I know you're not the only one with a power Bella just be careful and word of advice don't go near Italy stay close by please."

" Goodbye Gianna."

We hugged and I left the house but just before leaving I hid the talk from Gianna's mind so nobody listening in would know what she was thinking about. Know I just had to find the best place to go and I think I had it. It may seem silly but I think that's the best place. The Vanquishes engine purred and Blue October came on the Radio it was like nothing had changed and never would.