Leah's POV
My sister Bella. Alive.
Thoughts were crushing through my mind painfully. My head throbbed, and my veins pumped my blood at a pace that was unhuman. Had Jacob been joking? Would he have gotton my hopes up for a laugh? I decided that Jacob wouldn't do something so rude, and he wouldn't have done something that involved Bella.
Jacob hadn't been the same since Bella went into that coma. He barely, if ever, laughed. Unless forced. I couldn't blame him though. I mean, if Seth had gone into a coma, after Sam's attack, I would rip his testicles off one at a time, and then I would probably make Emily cry...fun.
I wanted Jacob to Laugh, and smile. Smile for me, but that wouldn't happen. I wasn't anything but a friend to him. I mean, we called eachother pet names, and hugged, but he acted like that with Bella too. I was stuck in the dreaded friend zone, and I would be nothing more to him then the pack bitch. He would think that like the rest do. Jacob Black would never be mine.
That struck a nerve.
I tentively wrapped my arms around my chest, smashed my back to the bathroom door, and sank to the ground. I put my head in my hands, and cried. Just cried over and over, not able to stop from feeling the hurt of Jacob being away from me.
He apparently imprinted. He hadn't told me who, but it was getting on my laste nerve. I bet she's pretty. I bet she's smart. I bet she's human. No, she is human. Who would want to date a freak among freaks. AKA, Leah Clearwater? No one. I looked around stupidly, and lifted my sweat shirt's sleeve from my forearm. I yanked it up to my elbow, and stared blankly at my arm. Two pinkish scars were still left behind from three weeks ago. I tried to make a scar, and finally, after stabbing it with a knife, a heart had been carved in my wrist, along with a jagged line through it. Was I ashamed? Not at all. I needed a pain that wasn't my heart. That's why i did it. No one knew. I wasn't that stupid. I-
A knock on the door smashed through my thoughts.
"Leah? A-Are you okay?" I heard Seth's voice from the other side of the door. I sniffled, yanked myself up off the floor, and quickly opened te door.
"I'm fine." He smiled, quickly hooked my arm and pulled me down stairs. I chuckled.
"Come on! I wanna see Bella! Embry called like three minutes go and-" He paused for a moment, and eyes wide, he choked out, "L-Leah? W-What are those?" I looked at him, puzzled. What are what exactly?
"What are you talking about?" His arms reached out, grabbed my arm, and puled it up to my face. Oh shit.
"THESE!" He pointed at the scars on my arm.
"I-I fell."
"FELL!? FELL! YOU EXPECT ME TO BELIEVE THAT?!" Seth had begun shaking. I swallowed loudly, and backed up a foot.
"C-Calm D-down Seth." His shaking grew even worse.
"I CAN'T CALM DOWN! LEAH! YOU DID THIS TO YOUR SELF! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU WOULD-" And right then and there, for the first time, Seth Michael Clearwater phased from uncontrolable anger.
SETH'S POV
A heart. A heart...? did Leah get a tatoo or what? Thats weird...it has a lightening bolt through it...Wait a minute..Thats not a tatoo. Thats a...thats a Cut. How could Leah even-No they can't be.
"L-Leah? W-What are those?" i jumbled out.
"What are you talking about?" I arms reached out, grabbed her thin russet arm, and Jammed it to her face. Her eyes widened
"THESE!" I pointed at the red heart and sharp lightening shaped scars on her arm.
"I-I fell." Lies. Terrible Lies.
"FELL!? FELL! YOU EXPECT ME TO BELIEVE THAT?!" My shaking had been blurred, and I knew I was going to phase.
"C-Calm D-down Seth." It echoed through my mind, those words stuck with a frightened image of my own sister cowering in fear. I yelled one last thing,
"YOU DID THIS TO YOUR SELF! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU WOULD-" Right then and there, I, Seth Michael Clearwater, Phased and lunged at my own Silly, Kind, fun-loving sister, and smashed her face with my huge blonde paws. I ran away as fast as I could...
JACOB'S POV
A disturbance hit me. Like a jab in the heart just knocked my breathe away. What could that have been? Nothing Jacob, Nothing. I told myself again and again. But then again...
It sure was a hell of a "Nothing".
"Bella, I need to check on something...Sorry I'll be back in ten." I smiled. I turned my head around...to find Bella asleep and smiling.
"Aww..." Ew. Did I just "Aw"? Oh well...
I walked out of the room after setting a small note by bella's bed, and walked slowly, and casually walked to my truck.
If only I knew that Leah could have been dying then.
I got into the rabbit, and drove to the Clearwater's home, and walked up the path, but froze hearing a moan and a small whimper from my Leah. My thoughts went straight to something they shouldn't have, and my heart began thumping eratticly as i neared the house. I slammed the door open, only to find Leah, on the floor, bleeding everywhere.
It's my fault...All mine.
I freaked out at the sight.
"LEAH! Leah, God Leah. Wake Up! Wake up!" I went by her side, and started crying, sobbing, and holding onto her hand for dear life.
"J-Jacob?" She croaked.
"Yes. I'm right here Leah. Right here." I soothed.
"J-Jacob. I-I Don't feel good, it hurts Jake....It H-hurtss so bad..." My heart tore apart at the sentence. I ripped out my phone and dialled 911.
"911, whats your emergency?" A woman voiced.
"Please come to 1732 west Av. Please I need an ambulance. Please!" I sobbed.
"We'll send help imideatly. Just stay calm." She hung up. I was too busy to even think about how rude that was.
"J-Jacob?"
"Yes Leah?"
"I-I don't think I am going to...Make it..I need you t-to know something..."
"No! you will make it Leah! Please fight!"
"Jake. I Imprinted on y-" Someone bursted in. My head jolted away from the bleeding Godess in my arms, only to find a panicked Embry.
"Oh My God! Leah! what happened?!"
And thats when the ambulance struck in, and took my angel away.
Little did i know, I wouldn't see her ever again.
TWO IN THE MORNING, NEXT DAY
(Still Jakes POV)
Gone. Could she be...? It hurt to think about it.
Isn;t that impossible? I thought werewolfs heal fast...right? Then why did both Bella and Leah -Wince- get hurt so badly? I experimented today. This time, when I slid that blade across the palm of my hand, it stung, and didn't heal at all. It;s just starting to heal up. that was an hour ago. The werewolf powers are fading. My skin is becoming colder, my appetite, smaller. Everything was strangely fading away. I felt like this was the last moments i had before the doctors came out, so i hung my head and prayed. I wasn't usually Religious, but I felt the need.
God, please let her be okay. Please God. I love her. She's my life. If I did something wrong to , kill me...not her. Please. Let her live. I know she may have been mean, and rude at times...but look what she went through. Wouldn't you have too? I would be a bitch if my girlfirend broke up with me, married my cousin, my dad died, then I turn into a furball. Just please please...Please...Don't Let her die....Is it my fault God? Please tell me it's not. Because I just couldn't live with myself, knowing I killed my only love. Let her LIVE! Please God. Please...
I had been crying by this time. Full on sobbing. i couldn't live without Leah Susan Clearwater.
No, I wouldn't live without her. Never. I refuse to live in a world without my angel living down the street. without my godess smiling at me when I'm sad. The stubborn cutie, who's eye brows knit together in confusion when she's thinking too hard. The one who is confident, and bitchy, but has that soft side I wanted to bring out of her. Living in a world without the beautiful woman i wanted to call mine. I would save her, i would protect her. I would never ever let her fall....
A song popped into my head. That one Ihad heard on the radio once that made me think of Leah. I sang quietly, while the others listened around me, but I didn't care.
"When I see your smile I will never let you fall It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. I will never let you fall Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart Use me as you will I will never let you fall
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven"
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I cried during this...I am so lame somtimes... xD
But isn't it saddddd?! ..... No? Fine then;...whatever...
I decided to take the action off of Bella for a bit, and get to some LEAH AND JACOB!!
Sorry it took me like twenty days to update..but im making A LOT more chapters over christmas break...(until january 4 when i go back to dumb school...) So i might do another chapter tonight
.YAY!!! *does my awesomest happy dance*
If you review..I'll make Edward Cullen...AND Jacob black sneak through your window tonight.. ;)
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