1(A/N: After the last chapter I posted, now everything falls downhill. This chapter is kinda short 'cause I have things to do today.)

Raph POV

My heart stopped. At least, I thought it did.

Mike fell back into unconsciousness. Everyone else flowed into the room. Leo, who seemed to hear Mikey's question, walked up and wrapped his arm around my shoulders. He leaned over.

"Its okay Raph..."

"No... It's not okay. My own family is scared of me." I whispered back to him. Don heard us.

"Yes! It is NOT okay Raph! You killed Leo!" He shouted. He was about to let his anger take control, but Leo stood in front of me. Don glared at me, but softened his look at Leo. What was that about? "And Leo, how come you are okay with this?"

"Raph and I had this talk ages ago, Donnie. He's changed. He came to this time to start over. And he has already made himself a better person." Leo replied.

"But he's... He's a cold blooded... MURDERER!" Don cried.

"It was a mistake Donatello. Now move on!" Leo stated. After that he grabbed my wrist and pulled me out of the room. He looked at Sukei, who was still crying. He pulled me out of the sewers and onto an abandoned rooftop. Once they arrived, Leo broke down into sobs. I hugged him tight.

"I'm so confused... Am I supposed to hate you?" Leo sobbed. I frowned.

"Its your choice to hate me or not to hate me Leo..." I replied. I pulled away from our hug. "I'm going to leave you to think about this. Just remember... I'm never going to hate you. Even if I said that to my other brother before he..." I trailed off. But then I ran off.

'I can't believe I brought up my other brother. I'm supposed to start over new here... Not think about my past.' But flashes from my past were all over my mind. The bloody figure laying in my arms. My older brother. The one who would comfort me after every nightmare. The one who protected me when I was stupid. The one I murdered.

I screamed and stabbed my sais into the rooftop. Tears were streaming down my cheeks. I looked at my trembling hands. Images of blood covering them flashed through my head again, and fell down onto my chest. Sobbing into my hands.

Is this what I am?

A cold blooded murderer?

I don't deserve Leo's support.

He has all the rights in the world to hate me.

Don was right.

I'm a cold blooded murderer.

I didn't notice myself being surrounded. Until it was almost too late. I pulled my sais out of the roof, and quickly jumped to my feet.

Foot ninjas.

I jumped foreward and split kicked two of them.

"Did you guys miss me?" I said, sarcastically. I fought and fought, but for every ninja that went down, three more came.

It was too much.

It felt like I had been fighting for hours, and I was exhausted. My fighting began to get sloppy. I was moving slower. I felt a prick of a dart being shot into my leg. I fell to my knees.

Drugs.

They drugged me.

Oh god.

"Leo!" I yelled as loud as I possibly could. I kept on repeating his name, until I lost consciousness.