A/N - No reviews? at all?!?! I mean seriously is it that bad cause i've got other stories I could be working on! It is like 1am I write my best at night!

Disclaimer - I dont own twilight. Now let me go into my little depression over that fact.

CHAPTER 4 - Lifeless Epov

BACK IN 2009

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I haven't moved from this spot since I found my one true love burning with wood, not even to hunt, Exactly one year, 163 days, 7 hours, 34 mintues and 12 seconds ago. 14, 15, 16, 17...That is all I've done all this time count and greive. The search party was a poor one at that. No one came across anywhere near here. Ever now and then my family would come to beg I at lest say something but what was the point? I was nothing with out her.

PRESENT - 500 years since

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I had come back to the spot Bella had layed 500 years ago as she became ash. We returned to Forks from Canada, against my wishes, last year but in this time Forks was the only place other than Alaska that was rainning non-stop.

When she first died I didnt move from this spot until a year when we moved to Alaska. My family couldnt take the rumors. Everyone thought I killed her. Their thought made me want to strangle them all, which brought me here alot because this spot was far away from anyones thoughts and it was as close to Bella as I was going to get. When we moved back the first thing I did was come to this spot. I use to only come here once a day but for the past month I havent moved. Just like the first time. My family was scared they lose me along with Bella, so killing myself wasnt a option no matter how good that option looked.

"EDWARD CULLEN!" I could hear Alice scream. She has been doing it lately, coming over here everyday and yelling at me to move my butt home or she'll kick it there. Today I have a feeling from her thoughts she was going to do something worse if I dont today. I won't tell you the graphic details but lets just say she has matches to burn a peice of my body after she cut it off. (A/N - hehe I think thats funny, sorry if I offended) Her pixie form came out form the woods behind me and I didnt even turn to look. I heard her step closer and closer until I felt her knee cap on my back.

"Edward." she gritted through her teeth."You need to atleast move! I miss her to but I still come down here to kick you but everyday! You are so depressed you havent hunted in a whole year!!!" She yelled then stopped seeming to calm herself before she got down on her knees and joined me.

"Edward." she said softer almost like a plea. "Please. I miss you. Esme misses you so does Jasper, Emmett, and Carlisle, Even Rose is starting to say she misses you!" She paused and dry sobbed for a second. "She wont want this. She would want you to move on." She had a point. I was being my usual selfish self. I have been sitting here feeling sorry for myself while that doesnt help me or my family. But in truth we will never be whole again. We will never be the same. I lost my true love, Alice and Rose lost a sister, Alice lost a best friend, Jasper and Emmett lost a little sister, and Esme and Carlisle lost a daughter. I needed to at least put up a front that I will ever feel again. I needed to get up and hunt before I go anywhere I had ignored my throat because I have worked on completely numbing myself so I cant feel the pain, I dont know what will happen if I suddenly feel again and the first emotion is thirst.

I got off my knees and it felt as if I was moving stone. Which I probably was. I showed no emotion what so ever in my head. I dont even think I can read her mind anymore from lack of use or mabye she was blocking me for some unknown reason. I really dont care anymore. She was happy I was moving but her little speech was making her dry sob like she was pumping a empty well. Or pumping my empty heart.

I didnt wait for her to even blink before I darted off to hunt. I heard her yell after me "Just come home!" I really wasnt paying attention I zoned out and let instinct take over. I was moving so fast even all I could see was blurs. I think I took out a whole family of deer and a couple of moutain lions be fore I was full. maybe this little fast of mine made me fill up easier. Good, because I want to mope in my room for as long as possible nd think of her brown wavy hair and big brown eyes. How If Rose was halfway nice to Bella she be alive. How I was stupid to leave her with someone as self centered as Rosaile? I will never forgive myself for this. I will never move on. And I promise that I'll never be happy again.

ALICE POV!

"Just come home!" I had managed to scream at him while he darted off to do god knows what. Hunt I guess.

I missed Bella so much.

I miss my best friend.

I stayed there and cried letting it all out before I pulled myself back together and put on my happy charade and get back to Jasper. He hasnt been well considering he had to deal with all his saddness plus mine, Carlisle's, Esme's, Emmett's, even Rose's, and he cant get in a mile of Edward with out breaking down and crying or as close as he could get. I wiped at the dirt on my jeans and smoothed down my hair then ran to the car and jumped in the driver seat and set down the road. Lately it has been very hazy with my visions. I have to concentrate to see anything other then a whirl of colors. I was frustrated with it, I am pretty sure that whoever, or whatever, is in my vision isnt in my family because when ever I see a vision of one of them it is cyrstal clear.

Once I foucsed hard, so hard If I was human I would have popped every vein in my body, I swore I saw Bella , but that is impossible. At least Edward was coming home from his little depressed state. Although he will still be the same only move more an be in a house. I'll drag him out by the ear if he goes so long without hunting again. It wasnt safe.

I finally arivied home and jumped out of the car then went to Carlisle to tell him Edward moved. I put my keys on the long rack that holds the keys for all our cars and walked toward the study. The door was closed so I knocked and opened the door and closed it behind me. Carlisle looked up from his desk then looked back down at his work and asked the same question he always does when i get back from giving Edward a peice of my mind.

"He still stone?" and for the first time I didnt have to say yes.

"No. I think he went to hunt. I told him to come home he might actually listen this time." Carlisle dropped the work he was holding and raised his gaze to stare at me with disbelif.

"I know." I said. I didnt have to be Edward or Jasper to know Carlisle was shocked.

"Well, well." Carlisle said getting back from shock to happy. "Esme will be very happy about this." He kept talking but I was pulled into a vision and could only sense he was still talking before he noticed. When I came out of my trance before he had a chance to ask I answered his question.

"Phone is going to ring in a minute." I said "I'll get it." I added while turning around and walking toward t he phone. A vampire, who sounded familiar, named Isabella, which I am going to do anything not to say in fear of the pain, asked if we are going to the All Vampire and Werewolf Meeting which we really a come or die call. 6:28 and 14 seconds exactly I picked up the phone not even let it ring and breathed in our answers.

"HI! I'm Alice! Yes we will be there." She didnt say anything, probably stunned

"Ummmm, I'm Isabella" Oh no.

"okay in two weeks report to Italy and prepare to stay for a 2 weeks to a month." She stated in a very buisness manner.

"Yup! Sure!!!" I chirped and tried to sound cheery so they werent on their toes for a attack. When the get like that they can really get up your butt. So I acted like my normal pre-bella's-death self. "Oh! You dont eat humans?" she questioned, curious.

"Nope." I answered little smuggly. I always felt better than those who are low enough to take a life from someone.

"Great! You can hunt with me once a week. I dont know how the rest can do that to people." I she said in very happy sorta voice. I guess she doesnt meet veggies alot. I actually perked up, not acting perked up, Isa-Isa- when we get there I'm gong to call her Izzy.

After about 10 min of me ranting she laughed "Okay, okay I have to go I'll see you in two weeks." she said while chuckling "Oh how many rooms do you need? 4 right?" she added just as Edward walked though the door. Now I was really perked up. still not normal but better.

"YUP!" I responded.

"Who ever it is Alice stop being so perky it is driving me nuts!" Edward said in a monotoned voice. He had just walked in, covered in blood, standing in the doorway. I smiled the size of the moon, he moved! He was home!

"Ignore him." I went on. "Edward just a grouch. Lost his mate...to well you about 500 years ago."

"Oh I'm so so sorry!" she said. "I wasnt in the group at the time i was actually joined the same year."

"OKAY WELL SEE YOU THE NEXT NEXT MONDAY!!!!" I squealed.

I was happy that Edward had moved again and come home, and Izzy did something to me that made me act like I did around Bella. I really cant wait to meet this Izzy.