Inspiration: "Sakura and Sasuke's Tutoring Sessions" by TeddyBearHugs, chapter 3 and 4.
Chapter 4. Tutoring Session
SAKURA: MONDAY AFTER CLASSES
The bell rang out to signify the end of the school day. I took a deep breath, feeling the panic and nervousness creeping in on me, while I packed my stuff and left the only class I didn't have with any of my best friends. I strolled down the hall, trying to ignore all the death glares I was receiving from Sasuke's fangirls. It was impossible to hide in this goddamn school! I took a deep breath again, trying to control my nerves. 'If these girls don't kill me, my nervousness is!'
"FOREHEAD!" I flinched at Ino yelling out to me, "you excited?" she teased, but when she saw my nervous expression she immediately stopped: "Wow, you look like shit."
"Geez, thanks Ino – helps a lot," I said ironic.
She laid both her hands on my shoulders and gave me an encouraged smile: "Please, use this situation to your advantages hon!" In the meantime, TenTen and Hinata had joined us and eavesdropped the conversation.
"I-I think Ino is right, Sakura. If it was me with Na-Na-Naruto-kun, I would like to get to k-know him better," Hinata stuttered and blushed deeply before adding: "You s-should get closer to Sasuke-san."
"Ino does have a point," TenTen then agreed, taking me by surprise, because TenTen never agrees with Ino.
I thought about it for a couple of seconds; imagining Sasuke and I as couple: "You really think I have a shot with Sasuke? Ino said it herself; no one is good enough for him." I deadpanned, feeling torn about facts and reality.
"Wouldn't you regret it if you had?" Ino deadpanned back.
I felt my whole body wanted to scream 'YES!', yet I was so scared of being left broken hearted.
SASUKE
I was sitting on the grand steps of Konoha High with Shikamaru, Neji and Naruto. Sai had probably fled to the library to read in one of if idiotic books. The boys were discussing something about basketball training but all I could think about was me being alone with Sakura in less than a few minutes. I felt pathetic for being nervous yet my heart beat faster than normal and my palms were slightly sweaty.
"You look nervous," Neji then stated. I just shot him a dead glare and he knew what was coming if he didn't shut up, I knew all about him crushing on his brown-haired best friend. Unfortunately, he had encouraged Naruto to continue the topic.
"Relax teme, Sakura is easy being around!"
"Hn." I just remarked, starting to move towards the parking lot, waving a single motion with my hand as a farewell, and thanks for fucking great support. Being with them didn't help at all, but being alone just made me think more about it, which made it all worse. 'How can I have a crush on her, when I don't even know her?!' But when a spotted her in the distance, it felt like she was the one person that had always been missing in my life.
My thoughts and sight were disturbed at a specific red-haired girl: "Hey, Sasuke kun! I was wondering-," Karin started but I cut her short: "Not a chance." I ignored her and strode past her with only one particular pink-haired girl in sight.
When I reached her, I grabbed my car keys in my pockets and threw them towards Sakura and she caught them like she had done it a thousand times before, but she both looked shocked and frighten at them.
"What are you doing?" she then asked with shaking voice.
"You know how to drive right?" I stated, leaning against the back of my car.
"Yes, but-"
I cut her of: "No but, I am not giving up on the change of being a passenger of Kizashi's daughter." but I regretted my words when I saw her reaction. She clenched harder around the keys while bowing her head down. The sound of her sob tore my heart in half.
I didn't know what to do for what seemed like minutes before my body started moving on its own towards the sobbing girl. To my own surprise I folded my own arms around her petty form, embracing her in a hug. Not caring if anyone saw my affection. My body felt like it was being set on fire when she buried her face in below my collar bone and clenched her fingers around my school uniform shirt, keys boring in my chest, but the pain was nothing compared to the bliss I felt.
She mumbled something against my chest, but I couldn't catch on to it so I created some distant between us against my own will: "What?"
She had got a hold on herself and wasn't crying uncontrolled any more. She took a deep breath before saying: "I can't drive…"
I remained silence waiting patiently for her to continue.
"Every time I try, all the memories are coming flowing down on me and I start to panic…"
It didn't take me long to put two and two together, but she said it any way – probably to get it out of her systems: "I was the one driving, when my parents died."
I didn't say anything, I didn't know what to say, didn't know how to comfort her, so I just took the keys out of her hand, and it sent electricity through my whole body at the skin contact.
"I will drive." I just deadpanned.
I held the passenger door open for her and she got into the car. After climbing in at the driver's seat myself I couldn't hold back my temptation and asked, with all nervousness from earlier total forgotten: "So, is there anything else I am supposed to know, so I don't make you cry again?"
I looked at her while I was putting the key in the ignition and I was met with an innocuous sight. She was starting to slightly laugh at my question while she was still sobbing. It was a pure sound to my ears and I couldn't help myself from smirking. Somehow it made me delighted to hear her laugh.
I was still waiting for an answer before starting the car and I looked at her with curiosity. It took her a couple of seconds to realise that I was actually serious.
"Not car related though," she finally said, "but if you insist in knowing: I don't like small and cramped places, it makes me claustrophobic, and it reminds me of being trapped in the car."
"What about the music?" I then asked, thinking back to when I first met her.
See looked taken aback by my question, probably surprised that I remembered a conversation taking place 8 months ago, but then smiled encouraging to me.
"I can listen to music, but I haven't played anything myself yet." she confessed.
I was wondering what she played and how talented she actually was at it when I started the car and driving away from the school's property. With a pure habit, I basically slammed the speeder down to the floor, but I removed my foot as fast as I had just slammed it down, as if I had been burned. I looked terrified to my right to see if Sakura was okay. But to my surprise she looked like one who was high on something. She had a pure expression, sunk into the seat with her head back and closed eyes, as she bit her lip. She was actually enjoying it. I felt something boil inside me, it was the best feeling I had ever felt, yet it felt inappropriate. In under a second I realised, that Sakura Haruno, was turning me on, at this very moment.
SAKURA
I felt the rush kick in when he slammed the car's speeder and I was pushed back in the seat. I couldn't help but enjoy it, it had practically been my everyday life several months ago – and I missed it like an insane person. Every bit of nervousness I had felt earlier had some disappeared, I didn't know if it was the hug, the way he made me feel comfortable or if it was this delicious memory.
When we made it to the Uchiha mansion I was in actual shock. I knew his family was rich but 'holy cow this house is big' I thought while Sasuke drove inside a really oversized garage. I practically stood with open mouth when I stood out the car. I had never seen one family own so many damn cars before, and it was expensive luxury cars that I would give my right arm to be driving.
"Holy shit, I didn't know heaven was right here in Konoha," I said outload. And I stormed towards the end of the garage when I noticed a specific car, my enthusiasm getting the best of me. I looked behind me and saw him smirking while he was approaching.
"You like it?" he then asked.
"Yes!" I exclaimed, "I didn't know you drove rally."
"It's something I have always done." he simply said.
"That's why you wanted me to drive." I mumbled mostly to myself.
"Aa." he then answered and started walking towards the entrance of the mansion.
When we walked inside, a butler practically come running to greet us: "Good afternoon, Sasuke-san," he then looked at me and snatched my school uniform jacket out of my hands, "is there something I can do for the two of you?" he asked sincere.
"No thanks, Mr. Smithers. We will just be studying." Sasuke answered, and turned towards me before continuing: "Let's go to the library."
"By the way, your mother is decorating the library, Sasuke-san," the butler stated in matter of fact.
"Right." Sasuke said annoyed.
I couldn't help but let out a small giggle, he didn't even know what was going on in this massive house. Sasuke then suddenly grabbed my arm and dragged me up the huge stairs and into what seemed like his room.
He had a king-sized bed, a big trophy case that housed various awards he had received. He had indeed been driving rally for some time. He had a big and probably thinnest flat screen TV I had ever seen. A huge clothing closet and a simple desk with a comfortable chair. I started feeling awkward just standing and looking around, so I decided to discuss the subject we had come for: "So what exactly are you having problems with?"
SASUKE
'SHIT!' I just realised that I actually didn't had any problems with the classes, I just didn't bother or I didn't had the time for it. I basically used most of my free time at the station, as my father commanded, driving or playing basketball. My originally plan was to fail classes so I couldn't go to the police academy, which was my father's dream. That plan turned out slightly different while I stared completely lost in my own thought at this beautiful girl before me.
"Most of it?" It sounded more as a question that I had hoped. I just wasn't willing to let her slip through my fingers that easy.
"Oh," she looked suspicious at me, "so where do you want to start?" she asked.
"Math?" It sounded like a question again, and I mentally kicked myself. This girl was not that freaking easy to fool, and I knew it at the way she looked at me.
"Sure." She took out her math book from her bag pack, opened it and gave it to me. "Start reading these pages and try to do the exercises, if you still don't get it, you just ask." She then sad down in my bed and took another book out with some worn paper and a pencil.
I sighed, but started doing what she had commanded. 'What a fucking drag' I cursed at myself for having spent too much time with Shikamaru.
My concentration slipped for probably the tenth time in that hour when my thought strode towards Sakura. 'Did I just have a short time crush on her? Did I like her? Infatuation?' I thought, trying to figure out my own feelings towards this girl. I tilted my head to the side, appraising her with a thoughtful look. 'Love?' It was ridiculous hard to concentrate when she was looking so darn cute when she was concentrating.
She then looked directly at me and I adverted my gaze quickly, 'great Sasuke, becoming all insecure because of a single girl'. Heat creeped up at my neck when she suddenly stood behind me, but my mind got distracted yet again at the book and notes she had laid beside me. Except it wasn't class notes. It was a song (1). And I couldn't help but read it:
I was born in a thunderstorm
I grew up overnight
I played alone
I played on my own
I survived
I wanted everything I never had
Like the love that comes with light
I wore envy and I hated that
But I survived
I had a one-way ticket to a place where all the demons go
Where the wind don't change
And nothing in the ground can ever grow
No hope, just lies
And you're taught to cry into your pillow
But I survived
I'm still breathing, I'm still breathing
I'm still breathing, I'm still breathing
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
The next part had been rubbed out a couple of times so it was hard to read. It was quite obvious that it was about herself, but I couldn't help but ask anyway: "It's about you, aren't it?"
"What?" she looked confused for a second before looking at her notes. "Oh, yes," she said before taking what seemed to be her private notes and putting them away. I spun around on my chair.
"I would like to hear it sometime." I said to encourage her.
"Yeah, one fear at the time today." she remarked a bit pissed. And I felt my eye twitch, yet again I was saying the wrong thing.
"Why am I even here Sasuke?" she then exclaimed. She had me figured out, no doubt about that. I was so screwed.
She continued when I didn't answer: "You clearly don't need tutoring, so why am I here?" she stood with her arms crossed, and I couldn't help myself from finding her cute when she was angry.
I just sighed deeply not feeling like answering her, or rather, I didn't know what the fuck to say.
"I'm wasting my time." she accused and started packing her things.
I suddenly panicked: "Wait!" I grabbed her arm for the second time that day. "I need you." I mentally kicked myself for the meaning behind my word.
She looked confused, yet a fainted blush made its way to her cheeks: "Why?" she asked sincere.
I sighed before sitting down in my bed putting my face in my hands. It didn't last long before she sat down beside me. I inhaled a deep breath before starting: "You know my family own the Police Department, right?"
"Yes?"
"My father … expects a lot of me. I'm using a lot of my time at the station, learning everything my father wants me to know, yet he is not satisfied with me – with anything I do. The Police Department is his entire world, it is his dream that my brother and I inherit it. But I'm not sure that it's my dream. I just want to choose myself at some point, that's probably why I'm failing the classes. If I fail, I can't attempt the Police Academy," I sighed again, feeling dizzy for talking so much but I had to continue: "Yet, I don't want to disappoint him, all I have every sought is his acceptance and acknowledgment. You can help me with that," I looked directly at her, "at least just study with me, so I'm doing something." I pleaded, pathetically.
She looked a little surprised at me rambling, she probably hadn't excepted me to open up to her. To be honest I hadn't either, because I was Sasuke Uchiha, I barely liked to talk to anyone.
"Okay," she then finally said to my big surprise, "then you can help me with my fear of driving – and MAYBE I will sing the song to you." she added. Now it was her who smiled encouraging at me, and I fought the urge to smile back. She sure was the light in my world right now. And it was then, I, Sasuke Uchiha, realised that I was indeed more than just crushing on Sakura Haruno.
(1): Sia - Alive