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Also, I did some changes in the previous chapters (yes chapterS) SO CHECK IT OUT!

And please guys, is painfully obvious that this is a Fem Ryoma fanfic (I'm a fan of gender-bender so deal with it) so please if you don't like DON'T READ!

If you are a little lost: This is an alternative universe fic. The Generation of Miracles is the same age as Ryoma, (Kuroko Testuyo and Echizen Ryoma are the same person)

Rated T because because I'm paranoid! Rate might change.

And NOW!

Disclaimer: KnB and PoT are not mine (unfortunately) I just own the plot and a few characters I might put later.

Summary: Echizen Ryoma is not real, he never was... he was actually a girl called Kuroko Tetsuyo. She was inspired by her uncle Echizen Nanjiroh to play tennis, but now... her inspiration is not here anymore, there's no reason for her to play anymore... packing her bags she said goodbye Seigaku going in search of a better life in Teiko but... was it really the best?

Pairing: RyomaXall (for now)

Warnings: FemRyoma/FemKuroko

"Blah..." talking

'Blah...' thinking

"Blah..." dreams/flashbacks

Published: 04-04-13

Updated: 10-13-13

Passion

-I Can't Feel It Anymore-

(We'll Definitely Meet Again)

The Teiko Middle School basketball club.

An incredibly strong team with over one hundred members and three consecutive championship wins.

Among their brilliant record, the generation of five prodigies was known as the "Generation of Miracles"

However, there was a strange rumor concerning the Generation of Miracles.

Despite of being relatively unknown and lacking of a game record, there was one more member.

Recognized by the five prodigies.

A phantom six member...

*Last Time*

"Maa, I don't care actually" the guy said "she's moving back with mom and I today so you better say good bye to the bitch before is too late" he said to us and then looked at Ryoma "Akashi-san will be here soon, and I don't want to make him wait, so hurry up" then he dropped Ryoma before walking back inside.

"Are you okay?" asked Atobe to hi-her.

"I'm fine" she sniffed.

"Why you didn't told us?" I asked.

"It's not like I didn't wanted to, but it was the only way I could play tennis" she explained "it's actually a miracle he didn't discover it until a few days ago when I was playing at the US Open"

"I see..."

"And now what?" asked Momo.

"Just like Haru said... I have to go back with him and Mom... uncle can't take care of me anymore..."

"What do you mean?" from what I heard Echizen Nanjiroh was alive.

"Uncle won't be able to walk again... and he still has to take care of Ryoga and Nanako, I will just be a burden to him if I stay, it will be best if a go with my mom..." he face full of sadness.

"I'm sure uncle wouldn't want you to go because of that" Atobe said.

"But-"

"Tetsu, don't let Haru's words get to you" he scolded and she nodded sheepishly.

"Okay..." I watched silently, a single thought in my mind.

'I wont let you go away'

There's something missing...

What is it?

I can't feel it anymore...

Where has it gone?

It's like there's a hole in my chest.

Like something is missing making me someone else.

Like I'm no longer the same...

Like I'm no longer who I used to be...

I'm scared...

That thing that is missing...

Where is it?

Where has it gone?

Why?

Why can't I feel it anymore?

I miss it...

I miss that feeling..

"Where has my passion gone?"

Tetsuyo's PoV

Things changed a little bit after we leaved the hospital...

That day at the hospital Akashi-san asked me to talk privately with him when I refused to leave with him and Haru, my brother was obviously annoyed by that but I just ignored him, anyway, Akashi-san asked to talk with me and we both did, I was actually quite surprised when he told me he was dating my mom, I was like "When the hell did this happened?!" and he just chuckled amused and said his son had the same reaction, but please, who can blame me? The thought of my mom dating again someone that wasn't my dad (which I'm glad it wasn't him) never crossed my mind, not even in my wildest dreams, I mean, it's not like I'm upset or anything which I not because I'm actually glad mom was able to find someone else, I personally wouldn't want her to die alone...

A-NY-WAY! after Akashi-san told me that he was dating mom and was going to take me and Haru home (he and his son were now living with Haru and Mom, really, when the hell did this happened and why the hell I wasn't aware of it!?) I refused once again, I wasn't going to leave my uncle and cousins here alone, I wanted to be here until my uncle got better, because he was going to get better, even if I had to bring him back from the after life; Akashi-san told me that he understood and that mom had already predicted I would say that, so he let me stay with the promise that I would visit them soon so I could meet his son, I liked the man and I'm glad someone like him is dating mom, I know I just met him like, what? ten minutes ago? but I know that he's a good person, I can feel it, and can't wait to meet his son, who knows? he might even play tennis or even basketball...

The next day Ryoga arrived and both of us took turns to watch over uncle, Nanako some times would help but she couldn't help much because of her university homework, I actually shouldn't be here either but I convinced Ryoga that I wouldn't fail my exams since I always study (yes people, I study!)

A few days later, baka-oji-san got better and was able to leave the hospital, unfortunately like the doctor had predicted, even when his legs could move he was going to be limited in everything he did, I could see he was upset, even when he was smiling and teasing me and Ryoga I could see that he was very, very upset...

I didn't like it, not at all.

It was like...

His pain and sadness was becoming my own...

I won't say that with the passing of days, things got better, because the didn't.

For the first time in my life I felt empty, it didn't mattered what I did, I could no longer feel happiness.

Not even when I played tennis.

It's like I'm an empty shell.

It hurts.

But at the same time it doesn't.

It scares me.

But at the same time, I could care less.

I want to touch my racquets again, hold them just one more time and play like I used to.

But I can't

It feels wrong.

Like I'm betraying my uncle by doing so.

Kami-sama...

If this is some kind of punishment from being a cocky brat?

If that's the case then please stop it, I promise I will be a good kid from now on, I beg you just...

Give it back to me...

Let me feel it again...

Bring me back to life...

Because this isn't life.

Not anymore.

Not when I used to be full of it.

Not when I used to have... emotions...

Not when I used to feel.

Uncle and Ryoga are worried about me, is so obvious, I want to tell them that I'm fine but...

I'm not fine.

I wonder if I'll ever go back to the way I used to be...

Sempai-tachi and the freshmen-trio along with those two girls, Osakada and Ryuzaki (I think...), had tried cheering me up every time I go to school, no luck whatsoever...

Maybe Haru is right...

Maybe, just maybe...

I'm broken...

It's like my heart froze.

Unable to feel.

Unable to get hurt.

Unable of doing anything and everything...

What happened to me?

When did I became like this?

I also have a limit

I can't continue like this...

I won't.

I'm sorry, it's not like I want to...

I want to hate myself from doing this, but I can't.

I'm making a promise to myself:

From now on, I won't play tennis, not until I found 'it' again, because, there is no meaning on doing so if a can no longer feel 'passion' for the sport.

I will only hurt myself and those who care for me...

Watching how I break day by day.

Without being able of doing something.

This is not a 'good bye' or a 'I'm glad I met you'

No.

This is a 'see you later'

Because I'm sure...

I'm damn sure...

The we'll meet again.

Maybe in different circumstances.

Maybe not.

Maybe in a couple of weeks, months, even years...

I don't know...

I can't say for sure when.

Or how.

But we will.

Because we are friends.

We'll always be friends.

And I just don't abandon my friends.

So please, forgive me from running away like this.

I'll admit that I was a coward and was afraid of what would happen when you saw me like this.

I just want you guys to remember me like how I used to be, that cocky brat that would always look for a good match against strong opponents, like Seigaku's pillar, like... your friend...

P.S. Next time we meet, you can whack me in the head as much as you want, I promise.

Just please...

Don't forget about me.

Because I won't

And that's it guys! you love it? hate it? PLEASE TELL ME! It was a little rushed... and is short so... yeah... sorry guys...

*Kami-sama: dear god (or just god)

Also, please be patient I know you have a lot of questions, but all will be solved in due time.

And sorry for the grammar mistakes

I-chan out~ (or Mia, whatever you like)

Bye bye!