"Carolina, you can't be. How could this happen?"

I push both my hands though my thick brown hair. I have a billion thoughts consuming my mind. I look at her and she looks right into me. Her green eyes now filled with angry. She pushes me away, rolls of the bed and lands on the floor. Even with everything that's going on, a small smile comes across my face. I can't help but think it's cute when she's clumsy. I move my right hand down to help her up, she grabs on to it and I pull her back to her feet. She's now at eye leave with me and she see's my smile.

"How can you smile at a moment like this? You took everything from me. What's going to happen when they find out about us , or worse that I'm pregnant?"

I feel sick to my stomach, this is the end of our military career. I don't want anyone to find out about this. If someone finds out I'm scared about what will happen to Carolina and the baby. Wow, That's a lot to take in. I push myself off the bed landing on to my feet. I look and see Carolina she's right in front of me. She has both her arms crossed and she is looking straight down at the ground. Her eyes once again fill with tears. I move closer and put both my hands on her shoulders. I let out a deep sigh.

"Lina, are you sure?"

She uncrosses her arms and pushes me back.

"Yes, I'm sure. I've been more tired then I should be. I'm sick all the time and I've missed my period by six days. That all adds up to it York"

Carolina's voice is uneasy and she sounds devastated. I never would of thought this would happen. Sure we would make a cute kid, but not during a civil war. I'm scared and I have no idea what to do. I need to man up and do what's best for us.

"Lina, if this is all true we need to leave Project Freelancer. We can find an apartment and be together. I've put some money aside in case of an emergency, we can use it. I want to protect you and the baby."

"York are you crazy? We can't just leave Project Freelancer. We're in the middle of a war. I'm number one and I need to be here for my soldiers. I've heard talk of a new rookie, and I don't want her to take my place."

Hurt and anger fill me and I feel my adrenaline rush. She thinks that stupid board means anything right now.

"Do you have any idea what you're saying? Carolina you're being selfish."

She opens her mouth and fires back at me.

"I'm not being selfish, you are. I'm thinking about our team, all of us. I'm going down to the medical unit tomorrow and I'm getting an abortion"

Her words are sharp and cold, no feeling but hate behind them. Both her arms are against her sides. She makes fist with her hands.

"Like that's going to happen. You went against protocol, The only thing that's going to happen is them kicking us both out of the program."

A thick silence fills the air and kills away the seconds of time.

"You need to leave York"

Not once dose she look up from the floor. I see her tears freely flow from her eyes. I want to run to her and convert her. I want to tell her everything's going to be okay. I don't know if things will ever be okay again. I guess sometimes you need to lie to yourself and say It's all okay when it's not. All I know is that I want to hold her in my arms and feel the warmth of her skin. I want us to fall asleep together and laugh about the crazy dreams we had. Sadly this is no dream, and it's happening right now in front of me. I need to let her know how much I love her. I need her to know that no matter what I will take care of her.

"Lina, please..."

"York, just go."

I want to make another attempt to stay longer, just so I can be in the same room as her. I know it's not going to happen, so I slowly walk out the door. I have a billion thoughts running in my head. My eyes can't take it and soon tears over come me. What's going to happen?