Author's Note: Merry Christmas everyone!
Old Feelings
MAY 12th, 2013
I sat still at the computer, waiting for a response. I still don't understand why I'm so worried. She won't remember anyway, it's been 2 years.
The page refreshed itself, showing the new message.
[Rhonda]: Oh…
So what does that mean? Does she remember or not?
[Me]: Do you remember me?
[Rhonda]: Yes.
Wow, that's surprising. I can only assume it must have been awkward for both of us. I really didn't know what to say after that. What would there be to say after the way we left off?
Just say something. What could be the harm?
[Me]: So, how's it been?
Well that's a broad question…
It was starting to get late. If I was going to have some kind of quick conversation with her, I'd better make it quick. I don't feel like getting chewed out by Benson for being on the computer too late.
[Rhonda]: …It's been good. Look, I'm sorry about…you know…
Once again, she was sending those messages in a way that I could tell what she was feeling. In this case, I could sense some regret.
I was wondering how I should respond to that. She obviously recognized what needed to be brought up. I guess we both didn't forget about it.
[Me]: It's fine.
[Rhonda]: Are you sure?
[Me]: Yeah.
I began to get flashbacks of our old conversations; just very chill and nice. She was a cool person.
Or is…was…dammit.
"Mordecai, are you still on the computer! Get off now!" Benson yelled as I heard his footsteps going up the staircase.
Shit.
I didn't want to just leave Rhonda hanging so I sent one quick message and turned off the computer.
[Me]: It's late. I'll talk to you later okay?
-The Next Day-
"Okay, I'll be right back with your orders," Margaret said, going to the kitchen.
Rigby and I have gotten in the habit of going to the Coffee Shop a lot more frequently, seeing as how we're not constantly close anymore.
"So…" I began.
"Yeah?" Rigby asked.
"Guess who I heard from yesterday."
"Um…Adria?"
"No."
"Keith?"
"No"
"…I don't know dude," Rigby said, quickly getting annoyed.
"Rhonda," I said.
Rigby gave me a questionable look, not quite able to remember who Rhonda was.
"Wasn't she like your girlfriend or something?"
"No, we never got together."
"Oh shit, do you mean the Rhonda that would text you a lot?"
"Yeah."
"And then just disappeared?"
"Yes."
"Oh yeah, now I remember. Damn, so she just came up at out nowhere?" Rigby asked, very surprised.
"Not exactly. Adria had introduced to this messaging site called Telk and I just found Rhonda as one of the users on that site. She was looking for some guy named Joe and I told her it was actually me."
Margaret came back with our food and placed it on the table. I began eating my sandwich, but Rigby was staring at me, ignoring his food, waiting for me to continue.
"Come on man, that can't be all that happened."
"We just, you know talked and that was it."
He then gave me that, "Stop bullshitting" look.
"Okay she apologized for what she did in the past," I said nonchalantly.
"And then you were all like, "Apology not accepted bitch!"" Rigby laughed.
"Dude."
"What? I was just joking. But you did go off on her right?"
"No. Dude it happened 2 years ago. I'll admit, I held grudges back then, but it's nothing now, you know? I got more important things to worry about. Besides, we weren't even legitimately together."
"But you got so depressed because of her."
"Please, she was the least of my problems during that time. After knowing what…" I leaned in to Rigby so Margaret wouldn't hear me mentioning her name.
I don't want any possible shitstorm to happen because of it.
"…After knowing what Margaret lied about; what Rhonda did, was pretty tame compared to what she did," I continued.
"True," Rigby said.
"I told her that it was fine and that I'd talk to her tomorrow."
"So she really is sorry about it."
"Yeah and I'm forgiving her. It was the past Rigby and that's where it belongs."
"I just don't want the same thing to happen to you if you get too attached to her."
"I doubt that's going to be the case. We'll probably just be friends again over time and that's it."
"If you say so." Rigby went to pick up his hot sandwich. "Ah man, this is cold."
"I wonder why…"