She woke up in her bed next morning. Her head hurt and she ran to bathroom. She showered and then went downstairs. Cristina and George stayed there too, so kitchen was full of people. Meredith noticed that only Alex was fine. True, he was sober last night, but everybody else were pretty drunk. Izzie, George and Cristina were drinking coffee, but they didn't look so good. Alex laughed at them. They drove to work all windows opened, it helps with hangover.

'' How the hell am I gonna make it ? '' Cristina asked as they went into locker room.

'' I would be happy to be on scut again, '' Meredith said.

'' Bailey will kill us, '' George said.

'' Why Bailey's gonna kill you ? '' Bailey said as he walked in.

'' Um, no reason, '' Cristina said before others.

'' Why I don't believe it ? What's the reason ? '' Bailey asked again.

'' Actually, the reason is that.... , '' George started.

''... we all want to be on scut or do charting, '' Alex finished.

'' There was a accident in my house. Water was leaking, '' Meredith explained.

'' And none of us really got any sleep, it was water everywhere, '' Izzie said.

'' Beside it took away our electricy. I haven't even had coffee yet, '' Cristina told.

'' And we are hoping to have the job that usually no-one wants to do, '' Meredith said.

They all looked at Bailey, who looked at them curious. She was hoping that her gaze will bring something more out.

'' Fine. Yang and O'Malley – scut, Karev and Stevens – charts, Grey – a word with you, '' Bailey said.

Meredith stayed in locker room, when others went away. Bailey sat down on bench beside her.

'' Grey. Meredith. I usually don't ask anything like this from resident. Usually I would be indifferent, but I need a favor. Or actually you need to do a favor to everybody in here, '' Bailey said friendly.

'' Fine, whatever. Tell me what I have to do and I will do it, '' Meredith said.

'' There is a patient in E.R. He is asking for you and I really doubt that you want to go there, but I need you to do this. Please, '' Bailey said.

'' As long as it is not my father, I don't care, '' Meredith said getting curious.

'' This is Finn Dandridge. He has some sutures to do and also head trauma. He needs Shepherd, but he is requesting you, '' Bailey said.

'' Oh, god. Can I do charting instead ? I am not feeling so good either, '' Meredith pleaded.

'' Well, it seems that you had history with him and beside he is good man. There might get tension between Shepherd and him. You know them both and can take care of that. So please go there and make sure that both men will be okay and not fighting, '' Bailey said, looking into her eyes.

'' Fine. But I want to get surgery tomorrow for this, ''

'' We'll see Meredith. '' Bailey smiled.

'' Did she actually smile ? '' Meredith asked herself.

'' What did Mer do this time ? '' Alex said as they walked out of the locker room.

'' Um... She didn't kill anybody, did she ? '' Izzie asked.

'' No, maybe Bailey is curious about this water leaking, it is her house and we all know it, '' George offered.

'' No, it is something more important. But I don't know what exactly, but something is going on, '' Cristina said as she wondered about the same thing.

They reached the front desk, Izzie took charts, gave half to Alex and they went to basement, Cristina and George went to do their thing.

Derek headed to pit and saw familiar guy waiting for him. Finn Dandridge, a guy who tried to take Meredith from him and now he has lost her anyway.

'' Hey Finn, '' he said as he want to Finn. '' What's the problem ? ''

'' Derek ?! '' Finn said as he was surprised, '' I believe I requested someone else, ''

'' I am the head of neuro and all cases are given to me or something, I can get you intern you want, if you know someone, but I don't think I need a resident, unless you want to have someone special in your case, '' Derek said as he did some tests on him.

'' Actually a resident is assigned here, '' Meredith said as she walked there, '' Bailey sent me, '' she explained to Derek.

'' Okay, run him some tests, but he is taken to room soon. I would like to have a word with you in mean time, '' Derek said as he looked at Meredith.

'' Okay, '' Meredith said, '' I'll be waiting in your room, '' she said to Finn.

Derek gave her a touch of shoulder and followed her out of pit. Derek pulled her into on-call room and locked the door.

'' What do you want ? '' Meredith asked

'' I wanted to ask you out. I really didn't want Rose, I wanted you and now Finn is here and I am scared of losing you again and please give me another chance.'' Derek said and looked into her eyes.

'' I'm moving on. You have got so many chances, I don't know if you can get another one. Maybe I am just out of chances with you. I don't need complicated and apparently you are complicated. '' Meredith said looking down.

'' Please. This would be the last one, I swear, '' Derek pleaded.

'' I am not promising you anything, '' Meredith said and started to leave, but Derek grabbed her hand and said: '' Please don't flirt with Finn in front of me. Otherwise I might kill him on o.r. table and you wouldn't want that, ''

'' Are you calling me a slut ? A girl that flirts with everybody around. You know what, your chance... you just lost it, '' Meredith said turning red from anger, and she unlocked the door and walked away fast.

Derek stood there couple of minutes and then walked to Finn's room. This is just a normal patient and he has to do a surgery. Simple.

Lunch time. Meredith, Cristina, Alex, George and Izzie were eating at round table. They were discussing that night plans.

''… and we can get drunk if we want. We don't need a cab or something. Cristina you can stay over, right Mer ? '' Izzie said

'' What ? Oh, yeah, sure. '' Meredith replied as her attention came back to conversation.

'' You look weird ? What did McDreamy do this time ?? Or is it McBastard ? I am not that sure which one he is, '' Alex smirked.

'' McBastard. Jack ass, '' Meredith said and sipped juice.

'' Whatever. Um, I'll finish around 8, then I'll get tequila, Alex will get limes and Mere, Cristina and George – you will make sure we get up at morning, '' Izzie said.

'' Fine, '' George said.

A pager went off and they all looked theirs, but that was Meredith's.

'' 911 on Finn. Gotta go, see you around 8.30 at my mother house, '' she said and left the table.

'' She is so screwed up, '' Cristina said.

'' Yeah, '' Alex replied.

***

'' You paged, '' Meredith said to nurse, who came out of Finn's room.

'' His stats are going down. I guess you would want to know and 911 is only page that works around here. From what I heard you had something to do with McDreamy in on-call room, '' nurse Debbie said.

'' I did not. This is really false rumor, honestly. We are done, okay ? '' Meredith said annoyingly.

'' Okay, that is okay then. Shepherd is coming too. I think that he is planning to do the surgery right away, '' Debbie said and Meredith entered the room.

'' Hey Beautiful, '' Finn said.

'' Hey. How are you feeling ? Nurse said you're stats are going under, '' Meredith said as she read the chart.

'' I'm okay, '' Finn said when Derek walked in.

'' Finn, since you are not feeling so good, we decided to move the surgery up and we are going right now. Prep her Grey and then come to o.r. 1. '' Derek said and left.

'' You two are having some kind of fight or what ? '' Finn asked.

'' No, we are fine, '' Meredith replied and quietly prepped him for surgery.

Derek was waiting for her in scrub room. He leaned on sink and watched her enter the room. He followed her with his blue eyes as she scrubbed in.

''What ? '' Meredith asked.

'' You look beautiful when you are scrubbing in, '' Derek said.

'' Whatever, '' she said and entered the o.r.

Derek came right behind her. Finn was already out and Derek started the surgery. Finn has a tumor, a common thing, something he does every day, but this case affected him more than it should. It was man you almost stole Meredith from him. He felt eager to kill the man, but Meredith stood at his left hand and she wouldn't let him do it.

2 hours later...

'' Grey, can you close up for me, '' Derek said and made room for Meredith. The surgery went good until that moment. He did everything he could and she was there all the time.

Derek watched as Meredith closed up, she did a good work. He had taught her well.

'' Good work dr. Grey, '' he said as they were in scrub room.

'' Thank you dr. Shpeherd, '' she easily replied.

They stood there in silence. Derek watched her and Meredith fought against eager to kiss him. She focused on scrubbing out and she left right after, leaving Derek there alone.

***

Meredith was in front desk when Rose walked to her.

'' Hello dr. Grey, '' Rose said.

'' Hey Rose. Do you need anything ?'' Meredith asked.

'' Yes, as the matter of fact I do. I need the father of my baby to keep his arms away from his ex-girlfriend, '' Rose said angrily.

'' Congratulations I guess. And for the record, I am keeping away from him. He is all yours, I am not a home wrecker and you can have him. Excuse me for a moment I gotta go now, '' Meredith said.

'' Bye, dr. Grey, '' Rose said and smiled to herself. She just made a big step to get rid of Meredith Grey, the woman who Derek loved. She saw Derek coming, but he made no notice of her. Derek walked after Meredith. She took the stairs and he followed.

'' Meredith, wait ! '' he yelled after her.

'' What ? '' Meredith said and turned her face to Derek's.

He moved closer and he could see that she was holding back her tears.

'' What happened ? '' he asked softly as he stood really close to her.

'' Nothing happened with me, didn't Rose tell you about her pregnancy. She is pregnant and you are going to be father. I guess you can have better kids with better DNA than with me. No Alzheimer genes. I am happy for you and I guess congratulations are in order. Be happy Derek, '' Meredith rambled and started to go away, but Derek grabbed her arm.

'' Rose is not pregnant. At least with not my child. I never slept with her. I don't want her Meredith, I want you. You are the one I love, you are the love of my life, not she, '' Derek said and looked Meredith.

She looked down and mumbled that she has to go. Derek didn't want to let go, but he did. She took couple of stairs and he stood there in place. Meredith was on half way when she blundered and fell down the stairs. Derek didn't waste a moment and ran down where she was lying.

'' Meredith, '' he said.

She opened her eyes and looked at him.

'' I am fine. Help me up, '' she said.

'' And I am the queen of England, '' he quickly replied.

He examined her and when she held her hand, so he can help her up, he just pulled her to his lap and despite of her anger he walked into hall.

'' I can walk, '' Meredith protested.

'' I know. But I am not taking chances. Your hand is broken, Callie will check it, I am taking you to her, so you have no way back, '' Derek said to her.

She opened her mouth to say something, but she closed it again and was quiet until he put her down on trauma room. He paged Callie and closed the blinds.

'' What are you doing ? '' she asked.

'' I am having an conversation with you, '' he answered and sat on edge of her bed.

'' Meredith, I meant what I said, I really want to be with you and not with Rose. I want you and not anybody else. I made a mistake that almost took you from me. I chose Addison, but if I'd have a chance to go back in time, then I would choose you of course. I wouldn't walk away or ask some time, I would stand by you from the beginning to happily ever after. If I could I wouldn't let you off my eyes, when there was a ferry boat crash, I would have been with you and never let you fall into the water. I would like to change so much things, but I know I can't, so I am trying to build up a different future, '' Derek said and looked her with his blue eyes.

'' I am sorry. Apparently I can't trust you and please give me some space, stop hovering, stop requesting me. Just be my co-worker just like everybody else are. Derek please leave, '' she said.

Derek looked at her and hugged her. He didn't care that she told him not to, but he just wanted to feel the lavender smell in her hair and her tiny body next to his. He kissed her forehead and then on cheek and looked at her.

She was angry when Derek hugged her, but his perfume and hair and his touch. She let herself free and it felt so good when he kissed her forehead and his cheek. When his eyes met hers she couldn't help but kiss him. He responded right away and deepened the kiss.

Their kiss was interrupted by Callie who walked in.

'' Whoa !! '' she said. '' you two should get a room. ''

'' Maybe we should, '' Derek smirked.

'' Derek, please go, '' she said.

Callie nodded to Derek and he left the room.

Callie put her hand in plastic.

***

Derek ran into Rose on his way to O.R.

'' I saw you talking with slutty intern, wanna talk about it ? '' Rose asked

'' I can talk to Meredith anytime I want and please don't call her like that. Or if you want then you must be the slutty nurse, '' Derek said.

'' You don't talk to me like that. We are not done with our relationship. Please give me another chance Derek, '' Rose begged.

***

Meredith walked to surgical wing, when she met Mark.

'' Hey Mere, what happened with you ? '' he asked

'' Hey Markie, I fell down the stairs, that's all, '' she answered.

'' Okay, I thought that you might wanna scrub in, but I guess you can't, '' Mark smirked.

'' Whatever. I can still be on your services, I want out of Derek's, '' she said.

'' Fine. But at this moment you might want to get some sleep, you look tired, '' he said.

'' You might be right, '' she smiled and he held a on-call room door opened.

Mark lead her inside and sat on her bedside until she was asleep. Like an angel, he thought. When he opened the door to walk out, he felt a punch on his face and saw an angry man staring at her and ready to hit again.

When most of the things can't be fixed, then things can be made complicated by one wrong move and overthinking.

I did it, I wrote an update, but next one will be updated on 10 January :) . Merry Christmas to everybody !!

And if you want to make my day, then reviws would be nice, to let me know that you are still reading and liking the story :) . Then I know to keep on updating.

Liina